When I was clueless
Thinking you didn't like me
Or you'll never like me
In my most independent days
When I didn't need you
I should have just left those thoughts.
When my heart was pounding
Everytime you'd hit me up
Or the times you vaguely told me you liked me
And I'd panic
Too slow to reply
Because I'm busy
Telling my friends
That I'm so confused
Yet I'm so excited
I should have just denied everything.
When you called me
On New Year's Eve
With my bare and pale face
It was not the happiest day
But you lightened me up by
Talking to me
Listening to me
And buying me food
I should have just slept.
When I first cried
Thinking that
You'll give up on me easily
Because of how childish I am
Yet you didn't
I should have left you first.
When you came to me
Unexpectedly
Standing tall while waiting for me
I should have hugged you then.
What would have happened
If I took care of you?
If I was patient
Maybe things would have turned
The other way around
I should have took care of you.
What would have happened
If I was more like my old self?
And I didn't change
Maybe if I didn't change
Even for the better
Maybe things would have turned
The other way around
I should have just stayed as I am.
What would have happened
If I told you how I truly felt?
If I was more blunt
And more courageous
Would you have
Reciprocated them?
I should have told you that
I love you.