I checked the letter.
I saw her name.
Her handwrites.
I'll read it or not?
I'll read it, but what if this letter will saying that she's leaving me? What if its hurt me?
I put it beside me, at tumingin muna ako sa view.
Why she did this to me.
She left me or not?
She promised that she wouldn't ever leave me, she said there's no reason to leave me.
But where are you now, Jillianne.
I almost believe that the day is just like a sunset, it still ends beautiful.
But now, it's not like that.
No matter how beautiful it is, it still ended.
Why do i feel that i am so hard to love.
Everything i was afraid of happening, happened.
Now, what's the point of living?
I'm tearing while Wondering her promises.
Do i still keep them?
I know her, but why did i didn't think about her leaving me.
I know her, if she promise, she'll do it.
But why?
Is there a new guy?
A new lover?
What?
What's the reasons?
What's HER reasons?
How can i start a life without her.
I started to sob.
A minutes passed and i decided na maglibang nalang at uminom sa club.
It's been a long time since the last time i drunk.
But now, walang ng magbabawal sakin na uminom ng marami, wala ng tatawag sakin to stop me na uminom, wala ng pupunta dito to pick me up because I'm drunk.
Now I'm free.
But I don't want this.
Vinny's Pov.
O diba may vinny's POV den, wala na si Jillianne eh.
Eto na.
Im just here in my Room and playing multiplayer online games with Nhicole.
Alam nyo na, we need to diskarte, crush natin yung tao eh.
Then suddenly my phone ring.
i checked it and it's Kuya Sandro's number.
I answered it.
'Hello? Sandro's Drunk here, lasing na lasing na.' a girl voice i heard.
Ofcourse that's not my kuya, maganda lang si Sandro but his Voice isn't that girly.
The Girl said the Location.
'Ok, is he's with someone?' i asked.
'No, he's the only who's drunking.' the Girl said.
Lagot ka kay Jillianne niyan kuya, You're drunking without her permission.
'Ok thanks for calling, but one last favor, can you please stay there muna with him? I'll drive lang papunta diyan.' i said.
At pumayag naman yung girl.
The call was ended.
I Went here muna in my Dad's room and i ask him where's his Car's key.
"Dad? You're Car's there right?" I said.
'Yeah, Simon used it.'
'Why?' my dad Added.
'Nothing.' i said at dumiretso ako sa Room ni Kuya Si.
'Kuya, can i borrow the Car?' i said.
And he get the key naman sa pocket niya.
'Thanks.' i said.
I was about to leave his room na sana but he speaks.
'Hey, you don't know how to drive.'
Omg.
Oo nga pala.
I throw the key to him.
"Kuya's drunk, let's go." Pag aya ko sakanya.
He know what i mean na naman.
Bumaba na ako and i waited him in my Dads car.
A second passed at sumakay na rin siya.
I said the Location to him.
"He's with Jillianne?" He ask.
'No, wala naman tatawag if Jillianne's with him.' i said.
Bakit nanaman kaya umiinom mag isa to.
Nag-away siguro sila ni Jillianne.
Sandro's Pov.
Kanina pa may babaeng pigil ng pigil sakin dito uminom.
I don't know who's she.
But i know she's mapakelam.
Nasusuka na ata ako dahil sa dami ng nainom ko.
Pero kaya ko pa.
Ngayon lang naman to.
I want to forget Jillianne kahit ngayon lang.
I want to forget all the pain she's giving to me.
I refill my glass with beer and i was about to drink it na.
Pero pilit akong pinipigilan ng babaeng tumabi sakin kanina.
She looks pretty kahit na hindi siya masyadong malinaw sa paningin ko.
Mahilo hilo na ata ako eh.
'Can you stop drinking? Kanina ka pa umiinom Sandro.' she said.
Oh she knows me.
But i don't care.
'Can you please leave me? You're bothering me lang.' i said at ininom na yung alak.
'Stop.' she said and she get my glass from my hand.
Bastos.
Kinuha ko rin sakanya agad ito.
"Umiinom ako, can you just please let me drunk?" I said.
And my eyebrows are getting cross.
She's so annoying.
"If Jillianne's knew this, magagalit siya.' the girl said.
She also knows Jillianne.
'Sino ka ba?' i said habang kinikilala yung mukha niya.
Hindi ko siya mamukha-an dahil sa hilo.
I just feel my stomach is...
Is...
I vomited in her dress.
'Iw.' she said and she leaned me.
"Now you should stop drunking, that was enough.' she said.
Vinny's Pov.
Were already in the Club where the girl said the location to us.
I saw my Kuya's Car na nasa Parkingan.
He's here nga.
I called our driver at pinapunta ko dito to drive my Kuya's Car pauwi dahil walang magdadrive ng Car niya.
It's my first time to enter a bar.
Ang ganda pala dito.
Party party lang sila.
"There's a lot of girls pala dito." My Kuya Si said.
Baka first time niya rin.
"Try nga natin minsan pumunta dito." I said to him as a joke.
Good boy ako eh kaya joke lang dapat.
'I'll sumbong you to Nhicole.' he said.
Abah.
'I'll sumbong you din kay Aira.' i said to him.
Wag mo 'kong subuko Joseph Simon, sa payat mong yan? Lalabanan moko?
No just kidding.
We saw Kuya Sandro na with a Girl.
We approach them and we don't know who's this Girl.
"You're the one who called me by my Kuya's phone?" I asked.
Baka kase hindi siya yun eh.
'Yeah, bring him to your house, lasing na lasing na siya.' she said.
Her voice was too soft.
She's pretty, and looks kind.
"Thank you for Caring my Kuya, do you know him?" I said.
'Yes, he helped me in London before and we became friends.'
'Why you're here?' my kuya said with his drunken voice.
'Shut up, help me here Vincent!' Kuya Si said.
'Thank you ha." I said to the girl at binuhat na namin ni Kuya Simon si lasenggong Sandro.
Oooooohh, he's too heavy.
'Ang bigat mo kuya.' i said habang binubuhat namin siya palabas ng club.
'You're much heavier than Sandro, so Shut up and do your work good.' Kuya Si said.
Ouch.
Am really your brother ba talaga?
Atleast ako pinakacute sainyong dalawa.
Were in the Car na.
Im beside my kuya here in the passenger seat sa likod.
Baka kase mauntog-untog siya dito mag-isa dahil sa Panget magdrive ni Kuya Si.
A seconds passed and my kuya started to cry.
Ang dungis niya.
He's sobbing.
'Kuya what's wrong?' i said to him while comforting his Back.
He's not answering me, he's just crying.
Ngayon ko lang siya nakitang ganito.
Baka may problema nga sila ni Jillianne.
But i know magiging maayos rin sila.
After a minutes, nakatulog nalang si Sandro.
Were here in the house at inakyat na agad namin si Kuya sa Room niya.
I leave his room muna at pumunta ako dito kila Mom and Dad's room.
'Mom.' i said while knocking their door.
They open the door.
'Kuya's drunk, he's in his room.' i said.
At tumakbo naman agad yung nanay ko 'don.
'Why he drunk?' my dad said.
Hindi ko rin alam.
Nandito na kaming lahat sa Room ni Kuya Sandro.
My Mom's caring him na.
Hinihilamusan niya.
A minutes passed,
Kuya Si and Dad left us here muna.
Nakaupo lang ako dito sa Couch niya and just watching them.
'Vinny, your kuya's ok. Ako ng bahala.'
My mom said
She knows ata na worried ako kay Kuya.
Ganon kase ako kabait kaya favorite nila ako.
Walang aangal.
I left them muna at nagpahinga sa Room.
Suddenly our driver enter my room.
"Oh yes manong" i said.
'Your kuya's Car is there na sir, here's his key at envelope po na nakalagay sa sasakyan niya.' he said.
He held it to me.
Kinuha ko ito at nilagay muna sa bed.
"Thank you kuya, yung pinto nalang po." I said at umalis na.
He closed my door, ganon dapat pag pumapasok ng room, sinasara yung door katapos.
I checked the envelope and i saw a picture of them.
Jillianne and my Kuya.
It seems like may letter rin.
I didn't check the letter na, hintayin nyo nalang si Sandro yung magbasa, pasensya na.
Binalik ko na yung picture sa envelope at nilagay ko na sa room ni kuya.
Mom fell asleep na rin sa couch ni Kuya.
Sandro's Pov.
I woke up in my room.
With my head hurts.
I wish i didn't woke up.
My mom's sleeping in my Couch.
Nakatulog siguro dahil binabantayan ako.
I get my phone and i checked the time.
1am na pala.
I didn't remember that i texted her ng lasing.
I just Chuckled.
Why she left?
Eto nanaman ako.
This is so heavy.
The person you love more than your life left you.
No she didn't left me.
She promised it.
Ano ba Sandro?!
Tumigil ka na.
Stop thinking about her.
Stop.
Stop!
She left you.
No she didn't.
She left you!
She left me.
My tears drop.
I just put my hands in my head at niyuko yung ulo ko.
Ang gulo ng utak ko.
I want to scream, remove all this pain, but how.
She's my pain remover, but what's going on now.
She's giving me a non stop hurts.
F'ck.
Im sobbing in my pillow.
Para hindi marinig ni Mom.
But she heard me.
"Sandro, calm down." She said and she sat beside me in my bed.
Im just crying at pinaguuntog yung ulo ko sa unan.
"Stop." My Mom said and she get the pillow out of me.
I faced her with my crying face.
I just hugged her tight.
"What's wrong.." she said while im hugging her.
I didn't answering her, im just hugging her while im tearing.
She puts her hand's palm in my back and she rubs it to comfort me.
But her comfort isn't enough, im still in pain.
Tita Liza's Pov.
He's hugging me, at the same time he's crying.
'Sandro, come on tell me what's wrong, What's the problem?' i said.
Hindi parin siya sumasagot.
Iyak lang siya ng iyak habang naka-akap sa'kin.
"Sandro Come on." I said at sinandal ko muna siya.
Yumuko naman siya at ayaw akong harapin.
'Tell me what's your Problem Anak, your problem is Our Problem.' i said to convince him na mag sabi.
'No.' he whispered.
'Mom, i just want to be alone.' he said.
Humahagulgol na siya kakaiyak.
Is his problem is politics connect? Or else? Hindi naman iiyak to if Politics, maybe his relationship. Maybe Jillianne and his relationship with her.
Baka they broke up.
'Is this about Jillianne?'
"Nakipagbreak?" I said.
Hinampas niya naman yung kamay niya sa bed and he said
'No!' with his raised voice.
'She didn't and were not going in that point!'
I think, May problema nga sila ni Jillianne.
He look so helpless.
Maga na yung mata niya kakaiyak.
Basa na rin yung tshirt niya dahil sa kakapunas ng luha niya.
A minutes of him crying at unti unti na siyang tumitigil.
Im still here beside him, watching him.
Back to Sandro's Pov.
My tears is becoming empty, but still the pain is here, the pain , the Pain.
My Mom's here.
She looks tired too.
'Mom, you can leave me.' i said.
But im not facing her.
I don't want her to see her son being in pain.
'I wouldn't leave you, unless you tell to me what's your problem.' she said.
But how could i tell it to her.
Sasabihin ko na iniwan niya 'ko?
No way.
'Son, im waiting.' she said at tiningala yung ulo ko.
She's just staring at me.
Naiiyak lang ako lalo sa ginagawa niya.
'People shouldn't see you like that, you're now a Congressman anak, you're not that kid to harm yourself na." She said.
"If you have a problem with Jillianne, then fix it, mag usap kayo. I know you'll be ok." She added.
But how can i talk to her when she already left me.
Iniwan niya na ako.
She don't want or need me anymore.
Iniwan niya 'ko ng parang wala lang.
Umalis siya ng hindi nagsasabi.
All those promises she said, she broke it.
And now, i lost her.
I Lost my sunset, my Happiness, my World.
All i can do now is to cry.
Cry and cry and cry.
'Mom, she left me.' i said.
'Why?' my Mom said.
'I don't know.' i said.
'Is there a third party? Lokohan?' my mom asked.
Maybe..
I mean no.
I trust her, hindi niya ko kayang lokohin.
And
Were ok the last time we saw each other.
Wala kaming Problema.
Were happy, enjoyed.
'No.' i said.
'Maybe she has important reasons.' my mom said.
Important than me?
Important than our Relationship?
'Fix yourself, after that dun mo siya kausapin.' she said.
"How can i talk to her without knowing where is she?" I said.
Tumahimik lang yung nanay ko.
'You can leave me mom, i'll be ok." I said.
A few minutes passed and she left na because im trying to show her that im ok na.
I saw the envelope that their Yaya gave to me sa may taas ng small desk ko.
I get it.
But I didn't check the letter.
I did not read it, I don't want to.
I just want to see the pictures.
While staring at it, all the memories we've done is flashing back.
Our anniversary, the fireworks, the sunsets, and, and Yesha.. i miss them.
How can i start a new life without you, Jillianne.
How can i start a new life in this world of tragedy and insanity without my Remedy and Clarity.
I'll wait.
No matter how long it takes.
I'll keep your promise, the Promise that you'll comeback to me.
............
5 years passed without her.
8am i woke up at dumiretso agad sa Office ko.
My daily life's become like this, work sa umaga, inuman sa gabi.
But still, i'm working good, hindi ko parin naman pinapabayaan.
Im super busy,
And still hiding that im in pain.
It feels like it's been a decade years since she left.
How sad and lonely my Life is now.
My life has never been the same.
Isn't that colorful and Happy right now, not like before when she's always with me.
'Sir.' someone said and knocking at my Door.
'That's not locked, you can come in.' i said.
It' was one of my Dad's worker.
'May bago na pong mag aapply na secretary sainyo.' he said.
'Where's it?' i said.
'Wait sir, papuntahin ko lang po.' he said.
'If that person isn't here in 1 minute, maghanap nalang kayo ng bago.' i said.
'Yes sir.' he said.
And he get his phone.
Tinatawagan ata niya.
'Hello, My, Reyes?'
I heard it from him.
That caught my attention.
Is this Jillianne?
A minutes passed at tapos na niyang tinawagan.
'Pst.' i said at tumingin naman siya sakin.
'What's the applicant's name?' i asked.
"Franze Reyes po." He said.
My heart's beating too fast after i heard that.
'Are you sure?' tanong ko sakanya.
'yon po yung nakalagay dito.' he said.
A second passed at dumating na yung applicant.
She is...