19
Mork is with Muang Nan that night. They are waiting for Un to come back, Nan is already worried. It's been hours since Un went on a drive. Un called Nan's bestfriend to stay with him as he drive god knows where. But it's getting late and Mork have other things to do.
"Are you sure? Your okay?" Nan nods and smile at his bestfriend. He is not that helpless, he was just shaken up earlier.
"Yeah I can wait for him alone, go home. Pi won't sleep without you," Mork sigh and nod his head. He is worried that this is a bad outcome of what happened to the lovers earlier. This is not how it's suppose to be. Misunderstandings should be address as soon as emotions are under control.
"But if something hap-"
"Yes, I know. Go, go," Mork chuckle and left Nan.
"Where are you Un, please come home," But no matter how many times Nan said those words in the wind, Un didn't come back that night— and the days after that.
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2 YEARS LATER
'We don't have to to end up together to know if we are soulmates. We tried didn't we? But fate doesn't always go in our favor, well maybe not in this life time. Let's meet again, the next lifetime, you and I. In a different world, in a different universe but the same you,'
Muang Nan held the piece of paper hard. He misses him. God knows how he always reach the other side of the bed and be disappointed to feel it cold. Standing outside the hospital where he is working under a tree as the cold breeze passes him by, sadness settles within his heart.
Nan sigh as he looked up the sky, it's getting dark, the clouds looks heavy like they're gonna pour a whole ocean of tears.
"Will I see him today?" Will the rain be kind to them? To let them meet in a pouring rain? Like before?
"God, I miss him," Nan let out a painful chuckle as his voice cracked. Eyes watered, does the rain still brings blessing to people? Can it bring him his blessing?
"Doctor, the room is ready for the next patient," Nan turn to see the nurse gave him an awkward smile, he is sure the nurses had a hard time thinking who will talk to him specially with his expression. He smiled at the youbg lady and nod.
"Thank you Phan, I'll be there in a sec," The nurse nod back at him with an apologetic smile, why? Does he look pitiful today?
"Come back," He mutter in the wind. May the wind bring Un back to him.
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"That's the last one Dr. Chareonphon," Nan smiled.
"Phan really, Muang Nan or Nan is better than calling me Dr.," He told the nurse who just giggle and roll her eyes at him.
"You worked hard for your title and you just want to use your given name?" No, lady you don't understand, I hate the surname, Nan thought. He sigh, there's no way he'll say that out loud.
"Well thank you for your hard work today," The nurse smile and left him with his thoughts again. Looking outside the window of his office, he saw the rain drops.
"So, it really rain... I wonder-" Wishful thinking.
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Out of the office. Nan stopped by the mall near his work place, he loves a coffee shop in this place. They even know now how he likes his coffee.
"Mr. Nan!" A staffed beamed as they saw him enter the shop. He heard the other staffs said their hello's and hi's to him. He walked to the counter with the smile as the coffee aroma hits him so hard. What a soft spot for caffeine is this? He even smell the newly baked pasties.
"The usual," Nan said to the lady who makes his coffee for 2 years now.
"Copy! For two?" Nan bit his lips and shook his head.
"Ohh, okay... Coming right up! We'll call you once it's ready," He nods and spotted a window seat, nice he wants to look at people walking around the mall.
"Excuse me," A voice said beside him, he looked up and surprised to see a young man, well the same age as he is looking at him like three inches away from his face.
"Tian?" The stranger asked as he stood up straight again with a frown.
"Pardon?" Who's that Tian? More importantly who's this person?
"Ohh, you're not him... But god, if I didn't know that guy doesn't have a twin, I'll think you are his identical-" The stranger pause, eyes widen and gives him a sheepish smile.
"I'm sorry, I got carried away and forgot to introduce myself. Hello, I'm Longtae... Sorry if I approach you like this, you really just look a lot like our friend," Nan smiled and nod his head in acknowledgement. He cannot think of another person looking like him, was it weird if he sees that 'Tian' one of these days? Nan held his hand out for a handshake.
"Nice to meet you Longtae, my name is Muang Nan," Longtae beams at him and took his hand.
"Babe," Nan heard a voice said as him and Longtae looked at the way where the voice came from. There stands a man with a foreign features and a thick eyebrows. He is looking at Longtae with a gentle smile. Ohhh, his boyfriend? With that body structure and stance, oh and that haircut he looks like an army guy. Like Un's brother. Oh, thinking about Un hurts again. The man made his way to Longtae and held the man on his waist, Nan felt shy seeing them and look around.
"Let's go home I-" The man stopped when he got a look at Nan. Eyes widen, mouth slightly ajar.
"He looks like him isn't he?" Longtae asked the man beside him who blinked several times and nod his head. Maybe he felt he is staring for too long that he clear his throat and looked around.
"He really do but we talked about this babe. Stop talking suddenly to people,"
"But I have to! I thought Tian came home without seeing us!"
"I apologize about this lovely man here, I'm Rang and you are..."
"Nice to meet you Rang, I'm Muang Nan," He gave Nan a small smile.
"We would love to talk to you and show some pictures of Tian and-"
"Longtae," Rang said warningly.
"Yes... Ah we need to go, nice meeting you!" Longtae said as he held Rang's hand and walk away from him waving his hand. The couple is not that far from him when he heard Longtae said that they should have asked a picture from me to show to Chief that made his boyfriend shook his head.
"He'll be sad," Now he wonders, does this Chief is Tian's boyfriend? Nan just smile as the staff gave him his coffee. What a day to know someone share the same face like yours.
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"I knew it," Nan said as he saw how gloomy it is outside. The heaven really did cry a whole ocean down, it's raining hard. As usual, he doesn't have an umbrella.
"Just great," He said sarcastically. Ahh, fuck this stupid weather. Fuck evey-
"You need help?" Muang Nan froze, fuck. He knows that voice, even if he goes blind. He knows that voice, it echoes within him. He doesn't want to turn around, he's scared that he'll be disappointed. That it's just his imagination.
"I promise, that if you turn around I'll be here standing, staring at you. No longer a fragment of your imagination," Nan turns to see his boyfriend standing there in a white polo dress shirt, sleeves rolled up. Black slacks and a dark shoes. Hair brushed up wearing his eyeglasses, holding an umbrella.
Nan pout his lips as his eyes waters.
"Can you stop writing letters like we broke up before you go paint a mural somewhere in Europe," Nan said hoarsely. Un chuckles and walk to Nan hugging him.
"Hmm, I just want you to experience heartbreak since I couldn't do it to you,"
"Asshole," Un laugh heartily.
"Love me like there's no tomorrow for us, so if we die at least we both know how much love we gave for each other," Nan pushed him away playfully and hit his chest.
"Stop talking like you're going to leave me soon,"
"Well, let's get going?" Nan smile and nod. Oh, he have so many things to tell Un today. He'll start with Longtae and Rang.