Y/N's POV:
That moment of relief that had fallen over us that day didn't last very long.
Little by little as Jungkook and I headed home, the memories of what had just happened kept replaying in my mind. It all seemed like a dream, like it didn't really happen. But then it would suddenly hit me hard like a brick wall...
It really did happen.
We had arrived home and sat in the driveway for a few minutes without talking. The silence wasn't awkward by any means... but it was deafening. We were both so lost in thought, it was hard to figure out what to say or do.
I got so lost in my thoughts that I hadn't even realize that Jungkook had gotten out of the car and walked around to the passenger side.
I jumped slightly and looked over at the large man of mine as he opened my door and studied me.
"Lets go inside." his exhausted gruff voice told me. I nodded in reply and took his hand as he held it out to me.
I didn't really need his help to get out of the car, but taking his hand was something I found myself needing.
Once I stood up, I looked at his distinct brown eyes.
He needed the touch just as much as I did.
I could see it in his eyes. Those orbs studied me again in silence, while his face expressed a look of frustration. I swallowed hard and quickly broke the contact, turning and shutting the car door. As soon as the car door was shut, I froze as his hands pressed against the car on both sides of me, trapping me.
I followed from one of his hands up his arm until my entire body was turned around our eyes met once again. My back now was up against the car door. His eyes showered me with a glimpse of his emotions.
Love, fear, hope, and desperation.
Why did he have to look at me so? Why did being with me have to cause him so much trouble? Honestly, a sharp pain entered my heart and shot through my body when I thought about him having to deal with me and my problems the rest of his life.
He didn't deserve someone like me, who just put him through all this hell.
I know I went through all the trauma of the situation, but they were my problems that would have happened without him. It could have been avoidable for him.
"Talk to me." his deep voice urged as if he knew I was feeling confused.
"Jungkook..." I spoke softly not sure I could do this right now. I wanted too, but the thought of being without him was too much to bear.
"Don't fight me on this, Lee." he warned.
"I know something is wrong, and you need to talk to me about it."
Damn him! I didn't want to do this and cry again. I had cried enough! I hated crying and especially in front of others! Yet I felt the tears already pricking away at my eyes giving off clear warning that there were still fresh tears available. I looked away from him.
"I am such a burden to you." I whispered.
Then deciding to just get it over with, I finally asked him.
"Are you sure you want to be married to someone like me? I'm weak and have so much baggage. I just keep bringing trouble and hell into your life and I-"
"I love you."
he cut me off and stated boldly with a tender sound. I shut my eyes tightly as a tear made an escape. Oh god, if he continued, I would come undone. His large hand suddenly made contact with my cheek.
He slowly ran his fingers over it, causing me to shiver in happiness, until his hand came and fully cupped my cheek in his palm. Gently he turned my face to look at him.
"Open your eyes, love."
"No." I stated like a child.
"Lee. Open your eyes. Please. Look at me."
The desperation in his voice broke me. I slowly opened my eyes to be met with his brown eyes capturing my heart all over again.
"Oh Jungkook. I'm so sorry."
His thumb quickly wiped another tear drop that had escaped.
"I hate seeing you hurt. I hate seeing you blame yourself yet again as if you're not good enough. Don't I do that enough for the both of us?" he asked somewhat joking.
"This wasn't your fault. Jimin knows that, you know that, and I know that. And I'll be damned if those men who are at fault ruin the only good thing in my life and yours."
He told me with a more serious tone. I swallowed hard. His
features were becoming more and more stubborn, and more focused. On me.
"But-"
"I can't lose you." he admitted gruffly.
"I-"
I couldn't say anymore as Jungkook suddenly pressed against me. My entire body instantly going aflame. The desire I had for this man came back to me full force.
His eyes were trained on me and washing over me like a million kisses.
God how I wished they really were coming from his lips.
As if reading my thoughts, Jungkook leaned down and I closed my eyes expecting his lips to land on mine. I gasped lightly as I felt his lips graze softly over my collar bone instead.
His hands came down and rested against my waist. I couldn't help but arch my neck to the side as he started to trail his kisses up the side of my neck.
Oh my god. The sensations that his lips were causing traveled through every part of my body and it was exhilarating. Any thoughts that I had flew out the window as he continued to kiss my neck, and soon they were trailing across my jaw. I could feel his hands start to slip under my shirt and caress my bare skin.
I groaned in pleasure, which caused a low growl to come forth from Jungkook's chest. Within the next moment, Jungkook's lips were crushed against mine.
The kiss was not a tender one, it was a needy one. This kiss made my body go aflame instantly and I couldn't control my body anymore. I now pressed back against him and threw my hands into his hair, returning the kiss just as desperately.
I couldn't live without this man. I didn't want to. There were just too many things in this world that had gone wrong, and this was the one mess up that was actually good.
Was I really letting those men into my head and allowing them to destroy my life even after I was away from them and safe? I knew Jungkook had spoke the truth. I was scared. I didn't want to hurt him or cause him anymore trouble.
But his kisses and touches told me that he too was scared. That he understood. But he wasn't going anywhere and he wasn't about to let me go anytime soon.
Just the realization that hit me again made my heart swell. I suddenly choked back a sob and Jungkook gently pulled away from our intense make out session to study my face. One of his hands left my side and gently came up to cup my cheek.
"Jungkook." I whispered.
"Yes love?"
How did I catch this man?
"I love you."
I told him. His eyes instantly softened even more and I caught him giving me a small smile.
"I am just so afraid of you having to share my burdens. I don't feel it's fair. That's why I-"
He shook his head.
"It's not like I'm excited about you having to deal with all my baggage either, Lee. It's not something that should be put on anyone... but that's a part of marriage, isn't it? In sickness and health, failure and success, for better and worse , Sharing your life with someone you love? Every part of it?"
Since when did this man get so wise in love?
"Yes, you're right."
"Then..."
he leaned down and pressed his forehead against mine. The touch was so tender. His voice softened even more and I swear I heard shaking in it.
"Will you share with me your burdens? And..."
he swallowed hard, closing his eyes.
"...Will you accept mine?"
The words spoken straight from his heart came at me. It was him purposing again. This time with words he held hidden in his big heart. He was putting all his fears out there and I was not going to be the one to destroy it.
I wanted to take that beautiful big heart of his and keep it against mine forever. Cherish it and love on it.
For him to give me such a gift was one I knew I had always dreamed of having. To find my prince.
He was all I needed.
"Yes." I whispered and moved to place my lips softly against his.
I could feel his shoulders relax in relief as he pressed into the kiss some more. His hands instantly came down and tucked themselves under my thighs. With a swift movement and without breaking our connection, he lifted me up. I quickly followed and threw my legs around his waist, locking them the best I could.
One strong arm of his went and tucked under my bottom while the other then wrapped around my back to keep me in place.
Our kisses began to deepen and the desire of our hearts started to take on a physical form.
Jungkook's strong arms pulled away me away from the car and carried me into the house carefully. My arms tightened around his neck so that our bodies were flesh against each others. I wanted him so bad.
I needed him.
And he needed me too.
We didn't make it too far when he quickly ended up sitting me on top of the dinning room table. Our bodies now burning with desire. His hands made quick work to remove my shirt and I shivered feeling the cold air of our home hit my burning skin. Once the threw my shirt off to the side and we broke apart from our kisses, his eyes looked down and focused on my bare skin.
I could see his face eyeing something on my skin.
I looked down and saw that my body had random blotches of blue and purple on it. Bruises. I swallowed hard, looking back up to try and read Jungkook's expression.
Even though I could tell that he was fighting himself, his expression slowly turned tender.
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Jungkook's POV:
The fact that her skin was decorated in bruises broke my heart. Anger rose instantly, but I quickly replaced it with the need to take away the pain. These were temporary and soon there wouldn't be a physical reminder of the trauma she went through.
There had to be a way to take away the pain right this moment. To erase the memories if even for a little while. I felt myself letting my heart take over, finally feeling safe with this woman.
I found the first bruise on her shoulder and lowered my head to gently placed my lips against it.
Then I slowly moved her so that she carefully laid back against the table.
My eyes roaming over the peak of her breasts to find the next few bruises under them on her ribs. I went to that one and gently kissed that one as well.
I could feel Y/N's breathing increase as soft gasps escaped her lips.
The need inside of me grew more intense and I continued on with my mission. I didn't stop until every one of those bruises were covered with my touch. I wanted every inch of her etched into my mind and once I finished with those I pulled back and threw my shirt off. I helped Y/N sit back up, her eyes watery as she studied me.
"I love you so much Jungkook." she told me with warmth and disbelief.
"I love you too, Y/N." I growled lowly in desire and this time I threw my arm under her legs and the other behind her back, lifting her bridal style.
That's when I carried her into our room and made love to the one who stole my heart.
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The morning light decided to make its way into the bedroom through the windows. The curtains seemed to keep it blinding me full force, but it was enough to give away it's presence.
It had been a long night.
It was such an amazing, yet troublesome night. We had give ourselves to each other yet again, but as we tried to finally rest and close our eyes, Y/N didn't make it too far.
Every time her eyes close from exhaustion, they would jerk open almost instantly as flashes of gun fire seemed to surround her. She continued to shed a lot of tears through out the night, and finally as I held her, she was able to drift off to sleep. I had tried closing my eyes myself for a few minutes but my racing mind wouldn't let me sleep.
I have to marry Y/N.
Soon.
All of our plans had been ruined by those bastards. We had been all set and almost ready to go when it all came crumbling down. But Y/N deserved to have a decent wedding. Especially considering we couldn't have but a small quick one. I looked over at Y/N's sweet face sleeping soundly and peacefully against my chest.
I needed to do a few things before she woke up.
Carefully I started to test the waters by sliding out from underneath her and placing her onto my pillow. Thankfully, she didn't budge. A soft groan escaped her lips followed by my name, which made my heart swell, but she stayed in place.
I leaned over and placed the covers up to her shoulders. Since I was already here, I continued over to place a kiss against her forehead.
I took in her scent for a moment and forcing myself to pull away I grabbed my phone.
I quickly dialed a number and placed it to my ear as I grabbed my boxers and threw them on. The phone rang only twice, as usual, before the familiar voice came across the line.
"I don't get a break, do I?"
I quietly walked out of the room.
"This isn't work related. I need your help."
"Anything you need."
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Y/N's POV:
The sun started to overpower the darkness of my eyelids. I let a groan escape my lips.
I felt like I was just hit by a train.
My body ached, my head hurt and I felt as if I hadn't slept in days.
Today was going to be a long day.
I reached out to find Jungkook but when my hands never found the intimidating muscle, I slowly opened my eyes to find that I was alone in the bed.
Where did he go?
I rolled from my side to my back, groaning yet again at the pain that lingered all through my body.
Wow.
This really did a number on me. I'm probably going to be sore for a week with how I feel right now.
I reached up and rubbed my eyes and sighed. Looking back over at the empty spot beside me, I decided to take advantage of moment. Jungkook was probably doing something with work since he could finally concentrate and focus now that he didn't have to worry about me.
Might as well take a nice hot shower.
I slowly worked my way out of the bed, groaning and moaning to myself since I was alone. I made my way into the bathroom and started running the hot water.
After relieving myself I brushed my teeth and brushed my hair, eyeing myself naked in the mirror.
My body looked banged up and bruised.
I was surprised that Jungkook hadn't gone on a rampage as he saw them. It made me feel a bit more self conscious than I already was, but I shrugged it off. There was no changing it. I had to let my body heal.
Plus Jungkook loved me regardless.
Wow. For the first time in my life I actually felt more confident in myself. The presence of this powerful man that showered me with his love actually gave me more pride, more confidence, and made me feel like I could love myself just the way I was. There was no second guessing myself, like I always did with Namjoon.
Namjoon.
My stomach dropped. Oh god, was he okay?! Last I knew they had taken him to the hospital, but that was it. He was beaten badly and I know after he tried to distract that evil man, he had lost a lot of blood. As much as I hated to ask Jungkook about it, I needed to find out if he was okay.
I hopped into the shower and quickly washed up. The longer I was alone with my own thoughts the more I felt trapped. Damn. It was going to take me a while to get over this.
Taking a deep breath, which hurt might I add, I made my way into the shower. For a few minutes I just let the hot water run over my body. My muscles began to relax.
I didn't stay in there long. I felt slightly better once I was out, but I knew I had a long ways to go.
I dried myself off and brushed my wet hair once again. Leaving the bathroom I made my way into the closet and decided to throw on a pair of shorts. I hesitated though when grabbing for a shirt. I looked over my shoulder at Jungkook's side of the closet and eyed his larger t-shirts.
I'm sure he wouldn't mind.
I took down my favorite one of his t-shirts and threw it over my head. The worn used material laid over my skin and seemed to swallow me whole.
Ahh, now this was comfortable.
Making my way out of the bedroom and down the hall I found Jungkoom in the kitchen. I stopped when my eyes caught what he was doing. He seemed to be so focused on a small cook book on the counter.
His facial features were stern and in a scowl. He had a few things sitting out around the book. I couldn't help but laugh.
His eyes darted up in surprise when he heard me.
"I didn't realize you knew how to cook." I teased.
He looked down and glared at the random ingredients in front of him.
"I don't." He then ran his hand through his messy hair.
"Never really had to."
I walked up to him and smiled softly at him.
"And your starting now?"
His eyes followed me till I stood beside him. I couldn't help but blush as they looked up and down my body, taking in his large shirt hanging off it. I thought he might say something about it, but he didn't. A small smirk danced across his lips. He looked back towards the cook book.
"Thought I might try to make us something so you could rest. It isn't working out so well."
Just the thought of this large intimidating man trying to cook us breakfast was more than I could handle. Such a small gesture, but one I cherished and made my heart swell.
"Would you like some help?"
His brown eyes met my grey ones.
"You feel up to it?"
"Only if you're beside me."
wow. I can't believe I just said something so cheesy. I blushed again but more in embarrassment. Jungkook leaned over though and kissed my forehead.
"I won't leave your side." he replied with.
Oh my heart skipped a beat again.
That might become an issue if that continues to happen.
Jungkook and I worked side by side to make some breakfast together. I laughed inside seeing how serious and focused he was on everything I said.
He really was interested.
I guess he didn't make it as far as he had in life without paying close attention to detail. Once all was done and cooked we both sat down at the table and enjoyed our breakfast together.
"You're not a bad teacher." Jungkook commented once he finished his food.
I shrugged. "Well when you have a photographic memory like yourself, I don't have to do much."
"Hmm... I haven't quite heard that one yet." he grinned.
"Don't let it go to your head." I pointed my spoon at him playfully.
"Too late for that." he chuckled.
Shaking my head, I stood to grab our plates off the table. Jungkook stood instantly and gently grabbed my hands to stop me.
"Don't worry about those for now."
I blushed and looked at him in surprise. "It will only take a moment."
"No. All you need to do is put some shoes on and come with me."
Raising a brow, I studied him closely. He was serious. What in the world could he be up to?
"Jungkook-"
"No arguing. This is time sensitive." His deep brown eyes caught me in his spell. Sighing I nodded.
"Alright, I'll play along." I went over and carefully bent down and slipped on some shoes.
"Even though I am no where near decent enough to leave the house." I added to make a point.
It didn't seem to phase him.
I sighed again.
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Jungkook's POV :
This was it. I had everything all planned out. I just hoped she liked it.
I was nervous as hell.
I noticed how slow she moved this morning and only hoped I wouldn't be pushing her too hard with all this so soon. I know she needed rest. But I couldn't wait for this to happen as long as she was well enough.
I watched her slip on some shoes and grabbed her a light jacket to slide on. She raised a brow at me but without a word, complied and slid her arms into the jacket. I leaned over and kissed the back of her head and held a hand out.
I already had on a pair of shoes and didn't really need a jacket at this point. I was already hot enough from nerves.
Keys in hand, I walked Y/N out to the garage and opened the car door for her. She gave me another confused look but carefully sat inside and buckled up. I shut her door and did the same on my side.
"Where are we-"
"You'll see."
Crossing her arms and trying to give me the best stern look she could, I couldn't help but chuckle at it. It calmed my nerves for at least a few seconds. I opened the garage door and backed out. The sun from the late morning hit us hard and Y/N instantly closed her eyes and leaned her head back to soak it all in.
"Ohh, it's such a beautiful day." she commented as I began to drive to our destination.
My eyes traveled over for a moment to see her gentle smile. She seemed completely happy and she was still next to me. Did I really make her that happy?
I focused back onto the road. We didn't have far to go, but I kept that information to myself.
"Jungkook, I hope you aren't taking me somewhere fancy while I'm dressed in shorts and one of your t-shirts."
"You look great. Don't worry about it."
Her grey eyes opened and traveled to study me.
"I'm not going to be getting any hints from you, am I?"
"Nope."
We ended up driving in peaceful silence for most of the 15 minute drive. We did talk about random things too once the silence started to turn dark for her.
It killed me knowing that she will be dealing with the trauma for quite some time. But I know I will be beside her and helping her through it all.
Once we arrived at our destination, my palms began to sweat. Oh man. This was it. I swallowed hard. I placed the car into park.
"A winery?" she questioned a bit confused.
I didn't answer her, but unbuckled and got out of the car. I went around and took a deep breath, opened her car door for her. She still didn't quite understand.
But she would in just a moment.
I held a hand out to her and she took it without hesitation. My heart started to beat faster. Maybe I couldn't do this...
One squeeze from her hand told me she could see my nervousness.
"Jungkook, are you alright? We don't have to do this you know."
Oh how she was so very wrong. I had to do this.
"I'm fine. Just... lets go."
I quickly changed the subject and led her into the building.
It was now or never.
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Snaps : Earlier at Jimin's home (before y/n woke up)
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"You want what!?"
Jimin's over dramatic voice echoed through his hall.
Jungkook just stood their with a stern expression not showing he was nervous.
A smirk played on Jimin's face as he dramatically held his chest holding the pillar beside him.
"The Mighty Jeon Jungkook want to learn how to cook? You want me to teach you? How touching!!"
"Just Shut up"
"Raise my salary"
"Whatever"
The smirk never leaving his lips he tugged Jungkook's arms and dragged him to his kitchen.
" Today I'm the boss here. You will do what I say. You won't question it."
Jungkook eyed him and sighed in defeat. "Okay."
Jimin's smirk grew wider.
" Welcome to Christian Chim Chim's Kitchen show."