"Open your heart up
Hoping I'll never find out that you're anyone else
'Cause I love you just how you are
And hope you never find out who I really am
'Cause you'll never love me, you'll never love me, you'll never love me" I sang
I was washing my face and looking at the mirror looking back at my self thinking of all the things that I have went through it's crazy how people think just because you have fame and money that your life is perfect but if they only knew I'm far from perfect
I finished washing my face and wiped my face with a towel I felt fresh I walked out of the bathroom and walked back into the room to see nyzeir still sleep I sighed I need to get away completely just for a few days just by myself I kept feeling these waves of sadness everything was all just happening so fast I never really had time to process it and it was slowly starting to eat me alive
Even tho I had nyzeir i couldn't help but feeling like I was still alone yeah I was patching up my relationship with Peyton but I just couldn't bring myself to talk to her about my problems ashley is too busy with Malik and Adrianna is too busy with her own problems I feel like as much as nyzeir comforts me he will just never understand
Nobody ever will
I left out of the room to get me something to drink I poured me some crown apple and took it all down no chaser even tho it was like 10 in the morning it burned a lil but it calmed my nerves a bit
I got a Instagram notification saying that somebody was texting me then I realized it was the guy from the club
Zay: Hey I know I contacted you so late but I know you have a man's and everything but I really enjoyed the night with you i was hoping if we could hang out today
Me: I don't know I have boyfreind and he doesn't do to well with boys trying to be my freind
Zay: We'll that's ok because ima a man and I wont try anything on you think of it as meeting a old freind strictly freinds nothing else's what do you say
Me: Ok I guess so
Zay: Good meet me at P.F Changs at 2
Me: ok I'll see you then
Zay: see you then gorgeous
Nyzeir came walking in the kitchen in only his underwear hugging and kissing on my neck I hurried and put my phone down
"Goodmorning beautiful"
"Goodmorning baby"
"Why are you up so early and why is the alcohol out" he said
"I was just putting it up baby I had to get something off the shelf" I said flashing a fake smile and assuring him
"Oh okay what do you wanna do today we'll actually I'm gonna go hang out with the girls at 2 but when I come back we can do anything you want" I lied
"Oh ok where y'all going"
"You know just hanging out doing girl stuff"
"Oh ok"
I moved out of his arms easily
"What's wrong babe" he said
"Nothing baby I'm fine just a little tired that's all" I said lying
"Oh okay ima go play the game you think you can make me some breakfast?"he said
"Sure baby"
"Thank you mamas" he said kissing my cheek
He back into the room to play the game while I made him some breakfast I made him some eggs bacon pancakes and put him some fruit on the side
"Babe breakfast is ready" I said
"Ok baby im coming"
I fixed his plate just like he likes it with his orange juice and fruit on the sides
"Thank you beautiful"
"No problem"
My phone lit up it was another notification from zay saying if we could meet earlier than expected I said yes because I didn't have anything to do
"Baby ima get dressed because the girls wanna go out early so we can run errrands together"
"Ok baby be back at a reasonable time I wanna make sure you safe"
"I am"
I went upstairs and took a shower I put on my cinnamon body wash it made me smell so good i put on this really cute dresss
It was now 11:30 and I just got done added the final touches to my look I came out of the bathroom to get ready to go when nyzier stopped me
"Where you going all dressed up like that at 11 in the morning"
"Well me and the girls are gonna go out for mimosas and breakfast and stuff babe don't worry"
"Why you gotta have on this dress for who you tryna look all pretty for"
I sat on his lap and cupped his face I'm hands
"Daddy Ian trying to look pretty for anybody else but you because I love you" I said while kissing his lips
He was kissing me back his hands were all along my waist
"Baby I gotta go before I get horny and not leave at all" I said while standing up
"Ok but when you get home your ass is mine" he said smacking my ass
I nodded and smiled
"Bye baby love you"
"Bye mamas love you too"
I drove to P.F. Chang's it was now 12:30 because of traffic when I finally got there
"What's the reservation under?"
"Umm I'm guessing zay" I said unsurely
"Ok yes zay party of 2 right this way your guest is waiting on you"
I followed her to a booth in the back where I saw zay sitting he was fine when he saw me his smile just captivated me I sat down and the waiter gave us the menus and left
"You look beautiful" he said
"Thank you" I said blushing
"Now why did you bring me here today"
"I just wanted to see you again I felt like our connection was real I know you probably don't remember it because you were drunk but I felt something we don't have to be together but we can just be freinds strictly freinds someone that's always here if you wanna talk"
"I would like that actually a lot I'm always in my head and need someone to talk to and if you ever need someone to talk to ima great person for the job" I said
"It doesn't help that your incredibly beautiful too" he said
"Thank you"
"So what's been troubling you in life"
"I think how fast everything has happened in such a short amount of time sometimes I feel like it's too much to bear I either gotta keep this secret or be mad this person or do things to make this person happy" I said
"What about you what makes yasmine happy you have to make yourself happy first no matter at what cost you deserve ultimate happiness I don't know your whole story and one day I hope you tell it to me but I can tell you have been through it I feel as thought you deserve every hood thing that comes your way"
"You need to cherish yourself because yasmine your important too and your not a bad person your a good person just trying to make it through this fucked up world"
"Damn nobody has ever laid it down to me like that but your right your absolutely right"
"You need to forgive and never forget because I can tell your still holding on to some things once you truly forgive and love yourself unconditionally you will truly be healed" he said
We continued to talk more about everything it was so easy to talk to him he listened and gave good advice he talk to me like I was a equal I loved that me and nyzeir we never had this sit down about everything but I felt bad about lying to nyzeir about this but he will just never understand
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NYZEIR POV
I wass bored at the house by myself while yamsine was out it really is boring without her but she's been acting so weird this morning like she's hiding something I decided to FaceTime the boys
"What's up nigga" I said
"What's up" Derrick and Malik said
"Y'all wanna come over and play the game or go out or something I'm bored as hell and I know y'all ain't doing nothing because all the girls are out" i said
They looked at me confused
"Ashley is right here next to me"
"And Peyton is home"
"So who is yasmine out with"
"Wait she told you she was with ashley and peyton and them" Malik said
"Yea she told me she went to go out with the girls"
"Well she lied because because ashley said Brianna is out of town and Adrianna is with her family" Malik said
"Damn is she cheating" Derrick said
"Naww she not cheating she know better she loves me too much" I said
"She might love you but remember you did cheat on her maybe this is get back" Derrick said
"Man she ain't crazy that girl know I would kill her if she tried that bullshit"
"Ion know but I do know when women cheat it's emotionally and physically so if she is that's worst because she actually 9 times outta 10 loves him and you gone lose your girl" Malik said
"Man I know how to handle my girl when she come back ima get it straightened out" I said
"Yeah you better get that straightened out" Malik said
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"I love talking to you your so easy to talk to" I said
"I love talking to you you open my eyes to new things and possibilities" he said making me blush
"I think it's time for me to go we been here for 2hrs" I said
"Wait umm do you wanna go dancing maybe" he said
"Sure I would love to"
"Good I'll send you the address"
"Ok I'll see you there" I said getting up walking away out of the restaurant I could feel his eyes on my ass I smirked knowing that I still got it
After we went dancing it was 4 I was so tired the dancing wore me out but it was fun and full of laughs I loved it and would do it all over again zay is a great friend and I think I'll be seeing more of him but at some point I gotta tell nyzeir the truth I can't keep secrets from him I love him too much
I got a text from zay saying
"Had a great time we gotta do this again sometime, have a great day beautiful"
I blushed looking at it and went inside the house where nyzeir was there waiting for me and there was a empty bottle of tequila I'm guessing he drunk it all he downed another shot looking directly at me
Kinda scared the shit out of me
"Damn baby you scared me did you drink that whole bottle what's wrong with you!?!" I said
"Don't worry about that how was your day with the girls what did you do"
"Oh you know regular girl stuff we went to eat and then went to the mall I didn't like anything so I didn't buy anything"
"Oh that's nice because I called Derrick and Malik and Derrick told me peyton is home and ashley is with Malik and Brianna out of town and Adrianna is with her family so who were you with" he said
My heart dropped
"My other freind you don't know them"
"So you just gonna keep lying in my face"
"Lemme see your phone"
"Nyzeir your tripping"
"Lemme see your fucking phone" he yelled
"No nyzeir your drunk you need to calm the hell down"
He came towards me and snatched my phone out of my hand
"What's the password"
"I'm not telling you you have lost your damn mind snatching my shit give it back" I said trying to get my phone back
He pushed me against the wall hard
"What's the fucking password" he yelled in my face
"It's your birthday dumbass get off of me" I said pushing him off of me
"Nyzier you have lost your fucking mind pushing me against the wall like that you have never put your hands on me before u ai-" I said but gco
"SHUT THE HELL UP" he yelled
He sat there looking at my phone for a minute
"So u still talking to this nigga after I told you not to"
"It's not like that he just texted me today"
"We're you with him today" he said tears threatening to escape from his eyes
"Baby"
"Answer the question Yasmine"
"Yes but it wasn't like that we're just freinds I told him I had a boyfreind baby I would never cheat on you I love you I just need some time away we have been together everyday for the last past month" I said
"Why didn't you tell me the truth the nigga flirting with you calling you beautiful I give you everything I do everything for you" he said
"Baby I don't love him I love you I didn't cheat he's just a freind I knew you didn't want me having guy freinds" I said
Tears were now leaving his eyes
"WHY" he said he threw my phone against the wall smashing it
"NYZEIR WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT" I said now getting in his face
He put his hands around my neck hard and pushed me against the wall choking me this isn't the nyzeir I knew he was drunk this isn't my nyzeir he wouldn't put his hands on me
"I could kill you right now but I love you too much to do that" he said releasing me from his grip and he just started to cry with his hand over his face
I felt so bad because this is my fault if I just would've told the truth i went up to him
"Baby I'm sorry I should've told you the truth but this is my first time talking to him since the club and we didn't do anything we were just hanging out I love you too much baby to do that to you" I said rubbing his back
He looked up at me
"Get out" he said
"Baby really seriously"
"Get the hell out before I lose my mind" he yelled
"I'm not leaving you nyzeir" I said
"Baby I'm not going no where" I said hugging him
He finally hugged me back
"I'm sorry for putting my hands on you I don't even know who I am right now"
"It's ok baby I'm not hurt" I said
"But I put my hands on you I told myself I would never do that now I'm gonna be like my dad"
"No baby you will never be like him your so much more than he you love you and you would do anything for me you protect me" I said
"I have been through so much shit in my life and you the only thing that truly makes me happy and I thought you were gonna leave I thought he was gonna take you from me I got so mad I started drinking and I put my hands on you" he said
"It's ok it's fine I'm hear I'm with you baby I'm here I'm not going anywhere" I said he still had his head down
"Look at me im good baby" I said cupping his face in my hands to look at me
I gave him a kiss on the lips he started to kiss back aggressively I could tell he need me right now he put his hands on my ass and started to suck my neck I straddled on top of him and continued to kiss him I got up a little so he could take his pants off he was hard as a rock
It was like he needed to fuck me and I was gonna let him take it all out on me tonight he pulled my dress up put my panties to the side and slid into me
I started to ride holding onto his neck as I bounced up and down on him
"F-ffuck my insides" I said
"Take all of it go down some more stop playing with me" he said and he pushed me down more making me take all of his dick
"Your so tight damn" he grunted
"Mmmm fuck me right there!" I said
He was pounding into me at this point
"I'm so sorry I put my hands on you princess it won't happen again" he said grunting
"I-it's ok d-daddy I know you didn't mean it fuckk!"
He took the straps off my dress and lowered them exposing my breast and hard nipples he put the left one in his hand while sucking and playing with the right and soon did the same to the left I was a moaning mess he never fucked like this
"Omg daddy I think ima cum f-fuckk!" I creamed on his dick you could see all of my cream and juices on his dick but that didn't stop him he kept going I was shaking by this point
"Daddy please stop I can't take it anymore!" I moaned
"Un un shut the fuck up I'm not done" he said
I was just shaking violently I felt like I was gonna pass out
"If you pass out then pass out ima still keep going but lemme tell you something if you pass out you not gonna be able to walk no more this month" he said
"I understand daddy but please my pussy its soree" I moaned
"I'm almost there babygirl hold on a little longer can you do that for daddy babygirl" he said
I nodded biting my lips trying to keep my eyes open
"I need words princess"
"Y-yes daddy I cann f-for you FUCK!"
"Good girl keep taking keep them eyes open" he said
"Shit so wet babygirl fuck" he moaned
"You gone have all my kids when we done" he said his strokes became sloppier and deeper
"Aww fuck!!" He grunted as he came inside of me his head fell back
I fell on his chest and passed out it was too much for me to handle I couldn't do it no more he took all his anger out on me and I loved it
"Mamas wake up"
No response
But she was still breathing tho I think she passed out fuck what am I supposed to do
I carried her to the bed and took off the rest of her clothes and laid her in the bed and turned the fan on I put her under the covers and I took of my clothes and got under the cover with her
I kissed her forehead and fell asleep right besides her