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I walked in Spirit house and she looked at me along with the same nigga from last time
"Yoo" i said dapping her up
We stay dapping each other up .. it's like a inside joke
"Hey" she said
I sat down and got on my phone
I felt them both look at me
See her looking at me is one thing, she got a damn eye problem and i'm used to it but idk this nigga
"Fuck you looking at"? i scrunched my face up looking back at him
"Night who tf—"
"Uhh Kaiser this is my partner Carlos and Carlos this is my friend Kaiser"
"Friends don't suck they friends dick" i said mugging her
"Kaiser please"
"Please my ass, don't introduce me as yo friend" i made a face
"This is my .. good friend Kaiser. Better"? she looked at me smiling
Now she know i'm the last person to be getting smart with
But imma let her have it
"Better" i gave her that fake smile back
Dumb head hoe
"Anyways Spirit tomorrow you tryna go somewhere"?
"Sure where"? she asked wiping down he counters
"She gone be busy" i said
"Says who"? she looked at me
"Says me. Remember i said we was going out to eat"? i made a face
I'm lying
"When—"
"It's ight, we can go Sunday"
"Damn she gone be busy again" i said
"Kaiser"
"Remember i said i was taking you to get your hair done ? i did kinda mess it up again" i shrugged
Oh yea we be fucking all the time
I did not know she got down like that. And she got the nerve to think she gone be out with another nigga ? nah baby you trippin
"What a dummer" i shook my head smirking
She rolled her eyes and looked at Colorado
"We gone find a day, he just being a jackass"
"Come on with that donkey shit man" i smacked my lips
Hate when she call me that
"When y'all met"? he made a face
"Like two three months ago" i said
"I wasn't talking to you"
"You wasn't talking to anybody in particular" i said
"You didn't say hey Spirit when y'all met" i made a face
"Excuse him" Spirit said grabbing me out the chair
Li strong mainly ass
"Kaiser be nice what's yo problem"? she made a face once we was in the hallway
"I don't have a problem. I just think he look at you more than an friend or 'work partner' like you be sayin"
"No he does not"
She don't even believe that shit herself
"Nah he look at you more than a damn work partner. He feeling you"
"I'm not feeling him in that way so why you trippin ? plus .. last time i check i was single"
Oh she done pulled one of those
"We'll check again mf because you are my gf" i said
"And when did we establish this"? she made a face
"Just now .. girlfriend" i said
I love my smart mouth
"You make me sick"
"Prolly from allat dick you be swallowing" i said making her hit me
"Don't say that out loud"
"Don't be ashamed you like to swallow dick for a living bae. I love it" i said pulling her into me
"I'm not you gf, i don't like how you asked me" she ignored what i said
"Ight so—"
She walked away from me and back into the front
She be too bold fa me
She trippin if she think i'm gonna let her go .. she done made me nut off head ...
Honestly i really did come over here to talk to her about something but she busy and i don't feel like being a donkey today
And i feel my whole mood changing
I walked back to where she was and pulled her away from ole dude
He mugging like i won't kill him
"I'm finna go, call me when he leave" i said
"You okay"? she frowned
"You usually be acting like a jackass but you're not" she said making me laugh especially at how concerned she looked
"I'm good frl, just call me when you done entertaining Colorado" i said making her laugh
"Bye boy"
"Bye"
——
I felt my bed dip in a little making me roll over and look at Spirit
"You okay"? she asked
I nodded rolling back over
Mhm hm .. idk what's wrong with me
"You sure ? what did you wanna talk about earlier"? she asked rubbing my back
That kinda made me feel better
"Idk, i just .. idk" i shrugged
"You just what"?
"I just said idk" i mumbled
Not in the mood at all
I'm feeling .. feelings and i don't like it
I keep thinking about the only mfs i got left is my sister and Spirit and i'm continuing to fuck both of them relationships up everyday
Me and my sisters because i don't talk to her ass
And Spirit .. that shit is self explanatory
And that shit be getting to the point where a whole bunch of shit cloud up in my head
This happen sometimes but when it do it's hell i swear ta God
My head be hurting and i be hearing shit .. but in my head
First of all i'm bipolar nfs. I got OCD too .. i just be fucked up
Anyways when this happen i just shut down and i'm regretting telling her to come over because i don't wanna shut down in front of her
And it's not even just her that i'm thinking about, i'm thinking about random shit and it's giving me a headache so bad
Fuck that it's migraine
And then thoughts i thought i been stopped thinking about start coming back
I shouldn't have act like i was bout to kms the other day cause now i'm thinking bout that shit frl
"Fuck" i mumbled into the sheets putting a pillow over my head
Finna just kill myself now
"Omg" i mumbled pushing the pillow harder
I probably look dumb asl but i can't help it
The thoughts loud and i can't stop it
"Kaiser stop" she said taking the pillow off my face
How she so calm
I remember this happened with Ashley and she was acting like i was about to die
"Fuck fuck fuck fuck bra Spirit gimme the pillow" i mumbled putting my hands over my face
——
Idk what's wrong with him but he obviously hurting bad
"Man Spirit— Spirit please gimme the pillow" he mumbled gripping his hair on the side
He keep rocking back and forth holding his ear/head
He keep trying to put his face in the sheets or grab for the pillow
"Sit up" i said grabbing him
"Spirit bruh i can't— move bruh please"
"Yes you can, sit up" i said making him sit up
I finally got him to look at me
His eyes blood shot red and his pretty honey brown skin turning red
His eyes watering like he want to cry because of whatever pain he going through
"Fuck fuck fuck fuck" he mumbled putting his head in his hands
"Kaiser stop before you hurt yourself" i rushed to grab his hands since he was hitting himself in the side of his head
His body was shaking and he just looked out of it like he had a whole lotta on his mind
Bout time i get him closer to me tears running down his face and his breathing all off
"Spirit my head hurt man" he mumbled laying his head in my shoulder
Okay stay calm stay calm
Never in my lifeeeeee would i or could i imagine Kaiser crying
I know he human and humans cry but Kaiser ..
He was literally crying not no li shit either he actually crying
"Okay ... okay baby calm down" i said rubbing his arm
"You want some medicine"?
"No"
"Well Kaiser it'll stop your head from hurting" i said holding on to his hands so he would stop trying to hit himself
He either hitting his leg hard asl because of the pain or he's trying to hit his head
"It won't fucking stop"
"What won't stop"? i asked wiping his face
"The thoughts and noises and shit— it won't stop bruh fuckkkk" he mumbled trying to get out of my hold
"You got to stay still and calm down so we can fix it"
He listened and stayed still the best he could
"You got to take some medicine for it to ease up okay"? i said rubbing his arm
He wasn't replying he was just staring at the wall
"Kaiser , baby you gotta take something"
"You gone do it"? i asked making him nod
"Okay stay still lemme go get it" i said getting up
He ended up laying back down on his side staring at nothing in particular
I got some Ibuprofen and some water before walking back in the room
"You gotta sit up to take it Kaiser" i said making him sit up again
I gave it to him and he took it before laying back down
Now he not talking, crying, anything like that
He just laying there
"You okay now"? i asked after a while of sitting there with him
He didn't reply he closed his eyes and turned the other way
Sighing i rubbed his back while scrolling on my phone
Soon he fell asleep
Now it's time to be nosy
What the hell just happened
I wanna know but he might not tell me. I don't wanna go snooping in his busy but ..
I got up walked to his bathroom and shut the door
I opened the cabinets and seen a ass of medicine
I grabbed one of them seeing the date said 3/9/20
I don't know what most of these are for so i took a picture of them
I'll look it up later
I walked out the bathroom and seen he was fully sleep
Mhmmmm i wanna be nosy so bad and he might not tell me what's wrong
Grabbing his phone i unlocked it and went in his contacts
I pressed on his sister name and it started ringing
Walking out the room i went in his kitchen and waited to see if she was gone pick up
She did
"Hello"?
"Hey .. this Kaiser friend"
"Spirit"?
"Yea"
"Oh okay .. something wrong"?
I explained everything that just happened to her
"Something yk like wrong with him mentally"?
"Uhhh a lot is if i'm being honest" she said making me frown
"It's hard to explain. Maybe he'll tell you because i don't know everything"
"Well what do you know"?
"He suppose to take a lot of medicine but he doesn't. Idk all of it but i know he's bipolar, and got real bad OCD"
"And he sometimes do get like that. One time it was real bad and he tried to overdose. Our momma always said he was faking it for attention but Kaiser never really cries or express himself but when he breakdown like that he does. So i knew he wasn't faking it, because he would be crying. Only other time i seen him cry was when our brother died"
"Why he don't take his medicine"?
"Because it's tied to some traumatic stuff"
"How did y'all deal with it when he did breakdown"?
"Usually i would try to help him but back then he was real violent so he would get more irritated and tell me to leave him alone. Idk how he acts now but ik it was hard to get him to calm down. My momma used to ignore it and let him lock himself up in his room"
"It's like .. he fucked up his whole room. I just ignored it because i knew something was wrong" i said looking in the fridge
"What's his favorite food"?
"He really like chicken tenders and macaroni. But like the cup macaroni"
"Okayyyyy.. imma fix him something to eat, i feel bad"
"Well let me know how he acts when he wakes up"
"Okay, imma put yo number in my phone girlie" i said hanging up
I put her number in and went and put his phone back
——
I walked in Kaiser room and seen he was up
He was still wrapped in his covers just staring at nothing
"You okay"? i asked sitting on his bed
He nodded and opened up the covers before pulling me down
"You feel better"? i asked as he laid his head on my chest
His face all hot
"Mhm hmm" he hummed as i played with his ear
"You wanna talk about it"?
"Not rn" he mumbled
"Okay .. you hungry"?
He shook his head
"You cooked"? he asked making me nod
"Just in case you were hungry" i said rubbing his back
We was like this for a while until he sat up
He got up and i followed him in the kitchen
"I already fixed your plate"
He opened the microwave and looked at it before looking at me
He didn't say anything he just warmed the food up
——
Ngl her making my favorite food kinda almost made me smile
I just can't rn
First of all, all this is embarrassing asl
She just seen me cry and look bout dumb asl
She probably think i got problems
I grabbed my plate and sat down at my island
Ian had one those .. whatever you wanna call it in a while and i forgot how bad it be
It happens so randomly
Spirit walked back in the kitchen with her phone in her hand
"You need something"? she asked
I don't need her catering to me like i'm not capable of doing anything myself
I appreciate it but i don't like feeling like this
I thought i was the one who was supposed to make sure she okay not the other way around
"No" i mumbled eating some macaroni
We looked at each other and she walked over to me
"What's wrong"? she asked standing in between my legs
"Nothing"
"You want me to leave ? you need some space"?
"No, i'm okay"
"Okay" she mumbled taking one of my chicken tenders and biting it
"Ahhhh fuck" she mumbled spitting it out in her hand making me laugh
"You dumb" i shook my head
"Know you see that shit steaming" i said making her shoot me a birdie
1111
wassam😼
thoughts ?
kaiser thinking carlos feeling spirit ?
kaiser li breakdown/episode ?
i have no idea if shit like that really happens to people .. but i do know it's a thing called like racing thoughts or something idk i didn't do all the research but hey correct me if i'm wrong
how spirit handled it ?
her calling his sister for help ?
how kaiser responded to everything ?
him thinking it was embarrassing etc ?
next chapter gone be so cute if i actually do the idea i got ... what y'all think gone happen ?
vote, comment allat
bye fuckers❤️
-piimpdaddykiraa🅿️🚹🚹Ⓜ️🅿️