Recap:
We walked through the door and took off our shoes went and got changed and collapsed on the bed as y/n curled up in on the side of me.
That night we fell asleep in each other's presence while playing with each other's hair.
Y/n's POV
I woke up to a bright glistening sun beam shooting me in the eyes, I was sprawled out over my bed with Wilbur.
A beautiful man that I can now call my boyfriend. I snuggled into his side leaching his heat that he had gathered during the night, he stretched and arm out and gently placed it around my side . He startes to play with my hair with a slight smug grin on his face.
"Morning sleepyhead" he grumbled happily with his morning voice.
"Fuck off" I replied with a chuckle
"No need to get arsey" he mocked from the first time he had fell asleep on call with me and the exact same thing happened except this time we flipped the script.
We both laughed enjoying eachothers presence.
"Has anyone ever told you that your morrnnrning voice is really cute" I sprung up out of nowhere and flushed a light pink shade on my face.
"No, you're the first" he replied burning a instense red blush from his cheeks to his ears.
"Well it's true, people should tell you more often, by people I mean me" I managed to spit out in a proud tone
We fell into a comfortable silence cuddling eachother like we were the only ones left in the world.
Time skippp⏩⏩
We had finally got up and started getting dressed well Wilbur did I grabbed my clothes and I went for a quick shower.
After I was done I climbed out dried off, changed into my clothes, dry my hair then put it into a cute messy bun.
I walked out the bathroom and through the walls I heard a faint guitar srtrumming. I followed the sound walking through my room and down the hallway and notice the sound was coming from the guest room. It makes sense because that's where I left my guitar, I opened up the door and sat next to Wilbur on the bed and just swayed peacefully to the tune he was playing which just so happened to be a song I hadn't heard before.
I turned to face Wilbur and stared right into his gorgeous hazel coloured eyes that glisten perfectly in any light as Wilbur started singing.
(For the sake of this pretend it hasn't came out yet)
"Well, it's 2:45 p.m.
Wake up from snoring, open DMs
Can of Red Bull by the bed
Vape is charged and Snapchat's read
What's poppinnnnn
What's poppinnnnn
She's beauty, she's grace
She has a profile picture of an anime girl's face
Just a single message more
Sends her rubbing up my ethernet cord
I wanna be the guy
That you fall asleep on call with
I'll make you forget
Every guy that came before me
'Cause I like you
And you like my attention
Let's skip to the good bit
Let's consummate our internet connection
I'm in love with an
I'm in love with an
I'm in love with an
With an e-girl
I'm in love with an
I'm in love with an
I'm in love with an
With an e-girl
Mom took away my PS4
So I punched a hole through my bedroom wall
I'm not aggressive
I just ooze masculine passion
Did you know I've also got depression?
I'm self-diagnosed, thought I should mention
I thought you could be the one to fix me
I wanna be the girl
That you fall asleep on call with
Meanwhile, I'll
Find other people to talk with
'Cause you like me
And I think you're a maniac
Let's skip to the good bit
Let's completely block all contact
I'm in love with an
I'm in love with an
I'm in love with an
With an e-girl
I'm in love with an
I'm in love with an
I'm in love with an
With an e-girl
Mom took away my PS4
I've said it so many times before
How can I live on if I keep on collecting
These every little slights and insurrections?
Constant pain in every dimension
My body weeps
Disbelief heads suspension
(I'm in love with a, with an e-girl)
I wanna be the guy
That you find stalking your affections
Your social media scoured
You seek police interventions
'Cause I base my
Ideals on obsessive media
Maybe if I act like them
You'll respond to my DMs"
A little smile creeped onto the cornor of his lips as he finished singing wait for a reply out of me which i simply couldn't give I was speechless
Then out of no wear he spoke up
"Before you ask, yes n/n a lot of it was based after you" he spoke up
After he said that I had an idea spark, I have had a tune of a song that I haven't been able to finish quite yet so I decided that to make it fair I'm going to write it about him.
I zoned back into reality from my trail of thought and once again got lost in the chocolate pool of Wilbur's eyes.
"I love you wil" I said basically being speechless
"I love you too n/n" he replied and he gently leaned the guitar against the edge of the bed. Once he turned around I leaned in a kissed him, it was roughly short compared to other times but still fuelled with passion, and he kissed back I could still feel that electrical current fusing through my blood just like Before.
I pulled away and wrapped my arms around his waist and dug my face into his shoulder.
"Promise me you'll never leave me" I mumbled at bearly even a whisper
I wanted to stay in this hug forever but Wilbur lightly gripped me by my shoulders and I was looking down in my lap fiddling with my fingers now, one of his hand engulfing mine to stop me fiddling and the other slightly gripped my chin and pushed my face up to make me look directly at him.
"I promise darling, I will never leave your side" he look me dead in the eyes and spoke in a very serious but reassuring tone.
My heart fluttered the moment I heard him say darling it was engrained now
And once again I was flooded and overwhelmed with his big comforting hugs that I was in love with so much.
Time skipperr⏩⏩
Me and wil were now chilling on the sofa watching Hamilton our arms and legs intertwined.
When out of nowhere about 20 minutes to the end Wilbur phone started ringing.
(THE OHONE THE PHONE IS RINGING THE PHONE WE'LL BE ROGHY THERE THERES AND ANIMAL TROUBLE THERERS AN ANIMAL TROUBLE THERES AN ANIMAL IN TROUBLE SOMEWHERE
WONDER PETS WONDER PETS WERE ON OUR WAY) only OG's will remember that if not go to YouTube right now and search up wonder pets them song)
He got up and grabbed his phone and walked to another room, it's a private conversation so I have him his space but then I heard something muffled through the wall.
"No..!" He whisper yelled but it was still fairly loud
"No I can't leave.." he sounded almost on the verge of tears.
Then I heard him speak once again, sounding like he was actually crying now with quiet sobs. I wanted to go in there and hug him and comfort him but he walked out the room seeming very pissed off and looked me and said 2 words to me
"Sorry n/n" he said with red puffy eyes swollen face and just gave me a weak smile then walked out the building.
I grabbed my keys and tried running after him but he was long gone before I could actually catch up with him.
I now had tears streaming down my face and just stood staring down at the empty hallway that lead to the flight of stairs out of my apartment building.
My head was spinning I turned round and slowly walked back to my apartment quietly sobbing walking through the hallways.
If you would like to know what Wilbur said before running out on me then be my guest and listen carefully to what I'm saying I don't think I'll be saying it again. (Just FYI this is still y/n pov it's just kind of filling you in and also kind of going through it in her head"
All he said, well more shouted
Was
"Why can't I leave?" He scoffed afterwards mocking whoever he was on the phone too
"I Don't fucking know! ..... MAYBE ITS THE FACT THAT I FUCKING PROMISED THEM I'D STAY WITH THEM" he got really pissed off with who ever he was on the phone with and I started crying I hadn't seen this Side of him before and I wouldn't like to see it again. I don't blame him though wil is the kindest person I have ever met and if they made him scream like that there was definitely a reason as to why.
Back to present
⚠️‼️TW PANIC ATTACK AND SH⚠️‼️SKIP IF NEED TO, WILL BE ANOTHER REMINDER LIKE THIS TO SEE WHEN TO
STOP⚠️‼️
I walked through my apartment door and sat in the corner of my room curled up knees to my chest hands over my ears trying to block out every single one of my thoughts, consistently tapping my foot on the floor and occasionally banging my head against the wall.
My head was killing my thoughts were spinning
Who was he speaking too?
Why did he get so angry?
Why were they talking about me?
Did something bad happen?
I shouldn't have listened
I messed up
This is all my fault
I stopped him from seeing other people that's why he got angry
I didn't mean for this to happen
I didn't want to have it come to this but it's the only way to numb the thoughts. I had loads of adrenaline and I grabbed the razer next to me and braught it up to my wrists and sliced it through the thin s/c (skin colour) skin of my wrist that has had battle scars before
I got dizzy and my head was spinning then suddenly everything went black...
Filling in space so people who do have to slip don't have to see the end
:D
⚠️‼️TW OVER NOW‼️⚠️
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Words without a/n: 1830
WELP THATS A WRAP-
I want you guys to suffer lol
Nah no no I'm joking pfff but wait until next week, it I've wrote it by then
Also you can thank my dearest online fren who chose between angst ending or continue writing to make a bit happier so yw yallll