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Kim and gotten everyone rounded up and we have all started taking the pictures.
Now me, Kim, Kanye, Kourtney and Khloe were all taking a picture
"Perfect, just give me a second to change the memory card" the photographer said before walking away
"Ok I know I'm not supposed to know but I do, and I'm so excited for you" Kourtney said turning to Kim
"What, what's going on?" Khloe said
"Kim's pregnant!"
"Oh my god, congratulations" Khloe said hugging Kim
"Guys I'm not pregnant" Kim said
"What? What do you mean? Your not pregnant?" Khloe said
"But we found your test in the trash if your not pregnant then - " she said and then made eye contact with me, I could tell it had just clicked inside her head. I shock my head a tiny bit, basically saying, not here. She took a deep breath before saying her next line
"It's because I am" she said slowly
"Whoa your pregnant?" Kanye gasped
"What are you talking about?" Me and Kim said together
"Yes...... I am having a baby" she said nodding her head "and I didn't want to say anything because it's your day, I didn't want to steal your thunder"
"So you told everyone I was pregnant?"
"Who's the father?" Khloe said
"Yeah" Kim agreed
"I can't say" she said slowly
"Why?" Khloe and Kim said
"I can't say because..... he's famous"
"Oh my god who is it?" Khloe said
"Come on Kourtney you have to tell us" Kim said
"Okay okay. It's.... Travis barker"
"Travis barker!" Kim yelled
"Ok, I'm back" the photographer said, coming back after getting a new memory card.
"I think me and Kadie are just going to take a five minute break, maybe get some shots of the bride and groom" Kourtney said, she then grabbed my hand and pulled me away, we ended up down the side of Kim's house, away from prying ears.
"Oh my god!" She said turning to face me
"Thank you for doing that, I just can't deal with this quite yet"
"So instead you told me Kim was pregnant?"
"You said that she was, I just didn't disagree with you"
"Sneaky" Kourtney said "but oh my god, your finally pregnant!"
"Oh by the way, travis barker?"
"Ugh I know. I could only think of two names him and James brolin. And then I remembered he's like ninety so"
"Is he the guy who gave you that hickey?"
"No, I've only met travis like once in my life, the only reason his name was in my head was because his song was on the radio on the way over here. But why aren't you telling anyone that your pregnant? I mean your married, the next step after marriage is either kids or divorce"
"I know, but me and Sebastians schedules are jammed packed for the next like two years, I can't get pregnant. We had agreed to have kids in two to three years"
"You haven't told Sebastian yet?"
"Guys why are you over here?" Kylie said as she came the corner
"We were just returning now" I said, walking out of the shadows me and Kourtney were hiding in, and over to Kylie.
Later on it was just me and Kim sitting at a table, as everyone else was either dancing or getting food.
"Can you believe Kourtney got pregnant?" She said to me
"Maybe let's not talk about that now" I said
"This is so huge!"
"Sure, but as big as your five year wedding anniversary , I don't think so"
"Between me and you" she sighed "In this day and age, how dumb do you have to be to get pregnant?"
"Hey sometimes you can do everything right, take everything that your supposed to take, but what happens if she forgot to take her birth control pill by one day?"
"Well I talked to her, and she's definitely gonna have this baby, you know she said she's going to raise it on her own"
"Well I think it's very brave of her"
"Maybe but, she's in the middle of a big career, I don't think she realises how hard it's going to be"
"Maybe she hasn't thought it through that much" I said becoming emotional
"Well there's a lot to think about. I mean how's she going to handle juggling this with work? She just started poosh"
"I know"
"Are you ok?" Kim asked
"Mhmh, I'm just thinking of Kourtney, poor knocked up Kourtney" I said, being pregnant was not helping my emotional state
"Champagne?" I server said coming over to us
"Oh yes please thank you" I said taking one off his tray and taking a sip, I was about to swallow it when I remembered I'm not supposed to drink, so I turned away from Kim as subtlety as I could and spit the champagne back into the glass, it looked more like a hose how the champagne was coming out of my mouth and into the glass. I turned back around and Kim was stareing at me, a throughly confused look on her face
"You know that's actually how the french drink it" I said. He mouth dropped open and it clicked inside of her.
"You!" She gasped
"I just got off the phone with my lover travis barker" Kourtney said, sitting down next to Kim
"Oh really?" Kim said
"Yes and apparently he's in a relationship, but he said he would leave her for me, so I said 'travis, are you sure?' And he said - "
"Kadies actually the ones who's pregnant?" Kim said, interrupting her
"What!" Kourtney yelled "why bother" she said, accepting her defeat
"How do you feel?" Kim said turning to me
"I don't know, I don't know how I feel. This is all happening so fast. I have to make all these decisions that I don't want to make" I said quickly
"Calm down, maybe your not pregnant" Kourtney said
"What?"
"When I got pregnant with my kids I took that test like five times. It was just to make sure"
"Yeah, maybe it's a false positive. Are you sure you peed on the stick right?" Kim said
"How many ways are there to pee on a stick?"
"I'm just saying" Kourtney continue "don't freak out until you're one hundred percent sure"
"Alright, I'll take it again when I get home"
"You gotta take it now, come on do it as a present to me" Kim said. I looked between there pleading faces before signing
"Okay"
"I'll run out and get you one" Kourtney said sliding her napkin to the side and standing up.
"Great, we'll see you in a little bit" Kim said
"Thank you so much Kourtney" I said before she ran off to the shop down the road. I ended up dancing with Sebastian to pass the time.
"What's wrong doll?" He asked, knowing straight away that something was wrong
"Nothing"
"I know you better than that, tell me"
"Honestly there's nothing wrong, I'm just tired from all the work"
"Well then once this is over we'll go home and watch movies in the new theatre, they installed the chairs the other day"
"That sound really great" I smiled. I felt really bad lying to him, but I don't want to tell him something this huge in the middle of Kim's wedding anniversary.
"Kadie" Kim said tapping my shoulder "Kourtneys back"
****
"How much longer?" I said, pacing back and forth. I had taken the test and now we are all waiting for the results
"Thirty seconds" Kourtney said checking her phone. She had also found a little camera and was filming, not for keeping up with the Kardashian's, but just for us to look back on as a memory. She had just leaned it against the table so it was looking at us, but you wouldn't even notice it.
"Did I miss it!" Kim said running back into the rooms and closing the door behind her, she had to run off because Chicago had wanted her for something.
"Nope" I said. I was pacing back and fort, taking deep breaths trying to calm myself down and not freak out. I'm not even letting my mind think about what my next move would be if I'm actually pregnant. Like my career? I'm about to release an album. How would I do a world tour with a newborn baby?
We all just stood in silence for a moment. Kourtney was sitting on the toilet seat lid looking at the test, Kim was standing by the door, looking in between me and Kourtney. I was pacing back and fort and running my hand along my arm, a habit I've picked up whenever I'm nervous.
"Kaide, I want you to know" Kim said, coming over to me and putting her hands on my arms
"If it's positive, we're gonna be there for you. If you need to randomly drop them over we'll gladly take them. If you and Sebastian have to work twenty four hour shifts for a week, which I know is pretty common in your line of work" she said, smiling "we'll be more than happy to take him or her for a week. Everyone will give you all the tips you need, and you know we'll definitely spoil them"
"Thank you Kim" I said pulling her into a hug, I'm was eternally grateful for my sisters.
"It's time" Kourtney said standing up.
"Go ahead kadie" Kim said, letting go of me so I could walk over to were Kourtney had the stick. I began walking over before I said
"You know what I can't, I can't, I can't look at it" I said waving my hands "somebody else tell Me" I said walking back over to the other side of the bathroom
"Okay" Kourtney said picking it up.
"Okay" I repeated. The silence as Kourtney looked at it and Kim held my hand seamed to last a lifetime. It felt like seconds were dragging into minutes, and minutes were dragging into hours, until Kourtney finally began speaking
"It's negative" she said
"What?" I said spinning around to look at her
"It's negative" she said again
"Oh" I said slowly "oh. Well there you go. Whew" I said turning away "that's great, that is really great news" I said, before breathing in and out deeply
"You know because for the whole... not being ready and not having enough time and all that" I said, feeling all the emotions crash down at once
"Wow, this is so just the way that this was supposed to be" I said, trying to stabilise my breathing but failing
"Well great" Kim said uncertainly.
"Here hun" Kourtney said, handing me a tissue, as tears had started to slowly pour down my face without me realising it
"It's gone, god this is so stupid" I said wipeing my eyes "how could I be upset over something I never actually had" I said. I hadn't even realised that I actually wanted this until Kourtney said it's negative. I guess without realising it, I had already started envisioning the baby and what they would look like, how I would tell Sebastian, what we would call them, how we would decorate their room. But now it's gone, all gone.
"It's really negative?" I said, through tears
"No, it's positive" she said
"What?" I said, my emotions all over the place
"It's positive, it's not negative, it's positive" Kourtney said, smiling
"Are you sure?"
"Well yeah I lied before" she said handing me the positive pregnancy test
"Oh my god" Kim said, she too was smiling madly
"Now you know how you really feel about it"
"That's a risky little game" I said, wipeing away the now happy tears
"Your gonna have a baby!" Kim squealed, throwing her arms around me
"I'm gonna have a baby" I said. Still staring down at the test as Kim hugged me "I'm going to have a baby" I whispered again.