she walked down smiling her flashy bright signature smile.
she was stunning, she has a lovely b/t figure, beautiful h/l h/c haired, stunning s/t (skin type) skin and e/c eyes you could lose yourself in.
everyone always spoke about how amazing she was, how positive and inspirational she was, how so many girls wanted to be like her.
but what they didnt know was that she was wanting to be anyone else as long as it wasnt herself
so she pretended to smile as she walked by all the fans at her side, they dont know whats in her mind.
she hides it from the outside.
"isn't she just an idol! her smile never falters" one of the fans beamed and she pushed her hat down a little further to hide her watery eyes from the people and cameras.
they dont know how i cry... all the time
she signed a few things as she stood next to her brother lando, she was 2 years younger thank him and she couldnt be more proud to be his sibling but in her eyes he deserved a better one.
"i wish i was her, she has the best life!" another said
why would you want to be me..
"i know right shes so lucky!'
they wouldnt if they saw the face behind my mask
"shes so stunning look how beautiful she is!" one said and snapped a picture
im not quite that pretty
"excuse me miss l/n your so amazing can i get your autograph!" she was asked and she nodded
"trust me your better" she smiled kindly and wrote on the persons book "come on dont fish for compliments! you know how great you are!" a male said and she nodded "well thank you"
i hate being y/n
"how is your love life miss l/n" a news reporter asked and y/n shrugged "boys only want to kiss me" she half joked and let out a slight chuckle
cause they think im no more than pretty
"thank you for your time i'll see you all another time hoepfully!" she waved and headed off with lando "what did you mean they only want to kiss you y/n are you okay?" he asked and she shrugged as they sat at a bench.
"they use me for pleasure, then they'll find someone better" she chuckled dryly "i swear i'll kill em all!" the brit said and y/n shook her head "its just whatever
it sucks being me
"y/n talk to me. its not whatever at all..." he frowned and stood up to face her
"i act like im fine when i walk in, i always put on my big fake smile. pretending to all my fans, that i dont have a dark side... its a lie.." she frowned and looked at her knees where her hands where clenched.
"you want to explain more? everyone wants to be you... they know how great your life i-" she cut him off before he finished
"they wouldnt want to be me! if they knew the struggles i see.. each day when i get home i cry when im alone at race weekends i seem better cause i hide the real y/n. so why should they want to be me?! i carry all of this weight inside me i'll be lonely forever i feel like im tethered... you and them have it better... so be glad your not y/n..." she stood up and looked at her brother for a couple of seconds before he hugged her tightly "well... if you want another secret i hate being lando..." he mumbled and kissed her head
a/n more of a personal ranting chapter but hey ho