"I've got a boyfriend now" She said jumping around all excited and happy....
That was all it took for my head to cloud up and my heart to crush....
I snap out quickly , not wanting her to suspect anything....
"Omg that's good news! congrats"
I said putting on brightest smile I could ...
"Thank you "
All I could think about that day was her.....
Just thinking her touching her 'boyfriend' anything even close to the way she touches me made me angry and wanting to cry ...
I also wouldn't like it if she smiled as bright as she did around me, when she was around him.....
I didn't like this new feeling....
I felt like I wanna throw up because I cried too much
Even though I had not shed a tear *yet
I felt like I wanted to fight this stranger for snatching her away from me....
At the same time I wanted to let her go.....
So she can be happy...
I really didn't like how I was feeling right now....
It was all too much....
But I faked it like I did sometimes
I faked my smile, especially around her
I pretend to be perfectly fine.....
That night I felt like a fool....
The worst kind of fool
A fool in love...
I felt jealousy and grief burn through my body thinking of this new guy , who would get to do all I things I could only wish I could do with her .
To buy her pretty things...
To wear matching accessories...
To tell people she was my girlfriend...
To kiss her...
To hold her...
To love her...
To tell her about how much I loved her...
He could do it all...
While all I could do is watch ..
Pitying myself...
While Feeling Happy for her
Oh no! I was in too deep...
I was doing something I never thought I could do...
Feeling something I never thought I could feel...
I loved her