*TRIGGER WARNING: Torture, (cutting - surgery)*
After Wanda had read your mind, there was an awkward silence that filled the room. You grabbed the blanket and pulled it over your head. You were not having this conversation before you had your conversation with Natasha, in fact, you didn't want to have either conversation, you just needed to sleep and not think about anything for a while.
"Are we not going to talk about this?" Wanda asks softly, pulling the blanket down slightly until she could see your eyes,
"Nope" you reply, pulling the blanket back over your face,
"We have to eventually Y/n" she says getting up from the bed, something about the way she said your name got you fired up, and soon smoke started coming from under the blanket, and you realised that your hands were on fire, great.
"Oh my god" Wanda says in a panic, you slowly lift your head from under the blanket, and are met by the spray of a fire extinguisher in your face. You cough at it and try wipe it from your eyes,
"Oh shit" Wanda panics again and grabs a towel from the bathroom for your face,
"Thanks for that" you say as you take the towel from her, wiping the foam away from your eyes and mouth, you start to hear her laugh,
"Are you laughing at me?" you say as you get the final bits off your face, slowly opening one eye to see if Wanda had been laughing at you,
"No... I wasn't –" she stops mid-way through her sentence to laugh again, this time you start to laugh too, you both enter a fit of giggling,
"What's going on in here" Yelena asks as she comes through the door, she takes one look at you in the bed surrounded by white foam, and smoke slowly dying,
"I don't even want to know" she says leaving the room just as quickly, you and Wanda start to laugh again.
"Where am I going to sleep tonight" you laugh as you get out of the bed,
"There's always room with me" Wanda offers, you debate sleeping with Wanda or downstairs in the living room.
"If you keep it PG, then sure" you reply, back eyebrow raised,
"I don't think I'm the one that needs to keep it cool, plus I am a taken woman" she laughs, heading towards the door,
"Clean yourself up, and I'll be waiting for the knock"
You stop yourself from blushing, and head into the bathroom. You take a quick shower and dry your hair. You pack your pyjamas, clothes for tomorrow and popcorn (just in case). You tell Friday to open the window to let the smell of smoke out before heading out of the room. Your room was right beside Wanda's, so it was a short trip.
As you stood outside your door, you quickly checked your phone, but nothing had come through from Nat. You put it away and slowly approached Wanda's room. You brought your hand up to knock, immediately thinking this might be a bad idea, what if you set her room on fire, any memories that she had left of her family would be gone, you are quickly brought out of your head when Wanda swings open the door,
"Hey" she smiles softly, moving out of the way to let you in,
"Thanks for letting me stay over"
"Anytime" she smiles, making her way over to the bed,
"So, what is your plan for tonight?" you ask, taking out your pyjamas as Wanda is already ready for bed,
"Well, it was to sleep, do have other plans?" she asks curiously, titling her head while looking at you,
"No, I did bring popcorn just in case though" you laugh, showing her the popcorn,
"I don't think I could make it through a movie Y/n" she yawns,
"Nope, sleeping works for me too" you smile, turning round to change into your pyjamas. Wanda looks for a brief moment as you pull off your top, she sees the scars on your back,
"What are those?" she asks pointing towards you, you quickly pull on your top, knowing what she was referring too,
"I don't know, I've had them since I was a child, my parents said it was because of a surgery I needed when I was younger, but, I don't know, I always thought that they weren't telling me everything" you admit, making your way over to Wanda, she motions for you to sit down beside her on the bed
"I could go into your head if you like, try to see if you have any memories of that time?" you look at her with worried eyes, and she catches on,
"I won't do it if you aren't ready" she adds, you think about it for a minute, you are curious as to what it was that gave you the scars on your body,
"Okay, yeah, I think I'm ready" you swallow the lump in your throat and Wanda puts her hand on top of yours to reassure you, you see her eyes glow red,
"Close your eyes Y/n" you do what she says, and suddenly you can see memories flicking through your head like a movie, until you are faced with a door, it is dark and cold, it feels daunting, you suddenly get a rush of anxiety in your chest, but you feel yourself reaching for the handle, a vibrant blue/ white light pours out from underneath the door, you can feel your heart beating in your chest as your slowly turn the handle, when you open the door, you eyes are filled with harsh white light, until you are pulled out, you eyes adjust to the bedroom you are in, quickly realising it is Wanda's.
"Are you okay?" she asks concern in her eyes as she reaches up to your face with her hand,
"Yeah, why did you pull me out" you ask shaking your head in confusion,
"Y/n, you were screaming" she trialled off with her eyebrows furrowed at you, you looked at her and you could see how in pain she was,
"What did you se-"
"Is everything alright in here?" Vision asks coming through the wall,
"Vis, we talked about this, you have to knock"
"It was the screaming, I wanted to make sure Y/n was alright" he replies, floating over to you,
"Yes, I'm okay, it was just a bad dream I think, thank you for checking in though Vision"
"Of course Y/n, I will leave you to it" he says, leaving the same way he entered,
"I think we should get some sleep" Wanda says, as she rests her head on the pillow, you follow suit, asking Friday to turn off the lights, you turn so that your face is facing Wanda's.
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Wanda POV
As I went into her head, her memories played through until she was aged 4/5, it was hard to break through her mind to get to these memories, but when I did it was horrific, she had locked them all away. I saw her get taken from her family, given to a woman, she had the Hydra logo on her shirt, she brought Y/n to a facility for gifted children, but it was far from that. I saw Y/n get tortured, I watched as they strapped her down as a child and cut into her body, put her and other children through conditioning, drugged them up on medications and beat her. All because they couldn't get her powers to activate, but nothing worked, she lived like a prisoner, and she doesn't remember any of it. I tried to make sure that the memories didn't reach her, I blinded her with a light before pulling her out. I came back out of her mind before her, and she was screaming,
"Are you okay?" I ask bringing my hands up to her face, needing to feel her touch,
"Yeah, why did you pull me out" she asks shaking her head in confusion, I hope that means she didn't see her memories,
"Y/n, you were screaming" I explained, did she really not know? I tried my best to hide the horror on my face,
"What did you se-"
"Is everything alright in here?" Vision asks coming through the wall, saved by the android, I don't think now would be the best time to tell her that her life has been built on a lie,
"Vis, we talked about this, you have to knock" I reminded him,
"It was the screaming, I wanted to make sure Y/n was alright"
"Yes, I'm okay, it was just a bad dream I think, thank you for checking in though Vision"
"Of course Y/n, I will leave you to it" he says, leaving the same way he entered,
"I think we should get some sleep" I suggest, I rest my head on the pillow before Y/n can ask me any more questions.
*
I woke up to the sound of Y/n screaming beside me, I quickly shot up and turned on the soft lamp light at my bedside, before reaching out to her and pulling her into chest to try calm her down. She woke up when I pulled her close to me, she clutched at my arms making sure it was real and she wasn't where her mind had brought her in her sleep, she slowly started to breathe more steady, I heard a knock at the door,
"Everything is fine, just a bad dream" I called out,
"No problem" Vision and Yelena replied in unison,
"Are you okay?" I asked her, as she slowly started to sit up,
"Yeah, sorry, that it just felt so real" she said, still collecting herself,
"Don't apologise" I said lying on my back, my head resting on the pillows, looking at her,
"Come here" I said bringing her into my chest, she relaxed into me, and I wrapped my arm around her waist, I watched her head rise and fall with each of my breaths,
"Thank you, Wanda," she said quietly, before drifting off to sleep. I soon followed.
*
Y/n Pov
You slowly start to wake up, you quickly realise that Wanda has found her way on top of your chest, cuddling you with her arm wrapped around your waist. You smile at her, before gently getting up to use the bathroom. While in the bathroom you check your phone, in case Natasha had contacted you, but you could see that it was still just a string of texts from you,
Y/n – "Are you okay?"
Y/n – "Do you have any leads?"
Y/n – "Miss you"
You kind of regretted sending the last one, you didn't want her to think you were desperate. After brushing your teeth and using the bathroom, you came back out to find a completely empty bed, and no sign of Wanda. You decide to head back into your room and get ready for the day there.
While getting ready, you start to wonder if Wanda saw anything you missed in your head, mostly because of the way she looked at you when you came out of the memories, surely she would of told you if she did, you reason that it was probably because of the screaming. You decide that you should talk to her regardless. You are taken out of your thoughts by a sudden overwhelming feeling of anxiety, you feel your chest getting tight and your breaths getting shorter, you feel the warmth in your cheeks slowly move to your eyes, when you check the mirror they have turned red, shit. Then it hits you, you feel the fire burning inside you and you can feel the anger coursing through your body, but without knowing the trigger there isn't much you can do to calm yourself,
"Friday, please get someone" you try to get out breathlessly, Vision appears through the wall, and picks you up, he brings you into Bruce's lab,
"What's going on with her?"
"It appears she is short of breath and her eyes are glowing"
"That's never good" Bruce says, he comes over to you and hands you're an inhaler, you look at him confused, and he tells you to use it,
"I haven't needed this since I was 7" you say,
"Just do it" he says bringing it up to your mouth, you breathe in the inhaler a couple of times, and your breathing starts to regulate, you look over to the reflective surface in the lab, and can still see your eyes are red,
"How do I fix that?" you say to Bruce,
"Are you angry?" he asks in return,
"I was, but not at the moment" you feel your eyes starting to burn, you scream in pain, Bruce and Vision both ask what is going on, you start scratching at your eyes, until Vision restricts your hands,
"What is happening" you scream, Bruce runs over to check your readings, he informs you that a lot of your energy appears to be going towards your eyes,
"Well I think I know that" you shout in frustration, you blink uncontrollably until you finally can see again, you can see but its different, its like a purple/ red tone to everything,
"What the fuck" you shout,
"Y/n what's going on" Bruce asks,
"Why the fuck are you red and yellow Bruce"
"What are you talking about" he asks, coming over to you
"Y/n, what do you see when you see me?" Vision asks,
"You are mostly blue Vision, the stone in your head is yellow/red" you reply,
"I think you are seeing our heat signatures Y/n, does it look like a thermal imaging through your eyes"
"Yes, exactly that, am I going to be stuck like this?" you ask in a panic,
"No, I don't think so, I think it might have something to do with your eyes being red" he replies, you can see that he has gotten closer to your face,
"Can you try to direct you energy away from your eyes" Vision asks, placing a hand on your arm,
"Yeah I can try" you close your eyes, and remember what Wanda told you, you connect with the energy in your body, breathe as you slowly direct it away from your eyes and towards your chest, you imagine the energy in your chest to be a small ember as opposed to a roaring fire, and when you finally open your eyes, you can see normally,
"There's those y/e/c eyes" Bruce laughs,
"I have had more normal mornings" he adds,
"How are you feeling?" Vision asks,
"I'm better now, thank you Vision" you give him a small smile before getting up, you are about to walk out when you catch sight of the inhaler, you grab it before leaving the lab. Okay, time to find Wanda.
Wanda Pov
While Y/n was in the bathroom, I got a notification on my phone from Friday, Stark wanted to see me, great. I got up, got changed and headed down to the kitchen,
"Hey Wanda" I was greeted by him eating blueberries, coffee in hand,
"Hi Tony, you wanted to see me?"
"Yes, I wanted to talk about Y/n" he says, handing me a cup of coffee.
Tony mostly just asked about her training, and how I think she was doing, I told him that she was doing great, she had gotten a handle on her powers, and that she was just having trouble when it came to the emotional side of her powers,
"What's the difference?" he says, as he goes over to the fridge,
"Well, in a fight setting she is showing great progress, but in her personal life she is having trouble controlling her emotions, and therefore she is having outbursts?" I say, looking at my coffee while doing so,
"What about the gun men, why do you think she froze in that situation?" he asks grabbing eggs from the fridge,
"Well, I think it was the first time she's been faced with an actual threat, and honestly, I don't think she wanted to use her powers in case she killed them"
"How do you know that?"
"I might have read her thoughts a couple of times" I admitted,
"That's a handy trick, you don't read my thoughts, do you?"
"I could literally think of nothing worse" I reply in disgust, Tony laughs in response,
"Think she is ready for a low-level mission?" Tony asks,
"I think if she had us there to support her, she would do well"
"Good, but, you know, you won't be able to come?" he says, looking down at his cup,
"Are you serious?" I feel the tears burning, trying to escape my eyes, I leave the kitchen and head up to my room in a hurry, not wanting Tony to see me like this.
"Hey Wanda, are you-"
*
Y/n Pov
On my quest to find Wanda, you finally see her in the kitchen with Tony, you see her get up and abruptly leave,
"Hey Wanda, are you-"
She storms past you, before you can turn to follow her, Tony asks you to follow him to his office where he tells you that you will be going on the next low level mission that comes through, he let you know that Wanda thinks you are ready,
"Won't take more than a day, just want to test out your control"
"Doesn't that seem a little dangerous? Shouldn't I do more training simulators or combat training?"
"It's happening kid, so just go with it" Tony says,
"Plus, you'll have a bit of time before anything comes through"
"Is Wanda coming? I think it would be good to have her close in case I need her" you tell Tony,
"No, she won't be coming"
"Why? She saved me the other day from those gunmen, she clearly is in control" you look at him confused,
"Look, it's for the best, Friday, let's get Y/n a suit made for her next mission" Tony walks over to the door and opens it for you, guess that conversation is done you thought.
You make your way through the compound, looking for someone that might be able to tell you why Tony won't let Wanda on missions, then you see Yelena, bet Nat has told her.
"Hey Yelena" you say making your way over to the kitchen,
"Y/n, just the person I wanted to see" she says,
"Oh really, what's up?" you ask her curiously,
"So, after my first mission, you know what I wanted to do, I wanted to come back here, get my hot sauce from my room and eat a nice bowl of mac and cheese –" damn, you forgot to replace the box for her,
"- but then I come down here, looking of it, and it's not there, so I ask Friday- " you cut her off,
"I will get you another box Yelena, sorry I didn't see the writing on the side until I was already cooking it" you lied, she narrows her eyes and you,
"Do you not think I know when someone is lying" she laughs while folding her arms,
"Right, trained Russian spy and assassin" you reminded yourself, tough crowd,
"Anyway, can I ask you something?" you changed the topic,
"When you get me more mac and cheese, I will happily answer your questions" great you thought, time to go to the store, as you leave into the kitchen you bump into Vision,
"Oh, hey Vision"
"Miss y/l/n, have you seen Wanda?" he sounded quite concerned, it made you feel guilty, guilty that you had developed feelings for his partner, you felt the fire burn inside as you controlled it, answering him,
"She left Tony's office a while ago, I didn't see where she went" you replied, quickly leaving the area, you waited until Vision was out of sight, and then your hands went into flames, knowing you needed to go to the store, you just walked through the compound with your hands on fire, no one really batted an eyelid, as you continued to make your way through the entrance, you thought it was funny that it was just the normal here. Luckily, no one questioned you leaving the compound this time, and you were glad Maria wasn't here today.
*
Wanda POV
After my conversation with Tony, I went to the roof instead, I didn't want Vision to find me. I know I should be happy that Vision is home but I think I feel guilty about Y/n, I think I have started to develop feelings for her and I know if Vis sees me he will see that something is wrong.
I saw Y/n heading off the compound from the roof, is she really leaving after what happened last time? I couldn't help but laugh at her decision making process, I didn't know if I should follow her or just leave her too it, I guess the best way to learn is if there isn't someone there to help you fight your battles. Even so, I decided to track her movement on my phone.
She slowly started to move faster, and then I saw the trial of smoke coming from the tree line, way to keep a low-profile Y/n.
About 10 minutes had passed when I saw Y/n return, she had flown there and back quite quickly, she had a bag in hand and gracefully landed on the ground before making her way back into the compound. I smiled to myself when I thought how far she had come, but she doesn't even know the height of it, from what I saw last night, I need to tell her.
Y/n Pov
I was making my way through the compound and back up to the kitchen, when I got there Yelena was no longer in the kitchen, you left the mac and cheese box on the counter and headed down to the training room. Surprisingly Yelena isn't there, you make your way outside to the outdoor training grounds, and she isn't there either, you are about to head inside when you see Wanda sitting up on the roof by herself. You decide to make your way up to her, you take off your shoes and focus your energy and feel yourself lift off the ground, you dart up to Wanda and land professionally beside her,
"Why are you hiding up here?" you ask,
"Lots of reasons" she looks up at you and then down to your feet,
"Why aren't you wearing shoes?" she questions,
"Are you just noticing?" you laugh, you explain that you can't really wear shoes because you typically burn right through them before flying,
"That makes sense" she laughs again,
"So, you gave a really vague answer to my question" you said, joining her by dangling your feet over the ledge,
"I am hiding" she admits,
"From who?" you question wide eyes, leaning closer,
"Vision... and well, you Y/n" you are taken aback by this, not really sure why Wanda would be hiding from you,
"From me?" you question, confused you look at her, placing a comforting hand on her upper arm,
"Yeah, it's last night..." she tells you, you give her a gentle squeeze, to let her know you are listening,
"I just, well, there's something you need to know about your memories" she adds,
"My parents are really my parents are they?" you ask, she looks at you in shock,
"It's okay, I think I always knew, I mean, they don't really have any hidden abilities and well, I can't really remember a lot of my childhood" you admit, this time Wanda wraps one arm around you, and you rest your head on her shoulder while you both look toward the tree line, you feel your eyes sting, this time from tears forming, you had deep down always knew, but from her reaction you understand now, that you had been right.
"Do you want me to show you?" Wanda asks, you tense up, unaware that there was more to the story,
"Is it bad?" you question, you feel her nod her head against yours, this time you let out more tears, she pulls away from you to look at you, wiping her tears with her thumbs,
"Sorry" you say as you cry,
"Don't you apologise to me" she says, continuing to wipe the tears,
"If you aren't ready- "
"No, I am I want to know" you say reaching up to hold her wrist with your hand,
"Okay"
Wanda keeps her hands on your cheeks, and you see her hands and eyes come to life with red energy,
"Close your eyes Y/n"
You watch as Wanda shows you your childhood, and you are met with the door, the same door that blinded you last time, you approach the door again, placing your hand on the handle you turn it slowly, somehow it feels colder than before, you see yourself being given to a woman, you brought you to a facility. You saw yourself grow up in a cold room, with little other children, you watched as they beat you when you disobeyed. How they strapped you to a cold table and performed operation and tests. How they conditioned you and drugged you. The memories get cut short, and you slowly feel Wanda's hands on your face again, you open your eyes and are met with her.
"Was I screaming again?" you ask, Wanda nods,
"I don't remember any of that" you say in disbelief, tears filling your eyes. You slowly stand up,
"Where are you going?"
"I think I need a minute" you say, you jump from the roof and Wanda springs up, until she sees that you are just descending using your fire, you walk through the compound, completely out of it, feelings of numbness spreading through your body.
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Sorry I haven't posted in a minute, but longer chapter to make up for it :)