May 27th,2000
We left the hotel as early as we could and that turned out to be 6 a.m. We had to leave one because of all the fucking nightmares of my dad coming and of all the times i was throw on the bed, the crothes riped off my body. The nightmares woke me up every fucking half an hour. Two because I could not take that pink room any more. the only bad thing about early is that your so tired and oh kattie was still asleep so again i had put her on my back. The next town was said to be a really rich town and i thought that the jobs would pay good, and kattie, or should i start to call her Sami, would make a lot of friends. To bad that next town im talking about is around 10 or 11 miles from where we are. And Kattie/Sami does wake up till around noon, so i guess i will be talking to myself for awhile. Another bad part about living in tenesse is there is no gas station everywhere so when i have to piss i have dig a fucking hole. I have no friends to talk to about my problems thats why i have my sister because she has the same problems. You are always told when you are little that your parents will be there for you and will protect you from the scaring thing under the bed or in the closet but they do say that they will never rape you and that were i have a problem. I loved my dad till that one night mommy went to go get milk after my birthday party, my dad walked in to my room and throw me on to my bed. I was so scared and I didnt know who this man was. He was ripping the clothes off my small 10 year old body. i was crying, screaming, and then my 5 year old sister Kattie walking in. Dad yelled at her to sit down and watch. I hated him with every fiber of my being and that he scarred Kattie for life, what i hate the the most that is still deep in my heart i stilled loved my daddy i had once knowed. But the man that is at my house was not the daddy i loved, he hasnt been that man in five years and i was finally done with him. He needed to go to jail and i was going to make sure he does.
Kattie/Sami was up and i was happy because she was no longer on my back and i had someone to talk to. When she woke up i was crying cause of thing back. We had 5 more miles to go and i didnt want to stop. kattie/Sami would not stop talk, i thought i was happy that she woke up but you remember what i said she is damn annoying.
"STOP TALKING! you know what Kattie you have been on my back all morning and im tired, i want to sleep but i cant, so if you can just stop talking till i talk to you that would be great." i said to her will all the energy i had lefted in me. I was so tied i was having a really hard time walking. I felt like i was hungover and i was so hunrgy. I didnt want to eat at the hotel, i didnt know if it was going to have pick food too. All the food i had with me was big ass gummi bears and kattie/sami was eating them all.
it was 12 a.m by the time we got to the town we want so there was no way we could find a place to stay for the night. i felt like a hobo because we ended up sleeping under a brigde. It wasnt a hotel, apartment, or a house but it was a place that was a place away from daddy and it was a place to sleep. i hadnt got to sleep in almost 48 hours, my legs felt that they were going to fall off. As soon as i hit the hard, cold ground i fell asleep. I was in so much pain and i just could take walking any more, i didnt think about the nightmares all i cared about was that i was sleeping. I felt so relaxed on that hard ground, i didnt care about my dad, i cared that my sister was with me and that she was safe. He couldnt get her, and hopefully he can find us. We are about 20 to 25 miles away from that hell hole. Kattie/Sami was sleep and this time she wasnt on my back. My plan is to get a job make a good amount of money, buy a small place that wont fall apart. Get Kattie/Sami inrolled in school here. Start telling her Samantha or sami so then when she goes to school her will answer to the teachers when they call out Samantha. I knew that running away for good was going to change my life but i had to do what was right for "Samantha" and me. i've been trying to tell myself that my name was now Kayley. I have to inroll myself in school but i think i need parents to do that so thats i problem. I made rules from myself so then if i follow the rules i should be fine, but if a broke the rules all hell could broke lose. So rule one: NO BOYS! boys are no good, because when there is a boy there is a man, and when there is a man there is a dad and my dad could be any dad. Rule two: TELL NO ONE! if i tell one soul about my past and my sister's, that could mess my whole plan up. Rule three: NO FRIENDS AT MY PLACE! if i do make friends or if "Samantha" makes friends and they find out who we really they could have us sent back home.
10 a.m i woke up to my sister playing in the water. i really didnt care because her playing she was getting clean and boy not to be mean but she smelled like a died animal. We hadnt took a shower for like 2 whole days and we have been walk so we really smelled. I jumped in to the little river to clean off and play with my little sister. It was the first time i had fun in five years, i felt like a start of my brand new life. It felt nice the sun shine on my face, the nice cool water hitting my body. I have never felt so that home before, i knew right then in there that i had made the right choice running away with Kattie or "Samantha". After our swim we had to sit in the sun to dry off before we found a place to live.
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-onlygirl out peace :)