My feelings on a everyday basis

"Played"

Everyday hurting when I see you. Living in despair. Why do you make me feel this way. Why do you play with my emotions. As I sit here and think about this everyday the feeling just gets worst and worst. Why would you love me. No one else does. I feel lost without hope and love. Hurt when one calls me fat and ugly. So why should you be different and not do the same to me. Yet I fall for your traps everyday and still love you in every way. Till this day I stil don't understand our connection , but I know that it soon will get shut down when your true emotions come spilling out. When I finally realize I have been played in every way .
-JCM