The sound of the piano echoes in my head as I started playing it with my eyes closed. I already memorized the piece but I keep on doing mistakes. I almost spent 3 hours playing the piano but I don't have a progress. I can't even finish a single piece
"Chaeryeong called me, she said Jaemin refused to leave"
I slammed the piano which made an unpleasant noise. I took a deep breath and started playing again, thinking that I will manage to finish a song this time when Haechan stopped me
"You've been avoiding him for 3 days. He doesn't even know that you're not there. You're making him stupid. We're leaving tomorrow, are you sure you're going to waste time to be with him before you leave?" he seriously asked
"Tell him to leave---"
"Ryujin-ah--"
""Thank you for saving my father's life" Do you think I will waste my time just to hear that from him?" I said with a poker face which made him speechless. He slowly let go of my hand and stepped back
"Why are you acting like Jaemin is that kind of person?" he disappointedly said and left
I'm currently staying at a vacant mansion here in District 9. I'm staying here for almost 3 days now just to avoid Jaemin because I know that he will come to me once he found out about his dad. I'm sure that Ji Eun told him what I did that night just to save his dad and Mr. Shin
Just thinking about it makes me want to just disappear
"Ryujin-ah, let's eat" Dad entered the music hall with some snacks which made me smile
He was supposed to leave after the trial but I asked him to stay because I feel like I need him. He agreed to stay until I leave which I am grateful about
"Here"
We started eating strawberry ice cream. When I took the first scoop of ice cream, I immediately remembered Beomgyu. It's been a long time since the last time we eat our favorite ice cream together
"You're leaving tomorrow..." Dad suddenly said "How long are you going to stay there?"
I smiled as I recognized the sadness on his voice
"I don't know, maybe until I completely heal from all of this"
"I understand, take your time. Enjoy the life abroad" he said and patted my head
My dad stayed at the rural area of Daegu along with his childhood friend who's blind. He voluntarily took care of him because that friend of him lives alone. His house was just next to him that's why he can easily go to his house
My dad never spent any single penny from the money that Mrs. Kim gave for my mom's organ. He started a life there from zero which amazed me and also made me feel sad. I got mad at him for no reason
He also explained the reason to me why he abandoned me. He wants me to meet my real family that's why he had an agreement with Mrs. Lee and Jin. Dad knows me well and he knew that I will never take the money unless I worked hard for it that's why they plotted everything
They successfully did it. They managed to bring me closer to the people who plays an important role in my life but my dad have a lot of regrets. He didn't expect Mr. Kim to be a jerk. He didn't expect me to be hurt like this. And that's what he regrets the most
Just like him, I have a lot of regrets too. A lot. But that regrets was nothing compared to the beautiful things and experiences that I've got when I get here
The Lee Family, especially Haechan...
Mrs. Kim, Haruto, Taehyung, Younghoon...
Yeji,Hyunjin, and Inyeop...
Sunghoon and Jay...
Yoona, Yuna, and Lia...
Kim Ji Eun, my older sister...
And lastly, Jaemin...
The guy I love the most
I got into this place unexpectedly. I experienced a fairytale-like story. I think I got attached too much but I need to wake up now. I need to wake up from this dream and face the reality
A reality where a world without some of them is waiting for me
"It's already 7PM, are you sure you don't want to give them the letters by yourself? You should say goodbye to them personally" my dad said
I badly want to. I badly want to give them a hug one by one, thank them for being my friend, and tell them that I love them. But I don't think I can handle seeing their reactions. I don't think I can handle hearing them say "Please, don't leave". I don't think I can still leave this place once I face them
These kind of things are easy for me before. I can easily abandon people that is important to me but everything has changed. I became a soft-hearted person and it was all because of them, especially him. They changed me. He changed me and I don't know if I should be grateful about that. But one thing is for sure...
I need to bring back at least the half of me before...
I changed too much to the point that simple things hurt me easily now
Dad later on left to give the letters that I wrote to each of the important people I met here in District 9. I wrote all of that last night and I don't think the word "pain" can describe how painful it was writing those letters while memories from the past flashing on my mind
Especially when I wrote the letter for Jaemin. I almost can't breathe because of crying too much. The thought of him waiting for me without knowing that I'm already gone is beyond pain. I don't have the guts to say everything to his face because I knew that he's my weakness. I might immediately forget about leaving and consider staying here when I see him cry
• • • • •
When 12PM comes, I decided to prepare. Our flight is 1:00 AM. Haechan was already waiting downstairs along with Yoon Su. Yoon Su will be joining us to accompany me. That's so kind of him even though I know that he's instructed to report everything that I'm doing to the Moon Family
Speaking of the Moon Family, we haven't met since that night when the higher ups came. I don't want to meet them either. They don't even know that I'm staying here. It was Jin and his fiancee who lended me this mansion. I think this is their resthouse here in Seoul
"We still have some time, why don't you look around for the last time. For sure you're going to miss this place" Haechan said when he entered the room carrying his car keys
"They might see me--"
"It's already late, do you really think they're still roaming outside? Jaemin already go home" he said
He has a point
I looked at myself in the mirror and smiled a little but the genuineness wasn't there. I want to smile for the last time before leaving this place
A genuine smile at least...
I stood up and grabbed my coat and my mom's camera. Dad fixed this for me
"Don't follow me, I want to be alone" I said to Haechan before going outside
Strong wind welcomed me as I stepped out of the mansion for the first time in three days. It's already late but the road was still visible, thanks to the lamppost
I count my every steps as I walk forward
"156 steps to reach the mansion of the Hwang Family" I whispered and took a picture of their mansion
Yeji and Hyunjin, the inseparable twins
Our start wasn't good. Mrs. Hwang welcomed me in this neighborhood with her trashy attitude and treated me like I'm sort of a virus that will cause pandemic here in District 9
Hwang Hyunjin, the guy who I rarely interact with but amazed me. He never did anything bad to me, he's just always silent and listening. Always take her sister's side no matter what because he knew that they only have each other. Yeji is so lucky to have him
Hwang Yeji, the brat who unexpectedly became a friend of mine. She treated me like a sh*t just like her mom when I first came here. But as the time goes by, she became a friend of mine and changed. She's now one of the people who's willing to fight for me. Maybe because I saved her? Well, I don't even know why I saved her that time. I should've let her hit by that baseball bat
Just kidding
Yeji is an amazing person. She's one of the people who makes my experience here in District 9 more memorable. I will definitely miss her...
Uri Light Fury
And lastly, Mr. Hwang...
The man who received my mom's organ who helped him to extend his life. Also one of the man who caused her death. I never had any good memories with him. All of them were bad hut the fact that he's Yeji and Hyunjin's father made me think that probably someday, when I already heal from all of this... I might find a way to forgive him even though he never asked for my forgiveness
As of now, I hope he learns his mistake in the prison and change for the sake of his twins
My heart is full of anger in pain right now but still, I wish... When I came back, I will see this family be reunited again
Thank you for memorable memories, Hwang Family
I left the picture of their mansion on their mail box before I decided to move forward
"45 steps from the Hwang's Mansion is the mansion of the pure souls, the Park Family"
I took a picture of their mansion and smiled
Mr. And Mrs. Park, the couple who never showed anything to me but kindness. The doctor couple who has an ideal family that I always wanted to have. The couple who has a good relationship with their children. The couple who's supportive of me and Sunghoon, thinking that we have a chance to be together. I always find it funny whenever I look back to that time when I got hospitalized. They're trying their best to convince me that Sunghoon and I really suits each other. Little did they know, my heart already belongs to someone...
Jay, our pride. He's my first ever celebrity friend. We're not that close at first but as the time goes by, we became unexpectedly close because of Beomgyu. Jay always find a way to defend me infront of other people who often misunderstood me. Jay has a bright future ahead waiting for him. I'm sure about that. His humbleness will bring him to the top
And lastly, Sunghoon. The flower boy of District 9. The reason why a lot of girls here in District 9 hates me. The guy who I'm always comfortable with. The guy who told me he likes me but still helped me to be with Jaemin. The guy who's always been supportive of me and Jaemin...
Sunghoon is a great guy. The title of being everyone's ideal guy really suits him. When he told me that he likes me, I thought he's just joking not until when I heard it from his parents. I thought it was odd that he's supporting me and Jaemin despite of him having feelings for me but then, I realized that maybe, he's just pure and kind. I don't even know when he started to like me and why he likes me but one thing is for sure... His intentions are always pure. He respects Jaemin as his best friend. And he respects me as the girl he likes...
Being the girl Park Sunghoon once liked is probably one of the biggest flex I can have
Just kidding
Park Family has a clear bring future ahead of them. When I came back, I wish to see them being more happy than they are as of now. This family deserves nothing but happiness and prosperity
I left the picture inside their mail box and observed the mansion for the last time
"Thanks for the good memories..."
As I move forward, bad memories started to flash on my mind. There's a lot of good memories to think but the bad memories seems to be clearer to remember than the good ones
"35 steps from the Park's mansion, the Kim Family's mansion"
I observed the place and realized that it's been a long time since the last time I get here. I took a picture of the mansion and stared at it for a long time
"This was supposed to be my home too..." I whispered while tears are forming on the corner of my eyes
Mrs. Kim, the sophisticated and elegant lady who has a dignity that no one can break. She's like my mom
Taehyung, the best brother I never had. I really hope that someday, when the time is right, he will find his way back to Yoona's arms. I don't want their baby to grow up with a broken family just like me
Younghoon, the best brother I never had too. The guy who's always full of himself but a protective brother. He's one of the people I am most comfortable with and one of the people who treated me right
Haruto, my half brother... He's probably the only reason for me to be happy when I found out that Mr. Kim is my father. But I never expressed it. Not even once. I'm too broke to express how happy I am to find out that he's my brother. It's a shame that I will never had the chance to say goodbye to him personally
Ji Eun, my twin sister... Just like the others, we never had a good start because of some circumstances and up until now, we're still not in a good terms. But I really hope that someday, we will find a way to love and treat each other as sisters. I know that that's what our mom wants
And lastly, Mr. Kim... My biological father. The memory of him crying when he first saw me was still clear on my mind. At first I thought he's being emotional that time because he see Ji Eun in me. But now that I already know everything. It makes sense that he reacted that way. We had a good start but didn't had a good ending. I want to forgive him too as much as I wanted to forgive Mr. Na and Mr. Hwang but it's so hard. It's really hard and I don't think I can handle seeing him again. Knowing that the reason why my mom, Ji Eun, and I have to be separated because of his dumb decisions makes me want to think that he never existed
But after all, no matter how I feel about him, he's still my father. I just hope that someday, when I learned to forgive again, he was still there and alive
I smiled and took a picture of the mansion twice. I left one picture on their mail box and kept the other one
"Be a happy family again" I said before I moved forward
I started to walk slowly when I realized where I am going next. The lights from their mansion wasn't on because no one was staying there anymore
"45....46....47....48....49....50"
I took a deep breath and held my heart. My emotions are eating me again. I can't understand why I am like this when it comes to him
Maybe because I loved him too much
"5-50 steps from the Lee's Mansion, the mansion of Na Family"
I stared at Jaemin's window
"My love" I whispered and took a picture twice while tears are slowly falling from my eyes
Mrs. Na, the perfect wife who lived a miserable life for choosing the wrong man. Who doesn't want anything but for her children to be happy and free. Never judged me despite of my past and treated me like her daughter too. What a shame that I can't visit her. I want to apologize to her for the decision that I am going to make because I'm sure that it will hurt her son so much. I just hope that she will forgive me for leaving her son at the worst possible time
Yoona, one of the people I admire the most. The first ever member of elite who left her luxury life for her own happiness and freedom. An independent woman indeed. I just hope that she will have the courage too to tell Taehyung about their baby. I want to see them happy and build a happy family that everyone desperately wants to have. As a woman who grew up in a messy family, I hope she will realize that we don't have all the time in the world. I don't want her to miss the chance to be with Taehyung again
Lia, the girl who I thought Sunwoo cheated on me with. We're not that close but whenever she has the chance, she always show me kindness and care
Yuna, the naughty maknae of Na Family. Willing to fight everyone who hurts her brother and sisters. A girl who has a bright future ahead of her
Mr. Na, our biggest nightmare. Never had any good memories with him. I can't think of anything but bad memories when I hear his name before. But now that I already know his untold stories, I can't help but to think that pain can really turn people into something that no one will expect. Just like my dad, I don't think I can handle seeing him again. I want to believe that he never existed but it's hard thinking that all the pain that I'm feeling right now was all because of him
Forgiving him was probably the hardest thing to do. Whenever I think that I lowered myself for him makes me want to disappear in this world. That's probably the dumbest thing that I did. But I didn't actually did it for him
I did it for Jaemin...
Jaemin, the guy who I met unexpectedly at the most unexpected time. The guy who made me fall in love with him in just a matter of five seconds
We never had a good start and I don't think we will have a good ending too. Chances of having a happy future with him seems impossible. But deep inside my heart... I'm hoping. I'm hoping that it will end with us. I don't think I will never recognize the definition of love again if it's not him
How I wish we were meant to be
I refused to stay there any longer because I'm just making it hard for me to leave. I left the picture on their mail box and kept the other one
And my last destination,
"100 steps away from the mansion of Na Family, the garden"
I left my camera on the bench and slowly approached the fountain. I looked at the statue of three child where there's a girl in the middle
It feels so strange now that I found that this statue is my mom when she was a child
"You grant one of my wishes before but failed the other one..." I said while looking at my mom's statue
She grant my 2nd wish, I found my happiness which is Jaemin and the other Elites
But she failed the first one, I earned money but I never had the chance to travel the whole world with Beomgyu
"Now, I think it's time for you to grant my wish that you failed to grant before..."
I brought out the ring that Jaemin gave me and gently touched it. I closed my eyes and wiped my tears
"When the time is right, let us cross our paths again" I whispered and threw the ring
I think I never learned my lesson, I used too much force again just like before. But this time, it didn't landed on the hand of my mom's statue. Instead, it fell on the ground and roll outside the garden. I didn't hesitated and immediately tried to get it when I bumped into someone
"R-Ryujin-ah?"
It's Sunghoon
My heart started to beat very fast when I realized that he's not alone
He's with the Elites
I refused to look at them and immediately took out my phone to call Yoon Su. Gladly, he immediately picked it up
"Come and pick me up at the entrance, now!" I said and tried my best to walk away when someone held my wrist to stop me
I don't need to look back to see who it is. Just by his scent, I can tell that it's him
"Ryujin-ah, where have you been? We're all looking for you everywhere" Yeji asked
"You're making us worry too much. You disappeared for three days" Younghoon added
"Noona, are you okay?" Haruto asked
They're all looks so worried which warms and breaks my heart at the same time. F*ck! Why are they here? This is not part of my plan
"Is it true that you're leaving?" Jaemin suddenly asked which made me stop. The tone of his voice was so cold. I don't know who told him but I'm sure that it's Jin
"What do you mean that she's leaving?" Taehyung asked
"O-Oppa, what are you saying?"
They're all confused
"Let me go" I said and was about to remove his hand when he suddenly hugged me from my back and rest his forehead on my shoulder. I bit my lips to stop myself from crying when I heard his sigh. He sounded very tired
"Are you really going to leave?" he asked once again
F*ck! How am I going to answer him?
Yoon Su, Haechan where are you?
"Yes, she is leaving"
Haechan suddenly came out of nowhere carrying my camera on his shoulder with our passports on his other hand. I don't know if I should be relieved that he's now here or not
"What do you mean?" Sunghoon asked
"She's leaving with me and Yoon Su" he answered which made everyone's jaw dropped
"What!?" Sunghoon angrily asked and looked at me "Is that true, Ryujin?" he frustratedly asked but I refused to answer and tried to remove Jaemin's arm again but he refused to let me go
F*ck! Don't make this hard for the both of us
"Are you really planning to leave without telling me?" he asked like a child. But just like before, I refused to answer
"Let me go now, we might miss our flight" I was about to remove his arms when he suddenly kneeled infront of me which made my jaw dropped
"Can you please stay?" he asked, trying to stop his tears from falling while looking at my eyes. He refused to show any emotion but I can tell how much he's hurting. He doesn't have to show any emotions for me to feel because deep inside, I knew that he's hurting as much as I do
Please get up...
"Doing this will not change my decision so please..."
"But I need you... I need you the most right now" he said and held my hand weakly
God knows how much I need you in my life, Jaemin-ah. But we both need a break
"I don't need you as much as you need me so please let me go. Stop being selfish" I feel like I am going to give up anytime. Seeing him cry and kneel infront of me is too much for me to handle
I shouldn't have go outside
"You're lying, I can tell just by looking at your eyes" he said and tried to flash a smile "Can you please be honest? Tell me, do you really want to leave? Or they're just forcing you?" He asked
"No one forced her to come with me---" Haechan was about to approach me when Sunghoon punched him
"Stop it!" I shouted and immediately approached Haechan to help him
"Are you okay?" I worriedly asked
"I'm fine---"
"I warned you to don't do the same mistake, Haechan-ah. I f*cking warned you!" Sunghoon shouted to his face
It's my first time seeing Sunghoon mad like this. I don't know where he's coming from but it looks like he misunderstood us
"It's not exactly like what you think, Haechan have nothing to do about my deci---"
"Wake up, Ryujin! He's stealing you from Jaemin just like what he did to Ji Eun before---"
"It's not like that!" I shouted which made them silent. I hid Haechan behind me while holding his wrist and looked at them one by one like they're our enemy
"It was my decision to leave!"
"Then tell me why, I'm willing to listen, Ryujin-ah" Jaemin approached me calmly "Tell me why do you have to abandon me?" he tried to hold my hand but avoided him and stepped back
"You don't understand, Jaemin-ah"
"It's because you're not letting me understand you"
He's still calm. No, more likely he's too tired to show any emotions
"I want to leave everything and everyone that hurts me here. I f*cking want to start again. I want to bring my old self back. The old me who's immune to pain. I want to leave this world that did nothing but to hurt and destroy me---"
"But the world you're about to leave has me in it"
I blinked twice. His words hit me like a voltage. The tears started to fall from my eyes when I saw the pain in his eyes while saying those words
"Yes, I made mistakes and I hurted you but is that enough reason for you to forget and leave me?" he asked and started to sob
"I'm hurting too, Ryujin-ah. I'm f*cking hurting too! All of this mess that has been happening right now is killing me but I don't care about all of that as long as I'm with you"
"But I can't handle it anymore, Jaemin-ah. It all happened all at once. I'm mentally and physically exhausted. I'm sorry but I'm not as strong as you"
"I'm not strong like you think, Ryujin-ah. I'm strong because of you and losing you is like losing myself too" his voice cracks and he started to break down "Why do it seems like it's easy for you to leave me?"
I couldn't hold it anymore, I started sobbing too. You can't hear anything but our cries. The elites are just silently watching us because they knew that this is something that only Jaemin and I should fix
"R-Ryu, end this in a good way. Don't do something that you will regret later" Haechan said and gently wiped my tears using his hand
"It hurts so bad, I want to leave now" I begged
Haechan took a deep breath and held my hand
"I understand, you already had enough. Let's leave" he said, trying to comfort me. He was about to drag me when Jaemin spoke
"Does letting you leave will make you happy?" Jaemin suddenly asked so I slowly faced him and realized that he's now standing infront of me. His eyes were so red and looks tired of everything. This is the weakest version of him that I saw
And it's breaking my heart
"Y-Yes"
He wiped his tears and smiled
"D-Does living in a whole new world without me in it will make you happy?" he asked
We both know it will never make me happy
"Answer me, Ryujin-ah"
I took a deep breath and looked at him
"Y-Yes"
He nodded as he heard my answer. He wiped his tears using the back of his hand and smiled. He slowly held my face and observed it from my forehead to chin like he's memorizing every single details of it
"I never expected that I will still lose you after all the sacrifices I did" he said and wiped my tears when it fell down
"I-I'm sorry" I whispered
"Don't say that. It's not your fault" he said and put some strand of my hair at the back of my ears "Do you want to end us?" he asked calmly which broke my heart
F*ck it!
The reason why I don't want to say goodbye to him personally is that I don't think I can handle breaking up with him. I don't have the courage
"Y-Yah! Jaemin, are you really going to let her go---"
"Answer me, Ryujin-ah" he asked while looking directly at my eyes but I can't answer him and started to cry instead
He nodded and wiped my tears again using his hand
"Fine, I'll do it for you" he said
"Oppa!"
"Jaemin!"
The elites started to protest but Taehyung stopped them and asked them to let us end this well
Jaemin bit his lips and looked at our hands together while trying to stop his tears from falling. He later on looked at me in the eyes and smiled
"L-Let's..." he tried to catch his breath and flashed a smile "L-Let's break up, Ryujin-ah"
I held my chest and started to cry when I heard it from his mouth. I covered my mouth and started to sob
He's still selfless until the end
He ended us for me...
I later on felt his arms around me. He gently caress my back, trying to comfort me but it doesn't lessen the pain knowing that this will be our last hug
"Just because I let you go doesn't mean I will stop loving you" he whispered while gently caressing my hair "I will wait for you"
"Oh God, please don't" I begged
Letting him end us for me was already too much. Letting him wait for me without any assurance if I will comeback was bullshit and selfish
"I will still wait" he whispered "No matter how long it takes, Ryujin-ah"
The reality started to sink in when his hug started to lighten. He's now preparing to let me go. For some reasons, I want to hug him longer. I want to stay
"If you ever find yourself in a position to fall in love again, come to me, I will cherish you like now, Ryujin-ah" he said and leaned to give a gentle kiss on my forehead
That's probably the most comforting words I heard
I will, Jaemin-ah
I will come back to you when the time is right
I can't do anything but to cry, I'm aching all over. My heart felt tired and hurt
"You're now free to go, Ryujin-ah. Heal and be happy again" he said and slowly turned his back against me "I'm sorry but I have to go, I can't afford to watch you leave"
"Jaemin, are you f*cking serious?" Sunghoon watched him in disbelief
Jaemin holding me for the last time, then finally letting me go...
I will never forget this eyes of his, limpid as the river, as they bade me a final farewell
This is it
I really wish that there's still you when I found my way back home
"Leaving him at this moment of his life will be the biggest mistake you've ever made, Ryujin-ah. Keep that in your mind" Lia seriously said before she followed her brother
"You don't deserve my brother" Yuna said while tears are constantly falling from her eyes
I already expected to hear this but I didn't expect it to be this painful. I know, this is the biggest mistake I've ever made but I also know that leaving is for my own good
"I wish nothing but happiness for you, Ryujin-ah" Sunghoon said and patted my head before he followed Jaemin
Yeji on the other hand just left like she's disappointed that I attempted to leave without telling them
Taehyung, Younghoon, and Haruto stayed. They gave me a tight hug and tried to comfort me. Their presence made me feel better. There's no signs of judgment and doubts
"Don't mind what Lia and Yuna said, Jaemin will be okay" Taehyung said
"I really hope you'll stay even just for now" Haruto whispered
"Are you sure about this, Ryujin-ah? Jaemin didn't lie when he said he needs you the most right now" Younghoon meaningfully said
"W-What do you mean?" I asked
"It's nothing, it's just that it's not the perfect time for you to leave after everything that happened" Taehyung answered
"R-Ryujin-ah!"
Our conversation got interrupted when Yoon Su came. He worriedly checked on me before he asked what happened. I didn't bother to tell him everything that happened because my heart is so weak to recall what just happened
"I saw Jaemin, it seems like you two already met. He's crying alone there"
He's crying alone there
That phrase makes me want to stay. Knowing that him crying alone will be more often once I leave makes me want to question the decisions I was about to make
But staying won't change a thing
We will still hurt each other
"Are we good to go?" Haechan asked
"Yeah"
"Ryujin, are you ready?" Haechan worriedly asked
Am I ready?
I don't know. I have no idea what world is waiting for me once I leave this place. All I know is that my heart and soul will be left here. But I knew that someday, I will slowly move on and heal
It might take a me a long time but I will surely comeback as a whole, with no pain in my heart, without anger and hatred, and with a strong heart who's willing to love the same person again
"I guess I have to leave now" I stepped closer to Taehyung and gave him a hug "I have a favor to ask, Taehyung-ah"
"What is it?"
"Please take care of Jaemin. If an opportunity comes where he can have the chance to love someone again, please help him to grab that opportunity without thinking of me" I smiled and patted his shoulder "We both know that Jaemin deserves better"
"You both deserve each other" he seriously said and held my hand "But I will"
"Thank you"
I later on hugged Younghoon. He started to cry and hugged me tight. He gently patted my back and caress my hair
"You should let us visit you at least once a year. My life is going to be boring when you're gone" he said which made me laugh
"Of course, you can visit me" I said and pinched his nose "You crying baby"
"Goodluck and win the competition" he added
"I will"
Haruto started to cry even before I approached him. I started to cry too when he hugged me so tight
"N-Noona!" he shouted while crying
"Don't cry, you're making me cry too" I said and wiped his tears
"I'm sorry, it's just that I regret hurting you too. I'm sorry that I'm one of the people who hurted you here--"
"Shh, don't say that. You're one of the best people I met here. Knowing that you're my brother is the best thing that ever happened to me here" I said and wiped his tears "I will always be your noona"
"And I will always be your handsome dongsaeng" he said which made me laugh
"So I guess, goodbye for now?" I said and smiled at them one by one "Tell Mrs. Kim and Ji Eun that I'm sorry that I didn't get to say goodbye to them personally"
"And tell dad... That I'm leaving for good and that he has to live until I came back if he wants me to forgive him"
"We will" Taehyung answered
We did a group hug before I entered the van. My smile immediately faded when I saw the red scarf that Jaemin gave to me. I grabbed it and slowly wrapped it around my neck
"We're good to go"
We're all silent the whole ride but I can feel Yoon Su and Haechan's secret glances at me. I was just staring outside the window. Jaemin's words are playing on my mind. The more I think about it, the more it becomes painful
It didn't took us that long until we reached the District 9's airport. My eyes widened when I saw Chaeryeong and Juyeon waving at the plane. Both and Haechan and I were shocked
"They're coming with us" Yoon Su said
Haechan immediately celebrated and ran to hug his sister and brother. I'm happy to know that they're coming with us but I can't express it well. I looked back thinking that one of them will come to see me off but I just disappointed myself
How I hope he's here
"Let's go?" Yoon Su said
I looked back for the last time as I stepped on the top of the stairs. You can clearly see the view of District 9 from here
District 9...
The neighborhood I never thought exists. A neighborhood where only top of tops of the society can live. A neighborhood that is full perfectionist and unpredictable people
But also the neighborhood that introduced me to the truth. The truth that has been uncovered after everything that happened. The neighborhood that introduced me to people who taught me how to love, to smile, to laugh, everything...
It's almost a year since I get here but the memories are still fresh on my mind. Starting from the day that I first stepped in this neighborhood until now
This place gave me happy and bad memories but after all, I'm grateful that I've been here. I'm grateful that I decided to go here because if I didn't, I don't think I would go this far
District 9...
Elites...
Moon Family...
And Jaemin...
It has been a roller coaster ride but I'm still grateful that I met all of you. Years after now, let's meet each other again with a smile on our faces
But for now,
This is our goodbye
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Author's Note:
I'm so proud of Jaemin in this chapter. I didn't make their break-up that much painful because I'm reserving it for the next chapters lol. Just kidding. By the way, if you're looking for a sign to watch Snowdrop then watch it now! Also, I'll try to update the next chapter as soon as I can because I want to end this story immediately. Stay safe and hydrated everyone!
SPOILER FOR THE NEXT CHAPTER:
They're not like the way you think they are lol
New Characters: Karina and Jeno