Chapter 99
Tang Tang didn't know how to express his emotions.
She was so miserable.
Likewise, she felt uncomfortable for Hoth.
Why did Hoth have to experience the same pain twice, obviously she's here, right?
She always felt that if he guided Hoth in a positive and optimistic direction, full of hope and thoughts about the future, he would definitely not make the same mistakes in his previous life.
But she has been ignoring the affairs of his family.
She still seems to have made a mistake.
But Tang Tang ignored a key point. No matter how hard she tried, she couldn't control the affairs of the Hoss family.
There was no way for Hoth, let alone her alone.
At least, it's an unrelated person.
But she still suffers.
Tang Tang felt extremely uncomfortable when she thought of Mother Huo's early death.
She didn't even dare to think about what would happen to Hoth in the future.
In the novel, Huo's mother also died in the summer vacation of the third year of high school.
It wasn't suicide, but at home, Huo Jian and Huo's mother were arguing, Huo Jian did something to Huo's mother, and Huo Si happened to go home and saw this scene.
Huo Jian hated Huo Jian deeply. Of course, he couldn't see him hitting his mother. He accidentally got something, and under that kind of emotional anger, he murdered by mistake.
And Huo's mother, because of being beaten by Huo Jian, has no vitality to struggle.
When he was sent to the hospital by Hoth, just like this time, there was no breath.
...
After that, it's the story of Hoss after dealing with Huo's mother's funeral, and then turning himself in.
Tang Tang felt uncomfortable and wanted to cry when he thought of this.
She felt that the unbearable feeling overwhelmed her, and she didn't know how to describe it for a while, but it was just very uncomfortable.
Tang Tang looked at Hoss next to him and remained silent.
After a long time, Huo Si said: "You go out first."
Tang Tang looked at him: "
You—" "I want to be alone with her for a while."
"Okay."
Tang Tang took a deep breath and said uneasy: "Then I'll wait for you outside."
Hoss didn't answer.
After Tang Tang went out, Father Tang was waiting for her outside.
He reached out and rubbed Tang Tang's head: "Where are you waiting?"
"Just here."
Tang Tang's tears fell: "Dad."
"Here." Father Tang comforted her: "Don't be sad, just bear it. Your classmates will be unable to hold back their emotions when they see it later."
"Well." The
father and daughter sat outside, silent.
He just waited quietly. Father Tang didn't urge him to go back. He reached out and patted Tang Tang's shoulder, comforting him all the time.
After the people went out, Hoss turned his gaze back to the lying man.
She is actually very gentle. Hoss has a lot of memories in his mind. When he made mistakes when he was a child, she was never willing to punish him. She would always protect him and tell him what was wrong and don't do it again next time.
Later, she became mentally unstable.
But it never hurt Hoth.
When the two of them were having dinner not long ago, she also teased herself, saying that she wanted to meet his new classmate.
The new classmate who made him study actively and showed his emotions.
The conversation between the two of them that night seems to be still vivid in my mind. That fresh person has left him forever at this moment.
Hoth stayed where he was for a long time and took a step forward.
"mom."
He reached out, slid his hand over her eyes, and whispered, "Have you seen her."
No one answered him.
Hoth's voice was hoarse and outrageous, as if shouting sand, unable to speak.
...
After a long time, the intermittent voice came out again.
After that, it's quiet.
Hoth stood there, his body stiff.
In the end, he reached out and hugged the person who had no breath, and whispered: "If there is an afterlife, I am willing to be your son. I will be fine, you can rest assured."
He said: "If this is your choice, you It will be happier, then don't feel guilty."
"I will live a good life."
Even if it is a person, it is the same.
Don't worry about me too much.
In the hospital that day, Tang Tang and Father Tang accompanied Huoth for a long time.
But in the end, he was driven back by Hoth. The next day, Tang Tang wanted to see Hoth, but he refused.
Huoth was busy with Huo's mother's funeral. In addition to the funeral, the things Huo Jian did were reported by Huoth.
Huo's mother was cremated. This was discovered by Huo Si when she was packing her things. She wanted to be cremated, and she did not want to sleep in the world.
Hawes complied with her wishes.
Hoth also found a letter she didn't know when to write and left to herself, as well as some relics.
Howth took half a month off.
He didn't come back to class, and Tang Tang didn't contact him either. She would send messages to Hoss every day, which were basically positive, but Hoss didn't reply much.
Occasionally a word comes back.
But that was enough for Tang Tang.
On this day, Tang Tang and Chen Pengpeng sat together.
Another weekend, she was in a bad mood for the past two weeks, absent-minded and not interested in anything. Chen Pengpeng couldn't see her like this, and directly pulled the person out.
The two sat on a bench by the side of the road, watching the people coming and going.
Tang Tang stared at it for a while, and suddenly said, "Hus and I prefer to go to the park."
Chen Pengpeng's eyelids jumped: "And then."
Tang Tang pursed his lips and whispered: "I don't know."
Chen Pengpeng turned around Turning her head to look at her, she thought for a while and said, "Do you think... that you are very different to Hoss?"
Tang Tang looked at him blankly: "What's different?"
She knew that she was different to Hoss, That's because Hoth is his tasker. She wants Hoth well.
Chen Pengpeng was speechless for a while, and said, "His mother's death is an irreversible thing, it's time to come out."
He pointed to Tang Tang and said, "I ask you, think about it in another person's shoes. ...For example, if other people encounter such a thing, would you be so worried?"
"Of course."
Tang Tang glared at him: "Don't use this kind of thing as an analogy."
"I'm not that one . Meaning."
Chen Pengpeng said seriously: "I just think that other people will definitely feel uncomfortable, we will also cry, and we will regret, but it will not be like this." He looked at Tang Tang and said, "You are not paying much attention to reading and eating now. Now, your heart is full of things about Huoth, if he sends you a message, you can eat another bowl of rice happily, didn't you find it?"
Chen Pengpeng's description is very bad, but it is inexplicable, Tang Tang It seems to have been tapped.
She stared at Chen Pengpeng with wide eyes.
Chen Pengpeng asked, "Do you know what I mean?"
Tang Tang pursed her lips: "I didn't—"
"You have."
Chen Pengpeng said directly: "Even if you say you don't like Huo Si, you must have a good impression."
What's more, he came as a bystander. It seems that Tang Tang likes Hoth. Only if you like it, you will always worry about that person, you will be happy and at ease because you have received news from him, and you will be uneasy because you don't have any news from him, and you will not be thinking about tea or food.
"..."
Tang Tang became quiet.
She retracted her gaze on Chen Pengpeng, stared at the people coming and going for a while, and then said, "Oh."
Chen Pengpeng: "..." The
two were silent for a while, and he asked, "Have you found it?"
Tang Tang didn't say anything. Silence.
Chen Pengpeng sighed and said, "Hoss will be back next week."
"Should."
She learned from the head teacher that Hoss had taken half a month's leave.
Chen Pengpeng said: "What should I do then?"
Tang Tang was stunned for a moment, then turned to look at him: "What should I do?"
Chen Pengpeng's implication was obvious.
Tang Tang opened his mouth and said after a while, "Let it be, the college entrance examination is more important."
Chen Pengpeng: "..."
It's really unbearable for such an outstanding student to be serious.
on Monday.
When Tang Tang arrived in the classroom, Hoss really came back.
The classmates who arrived early in the class were all quiet, no one dared to talk to Hawthorne, and no one bothered him.
He just sat there, his back straight, as tall as loose.
Tang Tang stared at him sideways for a while, only to think that Huoth had lost a lot of weight.
She looked back, suppressed her negative emotions, and walked over to her position.
She pretended to be brisk and greeted Hoss.
"Hoss, good morning."
The way of greeting was the same as before.
Tang Tang originally thought that Huoth would not answer, but as soon as he finished speaking, Huoth said "um": "Morning."
Tang Tang was stunned.
The surrounding classmates were the same, and they were all taken aback by Huosi's reaction.
The news of Hoth's mother's death was known to all the students in the class.
The trouble was quite big, everyone heard the wind, but everyone was very tacit, they wouldn't mention it when they saw Huos, and they didn't talk much about it behind the scenes. Occasionally encountering discussions with other classmates, he would also speak out a few words of reprimand.
Huoth looked at the dumbfounded Tang Tang, and asked lukewarmly, "What?"
Tang Tang shook his head, feeling that he was the same as before, but seemed to have changed a bit.
She bit her lip: "It's okay." The
other classmates quickly looked away.
Tang Tang took a deep breath and sat down.
As soon as she sat down, Hoth poked her shoulder with a pen.
Tang Tang turned back.
Huoth looked at her: "Aren't you going to give me the latest notes?"
Tang Tang blinked.
Hoss just looked at her like that.
Tang Tang replied in a slow response: "I remember, I remember, I will give it to you now."
She said, took out the notebook she had prepared specially for Huo Si and others from her schoolbag and handed it to him: "Look, this is It's in Chinese, it's in mathematics..."
After Tang Tang finished speaking, Hoss lowered his eyelids: "Understood, thank you."
"...You're welcome."
Tang Tang said softly, "You need to call me again."
"Well."
Huoth was quiet all morning.
He was basically immersed in his homework, and he made up all the things he missed before.
As usual, he didn't say a word to the others.
But if you talk to him, he can reply you in time. But it has changed, and Tang Tang feels that his whole person has changed.
When that happens, it's impossible to stay the same.
But Tang Tang just misses the former Hoth a little bit, misses the person he occasionally listens to.
She looked down at the test paper in front of her, not knowing what she was thinking.
After school in the afternoon, Huoth stayed for self-study in the evening, as did Tang Tang.
But the two didn't talk much, except when necessary.
After school in the evening, Chen Pengpeng came to look for her to go home.
The two lived closer, because Tang Tang was a girl, and needed a companion to go home safely at night. Chen Pengpeng took the initiative to take on this responsibility when Huo Si was away.
He knew in the morning that Hoss was back, this would appear, and he took the initiative to say hello to Hoss.
"Hoss."
Hoss nodded.
Chen Pengpeng said, "Are you going back?"
"Well."
Chen Pengpeng paused and said, "Do you want to be with Tang Tang?"
He pointed to Tang Tang and said, "She is studying for self-study at night now, and it is not safe to go home at night, so I will By the way."
Huoth turned his head and stared at Tang Tang for a while: "Okay."
Tang Tang's eyelashes trembled: "Thank you." The
three went home following the night.
In other words, Chen Pengpeng must be chatting with Tang Tang about things in the class, or about games, but this night, the three of them were extraordinarily quiet.
After arriving at the gate of Tang Tang's house, Chen Pengpeng said, "Then I'll go first."
He didn't call Huss, and ran off alone.
Tang Tang took a deep breath and looked up at Hoss.
Only now did she take a serious look at Hoss.
"You—"
"Very good."
Hawes answered proactively.
He stared at Tang Tang for a while, then smiled suddenly: "Don't worry too much."
Tang Tang said "um", always feeling that he was a little unreal: "...That's good."
Huoth looked at her and smiled After a while, he asked, "That's it?"
"What?"
Huoth asked, "No comfort?"
Tang Tang was stunned for a few seconds, and then he came to his senses: "Do you want it?"
"Yes." The
voice fell . , Tang Tang hugged him, touched Huoth's head like the elders, and said softly, "Huss, you still have our group of classmates and friends, don't be sad, you are not alone."
Huoth felt her feelings They hugged and were silent for a long time before he answered in a hoarse voice: "Yeah."
He said, "I know."
It was because of knowing that he was able to stand here now.
Tang Tang didn't hold him for a long time, and soon let go.
She looked at Huosi, her pupils bright: "Then... see you tomorrow?" "Well."
Tang Tang laughed: "Let the past pass by, if I have time, can I accompany you to see her?"
Hoss nodded: "Okay."
He said, "I'll take you there next time."
Where her ashes were scattered, he would take her there.
"Mmmm."
Tang Tang said: "Then I'll go back, see you tomorrow."
Huo Si looked at her: "What time did you go out earlier?"
"Ah?"
Tang Tang was stunned, and told him directly: "Usually go out at seven o'clock. , what's the matter?"
Huo Si shook his head: "Good night."
Tang Tang: "..."
That night, Tang Tang rarely slept well.
In the early morning of the next day, Tang Tang ran downstairs with the xiaolongbao made by Tang's father.
When she got to the gate of the community, she stopped.
"Why are you here so early?"
Hoss was wearing a blue and white school uniform. He lost a lot of weight, but he was as temperamental as ever, and the clean smell on his body never dissipated.
He fixedly looked at Tang Tang for a long time and said, "Well, I'll wait for you to go to school."