butterflies fluttered in jimin's stomach when the first sight he encountered right after opening his eyes was taehyung's heavenly face, his heart started to thump against his chest making a red coat of love spread around his face he softly bit his lower lip and smiled to himself
'How can one be this gorgeous?'
he wondered in his pondering head, even though the pain was enough to make a nauseating feeling rise in his throat he still couldn't help but admire the one his heart had held onto for so long, taehyung was jimin's first love that'll be his last with the love his heart holds for the older
Taehyung was the one who taught jimin what is to be loved and to be in love, taehyung loves him like he has never loved before making jimin fall harder for him, and now the younger is a helpless romantic going deeper and deeper into the grave of their love
The sunrise peeking from the curtains makes taehyung twitch his eyes, jimin puts his hand in between but taehyung had already opened his eyes staring back at him, and jimin starts to feel nervous under his gaze as he takes his hand away
Taehyung pulled his hand back and stares at jimin with his piercing gaze, the younger of the two tried to break the contact looking away from him "why don't you look me in the eyes?" Taehyung asked his deep voice makes jimin's soul crumble
Jimin kept his gaze down, "do you feel guilty?" Taehyung whispers and jimin could feel his body shiver with the coldness in his tone "I do...so much that it makes me want to die" jimin uttered his voice trembling like weak bones
"Liar...your hands didn't even shake while shooting that fucking bullet inside of me" taehyung spat out
loud echoes of pain rang through the raventte's entire body shaking him cold as he glanced down at the mattress "Because.." He whispered his voice coming out hesitant and clearly in pain "I...Because I" it was almost as if he couldn't muster up the courage to speak in front of his victim "can't say much now can you min?" The nickname was a sweet calling taehyung always called jimin by, but this time it felt tormenting.
And it stabbed jimin through the heart, sharper than any dagger could. Pushing him towards the edge which led to his outburst "Because I didn't knew how much it'll hurt! Just forgive me tae, I had enough of all of this... I can't bear it anymore, please stop it" jimin said as his words turns into pleading sobs
"It hasn't even been two months and you've already had enough of it I suffered for four years and will suffer the rest of my life" taehyung sat up pushing away the bedsheets in rage
"I'm suffering too tae can't you see it, I'm already dead inside, mistakes we all make can't you...please let it go, I'm sorry I know I can never pay for your loss but this revenge won't do anything, it'll only hurt us" jimin hugs taehyung's hand crying in his arm
"I'm so tired taeh-" a painful sob left from jimin's mouth cutting his words off "I can't take it anymore, I want to feel happy too I know I don't deserve to be happy but at least for once I want to feel happy with you"
"You said you will love me forever I'm not asking you to love me but can't you make it happen? Can't you make me feel how I used to feel with you? Just for once, Is it too much to ask?" Jimin plants a soft rose petal kiss on taehyung's rock hard arms
Taehyung stays frozen in his place before his head slowly moved in a nod, he was battling with his heart and brain which were telling him to do the different things, but when it comes to jimin his heart always wins and for his brain's peace he thought to himself 'it's just for a day. I can do that it won't change anything' "I'll do that after all, I learned faking my emotions from someone real close" taehyung said making jimin sigh deeply
However faking his emotions wasn't the only task he was doing, making sure he doesn't let his thoughts get the best of him was another one he was fighting with. The thoughts of giving in and letting the past rest in the past, he knew how good it felt to have jimin and hold him again he remembers this feeling a little too well to just push it away, although he hates to admit. He knew he didn't say yes just for nothing, he said yes because he wanted it too
"you can get ready after me, I'll make breakfast for us after washing up" taehyung awkwardly muttered walking towards the washroom, jimin smiled sadly looking down at his hand that taehyung held onto the whole night
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Jimin walked downstairs with a diary in his hand as the sweet smell of pancakes hits his nostrils, taehyung looked at him and smiled warmly and it felt so real so good like everything was in its place, jimin shyly tug his hair behind his ear
He sat at the dining table where the breakfast was already placed and taehyung was setting the rest of the things on the table, jimin wore white pants that hugged his sinful legs and a white cotton shirt that was hanging low from his shoulders reveling his delicious caller bones and the bullet locket was still wrapped around his neck, taehyung was still in his nightgown
Jimin took a bite from the soft pancakes as taehyung pretend to not stare at him from his side-eye biting his lower lip nervously, jimin moans at the taste as his eyes gets bigger with excitement "this is so good" he said taking another bite from the pancakes that taehyung made stuffing his mouth fully
Taehyung chuckled at him, his hand hesitantly reach towards the younger's head petting it delicately, after finishing the food jimin pointed at the diary he placed on the table "open it" he said to the older who was looking at the diary skeptical
"What is it?" Taehyung asked frowning his brows as he opened the diary and reads out loud the first phrase his eyes got on 'he was the best I've ever had' jimin snatched the diary away from his hand "God! what are you reading!? I asked you to open it not to read it out loud!"
Taehyung shrugged his shoulders snatching the diary back as he continues reading the same part but now in his heart 'I can still feel him on my body, it's so hard to forget you Kim Taehyung' taehyung's lips tug up in a smirk after reading his name
Jimin puts his both hands on the diary but it wasn't enough to cover it all "you can't read it!, I already marked the reading part" he glares at taehyung in a warning way, the dead jimin was crawling out of the grave
"Okay. Which one?" Taehyung said taking his hands off of the diary as jimin opened the page in one go "wishing list" was written on the top, the whole diary was decorated prettily with glitters, stickers, and jimin's little art
"This is the list of things I want to do with you" jimin shyly said resting his chin on the palm of his hand
"But my name isn't written on it," taehyung said after running his eyes on the whole page trying to find his name
"Because it was way before you came, it was written for someone... I imagined in my head...that becomes... the real you" jimin added feeling embarrassed talking about how he used to make people up in his head but it was because of how lonely he was, since the beginning of his life
Taehyung's eyes widened in shock reading the words written on it "is this a wish list or a script for a porn movie?" Taehyung asked blankly but the playfulness in his tone was obvious "huh?" Jimin questioned dumbfoundly and then the realisation hits him, he showed the wrong wish list
He snatch the diary back, a blush creept on his face making it bloom like a red rose "taking this diary out was a bad decision" he mumbled to himself checking the diary again as he sighed opening the other page and putting it infront of taehyung
"Are you sure, i can read it now?" Taehyung asked teasingly jimin nodded his head repeatedly making the older chuckle at his cuteness, they both were so lost in eachother that taehyung forgot he was pretending and jimin forgot it won't last forever.
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A/N: i hope you guys know I'm trying my best to update regularly :(