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Kaiser was starting to feel the guilt really eating him up.
He missed Spirit badly.
He felt like he was going crazy being trapped in the small cell he had to himself. He was isolated from everybody else
It got to the point he was waiting for the next hearing so they can go head and sentence him the death penalty because he just couldn't take it anymore.
It felt like the days was going by slower and slower everyday.
He wanted to go head and die so he wouldn't feel the guilt eating him up anymore.
They took him into solitary after he tried to kill himself in the regular cell. After noticing that didn't work they put him in a padded cell
He didn't want to eat or do anything in general. He had a another episode but he had to go through it and deal with it by himself which he wasn't really used to anymore because Spirit was always helping him
He been gave up on trying to not cry. He cried numerous of times to the point where his eyes was puffy and red
All this was giving him insomnia and he wasn't sleeping at all. He had bags under his eyes.
All he could think about was Spirit.
——
Spirit still been the same but it was getting worse.
She was slowly falling into a very deep depression.
With the last trial coming up she realized how close it was to never seeing Kaiser again.
All she was going to have was the memories.
That plus the tv reports, it being on social media, having to work hands on with the case, people judging her etc was just adding to the list of things that was making her depression worse.
Not being able to escape all this was the icing on the cake.
But what really did it for her was the death threats.
All around she felt like shit.
She was disappointed in herself.
Thoughts of suicide did rummage through her mind but she always pushed them away.
Day by day though , it was getting harder
She was realizing she had nothing to live for. She didn't have family, hardly any friends that still wanted to talk to her, love was just something she couldn't have, and not to mention she didn't know if she wanted to keep her job or not
She worked hard asl for her job but she was starting to realize this is something she couldn't handle anymore.
They were basically forcing her to go to therapy but she don't want to.
She's not trying to open up to anybody else.
Kaiser was like her therapist. She talked to him about whatever was on her mind and he gave her the honest truth every time and didn't sugar coat anything for her.
This was a different type of heartbreak. She felt like she could literally feel her heart breaking
It was aching and crying out for someone to fix it.
Night and day, all Spirit could think about was Kaiser.
——
"Hey" Ava said to Kaiser over the phone in the jail house
Only reason he was being kept in jail was because he wasn't going to be there that long.
It was one day before the last hearing.
"Wassup" he mumbled
His hair had grown out just a little and his face was a little fuzzy, Spirit always found it cute when he didn't have a haircut.
"I'm gonna miss you Kai"
Kaiser was never one to really cry or show his emotions but everything was getting to him lately
"I'm sorry Ava. I mean it frl, you don't deserve this shit and it's my fault. If i could've been a better brother i would've i promise"
This was Ava first time seeing him look emotional in forever.
She could see the tears building up in his eyes, he just refused to let her see him actually cry
"Why would you do this"?
"Idk, it's complicated. Just promise me you gone live your life and not dwell over this shit. You deserve better"
"I can't promise that. Your my brother Kaiser .."
"I have to go but if you want to you can come to the hearing tomorrow .. thats gone be the last time you actually get to see me. But i understand if you don't"
"I'll go"
They said their goodbyes and i love yours before Kaiser had to go back to his cell
He sat down at the table they had in there and grabbed this crayon and a piece of paper
They wouldn't give him a pen or pencil since they didn't want him to hurt himself
Trying his best with the crayon he started writing a letter to Spirit
He knew no matter what the love they have for each other will never die. No matter the situation
Once he wrote it he signed his name and put the crayon down feeling his eyes start watering
——
Today was the day.
Kaiser wasn't in his suit today, he had to wear his jail uniform.
He was sitting down with his handcuffs on, tears in his eyes
Spirit was there too. Last night she was a total mess. Cried every second of the day all the way till she went to sleep. Looked through their pictures hundreds of times, etc.
The hearing started a few minutes ago and Spirit was already crying silently to herself
She just couldn't believe they were about to take away the love of her life.
The jury already found Kaiser guilty.
"The jury has made its verdict. Kaiser Johnson is found guilty of multiple acts of violent and disturbing crimes against many young women. He is being sentence to the Death Penalty. May God have mercy upon your soul" the judge said before banging its gavel
That started a wave of conversations around the court room
Kaiser's mom let out a loud sob catching his attention
His eyes went from her to his sister who was crying to Spirit was already looking over at him
He sighed heavily before running his hands down his face
It honestly didn't feel real to him.
Spirit looked down at her hands feeling hot tears start running down her face
She seen Kaiser hug his sister. He never really hugged her but you wouldn't be able to tell
He was holding her tight and so was she
They exchanged some words before having to leave
He seen Spirit walking over to him
"Can we go out there and talk for a minute"? she asked
"5 minutes"
They took the handcuffs off him but a security officer had went with them
Once they made it into the back she hugged him tightly
He hugged back and sighed feeling her start crying
"Why you had to do this Kaiser"
"I'm sorry .. stop crying" he said
"You can't just leave me" her voice started breaking as the tears started streaming down her face
Now this was making him want to start crying
"I'm sorry Spirit. I love you and you have to promise me you won't be sad for too long. You have to live your life you can't sit and be sad over me, you deserve so much more"
"And i'm sorry i couldn't be that" he said pulling away
"You hate me"?
"No. I tried to, i tried to hate you but i just can't" she said trying to wipe her face
Kaiser felt a tear roll down his face and quickly tried to wipe it but Spirit saw and it made her cry some more which made him cry
They hugged again and it felt like the whole world had stopped.
They stayed like this for a long time, enjoying their last moments together until they can hopefully meet again in another lifetime
"I love you" she mumbled holding on to him tightly
"I love you .. so much more"
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It was done.
It's been two weeks since Kaiser died.
They gave him the lethal Injection.
They wasn't going to have a big funeral simply because only people there was going to be Spirit, his mother and sister and his ex
Spirit has dug herself a very deep depression. She has no idea if she'd ever get out of it.
She had quit her job. It was simply too much for her especially now and to say the less she didn't feel welcomed.
She has very bad ptsd, her anxiety is hundred times worse as well
All she want is to be with Kaiser.
She still didn't know if she forgave him for what he did but she knew the love was never lost
Before he left he gave her a paper that was folded up but she never opened it
After the funeral they buried his body.
Watching the casket lower into the ground what was really did it for Spirit
She broke down once she got into the car
She was surprised she had anymore tears left
She drove home with thoughts running through her mind
Thoughts of just saying fuck it and running off the side of the road, thoughts of what if her and Kaiser stayed together and he never did what he did, thoughts of never being able to see him again etc
Once she got home and took a shower she stayed in her room contemplating if she wanted to open the letter
Deciding on just doing it she opened the letter seeing Kaiser's pretty handwriting
She began to read the letter.
1111
wassam😼
thoughts ?
go into depthhhhhh
fuck i'm bout to cry
kaiser pov of the situation ?
spirits pov of the situation ?
how y'all feel about everything that happened ?
kaiser actually dying ?
rip kaiser chain right here ..
surprise y'all got one more chapter
vote, comment allat
bye fuckers❤️
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