Beomgyu's Pov
'I love you'
That's the last thing I want to hear from you.
Because I know you don't mean it.
Because I know that I love you of your's is the symbol of our long year friendship.
I hate everything you do.
How you cry to me when you're broken hearted.
How you always figure out my mood.
How you know every thing I do and think.
How you call me when you achieve something and say it's also for me.
How you plan your future with me.
How you make out with me when you're drunk.
How you know everything about me and likewise.
I hate you because I love you.
It's bullsh*t I know,
But I love you so much to the point that it's killing me.
I need to get away from you. I need space to figure things out for myself.
I want to leave.
But then again, I can't see you crying at the airport begging me to not go, begging me to stay.. For you.
I can't Imagine you crying yourself to sleep and slashing your wrist while you watch your blood flow out.
How you wipe your tears with your bloody hands.
I can't. I just can't.
Whenever I think about it, it makes me feel weak, it makes me feel like walking at the edge of a Cliff.
'I love you' you said with a giggle, as I stare at you with a smile you can't seem to comprehend.
I want to breakdown and you ask me,
'what's wrong?' I examine your face while you wait for my answer
'Nothing' I reply looking at the shoes I gave you for your twenty first birthday. You still have it?
'How can you be so numb' she asked as I look back with a frown, numb?
'you stupid idiot' she said then ran back towards her car.
'Stupid idiot? Wait up ryujin!'
Was everything I thought, true?
Or was I just too numb?