Falling apart on the inside
Intact on the outside,
Hoping you don't notice
How badly I need you.
when I see your face,
I smile on the outside
Even though there's a tsunami of emotion on the inside
ready to flow out of my eyes.
When I see your face, all I can see are memories
ones I wish would last forever
and if you had asked me then
I would've told you that they would.
Now I refrain myself from telling you
I'm still reminiscent about our past.
and they say that love is blind,
But i think I'm the one who truly was;
i wanted to believe this would last
And now I want to know why the best days of my life hurt to think about.
or why I had to find out, that the days I had with you, the ones I've always dreamed of, were only just dreams.
Maybe it's because I was falling fast down the rabbit hole called love
for you since day one,
but on day two hundred fifteenth,
you fell out of it just as fast.
i don't blame you for it either,
if our flame didn't die
we'd be burning alive
in our own fire.
The same one I would've walked through
To make your smile whole again.