She gets closer to me and stands in front of me with her cheerful look. "h-hi Y/N. How are you?" I asked her as it was our first meet after years.
"I'm good. It's been so long since I don't see you brother Ran."she asked while went to hug me. I pull her into my arm tighter than usual. "Ah-, that's hurt." she groaned because of the pain. " I'm sorry. I just miss you a lot," she said that she was fine, but I'm extremely worried as I see the bruise mark in close-up."what happened to you?" I asked.
"just a little scratch here and there it is pretty usual things happen since I'm preggy you see." I know that was all lies. I'm not a fool to be tricked with that dumb excuse. Without realizing I be mumbling my thought,
"you should have waited me"
"what is it Ran?"
I realized I just spoke out my thought and immediately felt awkward, but she might not hear that clearly. It was unbearable seeing her looking fragile but her beautiful face and sweet smile cover it all at first look. Before I left, I give her my number so she can contact me. That's what I can do for the mean time.
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Y/N comes to their room where Mikey is to get her book tag. Mikey leaning against the headboard slat notices her and called her. "come here."
She comes closer to him, and he moves his head to her neck. He is sniffing the masculine smell she has. "this is not your smell. Tell me. Which man touches you?"Her heart beatings fast when Mikey start acting like this again. She thought today would be her lucky day. "Mikey-" She wants to calm him down but got cut off by Mikey with a ridiculous question, "or you're cheating on me with another man?!"
You know what's coming afterward when he is like this. Stress and anxiety overwhelmed you because a sudden thought pops up on your mind about things the doctor remind both of you.
If you experience this again, there's a high possibility you will lost the baby.
You tell him to calm down and mumble something as you pull away from him. But he is very angry. He proceeds to rant for a few minutes and threatens to hurt you even if you are pregnant with his child.
You pushed him with your inner power, but you know you can't be strong enough to push him off balance.
"Mikey please. Let me go. You're hurting me."you cried. He slowly regains his conscious and loosen his grip on you. "I- I am sorry baby. That's not me you see I'm not trying to harm you. I'm sorry please forgive me" Mikey cried begged for forgiveness from you while wiping the tears with his shirt. You pushed him away when he starts to be soft again to prioritize your baby's safety as well as yours.
You run out of the room to the nearest room which is the guest room while carrying the baby in her bump. Mikey thought you were getting some clothes like a towel to wipe his tears since your move a bit rapid. He chases you when he realizes you went out with restless expression. You went into the room and locked it from the inside to avoid the Mikey for awhile.
Mikey's POV
I ran to the door and tried to open it but she locked herself so I slammed the door as a sign of my frustration. I realized that this was the first time Y/N had run away when I was unconscious. Did I forget anything? or has she changed? I can't bear the feeling of not having her by my side.
I turned my back on the door, leaned back and slid down until I was seated. I just want her. I started scratching my hair, and I started to feel like I wasn't myself anymore. I turned to face the door and started yelling her name. "Y/N! Open the... open the door please." I tried my best to make my voice sounds soft, so I can convince her. Just once. I need to see her again. "Y/N open the door." I said with the desperate voice of mine just to make sure that she's not leaving me. But I got no response from her.
"can we not fight anymore please? Can we not fight anymore?" I really try my best to convince her but still got no replies. I at least must receive a reply from you. " Y/N sure you're scared. I have been there. I can set you free."my concern for her condition was growing. I have no choice but to persuade and threaten her even more. " Y/N.. don't make me come in there-"
"fuck it!" I started kicking the door until I could hear a dull thud noise so I land my second kick that make a hole on the door. I keep kicking the door until I could fit in to enter the room.
It was dark. I thought maybe she didn't get to turn on the lights because she was too sacred. I switched on the lights and see my Y/N's lower body is covered with blood. She was unconscious and lost a lot of blood. I have been trembling yet speechlessly. I lost my unborn child because of me and I regret it every second. The dream of building a happy family with the love of my life has shattered into pieces. I even hired guards to protect them from dangers but not from me.
The next day we held a funeral for our unborn son, Seishiro Sano. Y/N and i have chosen the name wy earlier right after we knew that we would be a parents. Seishiro, 征 (sei) means "conqueror." 志 (shi) means "aspire." 朗 (rou) means "cheerfulness."Those who know about the baby's existent attend the funeral which are the Akashi's sibling, the maids, guards and us.
I promise I'll pay a visit whenever I can.
I thought while looking at the cemetery, and I'm certain Y/N thinks the same. At this point no matter how hurt I am losing the baby, she hurts even more since she's carrying the baby for months, she even has to face the her miserable child's father, me. The realization hits me hard.
I plead to her again asking forgiveness. "I'm sorry. I was- it was all my fault. Our child-". She keeps ignoring me by not replying to me and face the opposite as a sign of in denial to talk. i know I'm wrong, but she needs me the most, or maybe that's what I thought. "Y/N. Go home first." she doesn't reply to me. She just followed the driver to our car.
I walked to Takeomi who isn't too far behind me. Takeomi and Sanzu bowed to me when I reached them. "Takeomi, what else can I do to make up with her?" I asked. They raised their head and Takeomi started answering me, "I am deeply sorry for your loss, Mikey. For now, she might not be in a good condition and mind. You better be always by her side, keeping her company." I just dropped my head thinking what I am going to do. " actually, Mikey I have report due to our a new gang-" I cut Takeomi words because I need to prioritize my Y/N first. "tell me in detail about that tomorrow. Do what you can do for the time being. Drive me home now."
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I entered my house and went straight up to room to find Y/N. I was stunned when I see a maid helping Y/N folding her clothes and put it in a bag. The clothes she puts in are all clothes that she owned before she moved here and there is not much. She zipped the bag and lifts it up not noticing that I'm standing at the door. She was shocked that I'm home early than she has expected. if only I went home late again, I might really lose her since I loose the security.
"Y/N. What are you doing?" I asked while walking toward her. She faced the floor not making eye contact with me. I glared at the maid ordering her to leave us, and she left."Y/N. S top doing this!" I take the bag that she just lifted up on her arm. She just let it be. She hasn't eaten since the operation thus she doesn't has energy to fight me back. I hug her and whispered, " Y/N please just don't go. Don't leave me. We were meant to be together, and I won't let you live with any shitty guy."
"I've had enough Mikey." the first word she said to me after ghosting me and the line hurts me the most. I fell and kneel in front of her with my arm still hugging her.
"you're annoying. I don't have feelings for you anymore."my eyes widened. I can't believe she'll say words that will definitely hurt me. The same word I tell her way back before.
"please don't say that. If- if it's about our dead baby, we can make another one or more than one. I can give you a baby. Our baby or adopted doesn't matter. I just want you please," I'm bawling my eyes out. I can't look her in her eyes. The guilty about how I treat her when I'm not myself overwhelmed me.
" That's a bit ironic, isn't it? The boss of the most dangerous criminal organization kneels in front of a useless and worthless woman like me." I shake my head with tears flow down my cheeks." d-don't say that. I don't care if I'm being pathetic to you. I'm begging just this time i really am promise not to harm you anymore and i'll change for you." I said with quavering voice. Y/N just stays quite. I probably have wet her pants with my tears.
"please", I release my arm that hugging her just now and bow my head on the floor to her.
"I'm tired Mikey." her knees is trembling and she fell down. The tears which were on her face broke down into a slithering stream.
I take her hand and bring closer to my lips to kiss then pat and rub with my fingers. "Just- please Y/N. Give me the last chance. I promise I'll keep it."
"this time, I'll kill you if you broke your promise again." she said while looking in my eyes.
"yes. Do anything you want to me. As long as you stay by my side. At this moment, I only live for you."i hug her and patting her trembling shoulder to let her know that I'll always here for her.
"moron. You do know I won't kill you" she powerlessly hits my chest with her hand.
"yes, a moron like me thinks that losing you is already a death."