hidden thoughts

i wish i was her

i wish i was her.
the one you genuinely want,
the one you genuinely love,
she is everything i am not.
for a long time,
i thought i was the one who made you happy,
but after seeing you with her,
i realized it's her
and not me.
i still wish I'd never wanted you to begin with,
because at the end,
you still chose her over me.
and I just wish things were still the same
but I suppose, people and feelings change.