Seok Jin's POV:
I looked at the clock, it was 3:25 in the morning. Why the hell have I been getting up at this time daily for 3 days? Ahhh my sleep cycle is fucked up. Jeon Jungkook should take responsibility.
Why him?? Of course, it's him. It's not I can't read between the lines but I feel I am overreading the damn lines.
He is coming and visiting my practice daily as if he doesn't have work. I can see his secretary's annoyed face. They all have to do overtime because he spends his afternoon 3 hours looking at me tripping over the ramp. Such a waste of his time. He even brings America, thank god it will be less awkward as he brings it for everyone. He looked at me like.......when he looked at me for the first time in the airport. He even asks me about my day and tells some stupid jokes for which I can't laugh, yes I have standards when it comes to jokes.
And he....looks so pleased whenever my team talks about the progress, especially about me. Yes, he is the company owner anything progressive is a pleasing matter but I feel...
Hahaha, so I am up in my bed at the time when ghosts dance, thinking about if Jungkook likes me. Isn't it ridiculous?? Like as if I lost my brain. The person who loved Jimin when he even didn't know what love is, who liked and fall in love with him just because they talked over the phone, even fly here to get marry him, not to say he fucking shifted his whole company for him!!!
Does he like me?? Ah, I think my lonely life is getting into the delusional phase.
Jungkook is a nice person, though sometimes he is a pain in the ass. He is just helping me out, like making me feel less tightened. Wait, what if Jimin asked him....to....take care of me or something because I lost my first love? Wait, it's just Jungkook pitying me??
Wow!!! And here I am reading lines as he likes me which is never going to be possible. He is going to marry my best friend in the coming 6 months. I am insane for this thought. God, I hope nobody gets to know about what I thought about Jungkook's concern....pity...whatever the shit it was. But....he is a good person.
I will make sure to talk less to him, maybe a simple smile will be enough. If I don't talk much nonsense there will be nothing for him to tease about, then he will lose interest and get back to being normal. Yes, normal. Then everything will be normal. Should I take the offer of Jackson, friendly dates? It might help me to clear my mind.
I should read some motivational quotes about setting my career as a goal, and about how not to get distracted by these hot men around me. Yes, that will be good. So I opened my phone and started searching for
' motivational quotes
'ignore hot boys and concentrate on work-related quotes'
' Love yourself quotes
' life after losing first love quotes '
Wait, it's not exactly losing, but whatever.
' how to ignore a man who loves black'.
.
.
.
I read and read, my eyes closed on their own at some point. And fuck my day started with me getting up late and missing my first class. When I reached Jungkook's office, my team was already going on with the routines. I opened my phone and looked at my new screensaver, a quote from the early morning.
No dick No pain
No kiss No covid 🤗 No hug No loss
No love No delusion
It's perfect. I am somehow proud of myself that I no longer eat Jimin's or Hoseok's brain. Now I know how to solve my problems. Perfect. I am always been perfect.
" Hai, handsome"
Jackson knows how to flirt directly. Good for him and his dick, but no I am not saying I will be concentrating solely on my career which I am not sure about.
I waved at him with a tight smile on my face. Maybe he felt it that's why he looked a little confused and carried on with his work. See, it works. So I am going to maintain this aura and get done with my practice.
I walked thrice on the ramp, and my team members say I walk like a cat, but I feel they tell it just to make me feel confident. Somehow I have improved not to the professional level but yeah not tripping level.
I looked at the door thrice, but Jungkook was not there. It's good, it's totally good but..... it's just whatever I practiced will go to waste. That's okay. Okay.
" you look down today, seokjin"
Sana, another model told me while sipping her green tea.
" No... maybe I practiced a lot. My legs are a little sore"
Not little. It's fucking tiring. But I like what I am doing now at the same time it doesn't mean it's not tiresome. I never thought about how perfectionist these models will be, I always thought it was just walking on a ramp with a bag. But it's an art, every step, every degree of bend in your body, your every posture, your head tilt gosh, everything matters.
I looked at the door before packing my bag. So it was just for 3 days. I wasted my early morning sleep for how not to talk to him for him not showing up. Is he that busy?? I don't think so. I exhaled loudly may be a little dramatic, I waved bye to my team members. They told tomorrow there will be practice shooting. I am scared.
Before I made into outside, a hand pulled me. It was too dramatic because I slipped and was about to fall, but he caught me. What type of drama I am living in?
Why is he here now?? To make me fall??
" But I caught you, Hyung. You can't be angry with me ??"
Was I loud!!
" No, you aren't"
How can he hear my voice!? My lips are closed though
" Wa!! Hyung you want a peck??"
" What the hell?"
" You are exaggeratingly pouting in front of me, what should I think?"
" You know what-"
Wait, what was my plan earlier? No dick no pain, No kiss no covid, No hug no loss, No love no delusion.
" Jungkook shi......., it's not that what you should think. It's nice meeting you "
I turned back after bowing to him 90 degrees with a beautiful smile on my face. Of course, I used my deepest voice. Maybe I exaggerated.
" Is it that adult-to-adult transaction??"
What the fuck is that? Oh wait, it's something I learned in psychology tuition from Namjoon. How can he remember it?
I turned again with a beautiful smile on my face.
" No, Jungkook shi..... I Hope... you have a good day. Take care of yourself "
" Hyung.....!?"
He is confused as fuck. God, I am just...I think I should apply for the actor role already.
" Have you any role-play kink??"
WTF!!!😠😡😠😡😠( imagine Seok-jin)
How can it even make him think about role-play kink?? It's just he wants to call out my kinks.
No...I can't forget my quote.
" No....., Jungkook..... shi. I...... DDON'T.HAVE ANY...... ROLE PLAY KINK............................
FIGHTING "
Fucking I am in love with myself.
💖
🙊 I am really into this story