Josephine
We just sat there on the bed for the next 10 minutes. He's just been apologizing and telling me what happened and how he lied to me because he knew I wouldn't of let him do anything if he had touched someone else...which I told him that was right. He then said how he wanted to do it so bad that he had to lie, still not sure how I feel about it but it happened and nothing I or we can do about it now.
It's only seven and there is still so much time left. I don't know if he wants me downstairs, I wouldn't mind going down there because I don't mind some of the people I've met here. I've met Delilah, Alex, Derek and TJ. They've all been nothing but so nice to me, which is weird because with the stories I've read everyone well most of the people at frat parties or parties are assholes.
"So yeah, I'm sorry." he says adjusting himself as he's laying on the bed leaning on his elbows behind him talking to me as I'm sitting Criss crossed in front of him playing with the string on his bed cover. I just laugh and shake my head looking at my hands. "I know you are."
He then leans up against the headboard and grabs my hands and pulls me to where I'm straddling him and I gasp. "Are we gonna go downstairs?" I ask placing my hands on his chest.
"Do you want to go downstairs?" he asks raising his eyebrow.
"I don't see why not, grab a drink or two." I say and he just breaths and looks at my jeans and then back up to me. "I'm trying to not drink." he says and I just nod and look confused, trying not to drink? "Doesn't every high school or college boy drink?" I ask and he pins his lips together and shakes his head. "I'm not included in that." he says.
"Why are you trying not to drink?" I ask, hoping he doesn't get mad at me for asking.
"When I'm angry I drink, overly drink." he says and breaths. "I drown myself in alcohol, it's not good but it helps." he says.
"Sorry I played beer pong with all those drinks, especially since they were using alcohol." I sigh and places his hands on my waist and just caresses my waist on each side. "I didn't drink anything yesterday but when I saw you showed up here and were acting like that I almost grabbed one." he laughs.
"Hero, that's not a good thing. I'm sorry." I say.
"It's not a big deal, I didn't get a drink so it doesn't matter. Just it's a way of coping and I don't want to drink at parties because I'm afraid I'll drink more than I'm supposed too." he says and I bite my lip and nod. I feel terrible, but I just wanted to talk to him yesterday and he almost grabbed a drink because of me. I've never witnessed him drunk, and I hope I don't.
"Do you want to go downstairs, though?" he asks and I just look at him and laugh. "What?" he smiles.
"As long as you don't disappear on me and go with some other girl." I say and he laughs lifting me up off of him and he gets up, "I promise. The music is blasting so their all more than likely dancing, drinking and talking." he says and I get off the bed and look in the mirror and adjust my wavy blonde hair and smile and he's behind me in the mirror adjusting his hair copying me. I just look at us in the mirror, how much taller he is than me and how different we are from another.
Why am I here with him again?
It's like there is something between us, I feel it. How would it be if I was going to ever date him though? I mean I'm cheating on my boyfriend with him, I feel terrible but I keep coming back. This has been going on for about about three months, it's October now about to be November so who knows what is going to happen the rest of the school year.
"Let's go?" he says and I stop staring at him and nod as we walk out his door and down the stairs.
He was right, music is blasting and everyone is drinking, dancing and talking.
He then nods to towards the living area where everyone's dancing and talking. "Can we get a drink? Not alcohol?" I ask and he laughs and nods.
We walk into the kitchen and he grabs two sprites and hands me one, "You guys are losers." TJ says as he is shot gunning a beer. "Oh Jo! This the girl from this morning, Hero?" he asks raising his eyebrow at Hero and Hero groans.
"Come on." Hero says and I wave to TJ and follow Hero back into the main area. "I wonder if Jack is going to come to the Halloween party the frat house is having, a lot of high schoolers are invited including you." Hero says leaning against a pole and I lean against the wall. "Yeah, he mentioned it to me." I say yelling over the music. "He what?" Hero says.
"I can't hear you." he says and grabs my hand and pulls me close to him and sets our drinks down on a table. "He talked to you about the party?" he says as the back of my body is against his front and he's talking in my ear and I can hear his perfectly over the music. "Are you gonna go with him?" he asks and I just shrug, "I don't know.." I say. "If I do this can't happen." I add and his hands are suddenly making their way around my waist, pulling me closer and I gasp. Does he not care we are with a big group of people? I mean..I don't mind this at all.
"Let me let you in on something," he says whispering in my ear and I turn my head to look at him and he's smirking. "Jack doesn't scare me, though I do wonder why you're still with him after what happened last night.." he says pulling me closer and I gasp.
God why am I still with him after last night.
I quickly turn around facing him and he places his hand back on my waist pulling me close and our faces are close. "Shhhh." I say and he looks around, "No one heard me, well not that I think." he smirks and I hit his chest and laugh. "I don't even know if half the people here know you're dating him." he adds.
"I still don't want anyone putting two and two together..." I sigh.
"No one will, we could probably do it again if we go upstairs right now.." he whispers in my ear and I swear my legs almost collapse because I already have that feeling down there..
"You think?" I say knowing It probably sounds like I'm panting.
"I don't think," he whispers. "I know." he says running his finger from my chest down my stomach and my eyes widen.
I nod and I go to grab his hand as he begins walking away to go upstairs and the looks at my hand and avoids it and begins leading towards the stairs. "Hero?" Derek says stopping him and I move back so I'm not close to him. "Where you going?" he says and Hero grabs onto the end of the stair railing. "About to chill up in my room for a little."
"So early? It's not even eight." Derek says then takes a sip of his beer. "Plus, your girlfriend isn't here so find some girls man." He bumps his shoulder and Hero raises a eyebrow. "Girlfriend?" he asks crossing his arms.
"Ally?"
Hero laughs, "Not my girlfriend."
"That's what she told everyone yesterday.." Derek laughs taking a sip of his drink and walks away. Hero looks down and shakes his head and I go up to him after I was just standing where we were so Derek didn't see me.
"So-"I begin and then TJ comes over. "Jo! Hero!" he smiles patting Hero's shoulder and Hero looks up and pins his lips at him as I smile as he hugs me.
"Come on guys, grab a drink with us." He says looking behind him to the kitchen. "I'm not drinking and neither is she. I promised my sister she wouldn't drink." Hero says and nods.
"Come on-" TJ begins before he gets cut off by someone running up behind him.
"There he is!" the guy yells and Hero and I turn around to see Jack walking into the house looking down at his phone. "Holy shit." I say out loud.
"Oh fuck." Hero says looking at me as his jaw is dropped. "Jack!" TJ yells and I hurry up the stairs as TJ yells his name. I look down the stairs at Hero and I mouth, "What do I do!"
He shrugs leaning on the railing, "I don't know!" his eyes widen as he runs his hands through his hair.
What are the odds Jack shows up here, god really hates me doesn't he, huh?
I look down and see Hero lean up and start talking to Jack and they do that little dude thing dapping each other up slapping each others back.
I then run upstairs to Hero's room and shut the door.
I need to leave, but I can't.
I sit on the edge of Hero's bed and just wait, wondering what to do.
Five minutes later a knock comes to the door and it opens and I stand up.
"Figured you would be in here." Hero says and then shuts the door and locks it.
"What the hell do I do?" I say walking around his room. "Stay up here?" he questions leaning against his dresser rubbing his temples.
"It's not even eight I can't stay up here for that long, plus I'm not even tired."
"Then Jo, I don't know what you want me to do okay? You won't stay up here, you're not tired, and you definitely won't go downstairs so how the fuck can I help you?" he says.
"Can you calm down?" I say and he looks at me like I'm crazy. "Me? Calm down?" he laughs.
"You're the one freaking out how your boyfriend just showed up and you told him you were going to my sisters but you're actually here with me so Jo, am I really the one who has to calm down?" he says licking his lips looking pissed and leaning one arm against the top of his dresser.
"Wow okay," I say. "You asked me to stay with you." I sigh crossing my arms. "And you agreed?" he laughs.
I just sit on the edge of his bed. What the hell do I do? Go home? He will more than likely see me if I try to run out of here. This is not how I hoped tonight would turn out.
"I'm getting a drink." he says walking towards his door and slams it opens and I jump up running to him grabbing his arm. "Don't do it."
"I'll get a fucking drink if I want one." he says pulling his arm and bolts out the door to downstairs and I stand there with my mouth open holding the door. This man is gonna be the death of me.
I shut his door and just lay on his bed.
I get on my phone and I have a message from Jack from twenty minutes ago.
"Hey, how's mercy's. I'm heading to this frat party my friend TJ invited me to, had fun today tho." he said.
This would be such a bad time to reply.
I just lay there trying to pass time watching Never Have I Ever which Hero and I started a couple weeks ago and never seemed finish anymore episodes.
I look at the time and it's now 10. Is he ever going to come back up here? I stand up off the bed and put my phone in my back pocket and open the door and go downstairs to try and look for him. As I get down the stairs and I bump into TJ. Jesus. I see Hero in the kitchen downing a cup of what I'm guessing is alcohol.
"Jo! Where have you been!" he yells placing his hand on my shoulder and I should really go back upstairs, why did I come down here?
"Uh, bathroom." I say.
"It's been like two hours." he laughs and I laugh to cover myself up. "So I heard about you and your boyfriend!" he pushes my shoulder and I turn my head to the side. "Oh yeah, who?" I ask.
"What are you asking?" he asks.
"I'm asking who my boyfriend is." I say.
"Jack Fray. Why? Are you not dating him?" He raises his eyebrow and I wave my hand in front of him. "Yes of course I'm dating him. I only asked that because there is rumors I'm dating someone else but I'm dating Jack." I nod.
"Hero?"
"What about him? I ask.
"Is he the guy who people think you're dating?" he asks. "You don't need to know that TJ." I laugh crossing my arms over my chest.
"I thought you guys were dating, when I first met you." he says and I shake my head. Well of course, I was with him in the morning and he knew I stayed over. I just hope he doesn't tell Jack, or I'm really screwed. Unless, he already did tell him.
"I don't know why. I don't even like Hero that much. He only looks out for me because of Mercy." I nod.
"Why are you here, though?" he asks.
"Um," I laugh. "I was waiting for Mercy to show and she just hasn't." I say and nod and I see Jack in the distance with a beer and he may be coming closer. "Speaking of that I should text her!" I yell, and run upstairs. "Bye TJ!" I yell as I'm halfway up the stairs. "Jo?" I hear as I'm halfway up there and I pause and turn around slowly.
Dammit.
"Jack..!" I say slowly and begin walking downstairs and place my arms around him and place a kiss on his lips and pull back and he looks confused as TJ is right next to him.
"You're here?" he questions.
"She's here." TJ nods.
"Yes"! I'm here." I nod.
"Why?" he laughs.
"Mercy." I nod and he nods, "Okay, where is she? Look like you're alone." he laughs pinning his lips together rocking back and forth. "She was here for a couple and then left to get Ian and never came back, I've been just sitting around and she hasn't showed." I sigh.
"I'm sorry." He says. "Did you get my text that I'd be here?" he questions. I pull my phone out of my pocket, "Oh no, I must of missed it." I laugh.
"I'm about to go upstairs and call her if not walk home, talk later?" I say and he nods. "Call me if you want a ride or come find me." he says and kisses my cheek and I smile and run upstairs into Hero's room and shut the door.
The was scary.
I lay down on his bed and go on my phone and doze off..
I wake up to the door opening and I jump up and it's Hero. "Gosh, you scared me." I say sitting up and look at my phone as it's eleven.
He shuts the door and places his glass of liquor on the dresser and pulls his shirt off and throws it on the couch and sits on the bed and cuffs my face and begins making out with me and I kiss him back as his hands around the back of my neck and the other is making it's way to my heat outside of my jeans until I pull back.
"What?" he laughs.
"You reek of liquor and alcohol." I say and he removes his hand from around the back of my neck and runs his fingers through his hair, "So?" he says.
"You're drunk." I sigh shaking my head.
"I'm not drunk."
"Hero, you are obviously drunk." I breath pinning my lips together and he stands up. "How the fuck are you gonna tell me if I'm drunk or not?" he says going to his desk next to his dresser and I move to the end of his bed.
"I'm not telling you, I know you are." I sigh pushing my hair to the side. "I'm not fucking drunk!" he yells and slams his fist against the wood on his desk and I jump up. What the hell is his problem? Does he get physical when he's drunk?
"Stop!" I yell and he turns and looks at me and smiles. "I was trying to make you happy." he says.
I look down and shake my head, "Hero, please. You don't know what you're talking about."
"I fucking know what I'm talking about! I try to bring you upstairs to make you happy and pleasure you but it's such a big fucking problem I smell like alcohol. Well I'm sorry Mrs perfect Josephine that you don't ever try to have fun for once in your god damn life and are giving me shit for actually living mine." He shrugs and I look at him and just sigh. "Oh, wow." I nod slowly.
"It's what I get for trying to help people, you know?" he says.
"Help people? Who are you helping trying to make me so called happy and pleasure me?" I look at him and cross my arms over my chest.
"Helping you." he laughs. "How so?" I ask.
"Get some excitement in your life, give you something to be happy about and brag about. Me touching you. It does nothing for me, I do that shit all the time." he says and I'm silent. "It's the point that I am helping you. Not helping myself." he shrugs and I feel my eyes water.
"You're such an asshole." I laugh trying to not let the tears fall and shake my head.
"So I've been told." He says grabbing his glass of liquor and sits on chair at his desk.
"I hate you." I say grabbing my bag.
"I fucking hate you too." he says looking annoyed.
I go the door. "Where are you going?" he asks taking a sip of his liquor.
"Home." I say and slam open the door and walk down the stairs and next thing you know he's grabbing my arm and pull it away. "Come back in my room." he breaths running his hands through his hair. "Don't you dare follow me down here." I breath. "Jack is taking me home, don't come down here and mess this whole thing up." I say and storm off and luckily he's in the living room with his friends.
"Jack." I say and he looks up and comes over. "What's up?" he asks and cuffs my jawline, "You okay?" he asks and I nod. "Please take me home." I say and he nods placing his arm around me. "Of course." he says and we go outside and then go to his car. I place my bag on the floor and shut the door as he shuts his door.
"I was supposed to stay over she hasn't answered me." I say.
"I'm sorry, are you okay? You look like you're about to cry?" he asks pulling away from the road on the way to my house and I nod. "I'm alright." I lean back and it's silent the rest of the car ride to my house.
Once we get to my house I just sigh and he looks at me, "Text me." he says and kisses me and I nod grabbing my bag and getting out of the car and he drives away. No cars are in the the driveway?
Where are my parents? I haven't seen my dad in who knows how long and where the hell is my mother.
I go inside and then lock the door and go upstairs to my room. I change into sweatpants and a t-shirt and lay down. Letting the tears overcome me as I turn my lamp off.
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