it ' s getting bad again
i feel sluggish . i don ' t want to do anything . i want to sleep and not wake up . i want to lie down under a sky and close my eyes and never have to worry abt opening them . i want to just dissapear . even if it was just for a few hours . i would like to disappear .
somewhere i feel comfortable . somewhere where i don ' t have to worry abt anything . heaven seems rlly nice rn .
someone get my therapist i don ' t think i can do this anymore tbh /hj ☹