Chapter 10
I moaned and gripped his hair tightly. My eyes were puff just looking at him playing while making sounds.
"Making out means mouth locked on each other, it doesn't mean sucking my breast, Shaun."
Anong nangyari sa making out?!
Inalis ko ang utong ko sa loob ng kaniyang bibig, ang gago, talagang hinabol pa ito. I rolled my eyes. Ako na mismo ang tumanggal nito, it even created a ‘pop’ sound.
Jusq ko lowdi!
"Gusto naman ng bebe ko." Yamot niya.
Nagrereklamo dahil para siyang inagawan ng lollipop!
Hindi naman kaniya ito.
"When did I even say that?" Tanong ko sakaniya, inayos ko ang pagkakaupo ko sa kandungan niya. "I want boobs too, Shaun. No, I love it. Gusto ko ng bilat at hindi titi."
He groaned as a protest.
I made a face.
He buried his head between my mountains and hugged me tightly. The air was no help, it's kind of suffocating and the friction of him, his skin especially his touched heighten my libido since I am half naked. The heat in his body made me aroused!
Lalo na ang matitikas niyang mga braso. But I stopped myself for commiting any actions for further embarassment!
Mamaya may masabi pa ang isang ito!
"I have boobs too, my extra package nga lang and that's my buddy down there." Sagot niya.
He adjust his chair, para na kaming nakahiga nito. And because I am on his top, nanatili akong nakaupo habang nakaalalay sa tiyan niya where I can freely feel his abs.
"Alam mo bang nagseselos ako sa bansot mong kaibigan? Fuck, if only I can be your world. Lahat ng babaeng lumalapit sayo, nagseselos ako."
Umungot ako at hindi na nagbigay ng responde. Mas lalo ko na lamang dinama ang abs niya kahit natatakpan pa ito ng uniform. You could really feel how manly and firm his body was. He's masculine and has lean body. Mas nakakadagdag tuloy ng kagwapuhan niya.
Hindi mo malalaman hanggat hindi mo nadadama, malaki ang uniform niya pang itaas which is why it wasn't obvious.
"Mas maganda pa pala ang abs mo kaysa sa boss ni Elle." I blurted out of nowhere.
Shaun immediately reacted.
"What the fuck, Dazella Prim Jaralve?!" Galit niyang sabi.
I looked at the window but his hands caught my face. Nilapit niya ito sa kaniya.
Nakasalubong ang dalawang makapal na kilay.
"Huh, did I just say anything?" Pakunwari kong tanong.
Sumama ang timpla ng mukha niyang sarap na sarap kanina.
I want to laugh ridiculously! This man's reaction will always gave me the best of all.
"Don't worry, nakita ko lang. Hehe." Sabi ko while rubbing a finger on my cheek. I even followed it an awkward laugh.
Padabog niyang tinanggal sa pagkabutones ang kaniyang polo at kinuha ang kamay ko. Idiniin niya ito sa abs niya.
I stopped mid-way to what he did just now.
"Ayan, damhin mo ang abs ko. Hindi 'yong titingin ka pa sa abs ng iba. Pagsawaan mo 'yan."
Ngumuso na lang ako. Gusto kong magsalita pero ang lakas niyang magbigay ng pressure sa bawat tingin na kaniyang pinupukol sa akin. I don't know what to do. Shaun's definitely throwing a tantrum like a kid, right now!
He didn't talk, he just stared at me with those half lit eyes. This is getting dangerous. I should make a thirst bait to make him aroused then leave him hanging like an idiot.
Now, Zilla.. shall we?
Tinapatan ko ang bawat titig niya.
I bit my lips where his eyes widened, didn't expect that foul move to came from me! The next thing I did was my fingers on his neck like choking him, I could see how his breathe became hard and then travelled it down up until his v-line.
"Fuck, don't do that!!" He yelled.
Hawak na niya ang kamay ko ngayon.
Halata ang pagtaas at baba ng kaniyang dibdib. Hindi kinaya ang ginawa ko at para siyang isang hayop na pinipigilan ang sarili.
A chuckle, came out from me. I didn't mean to laugh!
It's just that he look funny right now.
He claimed my lips like a beast who's control is almost in his end!
Inayos niya ang pagkaka-kandong ko sakaniya. Mas lalo niya rin akong diniin sa kaniyang dibdib. Lalo nitong nadagdagan ang init na nararamdaman ko. My nipples and his were brushing to each other and it felt a thousand of electricity and heat was about explode!
"Pinapaglaruan mo ba ako?" Tanong niya.
Umakto ako ng walang alam, "hindi."
Pinukol niya ako ng isang masamang tingin bago inihiga ang katawan. Dahil hawak niya ako, marahan niya akong inihiga sa kaniyang dibdib. Sinigurado niyang komportable ako at hindi naiipit ang aking dibdib.
"Let's stay like this until my little Shaun down there, calm."
"So you admit that it's little?"
"Zilla, don't force me to play it infront of you."
My eyes widened!
"Ang bastos ng bibig mo." Puna ko.
"Ayoko rin ng sagot mo." He countered.
He heaved a sigh like someone who's been gasping for air but couldn't find anything. "Let's stop this conversation, it's making me horny."
He caress my hair gently and sometimes he would sniff it.
Tahimik kaming pinakiramdaman ang isa't isa. I almost drifted to sleep when a thought came to my mind.
We don't have any label and yet we're playing with fire. A fire that everyone loves to do. But we're not in any commitments, manliligaw ko siya ngunit akin na siyang binibigyan ng permiso na bagtasin ang daang kina-iingatan ko.
I gave him the permission to do and now I'm regretting it!
There's so many boys out there who tried to chased down the pave I chose but no one stay.. they're all good for words only. They didn't make it because they complained that I was hard on them.
Maraming sumubok, ngunit walang isang nakatapos!
Iniwan nila ako kung saan nagsisimula na akong maging komportable!
We fuck up. Napipigilan man namin ang sarili dahil nasa isang publikong lugar, paano kung nasa isa kaming pribadong lugar? At kaming dalawa lamang? Mas higit pa rito ang magagawa namin.
I know we're both consenting adults but this is not right. This is only what married couples should do!
I should stop but I know it's too late. It's just like we're taking down the path where the others tried but ended up being separated to each other. Ayoko ng ganito. Ayoko ng mga mabulaklak na salita! Gusto kong tatapatin ako ng lalaking ibibigay ang kaniyang buong buhay sa akin, desidido at hindi puro lamang salita.
Words are the strongest weapon that can hurt someone, in this world.
That's why words are said in a flowery way but act like a venomous snake!
I am in love with him. I'm afraid to confess because.. this might not last forever.
Ang daming lalaking sumubok, ngunit si Shaun lamang ang nakalusot. Gosh. Why did I even let my guard down around him?!
My heart clenched and I closed my eyes.
If this is a story then I want the end, to end with him. A story that starts with me but ends with him.
Lord, kung hindi man po para sa akin ang lalaking 'to, please po, ibigay niyo na sa akin dahil mahal na mahal ko po siya. I can't bear to see him with another woman beside me. I want him only for me.
Maisip ko lamang na may ibang babae siyang kasamang tumanda na hindi ako, puwede bang patayin niyo na lang ako? Kasi hindi ko kakayanin.
“He already have someone he love.”
It echoed again randomly.
Kung mayron na siyang mahal na iba, bakit ako ang hinahabol niya ngayon?! Bakit nasa akin siya ngayon?
Mukha ba akong past time lang?
Damn, hindi ko na alam kung sino ang papaniwalaan ko, yung babaeng nakausap ko o itong lalaking nasa harapan ko ngayon? If I tell him what happened, then will he answer me with all honesty? But, maybe he will divert the attention and question.
False hope!
It's so hard to refuse him! But how could I do that to someone who never left my side? How can I hurt him? To someone who looks so innocent? To someone who acts like an angel?!
"Excuse me a little bit." He whispered.
I nodded.
He turned on the radio and connected it on Bluetooth. Ilang sandali lamang ang hinintay ko at mayroong kantang sinakop ang bawat sulok ng sasakyan.
The song was called, “Safari by Serena."
It's one of my favorite song.
Inayos niya ang puwesto naming dalawa. Umikot ang aking mga mata ng magsimula niyang pisilin ang kaliwang dibdib ko. Tinapik ko 'yon na malakas ngunit nahanap lamang nito ang daan at muling tumungo sa dibdib ko.
This asshole!
"Ano bang mayroon sa dede ko?" Bwiset kong tanong.
"Malambot kasi at saka bagay sila ng kamay ko." I face palmed.
Si Shaun pa talaga ang aasahan kong may matinong isagot?
"I thought I have ED all along pero hindi pala. The Doctor's diagnosis was wrong. Ikaw lang naman pala ang sagot sa sakit na 'to." Kuwento niya. Kumunot ang noo ko.
"Anong ED?" Naguguluhan kong tanong.
"Erectile Dysfunction." He said flatly.
My eyes widened. "No way!" I stated. Ngunit hindi siya kumibo kaya tinignan ko siya, only to see him looking at me seriously without a single chance of joke. "Are you serious?"
Tumango siya, "Yes, fucking way."
"Hindi ka sana magkakaanak." Wika ko.
"Tsk."
Umikot lamang ang mata nito at may tinignan sa ibaba. The hostility was gone and in a flick of his eyelids, it was gone and was changed into something I know. That's when I realizes that my boob was pressed hardly on his chest!
Maniac!
"Shut up babe and let me ravage that mouth again." He said full of authority.
"Tama na, Shaun. Nasobrahan ka na."
"Kulang na kulang pa ako." Aniya at tinuro ang kaniyang nguso, "Nakikita mo ba tong nguso ko? Humahaba kasi kulang pa yung making out."
"Alalahanin mong wala tayong label."
"Aanhin pa yang label kung baliw na baliw ka na sa akin." It was not a question, it's a sentence and based on the tone he used, he's really sure about it.
"You look highly on yourself, Shaun. Kailan ba nangyari 'yon?"
"Nong sinubo ko yung utong mo and you moaned, ‘Shit.. Shaun, you're mouth is hot,” he said even mimicking the way I did earlier!
Malakas ko siyang hinampas sa balikat. Hindi tanggap ang kaniyang sinabi, kahit na alam kong nagawa ko ito! I could feel my heart rampaging insanely inside my chest! This, this man and his unending words, will surely going to make me insane one day! No– the statement was wrong because I am too insane about it now!
"Asshole!"
"Oh babe, I have that." He smirked, "Mayroon akong puwet at butas kung saan lumalabas ang tae ko."
"Tangina nakakadiri," I complained but this guy is completely messing with me.
"Sigurado na ang tadhana, sa akin ka babagsak." Aniya.
Para na namang kinarera ang puso ko! Ang bilis ng bawat pagtibok nito at siya ang dahilan kung bakit mabilis ang pag tibok. Gusto kong kiligin ngunit, ayokong ipahalata sa kaniya na ako'y kaniyang naaapektuhan. Tumatalab na ang pagmamahal niya sa aking buong sistema.
Because he won't stop on teasing me, I said something that made that annoying smirk in his lips gone.
"Abutin mo ang bra ko, making out lang ang hiningi mo pero sobra sobra na ang ginawa mo." Sabi ko.
Puno ito ng sinseridad.
His face changed from smirking to pouting real quick. Ang bilis niyang magbago ng mood!
"Bastos ka naman sweetheart, sususo pa nga ako e. Tignan mo 'tong utong mo, nakasaludo pa rin sa harapan ko."
"Tumahimik ka, Angeles." I said with finality.
Inabot ko ang aking bra kung saan nakabalagbag ang pagkakalagay sa backseat. He just threw it away earlier! Sabik na sabik siyang sumuso sa akin kanina kaya kung saan niya na lamang tinapon ang bra ko.
But I regret it, dahil napalapit ito sa kaniyang bibig, which he take the advantage and put it in his mouth.
He sucked it like a baby!
Kung sana may makukuha siyang gatas diyan!
"Seryoso, gusto ko pa." At sinubo pa ito ulit.
Nagtitimpi akong pumikit at kinuyom ang aking palad when I looked at it, I saw my necktie and an idea came to my mind. Kaagad ko itong itinakip sa mata ni Shaun na sarap na sarap sa ginagawa.
"What's this, babe?" He asked.
I smirked. "Huwag mong tatanggalin hanggat hindi ko sinasabi." He obediently nod his head.
Kinuha ko ang uniform ko sa isang tabi at ang aking bag, inabot ko rin ang aking bra at sinuot ito. Gumagalaw ako sa kaniyang kandungan dahil sa mga kilos ko. When I'm done covering myself, I take my notepad and write on it. Idinikit ko ito sa cardboard ng kaniyang sasakyan.
I exhaled loudly.
I looked at him patiently waiting for my next move. He looked hot, with his hand being tied up and eyes covered.
I caressed his hair and gripped it, I leaned closer and kissed him in his lips. He moaned loudly! I stick out my tongue and lick his lips, he chased it and deepened the kiss.
He couldn't really wait.
I pushed him. I'm feeling hot right now and I want to stripped in front of him, but I need to stop and run away from him.
My fingers caressed his lips and trailed down to his chest just like what I did earlier. Traced his abs until it reached his v-line.
"Fuck." He muttered.
Tumataas baba ang kaniyang dibdib. I watched him, madiin ang pagkakahiga sa upuan. He's seduced right now. Kahit ako'y nakakaramdam ng init akin itong pilit na nilalabanan. If I wont, then I will be burned by the heat I caused right now.
When I'd reached my target, I unbuckled his belt. His breathing ragged miserably. Unzipped his pants and poke his little Shaun underneath his boxers.
"D-dazella!" He exclaimed.
That's when I made my way out of the car. Hinanap pa ako ng kamay niya ngunit ng hindi ako mahawakan, tinanggal niya ang necktie ko na kasalukuyang tumatabing sa kaniya at hinaharangan ako upang hindi niya makita.
Nakita niya ako sa labas. His eyes held no mercy in it.
"I'm so sorry but you won't get it today." I said and slammed the car of his door.
I ran my life away.
Tumatawa ako habang tumutungo sa apartment namin ni Elle. Hindi mawala wala ang ngiti sa aking labi hanggang makarating ako. Elle was looking at me like I've gone crazy!
Yes, I am insane, Elle!
Because someone's did not have what he expected.
I could only imagine what kind of face he's making right now..
Ah, Shaun.. Shaun... Shaun!!
"HAHAHAHAH."
"Nakakagulat ka alam mo ba 'yon?!" Singhal sa akin ni Elle.
"Kaka-kape mo 'yan."
"Ano bang nangyayari sayo? Are you going crazy now? Puwede na kitang ihatid sa mental hospital."
Ang bawat titig na pinupukol sa akin ng kaibigan ko ay mas lalo lamang nakadagdag sa kaligayahang nararamdaman ko ngayon. Para siyang chipmunks sa itsura niya ngayon.
"Don't worry about me because he should worry about his boner." I laughed again.
Her eyes widened, "Omg, sino? Spill the tea!"
"I'm so sorry but it's really private."
Ngumuso siya at nagpatuloy sa pinapanood niyang Crash Landing On You. Naiiling lamang sa kabuangan ko ngayon at hindi na nang intriga pa kung sino ang tinutukoy ko. Himala at hindi nag pumilit si Aling Marites ngayon ha. Another achievement yan.
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Updated. March 28, 2022
— ZLYTHEEE