The next morning I woke up with a hard headache and went to the washroom but, "whaaatt?????"
"what are you doing here? how did you come inside?"
"Morning babe, did you sleep well? Is your leg still aching?"
"what the hell are you saying? What's with my leg? No!!", I run straight to the room. Nothing happened, no hickeys or marks, of course, nothing happened, but the hickeys in his neck and chest. Wait, did I, holy crap. I usually forget everything after getting drunk. But I have good alcohol tolerance. Yesterday we had so much because of thinking he won't come to me. The only thing I remember is Arine taking me to a cab. That's it. But how did he come inside and what's with that bruise and hickeys? did he fight with someone? but a hickey, so he definitely has a girlfriend.
"hey! aren't you coming out? Let's have food first. I'm hungry." I did my routine and got out of the room hesitatingly. "Come sit. Let's have first, okay?" I nodded. We had food, uttering nothing. I went to do the dishes. "why aren't you talking to me? You okay!" I don't know what to say, but I'm confused. I took a deep breath and turned to him. "What happened yesterday? How did you get inside? What are these bruises? Who hurt you? Why are you cooking for me?" all on a single stretch. "Don't say you forget all the sweet moments we shared?" "I can't remember anything." said in a low voice
"you are kidding right?" he asked in disbelief. "I'm not. Only remembered that Arine booked a cab to take me home, that's it. I'm not lying. I remember nothing. What's with these bruises? Did you fight with anyone?" he nodded.
"Is it aching? Did you go to the hospital?"
"How can I go to the hospital while leaving you here alone? "
"Could you say what happened yesterday please"
"From where did you need to know? From the beginning of my injuries?"
"Everything"
"Then promise me you won't regret it!!", "I won't," he hummed.
"When I called you last night, you were so drunk and blabbering something. You didn't say where were you. But I hold the video call to identify the place. Suddenly, I saw someone holding and dragging you to the outside of the cab and there was our poster displayed on the screen that launched half an hour before. After I called the company, I found you. When I get there, some are trying to hurt you. Even though you're drunk, babe, you're fantastic at fighting." He chuckled. "While trying to get you here, I got these bruises. But look, take responsibility for this." He pointed to the hickey. That surprised me. "Why should I? I didn't cause you?"
"Of course, you're." I'm still trying hard to remember about yesterday. While my eyes met with my broken pendant, I realized what had happened then. I awkwardly smiled at him. He understood that. I remembered what happened then. "You promised me we won't regret it." "Yea," I nodded. "So what's next, a date or just hanging up together?" "I-I- wanna tell y-you something." "what is it"?
"the things happened yesterday because I'm drunk. The things I told you are true. I-I LIKE You but I'm not worth getting you. I don't want to cry alone and regret the decision I took. Can we pretend as if nothing happened, it will be more good for you" while saying this to him, my words shuttered, and my sobs all are making things messy. "What are you trying to say, babe? I really love you. I'm not flirting. This is not a time passed for me. Is that you're thinking about me?" he looks angry but his eyes are teary. Do I hurt him?
"Seona, I was so worried while seeing the blood and bruises on you yesterday. The way you looked at me and the care that I received were all first-time to me. I was in love with you for the last 3 years, but I know my limit as a fan. Of course, I wished to receive all these from you like a dream. But I'm fucking alone. I have no family, just 1 or 2 friends, I'm not a social person, and I can't match with you. I'm afraid to love others. Afraid of losing love, being alone. Now I'm enjoying my own company. What if I'm becoming nothing to you? You really can't understand this. When I love someone, I can't stop. I don't want to fall back into depression again. its hurts. The promise I made, and the moment we shared all are the best of my life. Even now I wish to hug and cry out of my lungs, but...." I kneeled and cried hard. I'm really in love with him. If not, I wouldn't kiss him. My first kiss, won't let him touch me. I don't even make hickeys on him. While thinking about reality, the future, I'm afraid. How much I tried to be fearless, in love it become fearful.
He stood there saying nothing later, came towards me, and gave me a tight hug. "I can understand, but don't know what you are going through. With all my heart I'm promising you, whatever happens, whoever you're, even without looking at your past I will be there for you till my last breath. Never gonna leave you alone. From this moment on, I will be your everything and not gonna let you cry anymore. But please never ignore me, be mine forever. Hold my hand and hug me when anyone hurts you. I will protect you. Will be your father, mother, brother, best friend, boyfriend, and husband to you. Please don't push me away from you. If I hurt you, unknowingly beat me. But don't leave me. Please. My whole heart is with you." I feel secure around him, while looking at him I can see the entire world that I wish for. Need to smile, but it's hard. All the words he said are what I wished to hear. Nodded and hugged him more tightly. His heartbeat is running fast. Burying my face to his chest, I feel more comfortable. He took me in his arms and placed me on the bed. "take rest, I get going now.'' And he stood up. "Where are you going?" "I have some sort of work to solve" in a deep voice.
I hugged his waist and pleaded to stay a little more. He smiled and sat on my bed. We didn't talk to each other, just stayed like that and slept. After some time I felt kisses on my forehead and cheek. I opened my eyes. It's him. "Did I disturb you?" I shook my head. "Everything I said to you is true. I won't hurt you, promise. Be mine!!" I nodded. "Did you agree for real?" still something holding me back. "yes but I'm not good at expressing emotions. This is my first time and to let you know me more, the most valued thing for me is respect and trust. If you broke any of it I don't know how I would react. You have a lot more to know about me but I need more time. Could you?'' The way he hears me is so special. He hummed. I'm gonna give a chance to myself and him too. Don't know how it's gonna happen, but in love, it always goes unpredictable. Here too. I passed a relieved smile, "you said. Right?" I nodded. He is sobbing while holding me tight. A lot happened within 2 days. So unbelievable, now committed with my crush like a dream. "babe, shall we go shopping? what do you think?"
"But how could you come outside? You're a celebrity? Don't you want to take permission?"
"nope. I only need to hide inside a mask and wear some baggy or loose hoodies to hide. Get ready, I will go to the dorm and come back to pick you up. Ok?" I nodded. He kissed my forehead. "don't open the door without confirming ok. I still don't know why they attacked you. So be safe. I will go after you freshen up." he went outside. While taking deep breaths, he made me feel very special.. especially feeling very secure around him. Washed up and wore a bathrobe and went to him to say I'm done. "Seonaa, I'm done. You can go now." and try to get back to the room. But he gave me a back hug, and I trembled. "What happened?" "Thank you for being mine and I'm falling deeper again and again to you. Your hair is dripping. May I help you dry?" I turned to him. "Thank you for making me feel special to you and you should go now or we will be late." he smiled, then pouted and nodded. Went towards the door, "don't forget to lock the door," "yes sir," he chuckled and peaked at my lips and ran down. Aish this man. I turned to red tomatoes, hard to stop blushing.
My car will be delivered tomorrow and I need to tell Arine not to come to pick me up. I dressed up, in black hoodies and high-waist jeans and tied my hair in a high ponytail and some moisture. took the phone, credit cards, and EarPods. I tied a hair stick with a band on my wrist. It is stainless steel and when I take off the cap, it will turn into a sharp needle. So it is 2 in 1, can be used as a hair stick, and also for self-defense. Texted Arine about my car delivery, so she did not need to come tomorrow. He might take a long time to get back. I took a soldering iron and lead to set my broken pendant. I think I need to make a new one or should file the edge so it won't hurt while wearing. I filed the edges now smooth and soldered and attached the circuit to the pendant. Ran the code and rechecked did it work perfectly. Not bad. Now I need to connect my Wi-Fi with it. Suddenly I remembered what he said, he didn't know why I'm attacked. I collected the data from the drive and played. One of the attackers looks familiar to me but can't recognize who it was. I didn't fight with anyone. Then who was that? So confusing.
My phone rings. That's him. I locked the door and went down. This is funny. We both are wearing the same only difference is a cap and mask. "babe you look hot in this." Aish, I'm blushing again. "Do my babe turn to tomato?" "Don't tease me." "Aegyo! I can't stand this cutie." "I told you to stop Seonaa." said while pouting. "ok! get in. Babe?" I looked at him. "I love you," nodded. "you should say back," he pouted. I just winked and get inside to car. I felt like the day is so short. He brought so many dresses I plead a lot that it was unnecessary, but he insists. Then I went to have food. The beach on this day has become very special to me. All day long at home and in the places we went, one thing bothered me. I saw the same person who attacked me earlier. Like stalking. Why, though I can't understand. Seong was continuously talking about a lot of things, career, brothers, his first love, how he felt while saw me, when talking about his studio and music got more excited. He looks so cute while talking, when looking through the side mirror I found one car is following us. Do I have to tell him?
"Seongaa, did anyone stalk you before?" "Why did you ask in suddenly?" "Just curious to know that's it," I smiled nervously. "sometimes it's hard to escape from paparazzi. I caught it sometimes. What happened, babe? Is anything bothers you?" "What if you are caught with me? Does it affect your dreams?" that's worrying me a lot. He just stopped the car and looked deep into my eyes. "then it will be easier for us to spend time together and no need to hide. Or else we can announce, though." His eyes were sparkling with excitement when he was saying this. "I already told my brothers about us. They want to talk to you too. Let's meet them next weekend so you do need not take leave. Do you think I'm a little fast in our relationship?" "I think so, but I'm ok!" he took my hand and interlocked my finger with his, so warm. All the way back home, he caressed my hand and sweet-talked with me. I asked permission from him to confess everything that happened to Arine because she is the only one I have other than Seong now. He agreed. When we get to my place, entered the apartment. I got some juice for him, "how is it?" "good and sweet like you." Hha cheesy man. "Seongaa, can I ask you something?" he hummed. "everyone said that you're cold and rarely smile, and mostly see you smile in your comfort zone. Do you feel comfortable around me?" he came towards me and placed his head on my neck, and snuggled. I can feel butterflies in my stomach, "you're my comfort zone. When we met, I was in a fight with my father. While talking with you, my stress started revealed. I slowly forget about the fight. Your smile changed to the healer of my broken heart. After a long, I felt like myself. The way you talked and even patted on that baby makes me feel comfortable, even though you're not related to her. You made me feel like I am talking to someone I knew for a long. Also, you made me forget my first love." I smiled. "you know when you are worried while seeing a slight cut, that moment I made you mine forever. I don't have anyone to act like that. While hugging you, I confirmed you're the only one, mine. And not gonna let you go anywhere." Every word he said in my heart was grave, and my tears were falling uncontrollably. I can feel the wetness in my neck. He is tearing up too, I cupped his face and "Now I'm all yours, I really don't know what made you comfortable but sure I do my best to make you happy. Promise me you won't hide anything from me and talk to me openly, even if it hurts, ok!" he promised. "Can I stay with you tonight?" I didn't expect that from him but he is a crying mess, so I agreed. The problem is there is only one room left other than mine but I stored my equipment and worked over there. so I can't let him stay there. so I need to let him stay in my room. I set the room, told him to stay there and took one blanket, set the couch for me to sleep on.
At late night I heard a scream in my room and rush to him. He is panting heavily. "what happened?" he is trembling hard. I rushed to get water and gave it to him. "You okay?" He looks so strange, panting, trembling, sweating, and crying. Hugged and made him rest in my chest while holding me tight, he asked, "you won't leave me behind like her, won't you?" While kissing his forehead "I won't babe" embraced him more and laid in bed and let him sleep on my chest while cuddling. He slowly fell to sleep after I patted his back to make him feel better. I'm confused. What was he meant by that? Is he saying about his ex-girlfriend? I wanna know about this but am afraid to ask. Woke up early morning. He was snuggling in my chest, so cute I felt so blessed to see him. Went out of bed without making noise and did my daily routine, it was early morning, so still lot more time to leave for university. While cooking breakfast, I felt a pair of hands around my waist. "did you sleep well?" he hummed and put his head on my shoulder. "Great! Get ready, breakfast will be ready within 10 minutes." He shook his head. " go babes!!" still hooking up with me. "I told you!!" he whined and went to the washroom. So cute, he always wants to snuggle on me, but for me, it's a little hard because I usually hate skin-ship, but with him the butterflies, oh no. we had food together, in between that I got the call and went outside, my car got delivered. I got the key and get back to the apartment. "Who was that babe?" "It's delivery man, my car shipped" "you have a car?" I nodded. "I thought you were using public transport." simply smiled. He talked about work and the schedules for this week. He seems like busy. it's ok. We both leave the apartment together. When he got inside his car, he reminded me about meeting his brother on Saturday. I nodded, and he left. Now I need to go. I'm not gonna be late today. "missed me babe?", I asked towards my car it's my first car so you guys definitely know how much I'm attached to him. It is Fort mustang EcoBoost black, so smooth to drive and nice too.
I parked the car. Everyone is looking in disbelief. Wow! My baby looked hot and went to the faculty room. Arine is still not there. Of course, I'm early. I unpacked my stuff and went to the library to return the book I took. When I'm back, Arine came to me and excitedly talked about the car parked outside. I hummed and replied that mine. First, she didn't believe me. Then I took her to the parking lot and unlocked the car with my key. Why it's hard for her to believe? I pouted.
The class went smoothly. But Ye-Jun was on leave when I enquired. The students said they don't know about that. The next hour is in the 2nd year electrical all cool. I'm taking the conversion of the number system. It's a little hard to remember but I teach them some quick methods to remember so they won't forget. On Monday, I have only two classes. After class, I contacted Ye-Jun. she picked up the call after my 6th try. "is it Junna? I'm Natasha'' she replied. "Why aren't you coming today? You okay?" I can hear her sob. "Junaa what happened you okay? Is anything bothering you? Tell me where you're. I will get you.'' She cut the call and sent a message saying that can't take the call now. There is something fishy. Arine came after her class and asked me to come to the cafeteria to have food. I need to discuss 2 things with her, one about Juna and about Seong. While I entered the cafeteria, all the students became silent. They're still thinking about the fight. I don't know what to do with it. Some kids are murmuring while looking at me. I made a sharp gaze towards them. We both sat down and had food. Suddenly that silent boy came towards me and asked me to come with him. It's the first time he is talking to me. I told Arine to have food and went outside. He gave me a piece of paper and told me that I can only do this and ran away. I looked at the paper, its edges stained with blood and torn. I lost my mind while reading it, so I went to the faculty room and grabbed the car key.
I rushed to the place noted in the paper. Junna is in trouble.