2 DAYS LATER
BABY!!
BOY!!
ARI'ES DIOR
'MEAN WHILE THIS NIGGA PUTTING HIS HANDS ON MEeEeEeE" Armon sung as he was on my floor
I sat up and looked at him
'SWEAR YALL DONT UNDERSTAND HALF OF THIS INDUSTRY" i finished
'Let a female put ha hands on me imma rearrange ha shit" he mumbled
'Why are yo so violent" i snickered
'Ion know .. I got hit wit some shit when I was younger prolly why" he shrugged
'Fuck me like a scorpio I'm rich and I'm freaky" I mumble
'Girl yeen rich ya momma rich" he looked up
'I'm freaky doe" I mumbled again
'You what" he mugged me
'I'm hungry" I laughed
'Mmmm" he side eyed me
'Issa be back im finna go get in some buns then dip" he stood up
'Ain't you posed to be fucking with Alicia" I asked
'That's who buns im finna go get in" he stretched
'You dead wrong yo ass gone get caught up" I shook my head
'I'll be glad when I do but until then... I must leave order you some food" he said throwing me his card
'Okay" I nodded as he left out the door.
I went straight to McDonald's and I got a 20 piece nugget, large fry with a large Carmel frappe and apple pie.
I sat my phone down and grabbed my note book. I've been writing I it a lot.
I start therapy on Thursday which is in a few days.
Thinking of the world and my place on earth makes me question many many things. Like what's gonna happen in the future. I don't know my purpose here on earth yet but I want to find what I'm here for. Or fake my death and move away from everything. Still keep my name but just disconnect from everyone. Every thing. It seems like I'm just a person walking around on earth. In this Society.
I have no friends, but only because I'm anti social and distant. I can't help it tho. I feel like the more I let people in the more I'll get crossed or taken a vantage of.
I have many many fears like, getting kidnapped, getting crossed, cheated on, having addictions, everything that I've seen happen around me. Becoming paralyzed, being in a coma and then they just pull the plug, to fall in love with the wrong person.
Michael... I really really want himmmmmmmm I want to be his wife and I want to have his first child and help him with things but in the direction we're going I don't think we'll reach that point
It's not that easy expressing your feelings when you've never done it before. I love him I really do but only time can tell.
As for my mom and siblings. I think I'm not that close with them like at all. My mom didn't even try to force me to go with her. I'm not upset about it. But I just want comfort really. It'll come someday... I hope
As I got done I placed my note book on my nightstand and went to get my food.
MIKEY WILLIAMS
'Mikey what you do to that girl" my momma walked in my room
'Tooooo" I asked confused
'Ari'es what did you do to her" she sit the door sitting on my bed.
'So I was messing with this girl. The one she fought and like 2 weeks ago I was wit ole girl when I got back from visiting y'all but then I went and got ari'es now ian really think nun about it cause we're best friends. And soo I guess she found out about ole girl cause when she went home I tried to text her and the text ain't go through
Soo like 3 days later we was going ta 4th bell and i guess ole girl went up to ari'es and asked if she was messing with me and from what I heard ari'es ignored her until the girl pushed her. So that's when they started fighting. By the time I got there ari'es was in hand cuffs sitting in the office when her uncle picked her up sheen speak ta me she just left" I explained
'So why was she in the hospital" she asked
'She was trynna kill herself" I said
Seeing her in the hospital was like what was she in here for but when I found out what she was in there for I knew I caused something and Ian like that feeling. Her leaving but knowing it's possible I can see her again but her tryna kill herself and me having ta go to the funeral that hit a different spot it made me cry Fareal Fareal
'What- do you even understand what you did wrong" she look at me
'Not really but it has ta be something right" I asked confused
'Mikey you fucked that girl and then you went up and sat up under her. Lord know what you did with that mouth of yours I see that chin hair coming In where you think your dads come from when he don't shave" she questioned
The fuck
'M-
'Mikey you need to apologize to ari'es what you did could've triggered her, her mom told me she was diagnosed with real bad anxiety when she was 3 and separation problems at 4 and her uncle told me she was diagnosed with depression at 11 so there's no telling how much shit she was holding in and block out and you caused the thin ice to break
Talk to her and make sure she's okay and make sure she knows that she can always come to you and stop sticking yo lil shit in females it's nasty" she got up walking out the door
'My shit not little" I shook my head
'If ari'es is pregnant by may we'll know" she walked away
LOML😩🦋💕
Can we talk??
About?
Us
When?
Today.
Sure
Ight im finna come scoop you
I can't leave the house nor get out the
Bed how you gone get in?
Ion know...
LOML😩🦋💕
Would like to FaceTime
END OF CHAPTER
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BABY BOY🍃💕