It keeps bothering my heart
The memory of your words
Printed on my soul
Will stay with me until I die
Truth is, I don't want to leave
With the feeling of being destructed
In a moment of believing your love
Those days make me wonder
What was more real
The pain that cut my veins
Or the adoration you so screamed about
As I walk in a field
Where flowers are dead and smell is killing me
I tried to think in the smile
You're giving me now
Wondering when are we going
To fall off again
Wondering when are you going
To leave me again
Wondering when am I going
To feel pain again
Every step is poison to what surround us
I want to let this go
But my love is intact
Even if it has been step on too much
You grab my hand
Trying to reassure me you're here now
But how much time is it?
Somehow, the ending is coming
If we get to the final point
Where flowers don't die and start to bloom
Then maybe we've grown up
But my soul is trying to find the peace
Unable to do it if you're still here
Because the memory of your words
Keeps bothering my heart.
-Having a crush on someone can be really hard at first. After a while, it gets even worse. Eventually... It becomes really unbearable. After that... You kind of just get used to it.
-Does that mean that one day, I'll be able to give up?
-No. You get used to the pain, so used to it that eventually you become numb. And the pain doesn't even hurt anymore.
[Our Beloved Summer - Ji Ung]
There's a pain you learn to live with
The untamed love
Someone who is never the one
Even if your dreams are set on this person
It just won't happen
And when asking why
All you do is hurt yourself a little more
Every day, it kills
There's no harm in this world
When you can protect them
Oh, only if they let us in
But they don't
And the pain is growing up
The chest is burning and is not your heart beating
But breaking in pieces
Trying to love someone else
The untamed love
Being friends is not enough
Being strangers is not that tough
Let me have this feeling of joy
Whenever I see you
Don't reject me again, I know it won't happen
Is just that somehow
I've learned to live with this pain
That I can't feel it anymore
But I still feel love towards you
Is just that somehow
I haven't learned that part yet.
Dear future kid
Don't blame it on me
For not bringing you here
God bless me, I still don't know
Your future father might be a dick
So I rather just live like a prick
Dear future kid
Don't blame it on me
For not bringing you here
Oh if you see this world
You'd never leave my ovaries I swear
So I rather just let you where you're now
Dear future kid
Don't blame it on me
But love is hard to find
Believe me, money is even harder
What if we go bankrupt and the world collides?
Global warming is killing us all
Dear future kid
Don't blame it on me
But love is hard to find
Believe me, jobs are even harder
System is destroying every fucking country
Globally speaking there's nowhere safe to live
Dear future kid
I know you don't exist
But you'll say thank you if you could
I hope I never change my mind
Because I'm afraid I might love you
So hard that I can't really get enough.
Trembling on a cord
I'm going to find my way
Deep down of myself
Everything is blurry
Like a defiant love who fades away
I'm a little scared
I've fought demons
But never myself
Trembling on a cord
As I keep going
Someone is guiding me from behind
A blue butterfly touches my heart
Turns to be pink
Like the life I used to have
And a breeze slapped my face
He's standing there
Trembling on a cord
Hats might be his thing
Smiling, he asks me weird things
I tried to answer, but I'm falling
He grabs my hand
And put me on a road
I tried to say something, but I'm falling
Falling for him
Trembling on a cord
I've reached my destiny
Far from being black
Is all pink and yellow
So bright my heart explodes
He has a black cape
In an instant, he disappeared
Like a defiant, blurry love
Trembling on a cord
His echoes can't be heard
If only I answered him
But now is too late
I shall live my life
Remembering the magician
That helped me once
And stayed with me forever.
A beautiful man once told me
That frustration can be overcome by midnight
All I needed to do, was to believe in him
As if my life depended on it
And my dreams could come true
But silly me, I dared to contradict him
He ran away without saying goodbye
Leaving me all alone
A beautiful man once told me
That I had to disappear from where I'm being hurt
I wondered at that time
If he could be as silly as me
Didn't he see I was in such a prison?
Adulthood was stepping on my soul
Everything must be perfect if I wanted to make it
Out there, I really felt alone
A beautiful man once told me
That loneliness is the most charming companion
Ever existing in this life
I didn't believe him, of course I'm silly
But he grabbed my hand
And asked me to just make my heart
A beautiful and warm place for him to live in
So that both of us never feel alone again
A beautiful man once told me
That frustration never last more than a lifetime
Somehow, I was going to find happiness
Under those tears that made my body dry
I managed to smile at him
Realizing that we were meant to be
In a way that nobody will ever understand
And we will forever be all alone by ourselves.
Listening to the sound of his voice
Dreaming to be somewhere else
She asked me about you
Wanting to know if we keep talking
And my heart almost fell at my feet
It felt so heavy in my chest
I had nothing else to do but to lie
Listening to the sound of his voice
She reluctantly waits for my response
My eyes are burning red
They want to cry milestones for you
I didn't know I still love you this way
It feels so annoying in my soul
I had nothing else to do but to answer her
Listening to the sound of his voice
I pray for him to come and hug me right now
Since you're not here I can't do much
So I bounced my head from side to side
Meaning that I've never talked to you again
Such I lie I said to her
It felt great to dream about you yesterday
I had nothing else to do but to lie
Listening to the sound of his voice
He is my best friend at these days
I've been talking to you in my memories
And I'm dying to do so in this moment
But you won't answer anymore
But I gave up on this love
It feels tiring to wake up and you're not there
I had nothing else to do but to keep going on
Listening to the sound of his voice
I put on replay the song that reminds me of you
Your laugh is still burning my head
She says you're not right for me
She says everything right will come sometime
It felt so fucked up when you were away
I had nothing else to do but to wait for you
Listening to the sound of his voice
Should I love him instead of you?
Seems impossible at this point
I hope she never finds the truth about us
Those dreams shall forever keep on my mind
It feels so good when I had time alone with you
I had nothing else to do but to bring you in my mind.
I try to run away
Whenever frustration knock my head
But all I do is sat down
And wait for it to go away
I try not to think about it
Whenever sadness hits my heart
But all I do is to cry a day
And wait for my eyes to dry
I try to run away
Whenever I hate myself
But all I do is to remind the love
And wait for it to come at me
I try not to think about it
Whenever I feel like trash
But all I do is to create a bigger hole
And wait for it to sink me in.