-there will be two endings to this. Both in this chapter-
TW: suicide,overdose.
Just a lot of sadness really.
Steve pov:
Me and Eddie were cuddling in his room. He was on my chest trying to calm down from the panic attack he just had while I played with his hair. He would never admit it but he loved it when I did.
Lately the bullying had been getting into his head. He was never affected by the disgusting things people said about him,or at least never showed it. Usually it was just name calling like 'freak' or making fun of him because he played d&d but for the past few weeks Jason and pretty much most of the school was getting under his skin. They kept commenting on his weight and telling him to end his life how he ended Chrissy's. Even tho his name was cleared people still thought he did it and It broke him. He loved Chrissy so much. Everything was just getting so much worse for him,I was starting to get really worried about him.
"Ed's. You okay?"
"Yeah..I'm fine" he says clearly lying,but I had to get to work otherwise Robin would kill me
"I need to go to work love,but I promise when I get back we can watch horror movies and I can do your hair. Anything you want,okay?"
He sits up and wipes his tears before turning to look at me
"Yeah,you go to work. I'll see you later"
I quickly kissed him before getting up to leave. I wore the denim vest he let me keep from when we were in the upside down and left for work. When I got there Robin immediately walked up to me.
"You're an hour late!" She exclaims
"Sorry,I just had to take care of something" I say walking past her
"Eddie again?"
I turn around and sigh
"His panic attacks are getting worse,Rob. I couldn't just leave him to deal with it by himself"
"God,I feel so bad for him" she says stepping closer
"So do I,it's hard seeing him like this"
I turn back around and pick up a box of tapes.
"Anyway,we should get to work" I say changing the subject. Robin nodded at me and we got to work,serving customers.
After my shift ended, I drove to Eddies trailer and knocked. No one answered so I knocked again until Wayne,eddies uncle,opened the door.
"hi Mr.Munson. I know it's a bit late but me and Eddie were going to have a movie night" I slowed down my words and gave him a worried look as tears filled his eyes
"Eddies not here boy"
"Where is he?"
"He's uh..He's in the hospital"
"...what?" I ask quietly
"He overdosed..tried to take his own life, about an hour after you left"
Tears filled my eyes
"H-He's alive right?" I ask,my voice cracking and tears falling.
"I don't know yet,the hospital said they'd call. I-I was just about to call you..he left this on his bed"
He handed me three pieces of paper that was folded and had names on. One said 'Steve' the other said 'Dustin' and the third said 'the group' I took them and put it in my pocket,looking down as tears fell quicker. I got into my car and drove off. I needed someone right now. I went to Nancy's house and started knocking on the door repeatedly as more and more tears covered my face. Mike answered looking at me worried
"Steve? A-Are you okay?" He asks clearly worried
"I-Is Nancy here..a-and Robin?" I ask.
"Yeah,come in"
He lets me in and I just stand next to him as he shouted
"Nancy! Come here!!"
Nancy came down the stairs
"What Mike?" She asks but stopped in her tracks when she saw me. Robin followed closely behind and looked at me shocked
"Steve! What's wrong?" Robin asks running down towards me
"E-Eddie-he-I can't"
She hugged me as Nancy joined the hug
"It's okay,calm down" She said "Mike go get him water" she added. They brought me over to the couch and Mike handed me a glass of water. I took it from him and took a sip before putting it down on the table in front of me.
"Okay,what happened. Talk slowly" Robin asks rubbing my back
"I-I went to Eddies...to h-hang out" I stuttered
"Yeah,you said you were having a movie night" Robin said
"Wayne answered and to-told me th-that-" I got cut off by my breathe hitching
"It's okay,take your time"
"He said th-that..he's
in hospital"
I started crying harder and Robin hugged me again
"My god,what happened" Nancy asked
"He tr-tried taking his o-own life" I could feel robins tears on my shoulder
"h-he overdosed. An-And I don't know wh-what to do" my voice began to crack again as I hugged Robin tighter who was also crying. Mike was crying as well and joined the hug.
A while later I had calmed down. Nancy called dustin and told him to come over to hers and we told him what happened. He was a wreck as well. I gave him one of the 3 folded pieces of paper that had his name on it. Eventually Wayne called asking if I was there and told me that I should go to the hospital. I took Robin and Dustin,Mike and Nancy said they'd catch up later.
"Hi,uh we're here to see Eddie Munson"
"Relation to the patient"
"Friend" Robin and Dustin said. I looked at them before looking at the woman
"Uh..boyfriend"
She shot a quick smile at me
"Alright,he's in room 121" she says. We thank her and Rush to the room. We saw Eddie, eyes closed with monitors next to him and a small tube in his arm. I couldn't believe that he actually did something like this. Maybe if I had just spent a little more time with him and not left him alone he'd be okay. I just wish I was there for him. I knew he was upset but I didn't think he was this bad.
Me,Robin and Dustin sat in the chairs,comforting each other. Robin and Eddie had a good bond,after what happened in the upside down they decided to get to know each other. Turns out they got along great.
A doctor eventually came into the room
"Uh,doc.." I say standing up
"Will he be okay?"
"We don't know yet,it all comes down to when we wakes up. But his body could quite easily shut down. We got as much of the toxins out of his body as we could,it's just up to him now"
"Thank you.." I say. The doctor leaves and I sit back down. Dustin had to get home because it was getting late but I told Robin that she'd have to take him because I was staying here with Eddie.
I found myself in the same chair the next morning. Someone was calling my name.
"Harrington..Steve,wake up"
I opened my eyes and looked over at Eddie who had got my attention.
"Eddie!" I exclaim jumping out of my seat.
"Hey" he smiled,his voice groggy and raspy. Tears had filled my eyes as he looked at me worried. "No,no. Why are you crying" he places his hand on the side of my face wiping my tears.
"I th-thought I lost you.."
"Oh baby,come here"
I hugged him,more tears escaped my eyes. "I'm sorry,
I shouldn't have done what I did. It was so stupid of me"
"Ju-Just promise me th-that you'll never leave" I sob. He pulled me on the bed,laying my head on his chest
"I swear. I'm so sorry for scaring you darling,I really am. Please don't cry" he brushed his hand through my hair and continues to apologise and say how much he loved me.
"Ed's. Please tell me if you ever feel like this okay. I'm here for you and so is Dustin and Robin and the rest of the party. They all love you so much"
"I know...is Dustin okay tho? Does he know I'm awake?"
"Him and a few others are supposed to be coming soon. I told Robin that I didn't want to leave so they let me sleep here"
"Alright..at least me and you have some time together before they arrive?"
I sit up turning my head to smile at him. He holds my face,pulling me in and our lips eventually connect. I move up towards him a bit to get closer.
"Eddie!!" Dustin exclaims running through the door. We pull away and look at him. He ran up to Eddie and hugged him
"Hey Henderson" he says messing up his hair
"Are You okay?!"
"I'm fine bud"
Robin,Mike and will came in
"Thank god you're okay" will says as the boys hug him also.
Eddie then smiled at Robin who was standing at the door
"You are so stupid Munson!"
She came over and hugged him also "I know,you just love me so much. I'm irresistible" he says earning a slap in the shoulder from her.
(Second ending)
Robin,Dustin and Me had just arrived at the hospital. We ran to the front desk and asked for him
"We're here to see Eddie Munson?"
She looked at us quiet sadly
"Uh..hold" she says. She calls someone,telling them that there were people -us- to see him. A little while later a doctor approached us.
"Hello,I'm doctor carter, Eddie's doctor"
"C-Can we see him?" Dustin asks
"Listen kids...I'm sorry to say but Eddie didn't make it"
My heart dropped. Everything stopped. All I heard were silent mumbles of strangers around me and I could feel tears running down my face.
"No,you're lying"
"I'm sorry" the doctor said
"N-No this is absolute bullshit!"
"Steve.." Robin placed her hand on my shoulder
"Where the fuck is he?!"
"Sir please calm down" a nurse from behind me said.
I looked at dustin who was crying his heart out while hugging Robin. All I could do was run. I ran out of the hospital and just kept running until I got to my house.
I rushed upstairs knowing my parents weren't home and into my room. I started braking down. Crying uncontrollably and shaking. I couldn't believe he was dead..
there's no way he's dead. It's Eddie he'd never give up that easily.. right? Why the fuck did he have to do it in the first place?! Was I not good enough? Did think I didn't love him anymore when in realty I need him. I can't live without Eddie he's everything to me. So what am I supposed to do?!
After An hour or two of crying I remembered that Wayne gave me some pieces of Paper from Eddie. I hadn't opened it yet. I sat on my bed,laying on my stomach and started reading what was inside and started crying again.
Dear Harrington. Wow that sounds weird,what a way to start a suicide note. Anyway, if you're reading this my attempt has worked. If it hasn't worked and you're reading it please stop here because what I'm about to say is really,really dramatic.
I chuckled slightly and wiped my eyes.
I just want to let you know that none of this is your fault. Nor Dustin's,or Robin's. Hell it was barley even Jason's fault. That's a bit of a lie but whatever. My point is that this decision of leaving was entirely up to me. Ever since Chrissy's death everything just kept getting worse and worse,until you walked in. King Steve. I remember first meeting you officially
-when I tried to kill you,
sorry bout that-
I immediately thought you were going to be a dick and a prick. Which sometimes you are because you can get very annoying,but I've always loved you for it. I also think that you deserve much better than me. I mean we're polar opposites..it's like fire and ice.
And I know you don't want to hear this but I think I made the right choice..leaving you or Dustin wasn't The right choice but saving everyone from my annoying voice,my stupid smile,big ego
-not bigger than yours-
and just a lot of hassle in general. I want you to know that I love you. More than anything in this world.. more than my guitar? Eh you have a bit of a competition.
I laughed and sat up crossing my legs.
But I just want to say. That if you ever,ever find someone new. PLEASE for the love of god pick up on them flirting with you. I mean you're so oblivious sometimes I've been flirting with you since the upside down and you just looked at me like I was bonkers. Anyway..after everything I've been through.. the deaths,the weird ass bats and that creepy Vecna/001/Henry guy.
-as Robin calls him-
I'm glad I did it with you.
Ps. I left you a few things for you to have. And make sure Dustin gets his box. For once I was organised and put labels on them. Don't miss me too much and I love you princess, never forget that <3
I wiped my tears and folded the letter back up holding it close. I took a second to think and calm down realising that I should probably find Dustin.
I phoned Robin asking where she was. She told me that her and the gang were at mikes house again. I left and arrived at mikes,everyone was sitting downstairs in the basement. Most of the kids were crying,
Everyone else was just in shock. When I walked down there dustin immediately ran up to me crying and held me tight.
"It's okay Henderson" I said in the calmest tone I could create while trying not to cry. I knew that if the kids saw me cry they'd cry even more. A few other guys I don't recognise were there and wearing hellfire shirts so I'm guessing they were apart of the d&d club. Eleven and Mike came to hugs me and eventually we were all in one big hug. Just without Eddie.
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Wow this is really depressing.