Mafuyu's pov.
It was morning.
The bright sun was shining.
-Good morning, sweetie.-
-Oh, good morning, mom!-
I couldn't open my eyes because of the light of the sun.
Tonight i had a strange dream.
I dreamed about me and Yuki waiting for the train, and then I discovered he cheated on me.
I don't know why, but I still have a strange feeling about this dream.
It was too strange.
Today it is almost a year since Yuki died.
Six days, and it will be one year.
'And all I wanted was a lousy letter or a call
I hope you know I ripped all of your pictures off the wall
I love you Slim, we could've been together, think about it
You ruined it now, I hope you can't sleep and you dream about it
And when you dream I hope you can't sleep and you scream about it
I hope your conscience eats at you and you can't breathe without me
See Slim, shut up b*tch! I'm tryin' to talk!
Hey Slim, that's my boyfriend screamin' in the trunk
But I didn't slit his throat, I just tied him up, see I ain't like you
'Cause if he suffocates he'll suffer more, and then he'll die too
Well, gotta go, I'm almost at the bridge now
Oh sh*t, I forgot, how am I supposed to send this sh*t out?'
I dressed up, had breakfast, washed my teeth and catched the bus.
In the bus, I saw a girl crying while watching her phone.
I sat next to her.
-Hey, what's up? Why are u crying?-
-My boyfriend cheated on me, he's called Yuki...-
What?
-I-I'm sorry, I might know him... what's his name?-
-Yuki, Yuki Aaron.-
-Oh, no, sorry, i don't know him.
Anyways-uhm...just make him know how you're precious, and find a new guy, or girl, that respects you and loves you. As much as possible, is better.
She cried and hugged me.
-Thanks, now i gotta go.-
-B-bye.-
I don't know how I said all those things!
I'm so introvert and shy, but when it comes out of arguments like this I'd say infinite things.
My stop was the next.
I saw Uenoyama in front of the school.
He waved at me, and i did the same.
Then he kept talking with his blonde friend of his same age, i think.
I'd go to the Yuki's picture place, but today not.
I felt too sad, and that would just make it worse.
I went to my class, waiting for the teacher.
A young lady entered in the class, but she wasn't a teacher.
-Hello, guys.
I want to inform you all that today the teacher will not be there, so you'll skip the first three hours.
Have a good day, and come back in class after the third hour.-
Oh god, I was so happy!
Uenoyama came close to me.
-Hey, wanna go now to the park?
After lunch I immediately need to go home, so we cannot meet anymore.
But, if you want, now we can.-
-Sure, why not?-
So we went to the park.
They added some new things.
We had a lot of fun.
I never felt that way since last year.
-Soon classes will start, wanna go back at school?- I said.
-Ok, it's almost time!-
He grabbed my wrist and ran with me at school.
I felt stranger, like my stomach was about to explode.
I felt something I never felt before.
Anyways, we came back at our class.
After the lessons were done, we went at lunch.
I picked a sandwich, so he did the same.
Then I picked a coke for the two of us, hoping he liked it.
-Hey, why did you buy this?-
-I'm sorry, don't you like it? I can buy something else if you want to.-
-No, I didn't mean that!-
-So what did you mean?-
-That i've could buy it for us, but now it doesn't matter, thank you, I like it so much!-
I was happy that finally someone liked something I did.
After lunch, he fastly ran at home.
I did the same, but not running.
I catched the bus and listened to music.
I didn't meet the girl of this morning in the bus.
But it was ok, maybe she catched another bus.
Why am I worried for her?
Maybe 'cause i don't want people to go through the same things I felt some time ago.
I went back home, my mom wasn't there, she was at work for sure.
As always, of course.
But it wasn't a problem for me, I've could have more time for me.
After finished to study, because there wasn't that much to do, I had a shower.
I took my phone in the bathroom.
I played a random playlist.
✰𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐲𝐢𝐬𝐭 𝐧𝐮𝐦𝐛𝐞𝐫 𝐨𝐧𝐞✰
•Rolling in the deep-Adele
•Sign of the times-Harry Styles
•Stressed Out-twenty one pilots
•Poison-Rita Ora
•Body-Mother Mother
•Liquid Smooth-Mitski
•Late Spring Love-Mitski
•AUD4910391-uknown
I putted on shuffle.
For first there was the Uenoyama and his band song.
For last but not least, one of my favorite songs.
Rolling in the deep.
☯︎𝚁𝚘𝚕𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚒𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚍𝚎𝚎𝚙-𝙰𝚍𝚎𝚕𝚎 (𝙸 𝚍𝚘 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚘𝚠𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚜𝚘𝚗𝚐!)☯︎
'There's a fire starting in my heart
Reaching a fever pitch and it's bringing me out the dark
Finally, I can see you crystal clear
Go ahead and sell me out and I'll lay your ship bare
See how I'll leave with every piece of you
Don't underestimate the things that I will do
There's a fire starting in my heart
Reaching a fever pitch and it's bring me out the dark
The scars of your love remind me of us
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless
I can't help feeling
We could have had it all
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hands
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
Baby, I have no story to be told
But I've heard one on you and I'm gonna make your head burn
Think of me in the depths of your despair
Make a home down there as mine sure won't be shared
The scars of your love remind me of us
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
I can't help feeling
We could have had it all
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hands
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
Could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
You had my heart inside of your hands
But you played it with a beating
Throw your soul through every open door
Count your blessings to find what you look for
Turn my sorrow into treasured gold
You'll pay me back in kind and reap just what you've sown
We could have had it all
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
We could have had it all
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
It all, it all, it all
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
We could have had it all
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hands
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
We could have had it all
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hands
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
But you played it
You played it
You played it
You played it to the beat'
After that song, my shower finished too.
I went to play guitar downstairs.
Dude, I felt so lonely.
I just wanted someone near me.
Like Uenoyama.
But you all know who I wanted right now next to me.
Yuki.
☯︎𝙽𝚘𝚋𝚘𝚍𝚢-𝙼𝚒𝚝𝚜𝚔𝚒 (𝙸 𝚍𝚘 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚘𝚠𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚜𝚘𝚗𝚐!)☯︎
'My God, I'm so lonely
So I open the window
To hear sounds of people
To hear sounds of people
Venus, planet of love
Was destroyed by global warming
Did its people want too much, too?
Did its people want too much?
And I don't want your pity
I just want somebody near me
Guess I'm a coward
I just want to feel alright
And I know no one will save me
I just need someone to kiss
Give me one good honest kiss
And I'll be alright
Nobody, nobody, nobody
Nobody, nobody
Ooh, nobody, nobody, nobody
I've been big and small
And big and small
And big and small again
And still nobody wants me
Still nobody wants me
And I know no one will save me
I'm just asking for a kiss
Give me one good movie kiss
And I'll be alright
Nobody, nobody, nobody
Nobody, nobody
Ooh, nobody, nobody
Nobody, nobody, nobody
Nobody, nobody, nobody, nobody
Nobody, nobody, nobody, nobody
Nobody, nobody, nobody (nobody)
(Nobody, nobody)
Nobody, nobody
Nobody, nobody, no.'
It was time for dinner.
My mother came back home.
She was so exhausted, I totally understand her.
She ignored me.
What was going on?
She didn't gave me the time to speak, and she did.
-Your father is coming back.-
-What? When?-
-In a month, I don't know if he's gonna take you.
Please, now let's not think about that, i didn't make dinner, wanna order?-
-No, I don't.
I wanna go to my room now, I'm sorry.-
I felt a bit sorry for leaving my mom, but I needed to think a bit about what would happen if my father would take me.
She didn't tell me why my father leaved me, and I don't wanna even know.
I don't know if my father will love me or not, I don't know if he's better than my mom, and now I don't wanna know anything.
My life is already a mess, why all those things always happen to me?
I just wanna spend this time with my mom, before I'll go at the college.
I'll have this year and two years to spend before college, I know, but I'd like to spend them not with my father.
Why did he leave me?
He doesn't deserve me.
Uenoyama actually texted me.
'Hey, what you're doin'?'
'Thinking.'
'About what? Me because I'm the most beautiful boy in the world?'
'Oh, if you think so.'
'What? You're saying I'm not?'
'Yes, because I'm.'
'Bla, bla, bla 🙄'
'Anyways, what you're thinking about?'
'I don't if I should tell you.'
'If you want to, I'm here.
If you don't, that's ok.'
'Ok, ok.
I'm gonna tell you.
You see, I live only with my mother and my dog.'
'Omg, this seems like those Tik Tok stories that start with "You see"!
I'm sorry, keep texting!'
'I don't want anymore, bye.'
Mafuyu went offline.
It seems like nobody cares about what I say.
I don't wanna talk about it with anyone anymore.
I thought Uenoyama was a serious boy!
Uenoyama's pov.
I feel so sorry about what I did!
I didn't mean to make him upset, I feel so stupid.
I'm gonna text him again asking if he can go out with me, as a friend of course.
Just to know him better, maybe with Akihiko and Haruki too.
'Dude, I'm so sorry.
I didn't think that would make you upset.'
'Mh.'
'Wanna go out tomorrow with Akihiko and Haruki? I want you to know them better.'
'For sure, goodnight'
'Already?? I wanna text a lil bit more.'
'Ok, but I need to rest and you too!'
'I don't care. If you don't text with me, then I'm gonna call someone else.'
'K.'
'Why it does not work with you??'
'I don't care.'
'Anyways, when and where we're gonna meet tomorrow?'
'What you and your friends want.'
'Afternoon or evening?'
'a.'
'What does it even means??'
'Afternoon.'
'At what hour?'
'Seventeen o'clock.'
'You mean at five o'clock?'
'Yes.'
'Wtf, talk normal!'
'Kk, bye, see ya tomorrow.'
'See you soon.'