ALL TOO WELL | VKOOK ✓

oneshot.

ALL TOO WELL

written by vantaeblush

tags;

heavy angst, fluff, romcom, set in the 90s, heartbreak, taekook, cliche, highschool au, top tae, bot koo, smut, cheating, twenty five years later, regret, kim taehyung is whipped as a whipped cream, koo is a shy baby, forbidden love, secret relationship ,family rivals

inspired by a song called all too well (taylor's version) by taylor swift.

word count; 20k words

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September 1, 1997 — Seoul, South Korea

The loud noise of television echoed in the whole mansion. A broadcasting news was flashing on the screen, the female news reporter's voice could be heard loudly and clearly as she was currently reporting Princess Diana's death.

It was eight in the morning and Jeon Jeongguk was very excited, not only because it's monday and first day of the school, starting his last year in high school to be exact. but because it is also his seventeenth birthday today.

His special day.

"I can't believe she died, oh my. God bless her soul." Mrs. Jeon says and sips her tea.

Her husband, Mr Jeon, also sits on her left side, holding and reading a newspaper, focusing his eyes on it rather intensely, too immersed in the words written on the paper.

Jeongguk woke up happily half an hour ago, but a frown quickly appeared on his face when his parents barely acknowledged him, only hearing a small birthday greeting and small smiles plastered on their faces.

But what can he expect from the people he's supposed to call his parents?

Meetings, business trips, always leaving Jeongguk alone in the mansion and barely having time to spend with him.

Life is supposed to be easy for rich people but Jeongguk has to disagree on that. He may have the money and privileges but he doesn't have that parental love that he craved almost every single day.

His doe eyes looked gleaming, he thought his parents would surprise him with cake or even throw a party for him but how wrong he was.

He shouldn't have had expectations but nonetheless, he tried to not let it affect his whole mood..The whole dining table fell into a comfortable silence but to Jeongguk, it was awkward and suffocating.

All of his life, his parents were never there for him most of the time. Prioritizing their work instead of their own child.

They had always kept reminding Jeongguk to maintain his good grades and his spot as the highest honor student in his class. Of course, being the obedient son that he is, he always obeys their words.

Even though there was one time Jeongguk almost passed out because he had studied too much, without even taking a break for his finals last year and only had one hour of sleep.

It felt like it was worth it, seeing both of his parents shining their smiles on him, always telling to continue the hard work.

But even if he could see the proud look on their faces, he was very tired but he had no room to complain.

Oh, the perks of being raised in an asian household.

To make it worse, living in a rich family and being the only child and having higher expectations from you, it is draining and the pressure will never leave your shoulders.

And to Jeongguk, he wishes that this is not the life that he has.

He hurriedly finishes his cereal and glues his eyes back on the television, instantly getting immersed on the tragic news of the princess.

"So, sweetie, I want you to be the valedictorian this year. It's your last year in highschool."

His mother's voice made him break his attention to the television and looked at her instead, eyes wide.

He sighs in defeat, already feeling exhausted and he hasn't even started studying yet.

"Yes, mom. I will be the valedictorian this year."

"Good. You need to have the highest grades of your class or I'll be very disappointed. You don't want that, right Kookie?"

Jeongguk bit his lip and nodded his head again.

It didn't take long to finally arrive at school. Wearing his newly ironed uniform and polish shoes, he finally got out of the car with the biggest smile on his face.

He should be miserable that he's back again at school but no, it's the other way around.

Jeongguk finally got the chance to hang out with his bestest friend, Jimin and he couldn't wait to see him. His house was dull and boring and the only thing he could feel happiness if he's outside of it.

Anywhere is better except his own home.

"Jeonggukie!"

His bunny teeth peeks out when he lets out another big smile on his face and squeals loudly when he hears Jimin's voice and sees him waving his hand at him.

"Jiminie!"

The two males immediately engulfed each other in a tight hug. It's only been two weeks since the last time they saw each other but it seems like talking to the telephone wasn't enough.

Jimin is Jeongguk's only friend. The Park family is a close friend of the Jeon family.

Jeongguk's parents were quite strict and the only person they could trust is Jimin, making him Jeongguk's only friend but the doe eyed male didn't mind that.

To him, Jimin is already enough.

"Happy birthday!!!" Jimin greeted him with a big smile plastered on his face. "Oh my god! we need to celebrate this later!"

"I can't Jiminie, father says I need to go home early today." Jeongguk pouts.

Jimin rolls his eyes. "Well, fuck your father. We're still gonna celebrate it today so you'll come with me! Come on, I'll show you my gift!"

Jimin grabs his wrist and drags him to their new classroom, giving the poor doe eyed male no time to protest.

Jeongguk only sighs.

While running together across the school hallways, his doe eyes then caught something and he looked at them with great curiosity.

There, a group of four men were standing on the lockers, teasing and grabbing a poor boy's bag, throwing all of the things inside.

All of them were laughing as one of them slams the boy harshly on the lockers, creating a loud noise and the students who have seen it didn't bat an eye and continued their business.

Why isn't anyone helping him?! Jeongguk couldn't help but to think but before he could take an action, his doe eyes then locked with another pair of eyes, gazing sharply on him.

It's as if time went into slow motion when he saw one of them staring at him. He was very handsome, with his sharp eyes, chiseled jaw, thick eyebrows and soft lips that Jeongguk had noticed.

He was wearing a red plaid shirt and a red bandana on his head.

He also wasn't the one assaulting the poor boy but he was watching it silently, letting his friend do the bullying along with his other two friends beside him who only snickers.

That guy was only leaning against the lockers with both of his arms crossed in front of his chest.

Jeongguk immediately felt a pull towards him, like he's a moth and the guy is a flame. The male's gaze is burning him.

He wasn't the type to like bad boys or bullies. To him, they're just nuisance and pathetic and someone like him doesn't want to be involved or even breathe next to them.

Jeongguk would rather date someone decent and have good manners.

But he could feel himself betraying each and every word of his as he continued to maintain eye contact with the guy. He hasn't seen him or any of his friends before so his mind already concluded that they are the new students.

He is forced to break their eye contact when they finally arrive at their classroom. The teacher wasn't here yet, making Jimin sigh in relief.

He opens his bag and pulls out a wrapped gift.

"Here's my gift to you, Jeonggukie!"

Jeongguk grins. "Woah, thank you, Jiminie. I wonder what's inside."

"You would totally love it!"

The doe eyed slowly unwraps the gift and then, his eyes went saucers.

"Oh my god!"

The gift contains a lot of Leonardo DiCaprio posters and brand new dvds, making Jeongguk squeals loudly in delight.

"Thank you so much Jiminie! How did you get these? His posters are always sold out!"

"Hello? Haven't you forgotten? My uncle has some connections to Hollywood and these posters," Jimin grabs one of them. "are personally signed by Leo himself!"

Jeongguk's eyes widen in shock and he gasps.

"No fucking way! These are just- thank you so much Jiminie! This is awesome. I-I can't believe this."

"Well, anything for my bestie!" Jimin squishes his chubby cheeks.

The class went by so fast and it was now time for lunch. The cafeteria was packed as usual and the two males sat together on their table, munching their food.

"Do you know there are new students? I heard from Yuna that they are hot." Jimin wiggles his eyebrows as Jeongguk takes a bite from his hamburger.

"I dwon't care." Jeongguk says while having food in his mouth.

Jimin rolls his eyes. "You don't care but I do! I also heard that they were expelled from their former schools so they transferred here."

"They sound like bad news to me." Jeongguk shrugs.

"Agreed but what if they're good in bed though?" This made Jeongguk immediately deliver a smack on Jimin's shoulders, making the other laugh loudly.

"Stop that and just eat." He only just rolls his eyes.

It cannot be them, right? The ones whom he saw earlier? They looked like new students to him since he hadn't even seen them before.

That guy. The guy with the red hair bandana. His sharp gaze never left Jeongguk's mind and it's bothering him. It imprinted on him, constantly haunting daylights out of him.

"So there's a new Leonardo movie right? It's called Titanic and it's about a ship sinking. What if he dies? What if-"

Jimin's voice went deaf in Jeongguk's ears when his eyes landed on a familiar male that entered the cafeteria.

Most of the girls squeal as the four new students enter the area. Jeongguk unconsciously watched the male who had a blank face on, hands stuffed in his pockets, walking with confidence.

And it surprised him when the said male made eye contact with him again, making his heart race in his chest. The doe eyed male was sure that he saw a small smirk on the man's face when he looked away from him and finally sat on a table a little bit further away from them, back facing.

"Who is that?" Jeongguk turns his head to look at Jimin who is already staring at him, suspicion filled in his eyes. "Jimin?"

"Why are you suddenly asking? I thought you didn't care?" Jimin smirks when Jeongguk scoffs.

"I don't, Jimin. Just wanted to know their names so that I know who to avoid."

"The buff one over there with a buzzcut is Kim Namjoon." Jimin turned around and pointed his fingers. "The one with plump lips is Kim Seokjin. I heard his mother was a beauty queen, no wonder he's so handsome."

"And the small one that looks intimidating? The one who has mint green hair? I heard his name is Min Yoongi."

Jeongguk's eyes then watched them laughing over something Seokjin had said but there was one person whose face still remained blank.

The doe eyed male could recognize Yoongi as the one who slammed the poor student earlier on the wall and Namjoon the one who threw all of his things on the wall.

"Who is he?" Jeongguk pointed his finger at the same guy earlier. "What's his name?"

"That is Kim Taehyung, son of your father's rival."

"Oh,"

Jimin gave him a look.

"I know he's handsome but I heard he's a playboy and straight. He's also known as the quietest one of the group but also the scariest when you make him angry so we have no chance, Jeonggukie."

Jeongguk scoffs again.

"What made you think I was hoping for a chance with him? No way."

"I see the way you look at him. Don't lie." He glares.

Jeongguk could only sigh. "Whatever, let's just finish our food."

Unknown to him, Taehyung's gaze was back on him, watching him silently and his lips curled up in a small smile.

The lunch break is still not over, there is still another thirty minutes left and Jeongguk has decided to go to the rooftop, spending his remaining free time unboxing all of the courting gifts once again.

There's no doubt that he's one of the handsome boys on campus. He has a lot of admirers, getting confessions from there and there but he has always rejected them on the spot.

Today, he was forced to accept all of these birthday gifts from some of his admirers and who is he to complain? Not when it all contains his favorite chocolate bars and candies and flowers.

He has it all though. Pretty doe eyes, cute button nose and rosy plump lips, teeth peeking out whenever he smiles, making him look like a cute bunny and cheeks red as a cherry. Even some men find themselves staring at his feminine figure. It is not new to the students of Cheongsan High.

Everyone knows that Jeon Jeongguk is off limits. Who would want to date a guy that has his head stuck on books and the only thing he could do was just study all the time and please his parents?

Oh, and also the only person Jeongguk would never reject is Leonardo DiCaprio.

As he finally opened the door to the rooftop and went inside, his eyes went saucers when he recognized someone.

The wind blew and he could feel it touching his skin, he was met with a sight of Kim Taehyung making out with a girl he doesn't even remember the name of.

Jeongguk accidentally let out a gasp, making the two break their sloppy kiss and turn their heads to look at him, surprise and embarrassment quickly went to the girl's face, shaking herself off of Taehyung's arms. She immediately fixes her hair and clothes, avoiding eye contact with Jeongguk.

"I- um, see you later Taehyung, call me alright?" The girl quickly pecks his lips and rushes to leave, not even bothering to look at Jeongguk who just stood there in shock.

The doe eyed male's eyes follow the girl until she's finally out of her sight and then slowly, he turns around to look at Taehyung who's glare is cold as ice.

"What are you doing here?" His voice was deep. Too deep that sent shivers down Jeongguk's spine.

Jeongguk didn't know what to say. He felt himself melting under Taehyung's burning gaze. The words were stuck in his throat.

Taehyung's voice might be deeper than the pits of hell, he thinks.

And his doe eyes became even bigger when he saw Taehyung take a step forward closer to him, dragging his feet to get closer.

As if Medusa just magically turned him into a statue, Jeongguk just stood there frozen, doe wide eyed until Taehyung finally stopped in front of him, a little bit closer to him and eyes still holding a glare.

"I ask once again, what are you doing here?"

"Am I now not allowed to be here?" Jeongguk managed to let out, his voice dripping with nervousness and he tried to contain himself, not wanting to let the male in front of him know that he's intimidated.

He has to admit and he knows that everyone already knows this but Kim Taehyung is very intimidating.

And it doesn't help that he's also his father's rival's son, making everything worse.

He just hopes that Taehyung doesn't even know his whole existence.

Taehyung's lip curled up into a small smile and Jeongguk's heart skipped a beat. The older male seemed amused.

"I asked you a question yet you answered it with another question. Just answer it properly, doll." Taehyung chuckles.

Jeongguk harshly gulps at the pet name. Why is he already calling him that? They've barely met and yet this man in front of him is already calling him such names.

It irks something inside of Jeongguk.

"This rooftop is my usual spot. I always come here every lunch break. Now let me ask you another question, what are you doing here?"

The question made Taehyung throw him another amused look and the doe eyed male furrows his eyebrows in confusion.

"You're really asking me that question? After you interrupted what I've been doing here? Are you perhaps blind?"

"I- You," This male is getting on Jeongguk's nerves now. How dare he!

"Look baby, this is my spot now. I came here first so therefore this is now my property, alright? But don't worry," Taehyung went closer to him and whispered in his ear, voice so deep and both hands in his pocket as he leaned in.

"We can share it together and no one knows what we'll be doing here."

"Woah woah excuse me?!" He pushes Taehyung off of him using his palm on the other's chest, eyes raging in irritation. "Who said I want to do anything with you?"

He was breathing heavily in rage. Who does Kim Taehyung think he is? He can't just do that!

"You're so annoying, Kim. Just leave here please. I don't want to argue with you. This is my place first. You're just a transferee here."

The smirk on Taehyung's face never left as he just stood there staring at the boy amused. He found Jeon Jungkook cute.

Yes, he caught his eye. The son of his father's rival. He had never seen him before but now, he sure is gonna kill his father. How come he didn't know this pretty boy's existence before? The mere thought sent irritation in his veins but he's glad he had finally met him.

No one knows that Kim Taehyung is into boys, pretty boys to be exact. His father had accidentally found out about it and that is the exact reason why he transferred here. He was seen on top of this small cute guy from his class and that sent his father into rage.

It wasn't serious though. He had just found him attractive and tested the waters. Taehyung doesn't care if his father had found out, doesn't mind getting yelled at and hearing homophobic marks every chance he gets.

All he knows is that he doesn't mind liking males. He had already quite made a reputation of being a playboy who likes to play with girls feelings. He likes to fool around.

But at the same time, he also doesn't want everyone to know his real sexuality. It's still looked down upon in this era.

And looking at Jeon Jeongguk in front of him, he felt himself dancing with chaos. Every time Jeongguk speaks, he feels his heart bursting into fireworks.

"Okay."

"Okay what?"

Taehyung sighs. "I'll leave this spot and I will never come here but in one condition."

Jeongguk frowns. "Okay and what is it?"

"I wanna court you. Go on a date with me." Taehyung says.

Jeongguk's doe eyes had never widened so wide before. Taehyung found it cute. He looks like a deer caught in headlights.

"What?! Go on a date with you?! Are you serious?" He yells.

The doe eyed male didn't expect that. The most handsome man that he has probably seen in his whole life, standing in front of him, wants to go out with him and wants to court him?

Oh, his head wants to explode.

"Yes. I want to court you because you're beautiful, Jeongguk-ah. It makes me want to do things with you." He leans in again, words almost quiet as he whispers while staring right back at him.

Taehyung's straightforwardness is sending Jeongguk into a spiral.

"You don't even know me, asshole."

"So? I'm going to get what I want and I want you."

The frown in Jeongguk's face deepens and he scoffs.

"I'm sorry but I won't go on dates with someone like you who just wants to get into my pants! Fuck off!"

And then Jeongguk turned around, quickly leaving Taehyung and went to the door to leave. He hears the other male chuckles and he badly just wants to explode from anger right and there.

No, he knows guys like Taehyung. He will never let him get close to him or even get to know him. To Jeongguk, Taehyung will just be a speck of dust in the background. He is nothing to him.

He wants his first dating experience with someone who is a decent good guy.

Taehyung grins as he watches Jeongguk slowly disappear from his sight. He finds the doe eyedmale being angry at him adorable.

"Don't worry! I'll do everything I can to make you date me. Just you wait, bunny!"

And Taehyung proved his words.

Because after that, he never left Jeongguk alone.

There are bouquets of flowers inside of Jeongguk's lockers and a letter, making him stand there in shock.

I hope you know how to do CPR, you took my breath away today with your beauty :)

P.S, I won't stop until you say yes ^_^

- T. H

Jeongguk slammed his locker so harshly that it made Jimin beside him flinch. He rolls his eyes and huffs in annoyance.

"Woahhh, where did this letter come from?" Jimin snatches the letter from his hands.

He grits his teeth. "No one."

Jeongguk was at the library, reviewing his paper for his upcoming quiz in mathematics when suddenly a boy from lower grade came up to his table holding three bottles of banana milk and a bunch of hershey chocolates.

He instantly drops his pen in shock. "W-What-"

"Kim Taehyung just gave these to you." A boy from lower grade, Felix says.

And before Jeongguk could come up with a protest, Felix ran away, leaving him there stunned in his seat.

He's so serious in courting me, huh? Jeongguk thinks.

He scoffs again. He can't just throw away all of these because his stomach growls, indicating that it's in need of food.

Jeongguk sighs. He has no choice but to eat these.

Wait, how did he know I like banana milk?

He had been studying here at the library for two hours straight, not even bothering eating lunch. His glasses fell on his nose as he read, three thick books laying on his table.

Taehyung finds him not only beautiful but at the same time hot.

Because how can someone be that beautiful and have brains as well?

Everyone knows that Jeongguk is a straight A student. The soon to be President of the Class and also aiming for the position of Valedictorian himself.

Jeongguk is like a cage and Taehyung wants to get in, wants to get inside of his heart.

Whenever they meet each other's eyes on the hallways and cafeterias, Jeongguk's heart starts to beat fast as he always catches Taehyung smiling at him.

Taehyung has been watching him like a hawk from afar, developing a crush.

Yes, he had come to know that the doe eyed male likes banana milks from the way Jeongguk constantly drinks it every damn time. He always sees him drinking it.

The sharp eyed male is known to be cold yet here he was, always throwing flirty glances and winks at him and Jeongguk doesn't even know anymore.

It's been two weeks since that fateful day at the rooftop. Jeongguk had been the same, going to that place but indeed, Taehyung manages to be true to his words because he hasn't seen him enter his hiding spot ever since.

Two weeks of dealing with the sneaky sharp eyed male who is constantly sending him letters, gifts, foods, etc.

Not gonna lie but Jeongguk is starting to like the attention, he is constantly finding himself anticipating each and every single thing Taehyung gives, secretly liking it but hell, he won't admit it, at least not yet.

He just doesn't want to get his heart broken. Not when Kim Taehyung is claimed as a straight guy by everyone in the school.

And who is Jeon Jeongguk,a closeted gay who only cares about his studies, suddenly got the attention of the most handsome man in the whole school?

It's gotta be a joke. Taehyung is just messing with him.

Right?

"Someone already paid for your hamburger and large fries. I wonder who it could be. I don't know any gays around here." Jimin says.

Both of them are now in the cafeteria sitting on their usual table. Jeongguk lowers his head and tries to avoid making eye contact with Taehyung who is now staring at him hard not too far away.

"I have no idea." Answers Jeongguk who casually sips his drink.

"I heard Kim Taehyung from Class B is rejecting girls. I can't believe it."

Jeongguk stops drinking. "What?"

"Yeah, it's been a big buzz. Apparently he rejected Yura, you know, your rival? And other girls as well. Usually he would sleep with them but now I guess he stopped. I wonder why." Jimin shrugs.

Oh. Jeongguk's eyes slowly looked at Taehyung's direction whose face was blank while his other friends beside him were laughing at something.

He stares at him for a few seconds and wonders if Kim Taehyung is truly straight and isn't just toying with him.

Fucking hell, he hasn't even told about this to Jimin! His best friend would just laugh at him and tell him to stop being delusional because how on earth would the straightest guy in school would even court him?

He just decided to keep this as a secret for the meantime.

His thoughts were cut off when his doe eyes met with those sharp eyes once again.

Taehyung gave him a small smile and waved his hand at him, making him widen his eyes and immediately looked away, his cheeks reddening.

Fuck, I got caught staring, what the hell Jeongguk?! He scolds himself.

It is now time for his quiz bee in math and Jeongguk, unfortunately, feels like he could pee from his pants from the nervousness and anxiety seething in his chest.

If he could ace this quiz then he'll have the highest grade in the class. This is his favorite subject and the one he aces the most.

It is also his rival, Yura's weakest subject.

The girl has been his academic rival for years now, always coming second and him being the first. When they graduated elementary, Jeongguk was the valedictorian and Yura was the salutatorian.

And he knows that Yura has been hating his guts ever since then.

Unable to control it anymore, he raises his hand. "Um, can I go to the restroom please? It'll be really quick I promise."

There's only seventeen minutes before the quiz starts and Jeongguk is now eager to go to the bathroom.

"Alright, go ahead Mr. Jeon." The teacher tilted her head to the door and Jeongguk thanked her.

He doesn't know that this will be one of the worst mistakes he will ever make.

Jeongguk quickly opens the door of the cubicle and immediately shuts it. He really needed to pee.

He didn't notice that someone outside the restroom had locked the door.

Jeongguk sighs in relief and finally zips his pants before coming out of the cubicle to wash his hands. Once he's done, he opened the door of the restroom but it was locked.

"What the," He tried to open it but it wouldn't budge.

He was also the only person in the restroom.

Panic immediately rose in his chest as he kept trying to open the door. "Help! Someone open the door please!"

The door wouldn't open and tears started to spill from his eyes. The anxiety became worse as minutes passed by.

"Fuck why is it locked? No no no help please! Somebody!"

He has a quiz bee starting in a few minutes right now and he can't miss that. Jeongguk bangs violently on the door.

"Please, I'm stuck here! Open the door!"

He didn't stop, he continued banging on the door and the panic worsens. He is now crying. How could someone do this to him?!

Unknown to him, Yura was laughing quietly as she hears Jeongguk screaming and shouting for help before scurrying back to the classroom, the quiz bee is about to start.

"Where is Mr. Jeon?" The teacher suspiciously eyes Yura who just came back.

She eyes her innocently. "Oh him? I just saw him running out of the school. He had left."

Mrs. Seong narrows her eyes at her. "But he had left his things here, no?"

Yura only innocently shrugs which made Mrs. Seong heavily sigh.

"Alright, we'll start without Mr. Jeon. We need to proceed with the quiz bee now."

Meanwhile, Jeongguk had been crying non stop for thirty minutes from now, still banging and shouting for help.

"Please! Anyone, help me!" He cried violently as he slid helplessly down onto the floor.

He had already missed the quiz bee and he knew that he had already failed it. He doesn't know how to come up with an excuse if his parents come to know about it.

His parents- of fucking course, they wouldn't believe him being locked up here alone in the restroom. Instead, they'll just blame him and Jeongguk already knows that.

He already anticipates their scoldings and harsh words that were about to come after this.

Jeongguk is also unable to call Jimin from his beeper. At this unfortunate time, he blames himself for not carrying when he needed it.

"Help me! Please somebody!" He yells again.

Fortunately, as if the heavens finally heard his pleas, he heard Taehyung's voice from outside that gave him hope.

"Jeongguk? Jeongguk, is that you?!"

His doe eyes widens, "Yes! Taehyung, it's me! Please unlock the door I'm stuck in here."

"Fuck." He hears Taehyung curses. "All right angel, stay away from the door, yeah? I'm about to break it open. Just stay put."

Surprisingly, Jeongguk complied with his orders and stayed back away from the door. He couldn't stop crying and his eyes were bloodshot, hair messy.

He flinches harshly when he hears Taehyung continuously breaking the door.

He put both of his hands to cover his ears and just silently weeps there. The only thing his mind could focus on was the quiz bee he had been studying all night for weeks, just to be wasted and gone for nothing.

"Jeongguk!"

His doe eyed eyes open and is suddenly met with a bone crushing hug by Taehyung who finally breaks down the door, quickly capturing him in a hug to comfort him.

"Shh, I'm here." His deep comforting voice made Jeongguk cry even more in his arms and unconsciously, he wrapped both of his arms on his neck.

Taehyung could feel the pain in his chest when he hears Jeongguk's cries and he lets go of the hug, cupping both of his cheeks.

The doe eyed male's face is red from crying and the sudden urge to kiss the pain away enters Taehyung's system but he tries to hold himself back, focusing on comforting the bunny boy.

"It's okay, bun. You're fine now." Taehyung comforts him.

This is the first time Taehyung comforted someone. He usually wouldn't even care about the others, not even his own friends but Jeongguk,

Jeongguk is different.

His cold facade breaks down when he gazes at him so softly that it gives Jeongguk butterflies in his stomach.

"What happened, hmm? Care to tell me, bun?"

"I-" Jeongguk tries to speak yet the overflowing sadness stills in his chest. His throat was sore as he kept shouting for help earlier.

Taehyung notices his struggle to speak and so he hugs him again, comforting the boy.

"It's alright, you can say it later. I won't force you."

He felt Jeongguk nod his head at his words.

"What'd you say hmm? You want to go for an ice cream?" He asks, hoping it would calm the bunny boy down.

"W-Why are you doing this?" Jeongguk looks up to meet his eyes and sniffles. "Why are you suddenly so interested in a guy like me? Huh? Are you playing with me? Were you doing this because of a bet?"

"No- no god, no Jeongguk. I'm not like my friends. I would never do that to you." Taehyung explains and suddenly something aches deep down in his heart when he hears those words coming out of Jeongguk's mouth.

"The first time I saw you, I just knew I had to get to know you. It's not everyday you see an exquisite piece of art walking pass by you, isn't it? You're like something different and I promise I have no ill intentions. Even if..." Taehyung trails and Jeongguk immediately caughts on.

"Even if both of our fathers are rivals, right? Isn't that what you wanted to say?" Jeongguk says.

He saw the sharp eyed male sigh deeply. "I don't care if both of our fathers are rivals. I want to get to know you so bad, Jeon Jeongguk."

"I can't believe the Kim Taehyung is gay." Jeongguk chuckles, which makes Taehyung scoff.

"You're right but I'm still not ready for everyone to know about it."

"So, what do you want?"

"I want to be friends with you and hopefully along the way, you fall in love with me and then we finally date. Boyfriends." Taehyung grins.

"But studying is my top priority right now so you'll have to wait." Jeongguk finally grins back at him.

"Then I'll guess I have to wait for you, angel."

"Oh really?"

"Yep, just for you."

After that, the two had decided to go to Mrs. Seong's office first, hoping that Jeongguk would still be able to do the quiz bee.

Mrs. Seong had told him that he will never be able to participate in it anymore, that he has no grades for the subject anymore.

But how lucky Jeongguk was because Kim Taehyung was there right beside him, finally able to convince Mrs. Seong gave Jeongguk another chance which made the woman give in to Taehyung's request, letting Jeongguk to take another test.

To say, the doe eyed male was very grateful for Taehyung indeed. He had never felt so happy before and without knowing, he pulled him in a hug, startling Taehyung.

"Thank you! Thank you so much!" Jeongguk's bunny smile is now peeking out. His smile is bigger than ever before.

Taehyung felt the happiness swell in his chest and he hugged Jeongguk even tighter, feeling the warmth of the doe eyed male closer to him.

"You're welcome, baby."

It's not a surprise anymore that Jeongguk was able to ace the quiz bee, making Yura grit her teeth in anger as the doe eyed male once again surpasses her.

She thought that locking Jeongguk alone would be a success.

Apparently, it did not.

She did everything just so the doe eyed male wouldn't become the first place again yet all her efforts were wasted when Jeongguk was able to ace it again. She blames herself thinking that only getting one answer wrong would put her on the top.

Oh, she was wrong.

After that bathroom incident, Jeongguk didn't talk about it to Jimin, not wanting his best friend to worry sick for him. He had never felt so scared and alone before but thankfully, Taehyung had found him.

Also the same male who he is now secretly going on dates with.

The ever growing bond between the two of them is a top secret. No one knows that both of them are going on dates.

Not even Taehyung's friends or Jimin knows about this.

Their first date happened at the arcades.

Taehyung won a lot of games just for Jeongguk, getting him huge stuffed toys and teddy bears which he found out were basically Jeongguk's favorites.

They talked a lot about their lives, getting to know each other.

Jeongguk was presenting himself to Taehyung like an open book and Taehyung was eager to read him until the end.

Whenever at school when they always walk past, Taehyung can't help it but to send a wink at him, always managing to make a blushing mess of a Jeon Jeongguk.

"Are you okay? You look red." Fuck, Jimin notices.

Flustered, Jeongguk immediately shook his head no. "I-I'm fine chim. Let's just go to our class."

There was one time when they were at the gymnasium, at the school flag ceremony where each and every single student needed to attend, Jeongguk could feel Taehyung's hand secretly brushing against his, hoping to touch him.

Their shoulders bumping at each other whenever they walk past each other in the hallways and Taehyung's sly smirk when they feel each other's touch sends a spark of fireworks in Jeongguk's chest.

Or the lingering stare of Taehyung whenever they eat at the cafeteria. The other male's gaze never left him.

Or when Taehyung got into detention for being late to class and Jeongguk, the top student, purposely failed his quiz in English, just to be in detention alone with Taehyung.

The second date happened at the amusement park.

The two of them had decided to cut classes and surprisingly, Jeongguk let it happen. It's his first time cutting classes and he's not gonna lie, he felt the adrenaline rush pumping in his veins.

It feels good to break the rules just for once. Jeongguk didn't mind it. He liked the feeling.

He liked the feeling of being with Taehyung.

And of course, the sharp eyed male also feels the same way with Jeongguk.

They rode countless rides, the ferris wheel, the caterpillar ride, the roller coaster, everything the amusement park could offer for them.

They also went to the photobooth to take pictures of themselves.

They went into different poses such as hugging, Taehyung kissing Jeongguk in the cheek while the doe eyed male smiled widely, giving peace signs and wacky faces on the camera.

Jeongguk also sits on Taehyung's lap, wrapping his arms around his neck as the flash of the camera goes bright.

They looked lively. They looked so happy. Hearts filled with both bliss and content.

The third date happened at the beach.

It was just the two of them, their hands intertwined with each other as Taehyung drove the car with one hand while the big smile on Jeongguk's face never left.

It was also the second time Jeongguk decided to cut class just to be with Taehyung.

He knows it's over now. He is falling for Kim Taehyung, the known cold playboy in the school.

Jeongguk knows there is no turning back. He is falling so fast like a gold rush.

Taehyung's smile looks so beautiful and mesmerizing like the bright sunlight in the morning and Jeongguk wakes up everyday just to see that smile.

He can never look away.

The sand feels so soft in his feet, waves crashing on the shore and the wind kisses his skin, Jeongguk feels himself getting lifted up into the air and he squeals in surprise.

"Tae!"

Taehyung only laughs as Jeongguk quickly latches onto him and wraps both of his arms on his neck and legs on his waist for support.

Taehyung smiles widely at him, giving him his beautiful boxy smile that Jeongguk had come to adore and kisses his button nose so gently.

"How are you liking it so far with me hmm? Do you like it?"

The other male had set up a perfect picnic date here at the beach and Jeongguk just wanted to cry how much Taehyung put effort just for him.

"Yes. I like it. So so much." Jeongguk repeatedly kissed Taehyung's nose which made the other laugh loudly.

"Fuck, Jeongguk, you'll be the death of me someday."

Both of them are now shirtless and only wearing jersey shorts.

The doe eyed male tried to not let his eyes linger on Taehyung's abs but he always fails when he's always caught by Taehyung himself and sending a flirtatious wink on his way.

"Oh really? Are you sure about that?" Jeongguk grins.

"Yep and you're also the reason why I breathe, the reason why I always wake up in the morning, smiling at the thought of seeing you every single day. You're the reason why I'm helplessly falling in love with you."

There, Taehyung finally says it. He finally confesses to Jeongguk.

"So angel, can I be your boyfriend?"

And who is Jeongguk to say no when he also feels the same way?

Jeongguk gave him the biggest smile on his face, which made Taehyung feel more things.

"Yes, I will be your boyfriend Kim Taehyung."

Hearing those words from the breathtaking beauty in front of him, Taehyung pulled Jeongguk closer to him and passionately kissed him while the sun set in the background, painting the sky with its beautiful bright orange.

The love between them finally blooms like flowers, becoming a whole garden.

Jeongguk harshly bits Taehyung's bottom lip which draws blood, making Taehyung hisses in pain and looks at him surprised.

"Baby, what-"

Jeongguk stuck his tongue out at him. "Come and catch me!"

Taehyung grins widely as he runs after Jeongguk on the beach.

He could feel the waves touching his feet as he finally caught the doe eyed male in his arms who only laughed harder.

Taehyung playfully twirls him around, earning another joyful laughter from Jeongguk's mouth.

He felt like he's in paradise and his paradise is being with Jeongguk, the one who managed to break down his walls and also the one who single handedly captured his soul and his heart.

"Fuck, I love you so damn much baby. You have no idea." Says Taehyung as he kisses Jeongguk passionately again on the lips.

The day had sadly already ended and it was now time to go home. Jeongguk was waving his hand at Taehyung who finally drove away with his car, leaving the doe eyed male standing in front of their gate.

"Jeongguk? Where were you? It's already midnight!"

His mother's voice startled him and he immediately turned around to see her standing not too far away from her, arms crossed and eyes sending daggers at him.

Jeongguk gulps harshly, trying to not look nervous.

"I-I went to my classmate's house. We did a project together due two days from now."

He internally scolds himself after that. Fuck, he hopes his mother didn't notice the way he stuttered.

But it seems luck is on with him tonight as his mother just heaved out a sigh and turned around to go back inside their mansion.

"There's a pizza on the table. Don't forget to eat." It was all his mother could reply before leaving him standing there alone.

Their relationship is a secret to everyone. A forbidden one.

When Taehyung talks him through about it, the sharp eyed male seemed sorry about it, that Jeongguk deserves someone who would proudly show him off to everyone but the doe eyed male merely just brushes it off, saying it's okay for him.

Just as long as Taehyung will continue to love him and never hurt him.

"You'll always be my baby, no one else. No one." Taehyung assures him as he kisses his forehead and gently hugs him.

They almost forgot that everyone around them are still not open about homosexual relationships and that if Taehyung's friends come to know about this and the whole school...

Jeongguk fears that everyone will hate Taehyung just because he is dating him, a male and also the school's nerd.

"I am yours and you are mine, Jeongguk. Never forget that."

It was hard to be honest, it's hard that he couldn't even touch or hug Taehyung in front of everyone in the school.

Whenever Jeonguk always comes up an excuse to go to the restroom and gets out of the classroom, seemingly waiting for someone to appear, Taehyung, who always waits for Jeongguk, comes out from his hiding and pulls him to a storage room, unable to contain himself as he kisses him passionately, trapping the doe eyed male against the wall with both of his arms, the two of them heavily making out.

Both of their friends are getting heavily suspicious about them.

With Jimin always noticing Jeongguk spacing out, his rosy lips look swollen and small hickeys on his neck...

He also notices his grades slowly drop. Jeongguk doesn't even realize that he's failing.

"When you were absent days ago, we had a quiz in Literature." Jimin told him which made Jeongguk stop in his tracks.

"Wait, there was a quiz?!"

Jimin looks at him almost disappointed.

"Yeah and we also wrote five thousand words of essays in History and Math. There's no deadline anymore. It's already graded."

Jeongguk's face grimaces.

"Hey, gguk, is there something wrong? I've been noticing something off about you these past few days. Are you okay? This is not like you before."

"How come you didn't tell me?"

"Well I tried alright? I tried calling you on the telephone yet it seems like you were talking to someone else." Jimin snaps.

Jeongguk feels conflicted. He doesn't know if he has to tell Jimin or not about his relationship with Taehyung.

"Gguk, I know you are seeing someone. Can you please just tell me who is it? I thought I'm your best friend!"

"It's Taehyung alright! I'm dating Taehyung." There, Jeongguk finally says it.

Jimin stood there, stunned. Silence quickly fell between them. Jeongguk was breathing heavily and looked at his best friend's reaction.

It seems like Jimin did not believe his words, as expected.

"Jimin-"

"So it's true."

"Huh?"

"There is a reason why Taehyung keeps rejecting girls." Jimin says slowly, his eyes still widening in shock and studies Jeongguk's appearance.

He continues. "I always notice him looking at you yet I shrugged it off thinking it's just because you are attractive but holy shit I didn't know it would come to a point where you two are dating. In secret!"

"Shhh! Someone might hear you!" Jeongguk shushes him.

But Jimin did not stop, the revelation hadn't sunk into him yet.

"I mean I'm not gonna lie and I'm gonna be honest but you two actually looked good together." Jimin compliments

"Err, thank you I guess?"

"And I can't believe the Kim Taehyung is gay. Woah I never expected that?!" Jimin almost yells and Jeongguk shushes him again to silence his voice.

"Chim-"

"I understand if you guys kept your relationship a secret. Both of your fathers are rivals and well, there's a lot of homophobes around. It must've been scary, fuck, I'm sorry if you felt like Im going to be mad which I'm not but-"

"Hey, chim, it's okay. It's fine. I'm glad I don't have anything to hide from you now. I'm glad you understand." Jeongguk reassures him.

"Of course I understand! I am your best friend since diapers, Jeongguk! I am not going to be mad and be against your relationship. In fact, I will help and keep this as a secret. Believe me, I support you guys. Gays help each other right?"

Jeongguk laughs at his words. "Yeah, you're right I suppose."

Every night whenever he goes to sleep, Taehyung always sends him a sweet message on his beeper, never failing to make him blush and feel special.

I'LL ALWAYS LOVE YOU

GOOD NIGHT, DREAM OF ME ALRIGHT? I LOVE YOU

WHY ARE YOU SO BEAUTIFUL? IT MESSES MY MIND SO MUCH

I'M LUCKY TO HAVE YOU

YOU'RE ONLY FOR ME, JEONGGUK ONLY YOU

These words of Taehyung always manage to make him smile so hard, always feeling the bliss swelling in his chest as he continues to chat with him through his beeper.

I LOVE YOU TOO TAEHYUNG, ALWAYS.

I'LL BE DREAMING OF YOU, GOOD NIGHTIE.

The two males had spent time with each other on their hiding spot, the rooftop.

With Taehyung behind his back, wrapping both of his arms on his waist as Jeongguk sits on his lap and laid on his chest, both of them were eating their chips, feeling the cold air against their skins.

"Jimin already knows about our relationship. I'm sorry if I didn't tell you earlier. I had no choice, he kept getting suspicious and I kind of just gave in." Jeongguk pouts.

Taehyung finds his pouting adorable and squeezes his adorable cheeks, making Jeongguk pout even more.

"Hey, it hurts!"

"Sorry bun, it's just you're too cute I can't help it." Taehyung chuckles and kisses the crown of Jeongguk's head.

"It's alright if Jimin already knows about it, he's your best friend after all, baby. You needed someone else to talk about it other than me."

Jeongguk turns his head to look at him. "What about you, hmm? Do your friends know about us as well?"

"They do and they don't mind it." Taehyung delivers another kiss on Jeongguk's rosy lips.

Jeongguk sighs in content. "I'm glad they do. When will I be meeting them?"

"Soon. Very soon, my love."

"Hmmm." Jeongguk hummed as he played with Taehyung's fingers. "Did you know we met each other on my birthday?"

"Wait, that day was your birthday, baby?" Taehyung looks at him wide eyed.

"Yep and I'm so glad I met you on my seventeenth birthday, Taehyungie." He looks at him so fondly at his boyfriend.

"And I'm so glad I met you that time, my angel flower. No art gallery could ever compete with your everlasting beauty Jeongguk. Not even Vincent van Gogh's paintings themselves. No one compares, only you baby. Fuck, only you."

He kisses Jeongguk so hard, his kisses filled with so much love and adoration only reserved for the doe eyed bunny male in his arms.

After their kissing session filled with a burning passion for each other, they just sat there in each other's arms. Jeongguk doesn't even care if he has classes right now.

He had never felt so free, so happy and content and he only felt that with Taehyung.

He had been sitting in the cage for too long provided by his parents, always putting these heavy expectations on his shoulders and he even felt like a puppet.

Being with Taehyung made him feel like himself. He had been focusing on his studies so much that he had forgotten that there is also the outside world, where he can have fun and experience a lot of new things.

It is also the same thing with Taehyung. He's the happiest when he's with Jeongguk. The doe eyed male is his anchor, his safe place and his entire world revolves solely around him.

"My father wants me to take over his business but I don't want any of that." Taehyung heavily sighs as he explains the whole thing to his lover.

"I want to become a film director someday. It's been my dream ever since I was a child and my father doesn't want that." Taehyung chuckles.

Jeongguk immediately senses the sadness radiating off of Taehyung and so he turns around to give him the biggest hug, comforting him.

"You'll be a film director someday, Taehyungie. I promise you that. No matter how much your father doesn't want it, promise me that you'll become what you always wanted to be, okay? For me, please?" He cups Taehyung's cheeks,

Taehyung feels every bit of love that he has for Jeongguk in his chest.

He fell even more harder to the doe eyed male in his arms, he fell so hard he couldn't even think about anything else anymore.

He caresses his hand on Jeongguk as well and stares at him so lovingly.

"Alright. I promise I'll become a film director and achieve my dreams just for you, my bun."

"Good." He saw Jeongguk grins.

"Because I'm also gonna achieve my dream as well. My father also wants me to take over our company but I also don't want any of that."

Taehyung smiles widely at him, getting endeared to the way Jeongguk talks.

"I want to become a photographer and hopefully someday, I'll be able to open my own photo gallery!" He claps his hand cutely.

"That's true. We'll achieve both of our dreams, yeah? And we'll have this cozy house just to ourselves, with you married to me." Taehyung says and nuzzles his nose to Jeongguk, earning a loud laughter from his love.

"Someday in the future, Tae. Someday."

"Even if we are already boyfriends, I'm still gonna court you, Jeongguk. I'm gonna court you forever."

He nuzzles his nose against his baby's neck, earning a loud laugh from Jeongguk.

The two males went on another date after that but this time, it's at the cinemas.

It was Saturday and Taehyung purposely drove to Busan just so no one could see and recognize the two of them alone.

Just the two of them, on a road trip.

Where they could be free of themselves.

During the whole ride, Jeongguk was asleep like a log and from time to time, Taehyung couldn't help but to take a look at him, finding him so adorable, covered in a thick blanket beside him.

"Come on, let's buy popcorn first!" Jeongguk excitedly says and drags Taehyung with him at the popcorn stand.

They are gonna watch Titanic, a new movie that has been talked about by everyone these days and Jeongguk can't wait to see his biggest crush Leonardo Dicaprio on the big screen again.

The line was long and the mall was packed with a lot of people yet it didn't stop both of them from seeing the movie.

The two had finally gotten their popcorn ready, patiently waiting in the line when suddenly the entrance of the cinema suddenly opened, bringing out the audience that had finally finished the movie.

Jeongguk frowns as he watches them getting out of the large door, with heavy tears in their eyes.

"Woah, what's going on? Why are you crying?" Jeongguk's curiosity got the best of him.

Was the movie that bad? Why do they all look so sad? He thinks.

"Jack dies!" One of them shouts that instantly caught Jeongguk's reaction, spoiling the huge part of the movie for everyone.

"Wait what?!"

And the guy who shouted never lied.

It is true that Jack died in the Titanic.

Making Jeongguk a crying mess inside the cinema as the big screen showed how Rose lets Jack go into the depths of the water.

The only thing Taehyung could do at that time was to comfort and hug the doe eyed male who cried even harder, not expecting how the movie had turned out.

Taehyung just laughs at how adorable Jeongguk is and he just felt the need to protect and spoon feed his lover after that date.

"It was a sad ending! How dare Jack die?! This is so unfair! Rose should have never let him go!" Jeongguk whines as they finally get outside of the cinema.

Taehyung laughs at his cuteness.

"I'll never be like Rose, baby. I'll never let you go."

"Pshh! You better be! Because you're always mine and I'm yours." Jeongguk wraps his arms around his neck and kisses him on the lips.

It was already midnight and the two males are now heavily making out inside of Taehyung's car.

Jeongguk could feel the sharp eyed man's hands inside his shirt, roaming all over his skin.

He feels so hot and his eyes filled with want.

Taehyung kisses him hard this time, no sign of gentleness as he roams his tongue inside of Jeongguk's mouth while his other hand pinches the other male's nipple, making Jeongguk let out a low moan.

"Fuck, I need you so much." Jeongguk says between the passionate kiss they share.

Taehyung's hands that were inside of his shirt slowly travels down until it reaches his clothed crotch, slowly massaging it.

"T-Taehyungie," he cries out, his voice shaky, so desperate for the other male's touch.

"T-Touch me please,"

"My baby wants me to touch him?" Taehyung's lips moved to his neck, sucking hard deeply, making Jeongguk arch his back and let out another moan.

"Y-Yes please, fuck, want you touch me."

Taehyung immediately stops sucking his neck and looks him straight in the eyes.

He was hovering the doe eyed male, watching as he writhed and looked so wrecked already just by his touch laying underneath him.

"Jeongguk, baby, do you want to do this?"

Taehyung doesn't need to ask. He has Jeongguk's full permission.

"Yes, I want to do this with you,Tae. I want my first time with you. I want you so much."

And Taehyung is so endeared that he kisses Jeongguk's forehead, feeling all the emotions attacking him like the waves attack the shore.

"What my baby wants, he gets."

They had made love under the stars that night.

Loud moans, skin slapping, every word of promise falling out of Taehyung's mouth as he thrusted in and out of Jeongguk's hole, promising to love him even if all stars in the universe burn out.

He'll always love him until the end.

The stars and the beautiful moon were the only witnesses of their passionate love for each other.

Jeongguk could feel how much Taehyung loved him that night.

The sharp eyed male was so gentle, so loving that he cried when he heard him proclaiming his love to him once again.

"I'm in love with you too, Taehyungie. So much."

They finally went home after that, having the whole day all by themselves.

Jeongguk was walking towards his room and was about to go inside when he heard his own mother calling for him downstairs.

"Jeon Jeongguk!"

He stills.

"Jeon Jeongguk, come right here in an instant!"

He immediately went downstairs and he was met at the sight of his mom holding a piece of paper, a huge frown plastered on her beautiful face

"Yes, mother, what is it?"

"What is this?!" His mom shoved him the paper harshly.

"Why are your grades so low? Huh? You are failing Jeongguk!"

Jeongguk gulped and only looked down in shame, tears threatening to spill out from his eyes.

"Answer me!" He felt her grabbing her wrist.

"You have become a big disappointment to me Jeon Jeongguk! You have failing grades and I'm so ashamed to even call you my child! I don't want to have a failure living in my house. I told you that you need to be a valedictorian yet what did you do? You fucking dissapoint me!"

And Jeongguk snaps.

"Shut the fuck up mother!" He yells which made Mrs. Jeon looked at him in shock, not expecting her own child to shout back at her.

"You don't fucking understand! I am so tired. So fucking tired of always following your orders around like a puppy." He cries out.

"I always study to the point I'm so exhausted that I don't care about my mental health but all you care about is my grades. My goddamn grades! Fuck that shit! You never even cared for me. You don't even bother how I feel these days or ask if I'm fine. All you just wanted to hear was that if I did well in school and I'm sick and tired of that. Of you! Of everyone!"

Mrs. Jeon looked at him with eyes full of rage.

"I wanted to be a photographer. I wanted to do what I want and achieve my dreams yet you guys prevent me from doing the things I love. I'm just a puppet for you to control. I don't even feel like I'm your son at all."

Jeongguk cries violently.

"If I'm a disappointment to you then I'm sorry but you are also a disappointment to me as well. You failed as parents to me. I fucking hate you! You guys deserve hell!"

And a slap.

The sound of his mother's palm hitting him across the face echoes inside the whole mansion.

"I regret giving birth to you and giving you life. You should have been dead."

She grits her teeth and walks away, leaving Jeongguk standing there alone.

Jeongguk could only cry harder, unable to hide all of the violent sobs coming out of his mouth.

He ran away from there and went upstairs to his room and slammed the whole door shut, echoing in the whole mansion.

He cried and he cried.

Why is life so unfair? Why can't he do what he loves?

He doesn't deserve this.

He's only just a teenager. He deserves to have fun, not to dedicate his whole time to studying and pleasing his parents.

He wants to be a normal teenager for once.

And also loving someone he is free to love.

Taehyung.

His own boyfriend.

Jeongguk immediately sat up from his bed at the thought of his lover and went to grab the telephone to call him.

He sniffles as tears keep spilling from his eyes. He placed the telephone into his ear and waited for Taehyung to answer his call.

"Please pick up Taehyung. Please, I need you." He cries again, feeling the deep ache in his chest.

But Taehyung never answers.

Jeongguk slept that night with nothing but a heavy feeling in his chest. He had cried himself to sleep.

For the first time again, he felt alone. Taehyung, his own boyfriend, wasn't there to comfort him.

He had called him several times yet Taehyung never answered his call, making him cry even more.

"Taehyung, this is Yura, your fiance."

The male's face was only blank when the girl bowed herself in front of his parents.

He clenched his fist and tried to calm his anger down.

His parents had decided to throw him into an arranged marriage with their friends' daughter, Yura.

The same girl he had rejected before.

He wanted to protest and scream that he doesn't want this marriage but something was preventing him from speaking.

It feels like there's a pile of needles in his throat. He can't let the words out no matter what he wants.

Taehyung felt himself being controlled by his parents once again.

He's only seventeen turning eighteen in a month yet his parents had already engaged him with someone whom he doesn't love.

The only person that he truly wants is Jeon Jeongguk.

No one else.

But at this moment, he is weak. The only thing he could do is to follow his parents orders.

Because if he doesn't then he'll be nothing and be thrown out of the house.

The dinner was great to all of them except Taehyung who was secretly drowning in his misery.

Yura kept trying to speak with him but all she could receive were short sentences and nods.

It's obvious that Taehyung doesn't like her at all.

But it's okay, she can wait. She can make Taehyung fall for her in no time.

And she won't stop until she finally has him wrapped around her finger.

The girl knows that he and Jeongguk are in a secret relationship and she is very eager to break them apart.

And thankfully, her parents agreed to send her into a marriage with the Kims' son.

"I don't want to get married to her dad!" Taehyung was finally able to speak, voicing all of his emotions.

"Son, you need to marry her. It'll benefit our company." His dad says as he smokes.

"Fuck your company, dad. I've told you countless times I don't want to take over your position. It's not what I want." Taehyung grits his teeth in anger.

"I'm your father Taehyung and you need to obey every single fucking word I say. If you back out then I'll have no choice but to cut off your allowances and throw you into the streets with no money to fend for yourself, do you want that?"

Taehyung became silent, clenching his fist.

He hates his father so fucking much. He despises this whole family and he wishes that he could just run away.

He felt trapped and he had no choice but to obey his own family's orders.

Greeted with silence, Mr. Kim smirks.

"That's what I thought. Starting from now on, you will only accompany Yura in school. You'll court her, shower her gifts, take her onto dates, anything. Stay with her all the time because I know about your relationship with Jeon's son."

Taehyung's eyes went wide in horror.

"Yes, that's right. I know about Jeon Jeongguk and your secret disgusting relationship with him. You thought I wouldn't know? I have my men everywhere, Taehyung and I need you to stay the fuck away from him or else-"

Taehyung is now glaring violently at his own father, his eyes filled with burning anger.

How dare his own father mention the name of his angel-

"I'll destroy their company and their family's reputation will be ruined. You wouldn't want that to happen to your lover, hmm?"

The next day at school, Taehyung avoided Jeongguk.

The doe eyed male was surprised when he saw his own boyfriend accompanying his own rival.

Yura.

His hands were wrapped around her waist as they walked together in the hallways.

Taehyung's face remained blank and his eyes were almost lifeless. Jeongguk could notice it.

Seeing the two together sent deep pain into Jeongguk's chest.

He feels his breathing getting heavy and eyes filled with tears once again as he stood there in front of his locker, watching the two walk together.

His doe eyes met Taehyung's instantly and he badly wanted to cry over there. It's been a day and he already missed the older male so much.

The urge to keep Yura away from his boyfriend increases but he stops when he feels his heart break into pieces.

Taehyung ignores him and then kisses Yura's cheek in front of everyone.

All of the students were shocked to see both of them, but nothing compares to the feeling of Jeongguk who witnessed it.

His heart feels like it dropped down to the floor and someone crushed it into pieces.

He had been calling for Taehyung last night yet he was kissing another girl?

"Jeongguk," He hears Jimin calling for his name, he can identify the worried tone of Jimin.

"W-Why.." He was about to break down there but luckily Jimin stopped him before he could. "Why did he do that?"

Jimin looks at him with eyes filled with anger for Taehyung but mostly sadness and pity for his best friend.

"Come on, let's go to the restroom first, hmm?"

Both of them had quickly gone to the restroom and Jeongguk finally broke down.

It hurts so fucking much.

"H-He ignored me. He kissed Yura on the cheek and he wasn't even answering my calls last night. What did I do Jimin?" He wails.

"I don't know to be honest, Ggukie. I could clearly see that Taehyung's madly in love with you. I don't know what changed so suddenly but you need to talk about this with him urgently." Says Jimin.

Jeongguk hiccups. "Yeah, right. I'll talk to him about this. H-He can't just do that, not when we just made love last night."

Jimin can't help but to hug his best friend. He feels so angry at Taehyung for hurting Jeongguk.

His best friend doesn't deserve any of this.

"Shh, don't worry, everything will be alright."

But after their road trip to Busan, everything falls apart.

Because Jeongguk tried every chance he got just so he could talk to Taehyung but every time he did it, his boyfriend avoided him.

Taehyung ignores him for the whole day, arms wrapped around Yura's waist.

Jeongguk had never felt so heartbroken before.

It's been days yet Taehyung is ignoring him like he was just nothing but dirt.

He tried to approach him multiple times yet Yura was always there.

He had also been crying a lot multiple times these past few days that he could almost feel himself getting numb due to the violent pain in his chest.

It's also not getting help that he is indeed failing and now Yura had finally taken his spot as the top one in class and now soon to be valedictorian.

But it's okay, he doesn't want any of that. He just wishes he could talk to Taehyung about their relationship.

How can Taehyung do that to him? He can't help but to overthink over and over again, trying to find what he did wrong.

He had locked himself up in his room for a week now. Even though Taehyung had made him feel all the pain, he tried to make a mixtape just for him.

It all contains the love songs they shared and listened to. Taehyung's birthday is coming and Jeongguk wanted to give him a cassette tape.

He wrote the words on it with tears in his eyes.

A mixtape to my love Taehyungie. I Love You In Every Universe <3

Love, Jeongguk.

Jeongguk will not give up until he finally gets the answers. There has to be a reason why Taehyung suddenly avoids him.

Thankfully, Jimin is a social butterfly and scored him a meetup with Taehyung's friends. He had asked them why Taehyung is suddenly avoiding him.

They also wondered the same thing too because Taehyung had been also ignoring his friends as well.

It's been two weeks without communication and Jeongguk had enough.

He can't bear the pain anymore.

"I really need to talk to Taehyungie. Now." Jeongguk wipes the tears on his eyes and quickly runs inside the cafeteria where Taehyung and Yura are eating at the same table.

Jimin widens his eyes in horror. "Gukkie, no!"

"Taehyung!" Jeongguk yells, catching the attention of all students and their eyes fall on him.

"Kim Taehyung!"

He quickly walked to their table, his breathing became heavy yet the only thing he could focus on was his own boyfriend who is now looking at him with shock in his eyes.

"Jeongguk." Taehyung acknowledges and immediately stands up, meeting his gaze. "What are you doing?"

Hearing the older male's voice made Jeongguk cry even more.

He missed him so much. No calls, no texts from his beeper.

Two weeks without communication felt like hell to him.

"Why are you avoiding me?" He couldn't help but to ask.

Jeongguk doesn't care if everyone is staring at them right now, eyes filled with curiosity between the two of them.

"Jeongguk, you're acting crazy right now." Says Yura.

This made the doe eyed male angry at her words.

"Shut up! You took my Taehyung away from me! My own boyfriend!"

"Boyfriend?!" Everyone inside the cafeteria whispers.

Taehyung's eyes widened in horror. Everyone gave the two of them a disgusted look yet it seemed like Jeongguk doesn't even care, not one bit."

"Ggukie," Jimin tried to grab his arm but the male yanks it off and glares at Taehyung.

"Why are you avoiding me Taehyungie? Did I do something wrong? Why are you suddenly hanging out with her huh? Don't you know how much pain you've caused me?!" He yells, his chest filled with pain.

Taehyung gulps harshly. He could feel his heart breaking into pieces at the sight of his Jeongguk crying so hard because of him.

He looked thin and the dark circles under his eyes were visible.

Taehyung knew this was his own fault. He caused pain to his love and he can't help but to hate himself for that. He tried to control his tears at the heartbreaking sight.

He wanted to explain everything to him yet his father's men were everywhere.

Receiving no reply from Taehyung, Jeongguk just only laughed but you could hear the pain in his tone.

"You fucking kissed her on the cheek!" Jeongguk dabs his finger at Taehyung's chest. "You fucking kissed her. I thought you said I'm the only one you love huh? Then why are you..."

He's crying violently. His hands were shaky and tears wouldn't stop falling from his eyes.

Jeongguk looked pathetic.

"I never loved you, Jeongguk."

Jeongguk pauses and he could feel his whole world stop at the words.

"And we never had a relationship. I was never your boyfriend. Why would I date a faggot like you huh? You're a disgusting piece of shit." He sneers.

"T-Taehyungie..." Jeongguk chokes out, his chest aching in pain terribly.

Everyone in the cafeteria laughs at him, even with Taehyung who has a smirk on his face.

"Faggot!"

"What an attention seeker! No wonder he's failing!"

"What a liar!"

"He's just jealous of Yura and Taehyung's relationship that's why he's getting delusional."

He took a step back away from Taehyung, not expecting the most hurtful words he'll ever hear in his whole life coming out of his lover's mouth.

"I like Yura." Taehyung breathes out heavily.

"So you should leave with your pathetic excuse of a life and get out of here. You're embarrassing me, Jeongguk. I can't believe such boys like you fucking exists."

Jeongguk can't handle it anymore. The pain- the pain is fucking too much.

So he slapped Taehyung across the face.

His tears blurries his vision and his hands were now trembling terribly yet he stood on the ground.

Taehyung just said those words to him in front of everyone.

The person whom Jeongguk thought he could trust. His safe place.

But now he was wrong.

He was so wrong about Taehyung.

"I fucking trusted you." Jeongguk chokes out. "I gave you everything! My body, my love! Everything! You said you wouldn't hurt me yet here you are. I should've known. I shouldn't have let you come into my life Kim Taehyung! You fucking ruined me! I hate you! I fucking hate you!"

Those words were like knives stabbing violently into Taehyung's chest.

Taehyung looked at him with so much pain but Jeongguk is so hurt that he doesn't even care anymore.

"I regret loving you." Jeongguk says which broke Taehyung's heart.

"You kept me like a secret but I kept you like an oath, Taehyung! I didn't complain when you said you wanted our relationship to be secret even if I wanted you to show me off to everyone, to show that I'm yours and you're mine." He cries.

"And I regret falling in love with you, Kim Taehyung. I'm not gonna let you come into my life again. I loved you so much but I guess you just proved that you aren't worth it."

"You broke me like you broke your promise."

Taehyung bit his lip to prevent choking out sobs.

"J-Jeongguk-"

"You'll never see me again, Kim Taehyung. We're over."

Jeongguk turns around to leave and runs away, leaving Taehyung standing there with tears in his eyes.

"I'm so sorry, love." Taehyung whispers under his breath as he looks down, avoiding everyone's eyes.

Within those three weeks without Jeongguk beside him was hell yet Yura was there for him.

And sadly, he gained feelings for her.

Every night that he cries for Jeongguk, Yura always comes into his room, comforting him with sweet words.

Sometimes, he finds himself wanting to spend more time with her. He didn't know that he would be attracted to the girl he rejected months ago.

Yura was beautiful, kind and helpful. He's not gonna deny that.

There was one time where both of their parents forced them to go on a date and the two of them got to know each other.

He knows that he is just distracting himself from sadness by using Yura but he didn't know that he would come to like her afterwards.

All the promises he gave to Jeongguk were gone in a second when he felt Yura kissing his lips.

And he forgot everything.

Including Jeongguk.

The doe eyed male is crying heavily on Jimin's shoulders.

"W-Why would he s-say that?" He stutters, feeling every bit of his system screaming in pain.

Jimin cried with him, feeling sorry for his best friend. He wants to punch Taehyung right now but his best friend needs comfort first.

Jeongguk is much more important than everything else.

"I don't know, Ggukie. I don't know." Jimin hugs him tight.

"It hurts, Jimin. It hurts so much. How could he do that to me? Why did he change all of a sudden? Am I a joke to him, Jiminie?"

"Am I not enough?"

"No no don't think like that, Jeongguk." Jimin is now crying along with him.

He wipes the tears from Jeongguk's eyes. The doe eyed male looks so lifeless and broken and he couldn't help but to cry.

"Listen to me," Jimin starts. "Don't you ever, ever think like that, okay? You are enough, Jeon Jeongguk, You are more than enough. It breaks my heart that you think so low of yourself like that. It's not your fault. If anything, it's Taehyung who fucking hurt you. He's not worth your tears. He just lost a gem and that gem is you, Ggukie. It's his loss, not yours."

Jeongguk could only nod his head at his words yet it still didn't lessen the pain in his chest.

Because after all, he still loves Taehyung.

He is dumb and naive sure but he's just a kid who just wanted to be loved.

With a few remaining strength left, he yanks himself out of Jimin's embrace and runs away to go straight to Taehyung's house.

"Jeongguk, wait! Where are you going-"

He kept running and running as the heavy rain fell over him. He was drenched but he didn't care.

He needed to see Taehyung again.

His heart is crying out for the male. Every single vein in his body is aching for Taehyung even if he had hurt him too much.

Love is such a foolish thing and Jeongguk is a fool.

The sky was dark and it was raining so heavily. The thunder made Jeongguk flinch at its sound yet he just kept running until he finally reached Taehyung's house.

The mansion and the gate were huge. Jeongguk kept looking for Taehyung through the windows.

"Taehyung! Please, it's me, Jeongguk!"

No one hears his pleas.

"P-Please I take it back. I don't want to be without you Taehyungie, please..." He cries under the heavy rain.

But his heart shattered into pieces once again when he saw Taehyung and Yura kissing on the window.

His eyes widened in shock. Jeongguk could feel his whole world stop as he could hear his heart breaking in his chest at the sight that will forever scar him for life.

He lets out another sobs. Every single vein in his system is howling in pain.

He can't take it anymore. Why does he have to suffer so much? Why does the world hate him?

Everything hurts. Taehyung replaced him, him being a failure in front of his parents and his grades weren't the same anymore.

He's not the same Jeongguk he used to be before.

Now he is numb and empty.

Broken and lifeless.

He doesn't deserve this pain. He knew Taehyung already likes Yura yet he still brought himself back to him, hoping they could talk it out again.

Once again, he felt like an absolute fool coming back for him.

The reality slaps him. Taehyung doesn't love him anymore.

He gave everything to him even if everyone was saying he is a playboy who likes playing with people's feelings.

Jeongguk should've known yet here he was, a pathetic crying out for someone who doesn't even care for him.

He had already left and finally arrived at his house completely drenched in the rain.

"Jeongguk!" His mother's voice startles him and snaps him out of his trance.

"Mother-"

Piles of clothes were harshly thrown in his face and his mother kept throwing it over him.

"Leave this goddamn mansion! I don't want a failure like you living inside of my home." She voices out in fury.

"Mother please," Jeongguk cried out again but he saw his mother shake her head.

"No, Jeongguk. You need to get out! I am so ashamed to even call you my own son! We just got a call from your school about your scandalous act in front of everyone! My god, how could you be so disgusting?!"

Jeongguk's heart breaks again. When will this pain stop?

He could see his father behind her who only drinks his tea as the scene unfolds before him. He tries to call out for him.

"D-Dad please-"

"You're not going to replace my position in the company anymore, Jeongguk. I will now disown you. My trusted secretary will now take over. I'm sorry but there's nothing you could do, my child."

"Just leave and don't ever come back."

"No, no please! Mom and Dad! Don't do this please. I'm sorry! I'm so sorry! I'll follow your orders again and be a good child p-please don't do this..."

He cries harder as his own mother pushes him harshly outside and slams the door shut in front of his face.

Jeongguk screams in pain. He kept crying and crying.

Not only did Taehyung find someone else and break his heart, his parents just disowned him.

He forced himself to get out of there and go to Jimin's house.

He has no one besides Jimin.

Jeongguk blames everything on Taehyung. The man who just ruined his whole life.

If he didn't just give in and don't let the older male have his way with him, he would be completely fine right now, probably studying so hard at the upcoming finals.

Everyone in the school had mocked him, including Taehyung himself.

And Jeongguk would never forgive him for that. He would never forget the pain that Taehyung caused to him.

After staying at Jimin's house for two days, he had decided to go back to Busan where his grandmother lives.

He drops out of highschool and finally leaves Seoul to start a complete new life.

Of course Jimin didn't want him to leave but Jeongguk needed to. Seoul was a nightmare to him and he just needed to get away.

To move on from Taehyung, even if it seems impossible.

He's glad and feels sorry for Jimin who wanted to go with him instead but Jeongguk was able to convince him to stay in Seoul as Jimin's parents wanted him there.

He had promised to call him every chance he got. Jeongguk also didn't want to leave his own best friend but he needed to.

His plan was to restart highschool again in Busan. Luckily, he has saved up and still has money with him.

Jeongguk also decided to take what he truly wanted in college.

Photography.

After the cafeteria incident, Jeongguk never left Taehyung's mind, seemingly making a permanent spot there.

The sharp eyed male knew he had completely fucked everything up. He didn't mean to say any of those words. Jeongguk is none of them.

Jeongguk is the most beautiful, selfless and kindest soul he had ever met in his whole life and he is a fucking stupid and a douchebag to loose him.

His marriage with Yura will be in two months but he found himself regretting everything he had done.

Taehyung had received a mixtape and a letter from Jeongguk from one of his friends.

"He gave that to us, Tae. He looked so broken and hurt. I can't believe you will do that to him. I am so disappointed in you." Yoongi says.

Taehyung could only look down in shame as regret filled all over his system.

In the 90s, giving someone a cassette tape and dedicating a whole list of songs was the most romantic thing you could ever do to the person you love.

Taehyung found himself crying violently alone in his room at three am when he heard the songs Jeongguk had recommended and the letter he gave to him.

Dear my Taehyungie, the one whom I love the most in this world

I am writing this letter to you because I miss you so, so much. Your birthday is coming up and I am so excited!

You know these past few weeks, I feel very sad because you are ignoring me. It's been hell without you and I wanted to know why you keep avoiding me like a plague.

But it's okay! I know you'll tell me the reason why soon! I can wait because it's you Taehyung. I can wait for you even if it takes years because I love you so damn much.

You are my first love and my forever love, Taehyungie. I hope you know that.

You said you won't let me go like Rose did to Jack but why do I feel like you're slipping through my fingers? It feels like you're so far away Taehyung and I can't help but to cry every night, hoping that you will never break your promise.

I hope someday, maybe a few days from now I will be able to talk to you soon! There must be a reason why you are avoiding me and I understand.

Jeongguk will always be here waiting for you, Taehyung.

Always.

Your angel flower,

Jeonggukie.

After reading the letter from his love, Taehyung breaks down.

Everything is all of his fault. He can't believe he managed to make Jeongguk insecure and feel the pain because of him.

He had hurt his love and that is something he will never forgive himself for.

He feels so much regret and guilt in his system.

His Jeongguk, the love of his life, Taehyung had completely broken his promise to him.

He's going to admit this, he had gained feelings for Yura and it was all just temporary but it wouldn't justify the hurtful things he had done to his Jeongguk.

Jeongguk who suffered in pain because of him.

After reading the letter, he had completely realized that he is still very much in love with Jeon Jeongguk and he regrets every single syllable he had ever said to him at the cafeteria.

He denied Jeongguk in front of everyone, called him pathetic and a faggot...

Taehyung feels so much pain and guilt.

He feels suffocated and a fury of rage for himself. He wanted to hurt himself for saying those words to his angel.

He wanted to go to Jeongguk and tell him that he's not any of those words.

Without wasting time, he quickly went out of the mansion and headed to Jeongguk.

He badly wanted to apologize and explain everything to him. He knows Jeongguk will understand, he always does.

He is a complete asshole and he will forever apologize to Jeongguk for his actions.

Taehyung wants him back. He wants Jeongguk back so badly to his arms and never ever let him go again.

"Jeongguk!" He kept shouting and pressing the doorbell in their gate. "Jeongguk! It's me Taehyung! Please baby, we need to talk!"

He kept pressing the doorbell until the gate immediately opened and his father quickly came out to see him.

"Mr. Jeon." Taehyung says. "Where is Jeongguk?"

"Why do you need to see that faggot?"

Taehyung grits his teeth in anger, feeling a rage in his chest. "He is not a faggot sir. He is your son."

"I don't have a son anymore, Mr Kim." Mr. Jeon deadpans which made Taehyung knit his eyebrows in confusion.

"W-What do you mean?"

"I disowned Jeongguk. He's not here anymore. I threw him out of our house and he's not coming back.

Taehyung was shocked. How could they do this to their own son?!

"You don't fucking deserve him." He seethes in anger. "You don't deserve to call yourselves parents. You made him suffer throughout his entire childhood yet you're just going to fucking throw him out of your house? Jeongguk is not the one who is disgusting here, it's you and your pathetic wife who is disgusting here! I hope you fucking rot in hell." He snaps and leaves there.

He can't allow someone to talk shit about Jeongguk.

He knows he had done the same thing by saying cruel words and he fucking hates himself for that. He regrets it so much and there is not a day that goes by that he wishes he could turn back time and change everything.

Taehyung immediately went to Jimin's house to search for Jeongguk.

He repeatedly knocks on the door a few times until Jimin finally opens it.

The blonde was shocked to see Taehyung standing there in front of him looking troubled and eyes filled with tears.

He looked like a mess.

"Taehyung? What the fuck are you doing here?!"

"Is Jeongguk here with you? Please, I need to see him." He begs.

This made Jimin mad and threw a hard punch across Taehyung's face which made the male stumble back.

"You are here after everything you've done to him? You fucking disgust me Taehyung! You don't deserve him!"

Taehyung bit his lip to prevent more tears falling from his eyes. He deserved that punch.

"I-I regret everything. I know I fucked up but I'm here to apologize and ask for another chance-"

"There is no other chance Taehyung!" Jimin yells. "You've hurt him too much and I'm sorry but you will never see Jeongguk again."

Taehyung feels his heart break at the words. "What do you mean I'm not going to see him?"

Jimin heavily sighs. "Jeongguk left Seoul. I don't know where he had gone off to but I suggest you stop looking for him and move on."

Taehyung could feel his whole world stop at the words. He suddenly felt dizzy as reality slapped him across the face.

"H-He left?" His voice breaks.

Jimin gave him a violent glare.

"He fucking left because of you! You broke his heart and as his best friend, I will never ever forgive you for that! If you just didn't come into his life then maybe he would still be here, living his life before you ruined everything." He cries.

"I'm sorry... I'm so sorry." Taehyung lets out broken sobs.

"Just leave, Taehyung. Jeongguk doesn't need a man like you who couldn't even fight for him. You're not worthy of his love." Jimin says and slams the door shut in front of his face.

Jimin was right, Taehyung is not worthy of Jeongguk's love.

He had left Jimin's place that day completely heartbroken. There is nothing that can compare to the pain he is feeling right now.

He had lost Jeongguk and his heart won't stop aching for the doe eyed male.

Taehyung kept crying alone in his room for the whole night, feeling the agonizing pain in every single part of his body.

He is the stupidest man in the world to let the most precious thing in his life go.

He misses Jeongguk so fucking much. He craves for his touch, kisses and his bunny smile every single day.

Today is his birthday and he is supposed to be happy but he is fucking devastated.

Because Jeon Jeongguk is not with him anymore. The love of his life that he had hurt so fucking much.

Everyday he hopes to see him again, to apologize for everything and take back what's his before.

But right now, he needs to settle something first.

"Happy birthday Taehyungie!" Yura kisses him on the lips and Taehyung just only hums, not acknowledging her presence.

"I missed you so much babe. Where the hell have you been yesterday? I've been calling you on the telephone." She pouted.

God, everything about her is now starting to annoy Taehyung.

He's not going to lie, he felt fucking used. He had been a complete total idiot and he just now noticed the tricks under her sleeve and the manipulation she used on him.

The time he spent with her, he felt attached to her because of the way and how well she manipulated him completely, taking advantage of his loneliness and sadness.

He had cheated on Jeongguk and he regrets it every single day.

"Can you please leave me alone?" Taehyung snaps which made Yura flinch.

"Taehyung, is everything alright?"

He breathed heavily and tears started to appear in his eyes again as the image of Jeongguk flashes on his mind.

"Yura," he starts. "From this day on, our marriage is now canceled. I don't want to marry you, I am so sorry."

"Wait what?!" Yura yells in shock. "Taehyung! You're just kidding right? You can't cancel our marriage!"

"Didn't you hear what I just said? I don't want to fucking marry you! You're not him. You're not Jeongguk."

Yura scoffs. "That boy again? I thought you liked me? I thought..."

"You manipulated my feelings Yura! It's Jeongguk. It will always be Jeongguk. I fucking hurt and cheated on him because of you! I'm sorry but you need to get out of my face before I do something I'll regret.."

Yura glared at him. "You're a fucking asshole. I'm glad Jeongguk left you. He's much better off without you anyways. Both of you are pathetic."

And she turns around and leaves a crying Taehyung behind.

He needed to set everything right. Because of this goddamn marriage and his parents who only care about their business, he had lost Jeongguk.

"Kim Taehyung! How dare you tell Yura to cancel the marriage? This is very important to our company Taehyung! You can't just do that our our reputation will be tarnished-"

"I don't give a single damn about our reputation, dad!" He fires back.

"I don't care if this company goes down and goes bankrupt. I don't want to be a part of your little games anymore. I am not going to obey you starting from now on. I'm not going to marry and Yura and I'm not gonna fucking take over this goddamn company!"

He turned around and was about to leave the office when his father spoke.

"If you leave this office then I'm sorry but you will never be my son again." His dad threatens.

Clenching his jaw in anger, eyes burning in anger, Taehyung spoke.

"Then so be it. I never wanted to be your son anyways."

And then he left the office.

It's his eighteenth birthday today and yet instead of celebrating it, he spends the whole day searching for Jeongguk's whereabouts.

But sadly, he didn't find him.

He begged Jimin to spill it but he didn't receive any answer.

He tried calling his friends for help but they didn't help him, telling him that he deserved it for being an asshole.

For once, his 'friends' actually cared for someone else and it was Jeongguk. They've heard about the cafeteria incident and felt sorry for the poor doe eyed male.

Taehyung cried for weeks, chest screaming in pain and regret but he didn't give up.

He kept looking for Jeongguk for weeks, months and it eventually turned into years.

There was this hope swimming in his system that someday, someday Jeongguk will be back and he'll be able to apologize for his actions towards him.

He had graduated highschool and went to collage and pursued Bachelor of Arts to study and become a filming director.

He luckily managed to save some money and work in part time jobs in order to support himself and pay for his tuition fees.

He is now finally studying film studies. Taehyung's biggest dream is to be an award winning film director and he hopes that someday he'll be able to achieve that life long dream.

Sometimes, he'll reminisce about the fun times he had with Jeongguk, how lucky he was to have the doe eyed male who did nothing but love him and support him unconditionally.

It's his own fault.

He deserved this pain.

He will never find someone else like Jeongguk.

No one will ever love him like Jeongguk did.

Taehyung never tried to love someone else, the only person his heart screams for is the doe eyed male.

He cried every night, hoping that someday he'll finally meet him. Every single day he prays for the possibility.

He had finally got rid of his father, the company and everyone that tries to separate them apart.

And now it's too late.

Taehyung is now ready to show off Jeongguk to the world but sadly he had fucked up.

"I miss you, baby. I miss you every single day. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry, fuck I'm so fucking pathetic." He cries again, alone in his apartment.

Their pictures together were stuffed in his wallet and he never removed it. He didn't want to.

Taehyung stares at the picture, feeling himself getting emotional again how happy they looked before everything went wrong.

"I still love you, Jeongguk. Please come back to me, my love. I am so sorry." He cried and cried until he finally fell asleep.

Somewhere in Busan however, a doe eyed male is laughing with someone, his eyes sparkling in happiness.

"Hoseok hyung, you're so cheesy!" He giggles and the man in front of him only smiles widely, eyes shining brighter than the sun.

"Come on, Jeonggukie, it's not that bad. Look, it made you blush!"

Hoseok wasn't lying, Jeongguk was actually blushing at one of his flirting jokes.

The two males are in a lamb skewer restaurant, only the two of them.

Jeongguk calls it a friendly date but Hoseok says it's the other way around.

The doe eyed male finally graduated highschool last year and he was finally able to secure the valedictorian spot.

It is now his first year in college, majoring in photography. He also met Jung Hoseok, a senior, majoring in contemporary arts and they instantly clicked.

It is now the year 1999 and Jeongguk found himself healing and becoming the best version of himself.

He knows he hasn't moved on yet from the past but he knows that he is getting there. He was finally able to laugh and smile.

After he arrived in Busan, his grandmother gratefully took him in.

It was very hard for him at the beginning. He was endlessly crying, trapping himself alone in his room and he had no energy to even move.

It was a very dark time for him but somehow, he was finally able to move forward.

Jeongguk still thinks of Taehyung sometimes, but at the sudden realization that the older male is now in a relationship with his academic rival, it still hurts.

But he has to let go of him. Taehyung cheated on him. He fucking hurt him and that is something Jeongguk will not forgive him for.

His nightmare worsens in the first few weeks, the image of Taehyung and Yura kissing haunted him for days.

But luckily, he didn't give up on himself. He doesn't want to be weak anymore. Taehyung doesn't deserve his tears. He regrets falling in love with him.

And so he worked himself to become better again. Much better than his past self before Taehyung entered his life and ruined it.

He managed to graduate highschool and became valedictorian and now he's in college, heading to secure the spot of becoming a dean's lister.

He also tried not to focus on his study too much and had fun. Going to college parties whenever he's stressed has now become a routine and that's exactly where he met Jung Hoseok.

The bright male had become his savior in the dark and the stormy nights.

Because along the way, he finds himself liking Hoseok more than a friend.

In Busan, he felt happy and free with no parents ordering him around. His grandmother has always been supportive and he's so grateful for her.

He finally became happy.

After that date, both Hoseok and Jeongguk went on countless dates.

And eventually, Hoseok was finally able to confess to him and ask him to be his boyfriend.

"Will you be my boyfriend?" He nervously asks and Jeongguk finds him adorable.

The doe eyed male gave him the biggest smile he could muster and pecked his lips.

"Yes Hoseokie hyung, I will be your boyfriend!"

Year 2005.

Years passed by and Jeongguk was finally able to graduate college and now he owns a successful photography studio and a photo gallery in Seoul.

At age of twenty five, he finally became what he had always wanted to be.

During those years, he was the happiest as he had Hoseok with him who treated him like a gem, who proudly showed him off to the world and let everyone see their love for each other.

Something Taehyung didn't do for him.

It's been eight years since that incident and finally, he was finally able to move on from Taehyung.

They say that first love never dies and Jeongguk agrees to that but Hoseok is the one whom he loves the most now.

True love will always win against the first one.

Jeongguk doesn't love Taehyung anymore but he will forever treasure their happiest moments together.

He had finally let him go but this time with no regrets like Rose did to Jack.

When he was still in Busan, Jimin visited him from time to time and he was so grateful for his best friend that Jimin never uttered a single thing about Taehyung.

Now that he is back in Seoul, inside his photo gallery exhibit that he had been finally dreaming of, his hard work had finally paid off.

His photo gallery exhibit is crowded with a lot of people. The place looks so cozy and luxurious.

He is wearing an expensive white polo shirt and his hair slicked back as he watched everyone gazed at his photos with a satisfied smile on his face.

"The photos are so wonderful and beautiful Mr. Jeon. You are a brilliant photographer. I am so proud of you." Mrs. Seong.

Jeongguk flashes her former teacher in high school a bright smile and blushes at the compliment.

"Thank you so much Mrs. Seong. I'm glad you were able to come to my exhibit."

More people entered the place and almost everyone in the city took the time to look at his photographs.

And by everyone, it means that the people from his past also came inside the exhibit.

Jeongguk's doe eyes widened in shock when he saw a glimpse of familiar faces.

Namjoon, Seokjin, Yoongi

And Taehyung.

He could feel his surroundings stop when he locked eyes with his ex boyfriend.

"J-Jeongguk? Is that you?"

There is Taehyung standing not too far away from him, his hair slicked back and one strand of hair in his forehead, wearing a brown leather jacket and black shirt inside.

He looked so handsome. More handsome than Jeongguk had seen eight years ago. He became more built and broader.

But the thing he noticed the most is the longing look in Taehyung's eyes as he stares at him.

"Taehyung." He tries to smile. "Long time no see."

Everything flashes back to him. Their memories, their promises of love, the incident that happened back at the cafeteria and the harshful words that Taehyung said to him in front of everyone.

Jeongguk felt a pang on his chest at the cruel memory.

"Wait, Jeon Jeongguk? Taehyung's ex boyfriend?" Yoongi points a finger at him, his jaw dropping to the floor. "Holy shit it's you!"

"Yoongi! Manners!" Seokjin scolds him.

"This exhibit is yours? Woah." Namjoon was amazed and Jeongguk nodded.

"Yup, this is all mine." He laughs and takes a glance at Taehyung again who is still staring at him.

It quickly became awkward as they could feel a tension in the air.

Taehyung felt the hope come back rushing to him as he stares at the man he still loves.

Jeongguk looked so fucking pretty, prettier than ever before and then he fell in love all over again.

There's a pain in his chest that he couldn't explain. Finally, after eight years of searching, Taehyung has finally seen Jeongguk again.

He didn't expect that this expensive exhibit would be Jeongguk's and he's so happy to know that his love finally achieved his dream to be a renowned photographer.

His friends and Jeongguk talked a bit more while staying silent at the back, staring at his ex boyfriend with eyes still filled with love and adoration.

He's so proud of him. Jeongguk looked so happy and he didn't seem the same person he had broken before.

"So um that's it. I captured all of the photos when I was traveling with Hoseok. We traveled to a lot of places around the world." Jeongguk says.

"Who's Hoseok?" Seokjin curiously asks.

Jeongguk's eyes darted to Taehyung and then turned back his gaze to Seokjin.

"He's my boyfriend." He smiles.

Hearing those words, Taehyung's heart shatters into pieces.

"Y-You have a boyfriend now?" His voice breaks and his friends immediately notice the tone.

"Taehyung-"

"Of course I have. You think I'm still gonna be in love with you after what you did to me back in highschool?!" Jeongguk snaps.

"I think we should leave you two to have your talk. Come on guys." Namjoon dragged both Seokjin and Yoongi away from there, leaving the two ex lovers alone.

There were no more people inside the exhibit, only the two of them remaining left inside.

Taehyung started to cry, his whole chest now aching in pain at the sudden realization that his love had finally moved on from him.

"I-I'm so so sorry, Jeongguk." he starts, eyes filled with tears.

"I'm so fucking sorry and I will forever regret and apologize of what I did to you. You don't deserve any of that, the words that I've said, they're not completely true. You're not pathetic, you're not a faggot. It's me, I'm the one who's pathetic for losing you." He is now crying heavily in front of the doe eyed male.

"I've been suffering from my mistakes for the past few years. I am a fucking complete asshole for hurting someone so precious like you, Jeongguk. B-Believe me when I say I cut off ties with my own family and I broke up with Yura immediately after that. I realized that it's still you that I love and I'm the biggest fool in the world for letting you go in my life. I promised you but I failed all of it. I fucking hurt you, I caused you so much pain. I-I'm sorry my love. Forgive me."

"I still love you. I'm still helplessly in love with you, Jeongguk. Every single day from the past eight years, you're still the one my heart wants. I didn't sleep with anybody, I didn't try to have a relationship with anyone because all I can see is you, baby. Only you."

Taehyung finally lets out all of the words he badly wanted to say to his love. His whole body is burning in pain at the news.

His Jeonggukie doesn't love him anymore.

For the past eight years, the only music he had played and listened to were the songs Jeongguk had recommended him to when the doe eyed male gifted him the mixtape.

His college years were very hard, he almost dropped out but luckily he found another job that pays him well but it also didn't work out.

Taehyung is now a small time director, doing short films there and there, hoping that someone from the biggest film companies would notice his art and sign him up.

He is broke and living in this small but cozy apartment in Seoul but it seemed like luck had never completely left his side when he found his friends again, helping him back to his feet.

Now that he is standing in front of Jeongguk, the one he is still clearly in love with, all the pain and flashes of memories come back.

"I-I know you already have s-someone else in your life but," He stutters, his throat burning from the pain. "I w-want a second chance p-please-"

"Second chance?" Jeongguk immediately cuts him off, his eyes glaring at him.

He scoffs. "Why would I give a cheater a second chance?"

Taehyung immediately looked down in shame and regret.

"You're fucking disgusting if you thought you have another chance with me!" Jeongguk yells.

"I'm not gonna date someone who used to cheat on me. I'm not that pathetic, Taehyung!" Jeongguk finally breaks down.

"You hurt me so much that I almost- I almost gave up on my life. My parents abandoned me and you fucking cheated on me. I suffered so much and seeing you again reminded me of the darkest and hardest days of my life and you expect me to forgive you?" Jeongguk cries.

"I remember it all too well, Taehyung. I'm sorry but I will never ever forgive you for that."

He wiped the tears on his face and was about to turn around and leave when suddenly a hand immediately wrapped around his waist.

"D-Don't go please. I-I'm so sorry love." Taehyung cries as he hugs Jeongguk from behind.

Even if it hurts so much, Taehyung has now finally accepted the reality that Jeongguk will never be his again.

The two of them are now crying heavily and Taehyung closes his eyes shut, letting all the tears fall on his cheeks.

"E-Even if you hate me, I will still continue to love you the same. Even if you have someone else right now, just know that I will always love you and be here for you." Taehyung kisses Jeongguk's forehead.

The doe eyed male can't help but to sob violently. He truly missed Taehyung's touch and arms wrapped around him. His heart is breaking at Taehyung's words.

"I will never stop loving you, Jeongguk. Even if all the planets in the universe explode and even after that, I will always love you."

Jeongguk lets out broken sobs. "T-Taehyung-"

"I know we can't be together now. But I promise you that I will look for you in my next life and I'll make sure to treat you better than I did. I will do all of the things I failed to do. You're my life, Jeongguk. You're the reason why I'm still breathing and alive right now and baby, I thank you so much for that."

"But I can't love anyone else again, my angel flower. I'll just wait for you forever."

Taehyung turns around Jeongguk to face him and cups his cheek, planting his lips once again on the doe eyed male's forehead.

Jeongguk could still feel the love of Taehyung for him. The loving gaze of the older never left his eyes.

"We're just strangers with memories now, huh?" He chuckles but Jeongguk can clearly notice the pain in his tone.

Taehyung heavily sighs, every vein in his body is screaming for Jeongguk but he knows he doesn't have a place in his heart anymore.

It's now too late.

"So I guess this is it. It's time for us now to part ways."

Jeongguk is still not speaking as he felt something clogged in his throat as he looked at his ex lover.

"I will never regret meeting and falling in love with you my love. I will forever be in love with you. I am sorry for hurting you. There's a lot of words I still wanted to say but I guess your boyfriend is now waiting for you outside." He chuckles sadly.

Jeongguk looks at him with his tear filled eyes.

"It's time to let you go now." Taehyung bit his lip and he slowly turned around.

"Goodbye, Jeon Jeongguk.Thank you for everything."

And then he finally walks away and never looks back.

They never saw each other again until now.

Present time: Year 2022.

It's been Twenty five years since Taehyung and Jeongguk met and fell in love.

And seventeen years since the last time they saw each other again.

"Thank you so much for attending the red carpet. I hope you enjoyed the movie." Taehyung said on the mic with a big smile plastered on his handsome face and everyone cheered for him.

He is now 43 years old and an award winning film director who directed thirty two films and most of them are blockbuster hits, earning billions of dollars worldwide.

He was finally able to achieve his biggest dream and became successful without the help of his parents.

He is graciously wearing a designer suit from Gucci as he walks towards a female reporter who is eager to interview him.

"Mr Kim Taehyung! Tell us what the film is about!"

He gave her a smile. "Well, it's actually based on a real life story."

"Oooh, can you tell us who the real people are portrayed in the film?

There was a visible hint of sadness flashes across Taehyung's eyes but it quickly faded away.

"It's about my first love in highschool. I'm hoping that he will see and watch the film. I dedicate all of this to him."

"Well, I'm sure he will, Mr. Ki. I hope you see him again! The entire film is heartbreaking and I hope you two become together again." The interview commented, making Taehyung laugh.

"I hope so." Taehyung sadly smiles.

Even though seventeen years has passed since the last time he saw Jeongguk, Taehyung is still much in love with him.

He still loves the doe eyed male with all of his heart.

To cope up with the loss and not being able to be with Jeongguk, Taehyung strived hard to become a director that everyone admires and has a lot of prestigious awards.

He had also decided to make a script and direct a film based on his and Jeongguk's love story so that whenever he finds himself longing for the doe eyed male, he can relieve all of their memories through the film he had made.

And instantly, the film became more popular not only in Korea but in the whole world, garnering a new record for a blockbuster hit.

There were a lot of people inside the cinema. Taehyung and his filming crew were seated as they watched the movie in a big screen.

It is the second premiere night and many were crying of how heartbreaking the film is.

"The film is about my life story with the someone I love back when I was still in high school. I know, I know you guys must be cursing me at your minds right now because of the mistakes the main character did and well, we're the same person so,"

The whole crowd erupted in laughter.

Taehyung took a deep breath and spoke into the mic, standing alone on the stage.

"I hope that you learned a lot of lessons in the film. That once you love a person so much, never ever hurt them in many ways that they will eventually give up on you. Treat them like a gem, show them off to the whole world and let everyone know that the love between the two of you is real."

Tears welled up in his eyes as he continued.

"D-Don't make the same mistakes that I did. I was stupid and foolish to completely let go the only person that mattered to me. I've lost him forever. To this day, he still owns my heart and I hope that he is still somewhere out there, watching the film I dedicated to him, to the two of us."

"Please remember that not all love stories out there end happily ever after. Thank you so much for watching everyone!"

After he finishes the speech, the crowd gives him a round of applause. Many congratulated him and gave him hugs.

"Kim Taehyung, you are a phenomenal director. Thank you so much for making me part of this big project, I owe you one sir." Choi Yeonjun bows at him.

Choi Yeonjun and Choi Soobin were the two actors who portrayed him and Jeongguk in the film.

Taehyung also shows his gratitude to them and to all of the film crews who worked alongside him.

It's September 1 today, his love's birthday and he purposely released the film on Jeongguk's day.

Everyone in the theater loved it, most of them, even the gentlemen were crying at how heartbreaking the movie is.

The people are now walking out and Taehyung stayed behind and waited for a bit before leaving.

But he didn't expect that he would see someone after decades.

"Jeongguk?" His heart raced fast as he saw a glimpse of him.

Even if he's already forty three years old, his heart is still beating for Jeongguk to this day.

"Taehyung, hi." He saw Jeongguk, the love of his life, flash him the biggest smile he had ever seen.

The doe eyed male still looks pretty with no hint of wrinkles in his forehead.

At the age of 42, Jeongguk still remains beautiful and gorgeous and looks younger than ever.

Jeongguk was wearing a white floral shirt that almost showed his curves, making him look exquisite.

"Long time no see." He mumbles, his doe eyes sparkling and staring at Taehyung who only gulped.

"Long time no see." Taehyung repeats, feeling himself getting emotional seeing Jeongguk again.

I missed you. He badly wanted to say it to Jeongguk but he restrained himself.

He knows that Jeongguk is now a married man and now has a child with Jung Hoseok.

"I've watched the film." Jeongguk starts, fiddling his fingers.

The two men are the only people remaining left inside the theater.

"D-Did you like it?" Taehyung slowly asks.

"Of course. In fact I loved it." Jeongguk quietly laughs. "I also cried at the end."

"You did?"

"Yeah. I'm still surprised that you still remember everything from the start. About how we met, how we fell in love and how you-" Jeongguk took a deep breath. "And how we broke up."

Taehyung looked down but Jeongguk still continued.

"I witnessed everyone crying at our heartbreaking story. You did well, Taehyung. You finally achieved your dreams for me. You've now become a successful film director and I'm proud of you."

Hearing those words coming out of Jeongguk's mouth, Taehyung can't help but to cry.

Jeongguk immediately noticed this and quickly went closer to him to wipe the tears off of his face.

The doe eyed male looked at him and gave him a soft glance, making Taehyung's heart quicken.

"Don't cry please." Jeongguk begs.

Taehyung grabs Jeongguk's wrist and holds it, looking at him with eyes still remaining with love.

"Do you forgive me now?"

Jeongguk smiles. "I already forgave you a long time ago."

Taehyung sniffs. "Thank you. Thank you so much. I-"

"No, Taehyung. It's you that I should thank for because if you didn't hurt me back then, then I wouldn't meet the love of my life and my husband Hoseok."

Taehyung's heart breaks even more.

"You really love him huh?"

"Yes. Yes I do. So much." Jeongguk answers.

"If I didn't hurt you, I may still have you in my arms as my husband right now. We could've had everything. All of the promises I gave to you, I broke them and I wished I fulfilled every single of them." Taehyung cries again.

"But it's already enough for me to know that you're happy with your husband. I can live a whole day knowing that you're content and have someone that treats you better and loves you so much. I will be forever grateful that I met you, Jeon Jeongguk." Taehyung whispers.

Jeongguk's eyes welled up in tears at the words. He's not going to lie but he had also missed Taehyung as well.

"Thank you for everything too, Taehyung. I must leave now, my husband and my child are waiting for me outside."

Jeongguk pecks his forehead and turns around to leave.

Taehyung smiles through the tears. He's glad that he has finally been able to talk to Jeongguk again.

Giving Taehyung a one last final look, Jeongguk turns around and smiles at him.

"Goodbye, Taehyungie. May we see each other again soon."

Year 2052.

It's been thirty years since the last time they had ever seen each other again.

Taehyung is now 79 years old and here he is at Jeongguk's funeral.

He lived for another thirty years, loving no one but only Jeongguk.

Taehyung never dated anyone after Jeongguk.

"Thank you so much for coming, sir. I know my grandpa will be delighted knowing you visited him. He has told me about you." Jeongguk's grandson, Eunwoo thanked him.

"Thank you for taking care of him." Taehyung thanked him as he slowly went closer to Jeongguk's casket to see him.

There, the love of his life lay there peacefully, without a care in the world.

Jung Jeongguk had lived the happiest and peaceful life with Jung Hoseok with their three kids. He was known in the whole country as the most expensive and in demand photographer.

Kim Taehyung in his age at 73, finally retires after accomplishing multiple awards in his films, making him a legend in the history of filmmaking.

"Rest in peace, my love. I'll make sure to see you again in my next life and maybe then, I can finally fix my mistakes and make things right." He whispers under his breath as he stares at the lifeless Jeongguk.

I love you until every single planet in the whole universe explodes and even after that, I'll still continue to love you with every fiber of my existence.

And a week after Jeongguk's funeral, Taehyung dies peacefully in his sleep.

Wishing that someday he and Jeongguk will finally be able to continue their love story in their next lives.

fin.

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this is the end of the oneshot. thank you so much for reading.