"Loving can hurt, loving can hurt sometimes. But it's the only thing i know. And when it gets hard, you know it can get hard sometimes. It is the only thing that makes us feel alive..."
Song: Photograph
Artist: Ed Sheeran
Selena
The sound of the door creaking causes my eyes to open. I let out a sigh and blink my eyes a few times to adjust to the brightness. I go to sit up but come to a halt when i feel Harry's arm draped over my wait, holding me close to him. The door creaks again and i furrow my eyebrows. Since i can't sit up i simply turn around in Harry's grip, now face to face with him. He looks so peaceful when he sleeps. His eyebrows furrowed just barley, his light pink lips closed, his eyes shut and relaxed. A hair is on his forehead and i gently comb it back. He let's out a sigh and opens one eye. I giggle when i see he caught me and keep my hand on his head, hoping if i don't move he'll fall back asleep.
"Stop staring." He rasps. I've grown to love his morning voice.
"I'm gazing." I chuckle quietly.
"It's creepy."
"It's romantic!" I defend myself with a giggle and he chuckles, his eyes still closed.
He let's out a groan and pulls me closer into him. "Why can't you just go back to sleep baby?" He says against my hair.
"The door woke me up." I answer.
"I sowwy." A little voice says, causing both Harry and I to look in the direction of his door.
There stood Millie, in cute little white with black polka dots night dress. Her hair in two messy pigtails. "Good morning Princess." Harry rasps as he faces her.
"Daddy can i lay down with you?" She asks.
"Of course come on." He smiles and she skips over to the bed. I sit up to get out of the bed so they have space to lie down, but Harry's hand quickly grabs my arm. "No don't go." He frowns.
"She wants to lay with you." I chuckle.
"You too Sel!" She smiles as she climbs in beside Harry.
"Sel?" I ask her with a small giggle.
"Yeah because your name is Selena" She smiles as she climbs over Harry and lays between the both of us.
"That's cute, i like it." I smile and she returns one.
The sound of a buzz startles both Millie and myself. "Someone's at the door." Harry groans.
"I'll get it don't worry." I say and sit up.
"No. Stay here." He says.
"Harry, Millie wanted to lay with you. I'll get it for you don't worry." I say and he sighs but nods and cuddles with his daughter. I pull the duvet off of myself and walk towards the bathroom to brush my teeth. Harry had bought a tooth brush for me to keep here, which i thought was sweet. After brushing my teeth i walk out of the bathroom and head towards his bedroom door.
"Put on my sweat pants now." His voice says and my eyes widen.
"Shit, shit, shit." I mumble to myself as Millie giggles. I feel embarrassed that she saw, not because i was in my underwear but because i'm not her mom and am sleeping with her dad. I put on Harry's sweats that are far to big but just go with it.
Walking out of his room and down the stairs i head through the corridor to the front door. I glance at the clock to see it's only six forty five. Nick is normally out running a few errands for Harry, as Helen doesn't come in for anther two hours. Reaching the door i unlock it and open it. Suddenly feeling intimidated by the blonde with bright blue eyes.
"Hi." She greets with a smile.
"Um, hi." I smile nervously.
"May i come in?" She asks nicely.
I shyly nod and gesture for her to come in. I close the door behind her and she walks towards the counter and sets her purse down. "I'll go get Harry." I say.
"Thank you." She smiles with a nod and begins to scroll through her phone.
I nod and walk up the stairs, once i get to the top i quickly run to Harry's room and barge in. He looks over at me and sits up quickly. "Are you alright babe?" He asks with Millie in his lap.
"Yeah, yeah i'm good." I chuckle. "Um, Irina is downstairs though so... yeah you should um, like, go." I say nervously.
"Downstairs.. as in my flat?" He asks raising his eyebrows.
"Um, yeah.. should i have not done that? Shit i'm sorry she's Millie's mom and i don't know i felt she had the right to come in since her daughter is here. Then again i have no right to let someone in your home i'm sorry, i shouldn't of done that. I'm sorry, now i-"
"Baby you're rambling." He smirks.
"I'm sorry." I shrug.
"You apologize too much." He laughs as he sits Millie own on the bed and gets up. He walks to his closet and returns with a pair of black sweats and a white t-shirt. "Come on princess, mommy's here." He says and she stands up and hops off the bed. Rushing over to us and grabs both of our hands, though mine wasn't being held out to her.
"I don't want mommy getting mad sweetheart." I tell her. She frowns and i feel my heart sink slightly. "No no no! It's not that i don't want to i just don't want your mom to be upset with me." I say quickly and she nods and holds just Harry's.
When we reach the stairs he picks her up and i follow behind them. "You're early." He tells her.
"Well good morning to you too." She chuckles as she puts her phone in her purse. "My baby!" She smiles wide and Millie squeals and wiggles in Harry's grip. He frowns and puts her down, and we watch as she skips into her moms arms. "I apologize for being early. My mum and I are going for breakfast and i didn't want Millie to be in your way during the evening." She says as she kisses her daughters cheek. Her daughter... gosh i hope i look as perfect as she does after having a kid.
"She's my daughter she couldn't ever be in my way." He says with furrowed eyebrows.
"What's this all about Harry?" She asks with a slight frown.
"Um, i'm gonna go lay down a little longer." I tell him.
He looks back at me and nods. "I'll be up in a little babe."
I nod and give Irina a small smile. I walk up the stair and curiosity gets the best of me and i find myself hiding behind the all upstairs and listen.
"Why suddenly, after four years you decide to be here for her. She has her own room here now, you love having her stay the night. You've been having her nearly all week and it's not like i don't enjoy it. I'm glad you're being a father now but why all of the sudden? When just last week you told e you don't have time to be a father." She frowns.
"I've had some people give me a slap in the face type of wake up call. I don't see why you are questioning it. I understand i wasn't present often before, but she's only four Irina. Some dads don't show up until their kid is already in the double digits. Or an adult even. Or the ones that don't show up at all." He says and crosses his arms.
"I know it's because of her. And i need to thank her for that. But all i want to ask from you is please don't always bring her around Millie." She says and i frown. This is what i didn't want to happen.
"I'm with her Irina. If i have my daughter with me and want to be with her also i will do so." He says.
"She's my daughter." She tells him.
"And mine. Needless to see she would not be here if it wasn't for me." He snaps back.
"I don't like the idea of your girlfriend around my daughter all the time. I don't need her trying to play mommy." She says and though it may sound rude i completely understand and can hear the sadness in her voice.
"She didn't even want to hold Millie's hand on the way to the stairs because she was concerned what you would think!" He hisses.
"Look i don't have time right now. I'll drop Millie off later tonight." She says.
"Tonight? No, you said i could have her the weekend, so you can't just come and take her from me." He says, the annoyance in his voice completely obvious.
"I don't need to bring her back so be thankful." She says.
"She's our daughter. You do not have custody of her. We never got married. There is no court order or any kind of judged arranged rule where either of us have limited time with her." He says, his tone now angry.
"Then perhaps we should consider one." She says.
"Princess, do you want to go with mommy or stay with daddy?" Harry asks her.
"Daddy and Sel?" She questions and i feel a lump in my throat rise.
"Yes, daddy and Selena." He chuckles.
"Daddy and Selena yeah! Pwease mommy!" She pouts.
I hear Irina sigh and her heels click against the floor. "We're getting a court order of custody next week." She says and with that i hear the door open and close.
"So you can keep me, inside the pocket of your ripped jeans. Holding me closer till out eyes meet. You won't ever be alone.. wait for me to come home."
Double updaaaate. Hahaha.. sue me.