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I walked in Spirit's house and walked to her room
She looked at me and jumped making me laugh
"Hell you jumping fa"?
"Cause you scared me"
"Ain't you work for the FBI ? how you scary"?
"Shut up" she rolled her eyes making me laugh
"So yeen see me calling you as much as you be on yo phone"?
"You don't understand space and i'm starting to realize that" she said
"What is space ? never heard of her" i shrugged sitting down on her bed
"Come here and sit on daddy lap"
"Nigga you is dumb"
"Frl come here"
She walked over to me stopping in front of me
"I said sit on my lap not stand in front of me"
"Why you want me on yo lap"?
"Because i need to make sure you not a figment of my imagination, i need to feel you" i said pulling her on my lap
Knowing me she might actually be, i be trippin
"I'm not a figment of your imagination, i'm sure you can feel me" she said
Shiiiittttt i'm sure you can feel me too
"Yea i feel you, just had to make sure" i smiled making her laugh and get up
"I need to call my sister" she said
"Bitch— i mean hollon— girl what sister"? i made a face
I'm pretty sure i— what fucking sister
"What you said"? she scrunched her face up
"Nothing wym"?
"What you just called me"?
"I said girl. Now what sister ? you said you ain't have nomo family"
"My half sister. My dad daughter"
"Explain real quick"
"My dad left my momma and got a new family allat good shit. He got a daughter the same age as me and we real close but she doesn't live here"
"Then why the hell you said you ain't have nomo family"?
"Technically i was talking bout immediate family. Ian seen her in forever"
"Same shit" i waved her off
"How old she is"?
"22"
"She act like you"?
"Ehhh no. She wild asl"
"Mhm" i hummed pulling her back on my
lap
"Why i gotta be sitting on you"?
"Because ion want you going no where" i said bitting her arm
"Yk you weird asl Kaiser"?
"I'm not weird i'm unique"
"No baby you weird as hell"
"Watch yo mouth" i said popping her in her mouth
"Stop hitting me" she said popping me in my mouth
I popped her back and she popped me back and i popped her back and we started popping each other
"Mmcht you hit me too hard" she frowned holding her mouth
My ring popped her ass right in mouth
"That's what yo ass get" i laughed
"That shit hurt" she said rolling her eyes
"I got a question" i said
"What now"?
"What you do for fun"?
"What you do for fun"? she asked instead of responding
Kill people
"Fuck" i said making her smack her lips
"Dance" she said
"Wym dance"?
If she be into that cheer shit imma kill her
"Majorette, ballet, jazz, hip hop allat"
"So you can dance"?
"Yea"
"You was a cheerleader"?
"No, i used to be on the majorette team and different dance teams and shit"
Wheew , i really didn't wanna kill her. I'm starting to like her
"Lemme see sum"
"Here" she gave me her phone
I unlocked it and went in her messages
"Ain't no dancing in there" she said making me laugh
I went to her photos and looked through them
She is a complete dumbass li girl
She be taking random ass picture
Girl got a picture of herself with a bald cap on sticking her tongue all the way out
"Look at the dancing videos and not that shit" she said trying to grab the phone making me laugh
"Nah wait" i laughed going to a video
I pressed the video and she laughing hard asl in it
At what ? hell if i know
She flipped the camera and showed her stove on fire
"Is you crying or laughing"? i asked
"Both" she said trying to turn from the video
Oh she dumb frl, what i done got into
I finally clicked on a video of her dancing
She was dancing to one of Beyoncé songs and i just know .. i just know she .. boy i just know she can do sum shit
Some memorizing shit
I looked at her and she bust out laughing
"What you laughing for"? i laughed
"Cause i know what you thinking"
"What i'm thinking"?
"Something nasty" she said grabbing her phone back
"Why you didn't get into dancing"?
"I mean i like it a lot but i always wanted to be a Fbi agent, idk why but i always wanted to be one. I just dance on my free time"
"Shit, you real talented you could like danced with Beyoncé or sum shit" i said making her laugh
We talked for a while but she kept looking at her phone
"Umm i got somewhere to be, i'll call you later" she said checking the time on her phone
"Where"?
"Business ? get you some" she said tapping my nose
Dick ? i'm finna give you some
"Ight call me later" i said getting up
——
Carlos was making me go to therapy
I don't want to but why not try
"Spirit Carter right"?
"Yes ma'am" i trailed off sitting down
I'm already uncomfortable. I got to sit here and tell my business to a white lady
"So tell me why you're here today"
"Um my friend thinks i should be here"
"And why is that"?
"My job is—"
I stopped talking and looked at her in her face
Something about her energy just throwing me off
Like she doesn't care about how i'm feeling and why i'm here
Like me talking about all this and her "listening" is for a check
"Uh i don't want to do this anymore" i said getting up
"Excuse me ma'am"?
I got grabbed my purse and walked out the office
I knew this wasn't really gone work out
I got in my car and sighed
And there is honestly sooo much on my mind that i wanna get out
Honestly my life been traumatic asl , like some movie shit
My phone started ringing and i seen it was of course Kaiser
He kept hanging up and calling again
He is a straight jackass and he know it
I answered the phone and he smiled all up in the camera
"You okay ? i sense something was wrong"
"I'm okay"
"You lying"?
"No"
"You sound like you crying"
"I'm not"
"Ik i'm not the easiest person to vent to and to express your feelings to but you can if you want, if i can't give you no advice i can listen"
"..."
"Frl Spirit, might wanna take me up on this offer because shit like this is hard for me to do, no funny shit" he said making me laugh
"Okay .."
"Com over, imma send you the address"
——
"Kaiser you sleep"? i asked shaking him
I came here and this nigga knocked out
"Kaiser"
"Mhm"?
"You sleep ? i'll come over tomorrow"
"Nah nah i'm up" he said sitting up
"Come here"
I sat on his bed and he smacked his lips before pulling me on the bed
"Where you went today"? he asked closing his eyes
"If you don't wanna listen you don't have to"
"My fault" he said sitting up and rubbing his eyes
"Frl frl, where you went today"?
Im scared to open up to him
I don't want to be vulnerable around him
"Therapy"
"Did you like it"? he asked laying his head on my thighs
"No, i left before we could start"
"I didn't like it either, they just look at my black ass as a check" he said making me laugh a little
"Right"
"So what's on your mind"?
"I don't know how to explain it"
"Explain it to the best of your ability"
"It's like .. i worked hard to get here and i can't even do my job right"
"Wym"?
"Like i feel like i'm not getting anywhere and all the shit i went through to actually get here was pointless asf. And then on top of that .. i already go through shit on a daily"
"Like"?
"..."
"Come on Spirit i'm not gone judge you, i don't have no room to judge anybody"
"It's like .. my past. It's something i can't really escape"
"Go into detail"
"From my brother dyin, my momma dyin, being a abusive relationship, and then my sister dyin"
"You seem .. like a real happy, sweet person. Ian think you went through no shit like that"
"I hide it well" i shrugged
"How your brother died"?
"Wrong place wrong time"
"Momma"?
"Cancer"
"Sister"?
"Killed"
"My brother was like my dad. He did all those dad things for me and my sister. After him and my momma died my sister was living with me"
"When was you in that relationship"? he asked
"Around the time my momma died so like couple years ago"
"He was like so controlling. I never noticed it until he started putting his hands on me"
"The first time it happened we was in the car .. we had just left from a date. Whole time we was at the restaurant he was flirting with the waitress and once we was in the car i confronted him about it. He got mad and we started arguing .. he told me to mind my business and i said fuck you and he hit me"
"I had to go home that night and i was so scared to hear my momma mouth and i didn't have no where else to go so i went to his house and it's like the whole night he was treating me like i wasn't his girlfriend"
"How he hit you"?
"He punched me in the side of my face like two times. I was crying and he kept telling me to shut up .. then i got hit again"
"You let that nigga put his hands on you"?
"I didn't let him do anything, it wasn't shit i could do. I couldn't tell anybody , i was too scared. I wasn't gonna hit him back either"
"That was the only time he hit you"?
"No. He kept doing it" i said feeling my eyes start burning
Being in a abusive relationship is something you never get over.
I always thought it would never be me in that situation until it was
"I was kinda living in fear. Constantly feeling like i'm walking on nails with him. Scared that if i say or do the wrong thing he could get mad and hit me and hit me to the point i die or something"
"But i left after we got into a fight about him cheating. I didn't start the fight, i was trying to talk to him and just end the relationship right there but he kept yelling at me. I was already mentally out of it with that relationship and being a very sensitive person , i started crying and he hated hated when i cried. He thought i did it for attention. So he slapped me, i tried to hit him back but it didn't work and he boxed me. I was crying and since he kept hitting me my vision was kinda fucked up, i lost my balance and fell and hit my head on the table. I remember seeing a whole bunch of blood everywhere, he kept saying he was sorry and how when the ambulance get here say we was playing and i hit my head. I was scared enough and since he was there when the ambulance got there i lied and said i hit my head. But when i was in the hospital and they asked again i told them the truth"
He sat up and looked at me
I can't tell what he thinking but he wiped my face
"And while that was going on my momma—"
"It's good Spirit , yeen gotta say nomo" he said pulling me into him
——
I'm never good dealing with people crying so i honestly don't know what to do but it feels weird seeing her cry
Like i feel some shit that i never felt before and i don't like it
Hearing what she went through and hearing her explain it and her crying making me feel weird
But i also feel .. something else
Something that's not good at all. Not good for me or her ex. My adrenaline on high rn and after all this and once she feel okay i'm gone dip and handle something
Anyways back to her. She's crying and usually i would dip .. if it was anybody else but i don't feel comfortable leaving her
I just let her cry, i don't know what else to say or do
Making an effort, i rubbed her back until she stopped
She didn't move she just laid on my chest
"Um .. are you okay"? i asked looking down at her
"Mhm hmm"
Ion like this at all. Ion like how i'm feeling rn and i don't like how she is rn
For one she shaking and that shit got me so mad and the fact that i'm mad is making me madder
I grabbed her hand and seen it was shaking a little bit
"Yo" i mumbled holding her hand into my mines to try and stop it from shaking
Calm down Kaiser.
Calm down.
Calm down.
Calm down.
Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
I'm trying so hard to keep all my violent and negative thoughts away but imagining somebody putting they hands on her is making it very hard to do so
"You sleep"? i asked lowly
She shook her head
"Whats his name again"?
"Why"? she mumbled
"I just wanna know"
"Chris"
"Last"?
"Cooper"
"Mhmkay. You wanna lay down"? i asked making her nod
Why i'm acting like this
She lifted up off me and i looked at her seeing her eyes was red and her face was puffy
"You wanna change"?
"Ion got no clothes"
I got up and grabbed a shirt and some sweatpants
"Hmh" i gave them to her
She got up and walked in the bathroom
I sat down and started thinking if i knew somebody named Chris Cooper ..
Chris gotta be short for something
Christopher Cooper ..
Christen Cooper ..
Gotta be Christopher
"Uhh Kaiser"
I love her voice so much. It's kinda soft but not too soft
"What"?
"I can't fit your clothes" she said making me laugh
I opened the door and seen she had the clothes on
The sweatpants fit her like legging and the shirt was mad tight
"Omg stop looking at me, that's embarrassing"
"No its not" i said before going to get some basketball shorts and another shirt that was bigger
I walked back in the bathroom seeing she didn't have the clothes on anymore and was in her under clothes
"Oh shit" i mumbled throwing the clothes at her before turning around making her laugh
"My bad"
"You good" she said
"Okay they fit .. kinda"
I turned around and seen the shirt fits better and the shorts was still tight
"Okay try this" i laughed going to get some boxer
They should stretch
They was calvin klein
"Omgggg this is embarrassing" she said as i turned around
"No it's not"
I turned back around and seen they fit her
Still tight but looks better
"Thank you" she said
"No problem" i said
I feel this feeling that i never fucking felt before
1111
wassam😼
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her conversation with kaiser ?
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kaiser not really knowing how to comfort her ?
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