Napadaing ako dahil sa mumunting sakit na bumultahe sa buong katawan ko, ghad can't she be more gentle?!
"Urgg—" i pressed my lips ng hindi kona napigilan pang dumaing, she gave me a small laugh and continue on what she's doing
Kakagising ko lang kasi ng biglang bumungad tong nurse nato sa guest room na itinuro pala ni manang sol, hindi ko alam bakit kailangan lagi ng nurse na pupunta sakin kapag papalitan yung bandage ko eh kayang kaya ko naman palitan magisa yon
Napaka oa din kasi ng pinsan ko minsan hindi na nakakatuwa yung pagiging maalagain niya, nagiging hysterical na siya kung madalas
Actually napalitan kona yung bandage ko after ko maligo kanina sobrang ingat pa ang pagkakagawa ko dahil sobrang kirot padin ang nararamdaman ko kapag ginagalaw ko ito, but the nurse said kailangan malinisan ito ng maayos and malagyan ng wastong gamot dahil baka daw siya ang malagot sa pinsan ko kapag bumakas yung sugat, and there i get it ate el doesn't want me to get a scars from it, napakaarte talaga!
"Thank you po" I politely said at tumayo na sa kinauupuan ko
"Welcome miss, btw this is my last day though hindi pako nakakapagpakilala" i chuckled, yeah kapag kasi ginagamot niya ko ay laging kasama namin si ate eli at halata mo sakanyang takot siya sa dragon kong pinsan kaya mabilis niyang nagagawa ang trabaho niya ng hindi umiimik
"Oo nga po eh" i answered shyly and smiled at her "i'm aizlyn po thanks again"
"I know you of course, i'm nurse deena" she offered her hand na mabilis ko namang tinanggap, she gave me genuine smile na sinuklian ko naman
"Nurse deena do you want—" i was cut off ng may biglang nagbukas ng pinto, ang ngiti ko ngayon ay wala ng mapaglagyan ng makita ko kung sino yon imbis na suklian niya ang ngiti ko ay umirap lamang ito na mahina kong kinatawa
Naglalakad ako papunta sakanya ng may malaking ngiti sa aking labi, akala ko umuwi na siya knowing that this is our last day here i'm happy that she decided to stay even for a little bit of time
"put your jacket on and go downstairs" tumango ako at tumakbo sa may kama to grab my gray hoodie; nakasando lang kasi ako and short kapag umaga pero paglingon ko sa pinto ay wala na siya kaya mabilis akong lumabas para humabol
"Sav! Wait!!" i held her wrist at habol hiningang isinuot ko muna yung hoodie bago siya tiningnan "bakit moko iniwan?" I asked frowning
Tumingin lang siya sakin ng walang emosyon pero tumagos ang tingin niya sa likod ko kaya napalingon na rin ako don
Darn nakalimutan kong nandon nga papala sa kwarto si nurse deena na ngayon ay kalalabas lang
"Oh nurse deena" i smiled "do you want to have a breakfast with us before you go?" I asked politely, ang rude naman kasi kung hindi ko siya aayain gayong nandito na siya
She gave me warm smile after she kindly shook her head "I would love to, but i can't right now i need to be back on time at the hospital" napatango naman ako
"Okay po ingat nalang kayo nurse deena" saad ko at lumingon ulit kay saviel ng mahinang hilahin niya ang kamay ko na nakakapit papala sakanya, tatanggalin ko na sana dahil mukhang nagsisimula nanaman siyang mawala sa mood ng higpitan niya lang pala ang pagkakahawak sakin
I playfully smile at her but she just glared at me and gestured the stairs "let's go" she said at naglakad na ng tuluyan habang nakasunod ako sakanya, i inwardly smile ng hindi niya binibitawan ang pagkakahawak sakin
"Oh nandito na pala sila" sabi ko ng makita sa dining area sila ate eli and ate camile na mukhang patapos ng kumain "tapos kana kumain?" i asked and look at her she just plainly shook her head as an answer
Akala ko yun na yon pero tumingin siya sakin and stared at me straight to my eyes "not yet" she said
"huh why? its already —what?" I glance at my phone and my eyes widen ng mapagtantong 11am na pala "its almost lunch saviel baka gutom kana" nakasimangot na saad ko rito na nagkibit balikat lang at inirapan ako "sana sumabay kana kila ate eli" dagdag kopa
"I want to have my breakfast with you." napabuga ako sa hangin after niyang sabihin yon sabayan pa ng pagbitaw niya sa kamay ko at naunang dumiretso kung saan nakaupo yung dalawa, i leaned myself weakly on the wall ng mapakiramdaman ko ang sarili ko
Bakit ba ganito? Parang ayoko nalang umalis
Its just 1 week, babalik ako agad at pinanghahawakan ko ang mga katagang sinabi niya
She wants me. I can take my shot pagbalik ko, she gave me her consent..
darn parang ayaw pa magsink in sakin
Pero bakit ganon? Bakit parang ayoko ng umalis kahit na alam ko namang panandalian lang ako? She'll keep her promise, we'll take a risk together and she'll gave me a chance to prove on her of how she really mean to me
Dapat masaya ako dahil finally i can already make her feel kung gaano ko siya kagusto pero theres this thing sa sarili ko na huwag nalang umalis at mapirmi nalang sa tabi niya knowing merong lalaking gustong gusto siyang makuha ngayon
Takot bako? Or natatakot ako sa mga mangyayari habang wala ako? Hindi ko na rin maintindihan ang sarili ko
Marami akong tanong between them, Kung bakit parang wala siyang magawa kapag nasa harap na niya ang lalaking yon. It's like she doesn't want to upset nor to decline that guy. I have this guts na may pinanghahawakan yung lalaking yon pagdating sakanya. Pero sabi naman niya maguusap kami pagbalik ko
Ang kailangan ko lang bumalik at masasagot lahat ng tanong ko, i'm not expecting for her to like me back but she gave a consent to confess and take my shot on her once na makabalik ako
But one thing, i'll make sure to come home to her once the that one week ended and tell her all the feelings ive had to her. I'll keep her whatever it takes because i know i'll be the happiest woman once i told her everything, and i hope and try my best to do the same to her, ang mapasaya siya gaya ng ginagawa niya sakin since ive known her
Nasa malayo palang siya okay nako. Pero ang mapalapit siya ng ganito sa kin? She makes me feel alive..
"Anong oras ang flight niyo?" Ate camile asked nasa tabi nako ni saviel ngayon at nakaupo, nagulat pa nga ko dahil pagkaupo ko ay may nakasandok na ang pagkain sa plato ko para sakin, for sure naman ako hindi si ate eli yon dahil hindi niya gawain yan
"2 am" ate eli answered habang umiinom ng juice
"That's too early ate" saad ko naman
"Bakit hindi kayo gumamit ng private plane nalang?" Ate camile asked again
"Can't, walang mag assist ngayon nasa spain sila" blankong sagot ng pinsan ko, pansin ko lang ay hindi niya tinitigan si ate camile, may nangyari ba?
"Si saviel marami naman connection yan" kulit ulit ni ate camile
"yea i can take care of it el, if you need a private plane" seryosong sagot naman ng katabi ko habang unting unting kinakain ang nasa plato niya
Ang bagal niyang kumain, patapos nako't lahat hindi parin siya nakakalahati ang pagkain niya, no doubt sobrang alaga niya sa katawan especially sa weight
"Its fine savi, i know marami kapang inaayos ngayon. you're also going to batanes right?" Bigla naman akong napatingin kay saviel
Aalis din siya?
Pero napasimangot ako ng hindi man lang niya ko tinapunan ng tingin at normal padin ito sa pagtuloy sa pagkain niya "yeah sa isang araw pa, my dad wants me to attend a meeting there for our major client"
"Seryoso na talaga yan? Sinisimulan ka na niya?" Walang malay ko lang silang tinitignan tatlo dahil wala akong naiintindihan sa mga pinaguusapan nila, should i leave now?
"Shut up camile, you have a date right? you can go now." Masungit na saad ng pinsan ko and glared to ate camile na nakasimangot na
"I'm staying here beside the girls we'll come—"
"WHAT?!" ate el and saviel yelled in unison na nakapagpatawa sakin ng mahina
"This is not your house camile!" Iritadong puna ni ate eli ulit
"But they said they want to see you and aiz before you both go, one month din yon ah. Mamimiss ki— ko kayo ni aiz" napatahimik kami while i saw saviel who's now lowkey smirking at ate camile
"Careful camile." She uttered playfulness is intended on it na lalong nakapagpangiti sakin
Minsan mo lang kasi siya makitang ganyan
I cleared my throat "ate camile, ate eli said may dinadate kana, who's is it? igop?" I asked grinning
"What the fvck is igop/ what's igop?" They all asked, sabay sabay pa talaga great
I shrugged narinig ko lang yon kay hanah and cali eh
"Pogi daw." I answered
Napadaing naman ako ng may biglang tumama sa paa ko sa ibaba ng lamesa, hindi tumama pala tumapak!
I frown "finish your chocolate milk." She sternly said, do i look like a kid to her? Pero siyempre sinunod ko parin. Kainis
Ate camile giggled and glance at my cousin who's also scowling while using her phone and gave me her subtle smile "i'm not dating him aiz, wag kang naniniwala sa pinsan mo. garry is fvcking 29 yrs old hindi ako mahilig sa lantang talong"
"Camile!" Sigaw ng katabi ko at ng pinsan ko, they seems so pissed on what ate camile said
I laughed hard ng marinig ko yon, i'm not that innocent not to get what she said no
"Shut it aizlyn! For the love of god camile magdasal dssal ka nga!" Singhal ng pinsan ko na ikinapigil tawa ko dahil kinukurot na rin ako ngayon ng katabi ko dito
Ano ba tong si ate camile, nadadamay ako dahil sakanya!
I gigged on ate camile when i saw her smirking on my cousin para silang nagdedebate sa pagtingin, masamang masama na ang tingin ng pinsan ko sakanya while she's just innocently smiling back at latter
Bilib din ako dito e
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"you're not going to school?" I asked saviel who's just sitting pretty at the living room habang nanonood ng tom& jerry her favorite cartoon
She shook her head, hindi parin ako pinapansin
Yung dalawa kasi nasa kwarto ni ate eli malay ko ba kung anong ginagawa nila basta nung iniwan kami ni ate eli ay sinundan nalang basta nung isa
Bahala sila
"How much do you love tom?" Tanong ko habang nanonood narin katabi niya, kumuha pako ng strawberry na kinakain niya ngayon at buti nalang wala lang sakanya
"Like how much harley loves her puddin" she sarcastically said
I pouted "totoo? But it's just a cat amarah! harley is too crazy for joker, she volunteered to be his follower and readies to do everything for joker, despite has many evil things joker has done to her" nakasimangot na paliwanag ko
She can do that? Now i hate that idiot cat already! Saviel is too fond at him, i like jerry better
"But tom is not evil, he's a cute cat" napairap naman ako sa sinabi neto "and heck are you seriously can't take a joke?" Singhal niya
Nakalabing umiwas naman ako ng tingin, ganon ba siya magbiro? ghad hindi mo talaga malalaman kung nagbibiro to o hindi sa sobrang seryoso ba naman ng aura palagi
Hindi siya funny
After a long silence ay nakangusong nanood nalang ako pero napapairap ako ng nakikita ko kung gaano siya kafocus at napapangiti ngiti pa kapag si tom na ang nangbubuwisit kay jerry
I sighed
Ng lumipas ulit ang ilang minuto ay nagtaka akong lumingon sakanya ng patayin niya bigla ang tv at tumayo
"San ka pupunta? Uuwi kana?" Bigla akong nanlumo sa isiping uuwi na siya agad
She look at me seriously at bumalik sa pagkakaupo
"A-are you going home?" I asked again
Her lips crept into a tiny smile "no."
Hindi ko alam kung ginagawa ko pero natagpuan ko nalang ang sarili kong isinasandal ang ulo ko sa balikat niya "can you stay here for a while?" I asked softly, para kong bata but i'm going to miss her. Ayoko na ngang umalis eh but i know my dad's wants to see me too at tska isang linggo lang naman ang titiisin ko; pero ang alam niya isang buwan
She chuckled again and nodded at me
"Thank you for last night.." she mumbled, tumango lang ako at mas isiniksik ang sarili sa leeg niya
She smells good
I place my hand in her tummy and pulled her closer to me "do you mean it?" I asked again after a long silence
"Mean what?" She asked while caressing my hand na nasa tummy niya
"Na pagbalik ko.. pwede na?" I asked in a low tone
She chuckled "yes.. i'll wait for you and we'll talk when you get back.."
"Promise?" I asked like kid
"Promise." She smiled and grab my waist para mapaharap sakanya
"I'm going to miss you amarah." Nakangusong saad ko rito na ikinailing niya
My brow furrowed ng bigla niyang tanggalin ang bracelet niya, her name was engraved to it. 'SAmarah' its silver, ayun ang lagi kong nakikitang suot niya palagi
She gently grab my arm at nagtaka akong tumingin sakanya ng isuot niya sakin yon "advance happy birthday aizlyn.." she softly whispered and gave me her genuine smile na ikinagulat ko
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Its already 12 in the midnight, and as of now ay nakasakay na kami lahat sa van; nandito na rin yung iba para ihatid kami sa airport actually maaga silang dumating sa bahay kanina after their classes, saviel spent the whole day with me nanood kami at natulog pero kinagabihan ay maaga kaming nagising we walked around the garden and talk all night sobrang bait niya sakin ngayon dahil ni hindi man lang niya ko sinusungitan nakakapanibago, if its a normal day for me baka ito na ang pinakamasayang gabi ko dahil nakasama ko siya, inantay lang namin ang oras na kailangan nanaming magbihis para umalis, but the whole night turns into a happy yet sad night to me, i don't know why. isang linggo lang naman pero bakit ganito nako kung maging malungkot knowing na malalayo ako sakanya?
"you can sleep first, i'll wake you up later" i shook my head and gave her subtle smile
"No.. i don't want to sleep" i mumbled nandito kami ngayon sa pinakalikod naka pwesto, i asked her to sat beside me dahil gusto ko siyang makasama hanggang makarating kami ng airport
"Okay, just lean to me and rest" she said softly which i obliged, i hugged her waist na ikinagulat niya akala ko tatanggalin niya pero inayos lamang neto ang ulo ko sa pagkakasandal sakanya, my heart went wild when i felt her lips on my temple
Tahimik lang kami buong biyahe, tulog din yung iba which is good dahil hindi nila kami mapapansin dito sa likod, i felt sad again habang palapit kami ng palapit sa airport ay pahigpit ng pahigpit ang pagkakayakap ko sakanya
"What's wrong aiz?" She whispered, umalis naman ako sandali sa pagkakasandal at bahagyang yumuko, i wipe my tears na tumutulo na pala
Ang arte ko
Bakit bako nalulungkot at umiiyak? Its just a fvcking one week c'mon!!
"T-this is nothing" i fake chuckled
"Aizlyn..Look at me baby" pansin ko lang she's calling me that kapag nanlalambing o kaya't pinapakalma ako she has this sweetest voice when she do that and it's melting my heart even more
I slowly looked at her, i bite my lower lip when i felt her touching my face gently she wiped my dry tears on her bear hands at ipinagdikit ang noo namin
"Enjoy your time with your family okay?" I nodded "and keep my word. I said what i said, you don't need to be scared.." she added, i closed my eyes and feel her warm ramdam na ramdam ko ang mainit na hininga niya
Sobrang pagpipigil ang ginagawa ko para lang hindi siya mahalikan but when i opened my eyes i saw how she intently looking at lips and there i lost it..
I kissed her.
I danced my lips against her na mabilis niyang ginawaran pero sandali lang yon dahil ayokong may makakita samin at ng maghiwalay kami, i smile sweetly to her and poke her cheek "take care while i'm away.. i'll miss you amarah."