!!!Warning!!!
Small instance of self harm
(U) prospective
As I'm walking threw the streets of clareness on an errand for the prince to pick up some supplies from the local archery range where the prince has had a dozen bows and 4 dozen arrows made I hear the whispers starting up everywhere I go it's like this they see it and stair utterly unashamed as they do and then whisper to another person who then too looks at me and the whisper spreads like wild fire in a field of long dead shrub threw the crowd of towns folk there eyes boring into me from every angle woman men nobles the elderly children anyone and everyone walking about stops to stair with judging or pitying eyes some scoff seeing my identification and some gasp from the shock of seeing that the rumor of an Ex assassin working for there beloved second prince is true the crest burned into the skin of my neck and the official clareness identification jangling around my neck pretty much gives it away i sigh in relief as I enter the archery craftsmen shop and he's eyes flicker from his work up to me completely glancing over my tattoo not even sparing it a moment before he smiles "nice to see you agin" he says and I smile a small polite smile bowing my head "you as well iv just come to collect the princes equipment" I say walking towards the retired professional archer apparently he was the best in the castle before he left I would have enjoyed seeing his skill "ah yes I got most everything done but you will notice there are a few arrows missing from the 4th quiver I'm working on them right now if you'll wait a moment the archer says and my eyes glance around the store only a few people and when I make eye contact with one he immediately stops staring and hurriedly goes back to looking at the bow he was pondering over "sure I can wait" I nod
Time skip
Still (u) prospective
"Thank you very much sir here's your payment the prince sends his thanks as well he wanted to come personally but he's to his head in paper work" I tell the archer as he helps me slip the bows 6 on each arm nearly my hight with 2 quivers around each shoulder "my you were the only one the prince sent? Wouldn't you like some help? A young lady like yourself is plenty capable I'm certain but I still worry they do become quite heavy I can send one of my sons with you?" The archer tells me but I smile shaking my head "I'm alright really the castle isn't too far from here thank you for your concern" I say and the archer nods walking me to the door opening it for me and he waves as I walk down the street and i hall the equipment back to the castle with much struggle and tho every passer by stops to watch the comical performance of a princes aide tripping over tips and ends of bows no one offers to help they just watch with gaped mouths tho no words escape them apart from a small child a boy with brown hair no more than 4 who looks me in the eye unlike most adult men who avoid my gaze and his eyes are full of life and pure curiosity causing me to stop and stair back despite the countless spiteful eyes lying on me and he points towards me tugging on his mothers dress as she's looking at some necklaces in a store window "what is it Shu?" His mother questions looking down at the small boy then she sees his small hand outstretched and follows the tip of his finger to me and as her eyes trail from my feet to my head her eyes go no further than the base of my neck her eyes widen seeing the assassins crest burned into my skin and she quickly picks her child up brining him into the store slamming the door behind her before she starts to scold him my mouth opens and my hand reaches out attempting to open the door so that I can explain that the boy did nothing wrong but a man glaring at me stands in my way crossing his arms he stands much taller than me and scowls with hate filled eyes "we don't need any trouble from you hurry on and go back to your master" the man sneers and my eyes widen in fury but that's all I allow I stair up at him for a few tense moments before I take a deep breath and proceed to walk back to the castle bows arrows and glossy eyes
Obi prospective
A knock sounds from the door of zen's office and zen asks for a tittle "it's (u) lord prince" (u) says threw the door "ah come in" zen says and the door opens with (u) walking in "how did it go? Did you get everything?" Zen asks "yes" (u) nods with a shadow covering her eyes and I look at her confused normally (u)s pretty talkative and upbeat "grate then down to business!" Zen smiles "how about you join us for dinner?" Zen asks (u) and her eyes widen a bit as she looks up the shadow no longer covering her eyes but there's a shiny glimmer to them not quite tears more like she's trying not to tear up "dinner? With you all?" (u) questions "it was Shiriuki's idea she thought it would be nice to get everyone together for a meal" zen says and I grin but when I look at (u) only for a split second do I see her lightless eyes but she quickly catches my eyes that've landed on hers and she smiles brightly covering up what ever she let slip "that would be wonderful really... but I can't" (u) says "really? Why?" Zen asks and I intensely look at (u) but she chooses to ignore my gaze despite the fact that she knows I'm looking at her given away by the hairs standing up on the back of her neck "I'm training tonight it's my usual Friday night ritual" (u) laughs smiling as she scratches the back of her neck and my eye brow twitches at the obvious lie (u) has a tendency to scratch the back of her neck when she lies and I know for a fact that (u) doesn't have annual Friday night training just last Friday night I found her star gazing on the roof and the Friday before that she was visiting Ryuu "we'll that's too bad I'd hoped we could all share a meal" zen sighs in disappointment but Im set on finding out what's going on with (u) "oh come on (u)! You gotta join us! It'll be fun! And you can train after words! I'll even train with you if you want!" I grin and (u)s lip quivers for a split second before smiling apologetically "I really do wish I could Obi but you know I can't train after a big meal" (u) says her voice cracking but she masks it with a laugh "But you fought me after lunch yesterday?" Mitsuhdeay says and (u) let's out a whimper of a breath being caught in her lie "well... yeah... I guess it wouldn't hurt but I'll have to eat light... don't wanna eat too much or I could puke it back up" (u) laughs but her laughs laced with pain and her hand that she's hidden behind her back trembles "ew... but yay! I'll have a maid come fetch you later" zen says "oh don't worry about that master i can do that my rooms right next to (u)s it's no problem! Leave it to me!" I grin and in the corner of my eyes I see (u) blinking away tears
(U) prospective
Obi and me both walk in silence back in the direction of our rooms so we can get ready for dinner but i speed walk glaring so I seem angry instead of sad I can't cry infront of him I can't let him see my tears just a little longer and I'll be in my room then I can cry as much as I want I tell myself and the thought calms me a bit but then Obi's voice interrupts my comforting thoughts "what's up with you? Your acting funny" Obi says walking beside me with leisurely steps while I'm stomping down the hall "nothing" I say plainly and my hope glimmers as I spot the door to my room but Obi grabs my wrist halting me in my tracks I stand with my back to Obi as I try yanking my arm from his grip "let go" I warn and feel Obi's glare in the back of my head "tell the truth" Obi says back and I grunt jerking my arm forcefully from him stomping on his foot just for the hell of it and so he doesn't follow me to my room before I can close the door and so as soon as I shut the door behind me I lean aginst it melting onto the floor hugging my knees to my chest taking deep breaths trying to gather myself before iv fully calmed down and get up off the floor
Time skip
Still (u) prospective
I look at the time and sigh seeing its probably time I get ready I take a quick shower slipping my close off letting them fall onto the floor before stepping into the cold water and I stand there for a solid minute just enjoying the chilling water on my skin before I turn the water off and step out of the shower grabbing my dinner clothes putting some under garments on slipping my pants on but my eye catches my crest in the mirror and just like that iv lost the war aginst my tears as I stair at myself topples in the mirror tears streaming down my face before I sink down onto the floor silently crying so that Obi won't hear me
Obi prospective
After getting dressed and showered I leave my room walking the few steps it takes me to get to (u)s room and I knock a few times but don't get an answer I give (u) a second after knocking a second time but still don't receive a response "(u) I'm coming in" I say opening the door and my eyes widen as my cheeks flush seeing (u) only wearing pants and a bra and my first instinct is that I'm supposed to look away but seeing (u) curled up in a ball trembling and crying I compose myself before kneeling beside (u) wrapping my jacket around her shoulders so she's somewhat decent as I sit infront of her I don't really know what to do or say as I try not looking at (u)s bare skin but as my eyes flicker over her figure I see (u) clutching the crest at the base of her neck clawing at it drawing blood "don't" I say grabbing (u)s hand with blood under her finger nails "you can't mutilate your self like this" I say holding both her hands so she won't hurt her self any further but (u)s sobs just worsen she tries biting back her tears but that does little to help "tell what happened" I say in a soft whisper And (u) chokes on her tears as she tries to speak
(U) prospective
"There was a little boy" I cry "they were all staring" I gasp for breath "glaring- there afraid th-they hate me all of them" I sob and Obi looks at me with pity and I glare threw my tears "that- that look th-they hate me" I wipe my eyes but tears continue to flow "or pity me... I-I can't stand it... I don't want your pity" I scream shoving Obi but he grabs my wrist unmoving as I attempt to shove him and my fail just makes my tears worsen "I don't want it" I whisper horsely "I don't pity you in the least I'm empathetic" Obi says "there's a difference" he adds sighing and pulls down the rim of his pants only slightly revealing an assassins crest tattooed onto the upper area of his hip and my teary eyes widen staring at him after he's pulled his pants back up "I'm epenthetic" he repeats but then his eyes change "tho I do pity you in one respect" Obi says "I joined that line of work willingly and so I got to chose where I got my crest" Obi starts and my eyes well with more tears as I shake my head not wanting him to ask anything more but he ignores my protests "you didn't have a choice... did you?" Obi asks and I choke on a sob as my eyes cascade with tears once agin "I never wanted to hurt any one i-I don't even like the *inhale* sight of blood It-it makes my stomach do flips" I sob gripping onto the jacket Obi placed on my shoulders bundling myself into an even tighter ball "I never asked for any of it i-i never wanted to kill anyone" i cry and to my shock Obi's arms wrap around me pulling me into him "I know (u) I know... I do... I know how unfair this world is" Obi says holding me tighter as a few tears trickle down my cheeks and then Obi places a soft kiss to the crest on my neck and my face flushes as he continues to pepper my skin with a few more butterfly kisses shocking me causing my tears to cease for a moment before i start to sob hugging Obi tightly my arms around his neck as I bawl into his shirt for no other reason than the relief of knowing I'm loved by someone "but look we're you are now" Obi says in a whisper as he rocks me in his arms "there are so many people who care about you and I don't think you realize just how much" Obi smiles pulling away moving strands of hair out of my tear stained face as I look up at Him and his loving gaze and I can't help but smile crookedly and horsely laugh with glossy eyes and quivering lips "I love you" I say hugging Obi agin "so much"