BEY POV
I was drifting in and out of sleep when I heard glass break. That could've been Blue but I don't think I heard her come in.
I was so tired, I didn't want to get up. Onika did a number on me. It was a lot better than I thought.
She's a very fast learner. I don't really moan, I don't see the need to. If I moan, I moan but I'm not going to fake anything to boost someone's ego.
I didn't want to get up but imagine I die because I didn't want to get up.
It could just be Blue but if it was, why is she breaking glass in my house?
I got up and put a robe on since I was still naked. Before I got all the way downstairs, I could hear giggling.
I can't believe I had to get out of bed because Blue wants to break stuff.
After I got all the way downstairs, I saw both Blue and Aaliyah. They can't go to Onikas house for once?
"What did you break?" I didn't see glass anywhere, they must've cleaned it up.
"Nothing. You could've at least said hi or asked me how school was first."
"Why are you lying? I heard glass break, do I look dumb to you?"
"There's no glass, maybe you're hearing things."
"Aaliyah?" I know what I heard.
"Yes ma'am?"
"I'll give you fifteen dollars." I couldn't do much more than that, they were running my pockets dry.
"There was no glass, nothing broke."
"Forty."
"We broke a vase. We threw everything in the trash and covered it up with napkins."
I was willing to go up to a hundred or two. I just started off low so she would be willing to take two twenty's.
"Mama can I cuss?"
"Mhm." I should've said no because she was lying to me.
"Really? You're a forty dollar hoe? That's all it took to snitch on me?"
"She was going to find out anyway. At least I got some money out of it, you're in trouble and broke."
"I was. You should've at least tried to get some money out of it. You could've at least tried to bribe me with the money to get you out of trouble."
"This isn't a business class and it was forty dollars."
"Life is a business class, keep up."
"Is that a hickey?"
"Are you in my business?" I can't believe Onika gave me a hickey. I couldn't stop smiling, she gave me a hickey.
"Oh my God, it is! Aaliyah look!"
I covered the spot where I knew the hickey had to be. I didn't care about the hickey, I was actually happy it was there, but I didn't want them to be nosy.
"Are you back with Mani? Isn't she pregnant?"
"Why are you in my business? You don't see me asking Aaliyah about Chris."
"She already moved on from him, she's on TJ now."
"You need to die. Stop lying."
I feel bad. I rubbed off on Blue now what she's saying is rubbing off on Aaliyah. I'm a bad influence.
"Mama you heard her just tell me to die?"
"Mhm. But no I'm not back with her, I have a sneaky link."
They looked at each other and started busted out laughing. You would've thought they were fighting the way they kept slapping and hitting each other.
"Not a a sneaky link!"
The couldn't breathe. It really wasn't even that funny.
"Blues the one that taught me what it meant."
"Mama not gonna lie, you're a pass around. You jumped from Mani to this sneaky link and before that you jumped from dad to her."
Maybe she right. Not about me being a pass around but from going to relationship to relationship.
Maybe I need to be learn to be alone before I could be with someone else. That's probably why I'm so dumb in relationships, because I don't want to be alone.
That's why I got back with Normani the first time.
But I like Onika, I don't care. We're not together anyway so I technically am alone.
"Shut up before I give Aaliyah another sixty to beat you up-"
Aaliyah didn't even let me finish my sentence. "I'll do it for another twenty, she's been getting on my nerves since this morning."
"You are such a sellout, what? Get out."
"Make me get out."
"Aaliyah does your mom know you're here?" I didn't care for this argument.
"Yeah, we went over there to drop my bag off before we came here."
"What's she doing?"
"She's on the phone."
"With her boyfrienddddd." Blue sang and playfully nudged Aaliyah's shoulder.
Boyfriend?
"That's not her boyfriend, shut up, He's an 'old friend'" Aaliyah made quotation marks with her fingers.
Old friend? She lost her mind?
"Are you guys hungry?" I had to see for myself.
"Can we go to Panera? I really want some mac and cheese."
"Yeah. We can stop by your house to see if your mom wants some." I just needed an excuse to go over there.
Blue went upstairs to our her bag away then we drove to Onika's house. I was the first one at the door, I was taking extra long strides.
"You have your key Aaliyah?" I didn't want her to know we were here.
"Yeah." She fished around her pockets until she found her keys and opened the door.
We walked inside and it was silent. "You should probably get a jacket or sweater, it's kinda cold. I'll go ask your mom if she wants to come while you guys go do that."
I needed them on a whole different floor so I would hear them coming.
They went upstairs and I started looking for Onika. I found her in the kitchen bent over the counter.
She was still talking on the phone and she had her elbows on the counter. She looked comfortable.
I didn't say anything and crept up behind her. I grabbed the phone from her and since she was expecting it, her grip on it was loose.
I checked who she was talking to and it said Lauren. Oh, she's just talking to her stunt double.
She looked at me like I was crazy and took the phone back. "Let me call you back later, a crazy lady just broke into my house. Okay, bye." She made a kiss noise and hung up.
"O-"
"Why are you snatching my phone like that?"
"They said you were on the phone with an old friend, I wanted to see who you were talking to."
"Is that any of your business?"
"Yes. That's why I came and looked." Duh.
"And if I was talking to him?" This is why I should've have let her do what she did, she's talking to me crazy now.
"We don't have to find out because you weren't on the phone with him. If you hurt me, I hurt you." I would hate to say goodbye to chicken kisses.
"Me being on the phone with someone shouldn't hurt you."
"But it would. Then I would have no other choice but to make you feel my pain."
"So you can take the woman that had a baby on you to get an abortion but you're ready to lose your mind because you thought I was on the phone with someone?"
"Who was going to lose their mind?"
"You're over here snatching my phone like you pay the bill or something. You need to apologize-"
"I'm not apologizing for anything."
"If you're going to start acting crazy then we don't need to be doing what we're doing."
"I'm sorry." That's the best I could give her.
"For?"
"You can't be serious."
"I am. You need to learn how to apologize to people."
No I don't, I don't apologize.
"I'm sorry for acting crazy and snatching your phone. I just- I like you."
"And you're sorry for threatening me?"
"No." I meant every word I said, I don't see why I have to apologize for that.
"Bey-"
"I'm sorry for talking to you the way I did." That's the best I could do. "Can I have a kiss?"
"Not after what you just did."
I kissed her anyway and she kissed me back. Just like I thought. I put my hand into the back of her pants from the top and she grabbed my wrist and pulled back.
"You're getting too ahead of yourself, they're right upstairs."
I couldn't care less. I kissed her again and she kissed me back. This is a woman who denies having feelings for me, mind you.
I picked her up and set her on the counter. I was too into it.
She pushed me back a little and I stopped. "Onika." She was basing annoying now.
"Later, okay?"
Whatever. "Did you know you gave me a hickey and they saw it?"
"You should've told them your ex husband gave it to you."
I smiled, "I told them my sneaky link gave them to me."
She laughed like she always does when I say sneaky link. "You need to unlearn that, I'm not your sneaky link."
"You're my girlfriend?"
"Definitely not."
"Oh, so we're just friends?"
"Mm. We're friends and sexual partners."
"For now." I give it another month.
"What did they say about the hickey?"
"Blue said I was a pass around."
"Was she wrong? You were already trying to get-"
"Shut up." I knew she was going to bring up Normani, she always does.
"If you want to be in a relationship with me, you have to be nice to me."
"I am nice to you." I'm not even as nice to my mom as I am to her.
"Not being mean doesn't mean you're nice."
"They're opposites so it does. I'm so nice to you, I don't treat anyone the way I treat you."
Maybe Kelly but that's about it.
"That's a problem."
"Okay, I'll be nicer. Let's go to dinner."
"We're going to get lunch right now?"
"I mean you and I."
"Like a date?"
"Not like a date, a date." It's been long enough.
"I don't know-"
"Nobu?"
"I never agreed to going to dinner with you."
"We're going to dinner. Even if it might be considered an abduction."
"Didn't you just apologize for acting crazy?"
I didn't really even mean it. "I don't think I'm acting crazy, I just want to go on a date with you."
"You just threatened to kidnap me."
"I said even if it might be considered abduction."
I already had a plan for what to do if she said no. I would show up at her house already dressed and ask her to get in the car. I was going to buy her a dress anyway and she could change at the restaurant.
"I'll think about it." That's better than a no.
"What's taking them so long?" They we're just supposed to be getting a jacket, they shouldn't have been up there for that long.
We called them and they ran down the stairs. We left and I drove to Panera Bread.
It was a Friday afternoon so we decided to sit down and eat.
"Miss Onika did you see the hickey on my moms neck?" Blue is so my child that it's annoying.
"How could I not? Your dad did a number on her."
"Excuse me?" Why would she lie like that?
"Dad gave that to you?"
"Your dad is in Cuba or something running from the feds, he didn't give me anything especially not a hickey."
"Pouvez-vous l'appeler? Je sais qu'il n'est pas à Cuba mais je veux m'assurer qu'il va bien."
Blue always talks about Jay in French in front of Aaliyah. Her dad passed and she doesn't want to make her jealous.
"Je vais."
"À l'heure actuelle?"
"Fine. Give me one second, excuse me." I stepped away from the table and went outside to call Jay.
He answered on the first ring, "Yoo!"
"Never answer the phone like that, first of all."
"Okay, let me restart. Hey queen, how are you?"
"That's better. I'm good, Blue was asking about you. I thought you said you were going to be here for a while?"
"I had some stuff to handle, I'll be back for Christmas."
"She said you wanted to take her to New York for Christmas."
"Yeah, my mom wanted to see her. Do you want to come?"
"I'm good. There would be too many lesbians in one house."
"So what are you going to do? I don't want you to be all alone?"
"Probably go to Tina's with Kelly and maybe Solange if she's off her bender by then."
"She's on that shit again?"
"I think, I haven't heard from her in too long. I've been texting her and calling her right no response."
"You want me to look for her?"
"Yeah, if you can. When you get back we need to talk about Megan." I was still planning to ruin his company.
"I'm not signing her right now. I have too much stuff going on to worry about someone else."
"Why not? I bet you she would let you hit." I'm paying her, she better.
"I'm in a relationship, I don't want that."
"Relationship with who?"
"It's still new so I didn't tell you about it. I really like her."
He completely ignored my question when I asked him who. Interesting.
"Mm. Well okay, I won't keep you." My favorite thing to say to get off the phone.
"Alright, bye. I love you and tell Blue I love her too."
"Okay, I love you too." I hung up and walked back inside.
They were all eating now so I sat down and joined them. I put a thumbs up so Blue knew he was okay.
I turned to Onika, "You okay?"
"I'm fine, why?"
"Jugs asking."
I put my hand on Onikas thigh and she moved it right back off. I put it back again, I don't know why she moved if in the first place.
She mumbled, "Stop."
Blue and Aaliyah were too in their conversation to even care about what we were doing.
That went on for basically the rest of the time we were eating. I would try to put my hand on her thigh or shoulder or somewhere friendly and she kept moving me.
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honestly i don't want to drag this book out like my other ones so i'm probably going to end it soon but then again we all know i'm a liar
Bey?
Onika?
Blue and Aaliyah?
Jay? Who do you think his new girlfriend is?
Bey thinking Onika was on the phone with her old friend? Her reaction?
Onika making Bey apologize for acting crazy?
Onika giving Bey a hickey and Blue and Aaliyah noticing?
Bey asking Onika on a date? Onika not saying yes?
Does Bey need to be alone for a little bit?
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