Isang buwan na ang nakalipas at ngayon palang namin balak sabihin kala mommy at tita na sinagot ko na siya. Lalo kasi kaming naging busy dalawa dahil nag tuloy tuloy nanaman errands namin sa school at may mga umo-order pa rin talaga sa JungRi's. Doon na nang gagaling savings ko at 'di na rin ako binibigyan ni mommy ng allowance dahil alam na niya na may pera na ako, nag bibigay na rin ako ng gastusin sa bahay para 'di na ma-hassle si mommy sa pag bayad.
"Nay Lay, si Jungwon po pupunta mamaya para mag luto rin, okay lang po ba?" Tanong ko dahil alam ko na miss niya na si Won. Halos maging chef buddy na sila ni nanay Lay pag nandito sa bahay dahil nag papaturo siya at nag aaral na rin siya mag luto. Jungwon took a culinary arts and I took some extra classes for biology for the passed years, i dreamed being a doctor too when i was a kid.
"Hay nako 'nak, oo naman! Na saan na ba 'yon, tagal na niya 'di pumupunta dito ah," napa ngiti ako sa reaksyon ni nanay Lay.
"Papunta na 'yon maya maya nay, dinner time," saad ko. Nag handa na kami ni nanay Lay ng mga hihiwain dahil malapit na mag 6pm at parating na si Won. Ngayon lang rin free time naming dalawa kahit mag kaiba ang pinapasukan namin pero mag same ang sched namin sa pag pasok at out. Jungwon really did grow for the passed few years, for two years he's living finally living alone in a condo, he's working like an adult, living like an adult which i really need to learn how to live to. Ayoko naman maging pabigat kay Won lalo na parehas kaming may hinaharap na problema sa pamilya na pwede pang lumala.
"'Nak si Jungwon na ata 'yon," sabi ni nanay Lay nang narinig niya na may nag doorbell.
"I'll get it po," nag madali akong lumabas para pag buksan siya ng gate.
"Hi love," bati ko noong nakita ko siya. Binigyan niya ako ng matamis na ngiti at hinalikan ko ang pisngi niya.
"Tara na," hinila ko siya papasok pero agad niya ito pinigilan.
"Bakit? May problema ba?" Parang sira 'to, kung saan saan na umikot 'yong tingin niya.
"Kinikilig ako love.." ngiti nito na parang tanga sabay sinandal ang noo niya sa balikat ko.
"Para kang tanga, Won, masanay ka na nga," sabi niya kasi 'di pa rin daw siya makapaniwala, maki pag break kaya ako dito.
"Come on, Won. Makita pa nila tayo nito," hinawakan ko ang bewang niya para tumayo siya ng maayos at pumasok na kami sa loob.
"I love you," he whispered as we entered that made my ears reddened.
"He's here, nay,"
"Hi hijo!" Niyakap nito si Won at binati rin siya ni Won.
"Magandang gabi po," nag usap silang dalawa hanggang kitchen at sabay sabay na kami nag luto.
Ilang minuto pa ay natapos na kami at nakarating na rin sila tita at mommy. Sabay sabay kaming umupo at nag dasal bago kumain. I can see Jungwon is nervous so i held his hands, reassuring it's going to be fine. He looked at me and softly smiled. Cute.
"Mom, tita, tito, there's something you need to know po," i started. Nakuha ko lahat ng atensyon nila at napa higpit ang pag hawak ko sa kamay ni Won.
"Um.. uh.."
"What is it, Yana?" Tanong ni mommy.
"We're already in a relationship, tita," Jungwon answered for me. Napa nganga sila mommy at tita sa biglaang sabi nito.
"A-as in kayo na?" Tanong ni mommy at tumango ako.
"Oh my gosh... congrats my babies!" Agad tumayo ang mommy ni Won at niyakap kami parehas.
"I love you two," at binigyan niya kami ng ngiti at umupo ulit.
"Congrats to the both of you! I'm proud of you son," sabi ni tito kay Won at nginitian ako.
"Let's celebrate this then, manang can you get the champagne and four glasses for us? Thank you," saad ni mommy. Nakahinga kami parehas ng maluwag ni Won at pinatpat ko ang likod niya.
"Cheers!" Sigaw nila mommy.
"Thank you po," sabi namin sabay ni Won at ininom ang champagne.
Nauna na nakauwi ang parents ni Won at nag pahinga na sila mommy. Lumabas kami ni Won para mag pahangin at alam ko kung saan ko siya dadalhin. I still can't believe this is happening too, this man beside me is officially my boyfriend, comfort, almost my everything.
"Love, paano kaya kung hindi mo pa ako sinagot 'no? Malalaman ko ba na mahal mo rin ako?" Bigla naman niyang tanong. How could this guy think of this?
"Seriously, Won? Love? Of course i do! Ako nga 'yong nag aalangan rin e," sabi ko.
"Why?" Tanong niya.
"Because maybe you're not really sure to me, maybe you're getting tired following me, marami akong naiisip na pwede mo rin naiisip, Won." I said.
"I would like to be with you all day, love," saad ni Won.
"And everything seem so special with you, Won. I can't lose you..." i said as we reached the bridge. Mahangin at maganda ang gabi ngayon, hinawakan ko ang kamay niya at sinandal ang ulo ko sa balikat niya.
"You're the best finding spots for the both of us when hanging out, love," sabi ni Won.
"I know," we chuckled.
"Do you want to go somewhere?" Tanong ko.
"Kung ikaw kasama ko, then yes." Kinuha ko ang kamay niya at nag cab kami.
"This is where we... we had picnic." Saad niya.
"Yeah, it's our first time hanging out alone at first time kong may kasamang lalake sa gala ko." Sabi ko.
"Seryoso ka?" Tanong niya.
"Muka ba akong nag j-joke? You've been with me for years, you know i would never go to someone alone." Saad ko.
"Not even Rise?"
"Not even him. We did hangout pero 'di ba sinabi ko sayo kasama ko si Claire?"
"I feel blessed, I feel love." Natawa naman ako sa reaksyon niya.
"Marami na kaya akong nagawa at napuntahan na ikaw lang ang kasama ko, like literally many things." Pag amin ko pa.
"I don't like skinships, i don't like sweet words or actions, i don't like waiting for too long, i don't like wasting my time, i don't like being scolded, i don't like standing for too long, i don't like someone seeing me when i'm breaking down, i don't like someone following me, and i don't like many unknown people knowing things to my life."
"I like dancing, i like private things for me, i like sweet drinks, i like reading, i like writing, i like watching movies with someone, i like arts, i like staying up late, i like hard work, i like baking, i like customize things, i like trying new things, i like to be alone most of the time, i like traveling, and mostly i like sleeping," tumawa ako. He bit his lips before starting to talk again.
"I.. i broke the things you don't like.."
"It's fine, love," i reassure him.
"I held your hands back then, i scolded you because you're not eating and sleeping well, i always give you a hug for comfort, i made you wait on the mall, i did followed you, and i mostly see you when you're breaking down," he said making him purse his lips from stopping his smile.
"And i successfully knew your likes and habits! Nakaka proud!" Sigaw niya pa at tumawa ako. He really did, you really did Yang Jungwon.
"You made it all worth it, love. I'm really thankful to you. While you were sharing things to me i didn't share mine.." i kinda felt bad.
"Atleast nakikinig ka sa akin, tsaka na hahalata ko naman na rin sa kilos mo ang mga ayaw at gusto mo. Sometimes it's easy to guess your actions lalo na nasanay ako kasama ka," he chuckled. He's really attentive to me, mostly when we're going to be apart.
"Ah talaga ba mr. pikonin?" Asar ko pa. He has short temper than me.
"Your actions really show how you really feel, love," mahina akong tumawa.
"Then you must have known that time you want to be teach by Sunghoon hyung?"
"Na?" I was really clueless.
"Fine. Medyo nag alala ako kasi baka pati kay Sunghoon hyung mag selos ako tulad kay Jake hyung, kaya ako nalang nag paturo kay Sunghoon hyung kaysa ikaw. I learned it for you." pag amin niya. I pursed my lips and looked down to stop my lips from smiling widely.
"I can't stand watching you too close with someone, mostly when i don't know the person," amin niya pa.
"Kaya ba ganoon ka rin kay kuya Rise?" Tanong ko.
"Of course, he's really getting to my temper that times. Masyado siyang malapit sayo, nakabuntot rin siya sayo. I almost hit him when he touched you that night," nanlaki naman mata ko.
"Gosh, Won, 'wag na 'wag mo 'yon gagawin kahit kanino 'yon para lang sa akin baliw ka." Mahina ko siyang hinapas.
"Shh.. 'di mo sure," sabi pa nito.
"Napaka tigas talaga ng ulo mo,"
"Ay wow nag salita si ms. hard headed," edi wow, Won.
"Do you think I'll pass as Civil Engineering?" Tanong ko. I'm not so confident about my course since it's not really my idea at the first place.
"Well, we can do it. Two more years, love," Architect Yang and Civil Engineer Yoo to the future for us.
"Hug please," niyakap ko siya at ibinaon ang muka ko sa dibdib niya.
"Amoy ka talagang baby,"
"Your baby, of course," he said then kissed my head.
"Alis na tayo maya maya, it's 3am in the morning already,"
Orianna's 21st b-day!
I woke up not feeling well so decided to go to the bathroom first. Masyado ata ako napagod kagabi sa laro namin kagabi, biglaang aya sa akin ng mga ka-blockmates ko kaya 'di ako maka tanggi.
Shit. It's my period! Bakit pa sa birthday ko?! Nag palit ako ng bed sheet at pajama bago humiga ulit. Ayoko naman mabitin sila Claire sa plinano naming party pero 'di rin daw ata makakasama si kuya Heeseung at kuya Yunho ngayon so baka i-move ko nalang 'yong party? Tinext ko si mommy na 'di matutuloy ngayon ang party dahil may mga hindi makakasama sa party ko kaya naman imo-move ko nalang 'yong date. I informed Wonie about cancelling the party so that he can inform the others before i turn on the airplane mode. Ang sakit ng puson ko sabay nilalamig pa ako.
Bumaba lang ako noong nakaramdam ako ng gutom. Inayos ko ang sarili ko bago bumaba at buti nalang walang katao tao sa kitchen, day off nila nanay Lay. Kumuha nalang ako ng tinapay at gatas dahil 'di na ako makagalaw ng maayos, ang sakit talaga. Pag akyat ko ng kwarto ay pinatay ko ang airplane mode at doon nanaman sumabog ang notification ko at bumungad pa ang isang caller.
"Hi babe," i tried my best not to sound in pain.
"Hey love! Kanina pa kita tinatawagan, saan ka? I'm worried," i faced the other way to grunt.
"I'm fine! No need to worry, I'm just busy for today that's why i cancelled the party. I need to go-" i hissed through the pain.
"Bye, take care love!" Sabay baba ko sa tawag. Binuksan ko ulit ang airplane mode para makapag pahinga. Ewan ko pero 'di ko lang feel sabihin 'yong totoo, wala ako sa mood makipag usap ngayon. Sinubukan ko matulog pag tapos kumain ng isang tinapay at naiiyak nalang ako sa sakit ng puson ko hanggang sa maka tulog.
Nagising ako noong may naramdaman akong kamay na naka hawak rin sa kamay ko.
"Oh gosh.. Won.." agad niya akong inalalayan noong sinubukan kong umupo.
"Hey love.. 'wag mo masyado ipilit," he seem so worried.
"I'm fine, you don't need to come," saad ko.
"You have high fever, Ori, 'di pa kita napupunasan kakarating ko lang," napa hinga ako ng malalim.
"I have my red today.." napa hawak ako sa puson ko.
"I'm glad i have chocolates for you, but first put the hot compression so that it can help," minsan ko lang sabihin kay Won namay red days ako kasi nahihiya ako sakanya pero alam niya pa rin gagawin niya. I guess he did this to ate Alice back then.
"Thank you, love.." he kissed my forehead and softly smiled before leaving the room.
Ngayong araw ay nasa kwarto lang ako buong magdamag kasama si Won, masaya ako na kasama ko siya pero naiinis ako sa sarili ko dahil kailangan niya pa ako alagan mag damag at 'di pa natuloy ang party dahil lang sa red days ko!
"Happy birthday to you.. Happy birthday to you, happy birthday, happy birthday... happy birthday my Sunny.." hawak niya ang isang cake at pumasok isa isa sila Claire, shit nakakahiya!
"Happy birthday Yana!" Sabay sabay nilang sigaw at nag wish na ako bago i-blow.
"Happy twenty-first Yana!" Lumapit sa akin si Claire para mayakap ako.
"Kala namin nag tampo ka na noong nalaman mo na 'di kami makakasama ni Yunho, ipa-iprank ka palang e," saad ni kuya Heeseung.
"We bought chocolates! May beer rin!" Nilapag ni kuya Yunho ang dala dala niya at masaya rin silang nag baba ng mga gamit nila.
"Wait, kukuha akong ng panlatag para malambot 'yong inuupuan niyo," inalalayan ako ni Won tumayo at kumuha ng panlatag at siya nalang rin nag latag.
"Ang init.." rinig kong saad ni Sunoo.
"Babe 'yong heater naka open pa yata," tinapik ko si Won at tumayo para i-off ang heater at nilakasan ang aircon.
"Eto kasi si Won e, ayaw patayin-" then bigla silang lahat natahimik at nanlaki ang mga mata at bibig nila.
"Putangina ng kabayo?!" Claire?
"Oh shit.." Kuya Hee?
"Hala gago?" Sunoo?
"Nabingi ata tayo..." Ni-ki?
"Nauntog ba ako guys?" Kuya Yunho?
"Oh smooth.." Kuya Jake?
Halos sila may nasabi maliban kay kuya Sunghoon na parang nag lag rin. Oh gosh... 'di pala nila alam? Kala ko halata na nila? Pati kami ni Won natawa sa reaksyon nila. Hindi naman namin nilihim sakanila at 'di naman rin sila nag tatanong masyado, puro lang asar.
"Hoy Yana bakit 'di ko alam?!"
"'Di ka naman nag tatanong puro ka lang asar tsaka what if," sagot ko kay Claire.
"Jungwon?!?" Sigaw ng mga lalaki.
"What? Puro rin kasi kayo asar," tawa namin ni Won.
"For how long na?"
"Won started courting me on my eighteenth birthday which is now three years passed, noong birthday niya lang ko siya sinagot.." gulat na gulat sila, as in.
"T-three years? As in THREE YEARS?!?" Nanlaki ang mga mata nila. They're in disbelief at the moment kaya lalo kaming natatawa ni Won.
"'Di ba tinanong kita dati, Yana?" Tanong ni Claire.
"We had misunderstanding sometimes, Claire, kaya minsan 'di ko nalang sinasabi pag wala ako sa mood," i slide my arm to Won's waist.
"Ang daya niyo! Kaya pala madalas wala kayong dalawa ah, pero 'di kayo masyado halata. Ano secret relationship ba kayo?"
"It's never a secret!" Saad ko.
"Ori like it private so it was never a secret," Jungwon said it for me.
"Oh gosh congrats," niyakap ako ni Claire.
"Congrats kambing!" Sigaw ni Riki.
Lahat si tumayo para mag congrats sa amin at niyakap kami. Maya maya pa ay nag ring ang phone ko at nakita ko ang caller.
"Babe I'll get this first, okay?" Tumango si Won at inalalayan niya ako tumayo para makalabas. Ang ingay kasi sa loob kaya lumabas ako.
"Hi Yana, sorry for disturbing," simula nito.
"It's fine Jay, you're not disturbing me," nginitian ko rin siya sa camera. He likes it video call.
"How's your day? Happy birthday nga pala! I've got something for you, It'll arrive tomorrow morning i think," ingles na ingles siya gurl.
"Thank you! Dapat 'di ka na nag abala pa, dami mo pa ata ginagawa ngayon sa work mo. Kamusta ka na d'yan?"
"It's all for you Yana, parang 'di mag kaibigan simula pag kabata 'o. And I'm doing fine," i heard him sighed.
"Are you sure? You're fine?" Tanong ko.
"Well.. i need to be, I'm still trying to live well," gosh, i wish there would be someone for him soon enough.
"You can contact me anytime, okay? Sabihin mo lang kung may kailangan ka ah?" I saw Won got out of the room and made his way towards me.
"Si Jay lang ba 'yan?" Bulong nito at tumango ako.
"Hey angry Jay!" Bati ni Won kay Jay at tinapat ko ang camera kay Won. Napa hampas nalang sa muka si Jay noong nakita niya si Won.
"Oh gosh Jungwon, hi," natawa naman kami ni Won.
"Kamusta ka na hyung? Lalim na ng eyebags ah, mag pahinga ka rin," saad ni Won.
"Dami lang gawain, and I'll rest later! You should take care of Yana for me, mr. Johnny, okay? Take care and enjoy the day ahead. Happy birthday again, Orianna,"
"Of course hyung, we have our best girl here! Ingat ka d'yan, call us if you need someone to talk to," we waved our hands to Jay until he cut the call.
"Okay ka na ba? May masakit pa ba sayo?" Dinikit niya ang palad niya sa noo ko at tumango ako.
"Hindi na masyado masakit puson ko, tsaka ewan ko nalang kung 'di pa bumaba ang lagnat ko pag katapos mo 'ko alagaan 'di ba?" He smirked and shook his head.
"Happy birthday love, i love you," he kissed my cheek and gave me a sweet smile.
"Babe lalo kang nagiging cheesy tara na nga," pumasok na kami ulit sa loob at nag usap usap lang kami tungkol sa isa't isa.
This day ended well. I felt their comfort beside me, mostly Wonie. Parehas kaming may plano sa mga susunod na hakbang sa buhay namin ni Won at ayoko mapag iwanan ako. He's more independent than i am, and he's a fast learner than i am. I'm still lacking expressing myself but i have love language so i can make sure that he knows i love him more than he ever know. I love how he blushes when i give too much compliment about him, i love everything about him even through ups and downs, i accept his flaws as he accepted mine. Sometimes I'm lost for words for everything he had done to me, like deserve ko ba talaga 'to? Madaming tanong sa isip ko na pwedeng maging dahilan ng pag aalala ko ulit pero si Won lang, kahit makita ko lang siya sapat na alam kong sapat na ako. My love for him was indescribable, it's something i can't help with but to love him more and more as second passed, as minutes, hours passed, each other day it will all grow for him.