CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
My son played with the Chinese man. Si Freedom ang nag-paint ng nails ng guy. I bought nail polish from the boutique, that's what they used. Napailing na lang ako. Bunch of Rico's friends are baliw, iyong iba naman ang sama ng look sa boyfriend ko.
"I told you I'll fucking kill you for what you did to Aramis." Nanlilisik ang eyes ni Mr. del Fuego. "To be fair, what if I punch your woman in the face?"
Tinapik ni Mr. del Fuego ang lalaking may green eyes. Nag-whisper pa siya sa lalaki. I just heard 'rainbow'.
Oh, maybe, they are a couple. How sweet naman. I ship them!
Hinarang ni Rico ang body niya sa akin. "Don't you fucking dare even lay a finger on her." Nag-hug naman ako sa back niya. "Take your revenge on me."
"Rico, are they couple?" Mahinang say ko.
"What?" He whispered back.
"Your kaibigan na may green eyes at saka si Mr. del Fuego."
His shoulders were moving, feel ko ang laughter niya. I was shook naman when I felt the impact na tumama kay Rico. Nag-widen ang eyes ko, it was a suntok from Mr. del Fuego.
"Oh my gosh! Why did you suntok Rico on the mukha?! It was me who told him you look like a cute couple. You're mali naman!" Siniyasat ko ang nagbi-bleed na side ng lips ni Rico.
"Ma, just hide on my back." He said.
Muli niyang hinarang ang kanyang body.
Another punch came from the guy. Walang ginawa si Rico, he just stood there na parang stupid at sinalo ang punches. Hindi ako maka-believe sa ginawa niya.
To my annoyance, hinubad ko ang stiletto ko na suot at binato iyon sa guy.
"Why are you hurting Rico ba?!" I was shouting. He looked stunned. Bumaling naman ako kay Rico. "What the hell is mali with you? You should laban! You were like waiting for his suntok! If there's taya here, I'm going to be talo! Rico naman!"
Dinuro ko naman sila. "You're nakakainis! You rin!" Salubong nang eyebrows ko.
My tears started falling sa inis ko. Rico has pasa on his gilid ng lips. Naging stupid na siya, hindi man lang siya nag-fight. The group of men just came here to hurt my boyfriend. I hate it!
Sa front ko pa talaga, want nilang bugbugin si Rico. I was very welcoming with them pa naman. Sunod - sunod ang pagtulo ng tears ko. Rico tried to hawak me, but I made tabig his kamay.
"Don't touch me!" I yelled. "You're frustrating me, all of you naman! Ayan, nagka-cry na tuloy ako. Nakakainis kayo! Wala man lang kayong care sa pregnant lady!"
"Who's pregnant?" Someone asked.
Mas lalo akong na-frustrate. "Baka si Rico ang pregnant!" Padabog akong nagtungo sa room namin ni Freedom, isinara ko ang pinto with force, I locked it.
Freedom went with Xu Jianyu, he didn't witness what just happened in the sala. Bahala na sila kung anong want nilang gawin, wala na akong care. I was just crying. Kawawa naman ang baby ko.
I heard soft knock on the pinto. "Love, may I come in?" Ang soft ng voice niya sa may door.
Mas lalo naman akong na-annoy. "No, I don't want to see you!" I yelled.
"Okay, calm down, don't stress yourself. I'll be just right here until you are ready." I didn't make him pansin na.
Nag-stay lang ako sa room, good thing, I'm too sleepy to deal with what was happening in the labas. Imbes na ma-stress sa friends ni Rico, hinayaan ko na lang ang self kong lamunin ng sleep.
The sun was already setting when I woke up. I had a good nap. Nag-wash ako ng face sa sink ng bathroom. Hungry na ang nasa tummy ko. I wiped my mukha with a malinis na towel.
Binuksan ko ang door, unang bumungad sa akin si Rico. He was standing like a guwardiya in front of the door. My forehead creased.
Then, suddenly, I remembered the memorya. Sumimangot ako sa kanya.
"Did mama open the door, Rico?" I heard na question ni Freedom. Nadatnan kami ng son ko sa front ng door. "Mama, I'm glad you opened the door. Rico has been standing there since earlier. Did you two fight?"
Tinitigan ko naman ang face ni Rico, there's no stain of blood there, obvious lang ang sugat niya.
"I took care of Rico's bleeding side lips, mama. Don't be angry." Humawak siya sa hand ko. "Do you want to eat? Is our baby hungry? Rico's chef friend cooked a meal for us."
Inalalayan naman ako ni Freedom, nag-follow si Rico sa likod namin.
"Ma, are you still mad? Let's talk." Pinaghila niya ako ng chair.
I wonder kung saan pumunta ang friends niya para silang bubbles na naglaho. Nag-eat muna kami before ako makipag-talk sa kanya. I realized napaamin ako ng wala sa time.
He knew that I'm buntis na with his anak.
After eating, Freedom played with Liberty in the sala, pumasok naman kami ng room ni Rico. I don't want my anak to eavesdrop if ever na mag-away kami ni Rico, sure din naman akong he wouldn't listen intentionally.
"Love, are you still mad?" Rico asked me.
Pinanlakihan ko siya ng eyes. "Sinalo mo na nga iyong punches, tumayo ka pa sa labas ng room ng ilang oras. You can pasok naman inside our room! Pinapahirapan mo lang ang self mo. I'm so iritado! Sa akin ka lang p'wede magpa-api, not to your kaibigan!"
He was just there, tanggap lang siya nang tanggap sa mga say ko. He was not even defending himself. His hand touched my waist softly. I could hear my puso beating fast.
"You're pregnant?" His tono was so sweet and soft.
I just stared at him for a segundo, wala siyang care sa face niyang tinamaan ng suntok o sa angry kong voice. One thing lang ang sure akong want niya, to confirm what I said earlier.
Nag-pout ako. "Know mo naman kaya you're extra maingat with me..." Pansing - pansin ko iyon sa bawat move niya. He's being careful and wala siyang complains sa lahat ng arte ko.
"I always had a hunch, but I wanted it to be confirmed." Inayos niya ang hair kong nagkalat sa face. "You're regular, I could count the days of your monthly menstrual cycle and you didn't use any of the pads I bought. You're eating all foods, even the ones you don't like much. But still, I wanted the news to come from you."
"I'm... pregnant," pag-amin ko. "Are you happy?"
I was preparing for the worst things he could say. Instead, I saw beaming tears from his eyes. Nag-gape ang mouth ko sa na-see. Pinahid ko ang tears niya sa cheeks. I was confused, ni-hug ko naman si Rico.
"Does your friend's suntok hurt? Are you pagod ba standing in front of the pinto? Sorry, I slept without knowing you're naghihintay there. P'wede ka namang pumasok sa room natin..." Nawala na iyong annoyance ko kanina nang makita ko ang tears ni Rico.
"I'm not galit na." I said softly.
Did I upset him?
Nag-break siya ng hug sa akin. "You're pregnant?"
Umiling ako at nag-roll ng eyes. "You're paulit - ulit."
Napa-scream ako nang buhatin niya ako sa ere. I was laughing. It was sending me sensasyon of euphoric pleasure.
"Fuck, I'm the happiest!" sigaw niya.
"You're not galit?" Kumunot ang forehead ko.
Nagsalubong ang brows niya. "Why would I be fucking mad? You and our growing family is my favorite blessing." Hinalikan niya nang masuyo ang forehead ko. "Love, you made me the happiest. Fuck, those were happy tears."
"You're happy?" Mahina kong tanong.
I was readying for the opposite reaction. Sumubsob naman ang face ko sa chest niya. My eyes welled up with luha. It wasn't only relief that I felt, I was masaya seeing how happy he was with my pinagbubuntis.
"Ma, kahit magpabugbog pa ako sa mga gago. Hinding - hindi mapapalitan ang kasiyahang ito."
"I thought, hindi ka happy... I was afraid you wouldn't like the idea of me being buntis." I cried. "Sorry, hindi agad ako nag-tell sa'yo, da."
Magaling lang naman talaga iyong ibang mag-fuck pero pagdating sa responsibility, parang hindi kasamang nasarapan.
"It's understood, mi amor. I know, it scares you that's why I'm not trying to force you say it. You've been scarred by your past, I'm here to make it better." Paulit - ulit niyang ni-kiss ang forehead ko.
He let me calm down on his chest while caressing my back. "Tatlo na ang pag-aalayan ko ng mundo. Thank you for being mine, ma. Laging lamang ang pagmamahal ko sa inyo ni Freedom at ni baby banyo,"
Sinampal ko ng slight ang chest niya, nag-chuckle lang si Rico.
"What? We did it on a public restroom." He teased. "Let's call Freedom and celebrate."
Our son was happily smiling with us as he emerged in the kwarto. "Are my parents not fighting anymore?" ask niya pa.
Binuhat siya ni Rico. "We didn't fight, son. Your mom's always right." He messed with my anak's hair.
Bumulong siya kay Rico. Nakatingin lang ako sa dalawa. Sure naman akong ako ang pinag-uusapan ng mag-ama ko. They are always in tandem for kalokohan.
"Are you happy you're having a sister?" tanong ni Rico kay Freedom.
He nodded naman. "Do you want a daughter, Rico?"
"Hm, I want to have a little princess running around." He smiled. "And we are the guards."
My anak laughed. "We will always protect her and mama." Nag-nod naman si Rico.
As I was staring at them, mas lalo kong na-see ang bond ng dalawa. They have always been close to each other. Hindi lang ako ang niligawan ni Rico, he had it easy on me. Well, he's masarap humalik, anong laban ko? He also courted my son's approval.
I think, that's the best thing a man did to me. Tanggap niya ang son ko ng buong heart at soul at accepted niya rin ako at ang flaws ko. Rico treated me the way I deserved to be treated.
"Rico, am I part of your family?" Rinig kong question ni Freedom.
His forehead creased. "You're my first born, Freedom. It won't be a family without you. Come on, big boy, do you feel like an outcast? Tell me."
My son shook his ulo. "No, but sometimes, I wonder if I would be included. You know, I have a different father." His boses was soft.
Nag-glance si Rico sa akin, he smiled at him. "I may hate your father for hurting your mama's feelings, but Freedom, I'm thankful he became an instrument to have you. You're the right decision he ever made. Ikaw ang panganay ko, panganay namin ni Justise." He kissed his forehead.
"You two are adorable," Tears escaped my eyes. Pareho nila akong ni-hug.
This is what it feels to have a family. It feels so surreal. I found something that my own magulang couldn't give me before --- the pagmamahal and care from the people who treat me like pamilya.
***
No, I shouldn't really have told Rico I'm buntis! He's overprotective of me. Konting move ko lang, lagi siyang nakaaalalay. Oh my gosh! It's frustrating. Kulang na lang pati pag-chew ko ng food, siya na rin ang gumawa for me.
He's always aligaga, pati sa shoots ko kasama siya para i-assist ako. Of course, tumatanggap pa rin ako ng modelling gigs. One thing na like ko, Rico never questioned me with that.
Okay lang sa kanya, basta okay sa akin. Wala siyang reklamo sa way ng pananamit ko, pati sa shoots. It's just that, always siyang kasama ko as my personal assistant and bodyguard.
Rico would just stare at me sa shoots ko, nadi-distract naman ako. I always have professionalism with me, pero kapag nasa work si Rico hindi ako maka-concentrate. His titig was just so hot. It was making my 'down there' so basa.
Know na niya ang about sa pregnancy ko, balik na naman kami sa saganang sex life. We would always check in five-star hotels in Paris to do the deed. Ayaw niyang gawin sa apartment, baka raw maabutan kami ni Freedom sa act.
Always sabay kaming nagta-take ng bath, and damn, he always make me kain while the shower was pouring. Pigil na pigil ang moans ko. Nitre-treat ko naman ng right ang lollipop niya.
"Justise!" tawag sa attention ko ng photographer.
Oh, right.
I'm still in one of my shoots this week. Lumilipad na naman ang mind ko kay Rico at sa sexcapades naming masarap. Yum!
Nag-pose ako for last shot and just pulled a seductive smize. It was for a lingerie collection. Halata na ang baby bump ko, it's not super laki but it's visible. I'm proud of it. Duh, pinagsaluhan namin ito ni Rico sa sarap at ginhawa.
Speaking of Rico, agad niya akong dinaluhan at nagbigay ng robe. He walked with me towards the dressing room. Hinubad ko ang lingerie, I changed to my outfit kanina.
Rico was watching the whole durasyon. "Bloated ba ako?" I asked him again like sirang plaka.
"No, you look beautiful... always."
Hmp!
Agad niyang tinapos bago pa man ako makapag-throw ng tantrums. He kissed my forehead, niyakap niya ako palapit sa kanya. Nadatnan kami ng staff na magka-hug.
At least, hug lang ang na-see niya. Baka her world shook kung mas higit pa ang ginagawa namin ni Rico. I giggled at the thought.
We fetched Freedom after his language and history class. There's a helicopter waiting for us on the helipad owned by Rico. Plan naming mamasyal sa neighboring country. Freedom is so excited for this trip.
My boyfriend is our very own pilot.
Nakarating kami ng Spain about an hour. Hindi naman ako pumasa sa Spanish class. Hinayaan ko si Rico, mas know niyang makipag-talk sa locals. Namamangha naman ang son ko. I was happy seeing him so excited.
Nag-settle kami sa isang restaurant para mag-eat ng cuisines sa Spain. I just made turo the things that the bata in my womb liked. Next week, we'll know the baby's gender. Feel ko ang excitement ni Rico, but know ko rin na tense siya.
When it comes to me, Freedom and the baby in my womb, lagi siyang nag-aalala. I'm literally his downfall.
"Mama, I'm going to pee!" Freedom announced.
Nakaupo na ako sa restaurant. "Do you want me to accompany you, anak?"
"Love, ako na." Presenta ni Rico.
"Okay, I'll just wait here."
He nodded. "Make yourself comfortable."
Humawak ang son ko kay Rico, pinagmasdan ko ang dalawang patungo ng bathroom. Kinuha ko ang phone ko, for the mean time, inaliw ko ang self ko sa pagkuha ng pictures sa cozy vibe ng restaurant.
Nag-angat ako ng eyes nang may naglapag ng Chanel bag sa harap ko, I recognized that one bag. Mayroon akong ganoon sa collection ko dati.
To my surpresa, it was Integrity in my harapan. And that bag was mine!
Hindi ko know ang mafi-feel ko sa interaction naming ito. I never really imagined we'd meet again. Happy na ako sa life ko ngayon. Mas happy na far sa kanila. Most of my traumas came from them.
"You're pregnant again?" She shook her head. "Balak mo bang mangolekta ng bata sa iba't ibang lalaki?"
Naging red ang cheeks ko sa say niya. Hindi ako makapaghabi ng words, at some point, medyo true naman na nagkaroon ako ng anak sa different guys. Did she lose her utak? Hindi rin naman ako anak ng asawa niya.
"You're using my Chanel bag." I pointed out.
She just made ngisi. "I sold the goods and retained some." Agad na uminit ang blood ko.
Those were my collection from my hard-earned pera in modelling and make-up brand!
"How are you living your life, my rebellious flesh and blood?" Naupo siya sa front ko.
"I'm living my best life here, Integrity. It is peaceful and I'm very much happy. This is the best choice I've ever done to my sarili. How about you? How are you without me as your punching bag?" calm kong tanong.
"Kinda disappointing, actually. Iyon na lang ang role mo sa buhay ko, hindi mo po nagawa nang maayos." My fist balled.
"So, sino namang ama ng magiging anak mo? Hindi ka pa rin talaga natuto? No one would love you, Justise. Pinaparami mo lang ang lahi mo. Nakakahiya. Sana hindi magmana sa'yo ang batang iyan. Bobo, estupida, walang delikadesa. What a shame."
Pinigilan ako ang self kong umiyak sa front niya, I would never giver her the satisfaction that those words were hurting me.
"Justise, let's go somewhere else... The place is polluted with waste." Nawala ang atensyon ko kay Integrity nang dumating si Rico. His face looked stoic, hindi niya kasama si Freedom. "He's in the car already."
Iniabot niya ang hand sa akin to make alalay sa pagtayo. Nakamasid naman sa amin si Integrity.
"Wait, what?" Hindi makapaniwala niyang question habang nakatingin sa aming two.
"You're such an actress, I thought, you didn't like this gentleman. Malandi ka talaga, nagpabuntis pa. You know what, hijo, an advice from her mother, beware of her schemes." Rinig ko pang say ni Ingrid kay Rico.
Humigpit ang hawak ko sa hand niyang nakaalalay sa akin. "An advice from me, fuck off. The next time you open your mouth an speak ill about your daughter, that's going to be your last." Rico intertwined our fingers tightly.
Siya na rin ang nag-carry ng dala kong bag. Walang imik kaming tumungo ng exit. There's a Lamborghini waiting for us. May ilang goons na nasa paligid, they are buzzing about us. Freedom's already inside the Lambo.
"Mama! What happened there? Rico told me, we're going to eat at a different restaurant!"
Nag-nod naman ako. I was thankful that Rico made the decision na hindi na tumuloy sa restaurant.
Now, that I saw Ingrid, hindi niya deserve na makita man lang ang grandchildren niya sa akin. Hindi binitiwan ni Rico ang hand ko hanggang sa lumibot ang Lambo sa streets ng Barcelona. Hindi ko pinakita kay Freedom na hindi ako okay after meeting with my mother.
He talked with Freedom and giving me few glances and kisses on the cheeks. Nakatanaw lang ako sa labas. I was trying to enjoy the scenery of the siyudad. Nag-eat kami sa isang restaurant. We stayed in a five-star hotel in Barcelona.
Freedom was already sleeping the kama. I was on the balcony of the suite. Hindi ko pa magawang maka-sleep. Hanggang ngayon, iniisip ko pa rin ang encounter namin ni Integrity kanina.
Noong umalis kami ni Freedom ng house, a part of me was still hoping na mare-realize niya ang worth ko bilang daughter. Mukhang hindi naman talaga ako nag-matter sa kanya kahit one time.
Someone cleared his throat. Hindi ko na need humarap para ma-know kung sino ang may-ari ng voice.
Binalot niya ako ng robe para hindi kami cold ni baby. "Don't you want to go inside?"
Nag-shake ako ng head. Want ko lang mag-stay sa balkonahe for the mean time. Rico hugged me from the back.
"You want to tell your thoughts? I'm listening, ma." I felt the comfort from his boses.
"She didn't change a bit. Ang dami niyang derogatory words na sinabi sa akin. Don't I deserve this kasiyahan, Rico? Don't I deserve the pagmamahal?" Sunod - sunod kong question. Nalaglag ang tears ko.
Lagi na lang iyon ang pinaparamdam sa akin ni Integrity, na wala akong karapatang maging happy sa life ko. It always bruised me.
Iniharap ako ni Rico sa kanyang gawi and made angat my face. His eyes were looking at me intently. They reflected love and concern.
"You and Freedom deserve happiness, love. Don't listen to anything she says."
"It's true naman, iyong mga anak ko, different ang fathers." I said meekly.
Nagyuko ako ng head para hindi ko ma-see ang expression ni Rico. Lumapat ang forehead niya sa akin. He shook his head.
"That's not the case, Justise. That asshole just donated his sperm, but I'm the father of these two beautiful kids. I love them both equally." Hinaplos niya ang tummy ko. "Mahal na mahal."
Rico enveloped me into a yakap. "Palalakihin natin sila. We'll recreate your childhood, mi amor. I hate seeing you being invalidated by the people who hurt you the most." He kept caressing my likod.
Mas naiyak naman ako sa gestures ni Rico. Ilang minutes pa kaming nanatili sa balcony before niya ako ma-convince na pumasok ng room namin to rest. Binantayan niya ako hanggang sa makatulog ako beside my anak.
At dawn, ginising ko si Rico to ask for food. He gladly obeyed my want naman, pinaghanda niya ako ng food sa ref, he even bought some groceries. Know niya na manggigising ako ng dis-oras ng madaling araw to ask him for food.
Medyo mabait ang baby namin, hindi na niya masyadong pinahihirapan si Rico. Nag-subside ng slight ang mood swings ko.
The stay in Barcelona was fun. Rico made sure hindi ko mati-think ang pagkikita namin ni Integrity. Na-enjoy namin ni Freedom ang Spain. Ilang days lang ang ini-spend namin sa Barcelona, bumalik din agad kami sa Paris.
Mayroon akong ultrasound check up, we're going to know our baby's gender. This time, kasama ko ang two men sa life ko.
"Congratulations, mommy and daddy!" Rico's hands were sweating. "It's a..."
***
Kumunot ang forehead ko nang magpaalam na naman si Rico at ang son ko. Wala namang problem. But the two were always suspicious. May ginagawa silang two behind my back.
"Saan naman kayo pupunta now?" I crossed my braso.
"We'll just stroll, ma. You want pasalubong?"
Nag-roll ako ng eyes. Sinabi ko naman ang wants ko pagbalik nila. They always have pasalubong for me. Kaya sometimes, hindi naman ako masyadong angry. Sabay na umalis ang dalawa.
Nagsuot naman ako comfortable shoes at saka thick coat. Lumabas ako ng apartment upang i-follow ang mag-ama ko. Magkahawak ang kanilang hands, halata ang excitement ni Freedom. He was jumping with joy.
Hindi naman far ang ni-walk nila mula sa apartment namin. Tumigil sila sa front ng isang establishment. Hindi naman ako nagdududa sa mag-ama ko, I just want to know about what they are up to. They are being weird the past few days.
They went into a beauty salon. Kinagat ko naman ang lower lip ko, tinanaw ko sila mula sa inside ng salon. They were assisted by the beauticians.
My eyes widened as I saw them trying to tie the buhok using the wig. Mayroong instructor na nasa front, kina-copy nila ang bawat move.
Our baby will be a girl...
Both of them were learning to please our little one. Gosh, my tears fell in my pisngi. It was so wholesome.
Henrique Priam Figueira bows to no one, yet here he is, nag-aaral ng iba't ibang hairstyles for our baby girl.
My daughter would have have a high standards for men... Her ama and kuya will set the bar for her. She won't be a victim like my sarili before.
It made me smile. Happy ako kung gaano sila excited na dalawa kapag ang baby girl namin ang pinag-uusapan. Their mata were twinkling with so much joy.
Bumalik ako ng apartment upang ipagluto ang dalawa. I searched for madaling recipe on the internet, ni-follow ko naman ang steps. It looked decent naman.
After an hour, bumalik din ang dalawa with different pasalubong for me. They both kissed me and my tummy. Freedom loves talking with the little girl growing inside me.
"Hello, baby. Kuya Freedom is back. We have pasalubong for you. I'm so excited to meet you. We'll play." He hugged my tiyan.
I caressed his buhok. Hindi pa man lumalabas ang sister niya, sure akong feel ng baby girl namin kung gaano siya ka-love ng mga tao around us. She can be maarte na nga kahit nasa womb pa siya.
"Thank you for these, boys! Nag-cook ako ng pasta. Want niyo ba?"
Nagkatinginan ang mag-ama ko. "You're not mad, mama?" Si Freedom ang nag-ask.
I shook my ulo. "Why would I be galit? Gumawa ba kayo ng kasalanan?"
Sabay naman silang umiling. "Good," Inayos ko ang table.
Rico was just looking at me with such adoration. Nag-wink lang ako sa kanya. I made sandok the pasta.
"Go on, eat na kayo."
Ni-ransack ko naman ang pastries na dala nila. It was freshly baked. The aroma was filling my insides.
"How was your stroll?" I asked, not trying to look na know ko ang ginagawa ng boyfriend at son ko.
"Very fun, mama." Nag-smile naman ako. "Your pasta is delicious. You're improving with your cooking skills, mama."
"Hindi ba masarap ang luto ni mama before?" I pouted.
Joke ko lang iyon, aware naman akong hindi talaga ako marunong sa household chores. Hanggang ngayon, si Rico pa rin ang nagtatrabaho ng gawaing bahay. Lagi akong nakakabasag ng glass.
"It was masarap naman. But even the masarap can be improved pa in the best way possible. I'm not trying to be mean, mama. All your efforts are appreciated."
"Mama is just kidding, anak. Know ko naman iyon. You're the most appreciative. Love na love kita. Love na love ka namin ni baby sister." I kissed his forehead.
Kumain sila ng pasta kong ni-cook for them. Paminsan - minsan, Rico would make subo the speared pasta. They stayed with me the rest of the day. Nag-watch kami ng movies at nag-play ang boys ko ng dinosaurs na toys ni Freedom. They were building a lego dinosaur.
"Love..."
"Hm?"
"I have to back up del Fuego... I owe him this one."
Nag-sigh naman ako. That's the rason why they visited us here. "Our deal, Rico. Don't you dare magpakita sa akin kapag na-hurt ka." I rolled my eyes but I'm so nag-aalala for him.
"I promise... I'll be back without scratches." He whispered. "If not, gagapang ako, makauwi lang sa inyo, ma."