Prologue
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"AUTUMN GET THE FUCK OUTTA MY HOUSE IM TIRED OF THIS SHIT" My mom bused in my room yelling
"What did I do now?" I asked snapping my neck towards the door
I was 19 at the time...
"Your being fast once agian, I let you keep that one but I can't do two"She said pointing to my 4 year old son who was sleep with a cigarette in her hand
"Ma you acting like this is my fault you put me through this" I said putting the cover on top of my baby boy
"I ain't put you through shit Autumn and you know that" She said putting the Cancer stick To her lips
"So you ain't get me rapped for money at 16?" I spoke with base in my voice
"That's old news Get over that" she said shrugging it off like it's nothing
"and you wanna know how this one came about" I asked smiling pointing to my stomach
"I ain't do that shit, you did that shit on your own" she said
"You don't remember what you told me huh?"I asked getting loud tears started to form
"Autumn-" I cut her off
"DO YOU REMEMBER WHAT THE FUCK YOU TOLD ME"I yelled making Khamani move around
"Your about to wake up your dam bastard"she said pointing to my son with the cigarette in between her fingers
"Ma you told me in order for nothing to happened to my son I better let that nigga do that shit to me again" I said my tear just started flowing
"You know how much that shit hurt me you know I would do anything for mine and you used that as a way to Manipulate me"I said Khamani was now up looking around confused
"Autumn you got 30 days to get the fuck outta here" She said walking out the door making sure to slam it I sat down on my bed crying just from the thoughts
"Mommy you okay?"Mani asked sitting on my lap I wiped my tears looking up at him
"I'm okay baby" I said kissing his forehead laying it down on my chest
"Don't cry mommy be strong" he said wiping a tear that fell I chuckled looking down at him
"Imma be strong for you always baby boy and I promise that" I said rocking back and forth
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A couple of days later...
I was out apartment shopping on this day and I only found two that I really liked
This day I left mani with my mom and told her I was gon pay her for watching him
I got into my car driving to my mom house when all of a sudden I got a call from a no caller ID making me screw my face up answering
"Hello" I answered
"Yo Autumn" A person with a deep voice spoke
"Who's this?" I asked with a mug
"When you gon let me see my kid?" The person asked making me know exactly who it was
"Why all of a sudden you wanna see him? And no matter what the answer is gon be no" I said
"My son has to know me autumn weather you like it or not"he spoke with aggression
"Best to believe my son would know you and not the good things about you either Ace" I said
"ATTUMN STOP FUCKING PLAYING WITH ME AND LET ME SEE MY FUCKING SON" he shouted into the phone making me jump a little pulling over on the highway
"Ace imma tell you this one time and one time one cause I don't know WHO THE FUCK you think you talking to but I'm not she, Your not seeing Mani end of discussion" I said driving again
"Watch this" he said hanging up I rolled my eyes
I pulled up to my mom house after about 30 minutes it was now dark outside I parked getting out the car grabbing my house key walking through the door
"Khamani" I called out while taking off my shoes
I get no answer back making me think he's probably sleeping I took my bags walking upstairs to my room opening the door seeing Mani and Ace sitting at the end of my bed watching tv
"Mommy" Mani ran towards me with a smile
"Hey baby" I said giving him a kiss
"I missed you" He said as I dropped my bags picking him up
"I missed you more baby" I said kissing him on his cheek then putting him down looking over at ace
"Mani go to grandma real quick let me talk to your mom" Ace spoke making Mani mug him then look at me
"Go ahead" I said playing with his hair
"Okay mommy" he said walking out closing the door behind him
"I told you to let me see my kid right?" He asked standing up
"Ace please not today, I said No you should of respected that" I said not trying to argue
"Autumn stop fucking playing with me please" he said walking closer towards me
"No one's playing with you I'm not claiming you as my baby father you rapped me and got me pregnant now 4 years later you wanna pop up outta no where nigga bye" I said brushing him off
"Let's just put this behind us for mani" he said
"Nah I'm good" I said trying to walk away but he chocked me slamming my back against the wall
"This is what the fuck is going to happen you gon let me see both of my kids or something will happen to you okay? You hear me?" He whispered in my ear making his grip tighter word by word
"Ace I can't breathe" I tried my hardest not to cry
"Did you hear what the fuck I just said to you?" He asked I nodded
"Words"
"Yes just please let go" I said he did as told dropping me I stared coughing
"Now we gon get in this bed as a family and sleep" he said laying down I was still in the Conner trying to breathe
"Get your ass up and go get our son"he semi shouted making me flinch
I got up walking into my mom room seeing mani on the bed with his iPad as soon as I walked in my mom snickered
"Should of let that man see his son"She mumbled
"Ma just stay outta it, come on Mani" I said picking him up
"Don't worry I'll stay outta it you will be out my house by next week"she said smiling I walked out walking down the hallway
"Mommy you hurt?" Mani asked touching my neck
"No, baby I'm okay"I said kissing his cheek we walked in the room seeing ace laying there on his phone
"About time" he said sitting up once I put mani down I walked into the bathroom cracking the door to change and wash my face
"Mommy" mani said once I walked out the bathroom reaching for me
"Yes baby?" I asked Kissing his lips
"I'm tired" he said laying his head down on my chest
"Yall blocking the TV Move"Ace spoke making both of us look at him like he's crazy
"Please don't talk like that went my sons around"I said rocking Mani side to side
"Whatever"he said I shook my head laying down with mani as he played with my ears to go to sleep
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This is not even all of the things that happened to me..