When he says he feels unloved (JJK imagine)
Happily singing away to one of the songs playing through your earphones, you made your way towards where your boyfriend was. He was in the playground, practicing football with his friends. You wanted to surprise him by coming to pick him up.
Today you were smiling unceasingly. You didn't know. You never smile that much. Maybe because finally you were doing something for your boyfriend? You were the type to not show your emotions easily. You weren't cold, you had feelings. Just, you were maybe too shy or felt weird to show your emotions. People referred to you as the 'girl with no emotions'. You never really made friends. The only one you had was your little puppy Max. He was the little ball of sunshine you had. He made you happy.
After you moved into your own apartment at the age of fifteen, things had been quite hard. But you found him all alone in one of the streets, crying, just like you. So you decided to keep him.
Walking in the playground, you saw him, Jungkook. He was there with his friends in a corner talking and laughing. His smile brought tingles in your heart. They didn't seem to notice you, seemingly busy with their talks. You slowly went up to them from behind. One of his friends spoke something making you halt.
"Hey Jungkook, how's your relationship with Y/n?" You being a bit interested in knowing the answer quietly listened. "Um, it's good. Like she is good with me. Just that, she's busy with her work. Because of that, she has turned even more cold with me. Sometimes I feel unloved. But I of course love her." He said with a sigh.
Your heart clenched. He felt that? You quickly went away from there with heavy steps. Getting inside your apartment, you took a shower.
He must be hungry. You thought and made some food for him. Not in the mood of having anything, you plated his food and kept it on the dinner table. Getting inside your bedroom, you laid your tired form on the mattress and sighed.
I have to talk to Jungkook.
Putting the covers over your body, you waited for him to come back. All this time, you were thinking about only one thing. Why did he feel unloved? Did you not love him enough? Or you didn't show it enough.
A noise cut off your thoughts. It was Jungkook, who was finally back. He sat down on the couch, well aware that you must be still in work. He sighed. What he said back in the playground to his friends was not completely a lie. You had surely become much colder than before. But whether he really felt unloved was a question. Why did I even say that, when I myself don't know if that's the truth?
Getting up, he went towards the kitchen to find some food, only to see his favourite food already prepared on the table. He smiled. She cares,she still cares. He quickly sat down and munched on his food merrily. He understood you were home already. But then, why were you not coming out to spend time with him? Quickly stuffing the rest of the delicious meal, he strode his way towards the bedroom. Peeking in, he saw you laying down on the bed.
He was confused. You never slept so early. Heck, you never came back from work this early as well. Were you sick? But then you must have told if you were. Freshening up in the bathroom, he changed into comfy clothes and sat down beside you. He was about to turn around and pick up his phone from the bedside when your voice startled him.
"Jungkook?" You called out, making him slightly jump. "Yes?" he answered back gently. "I wanna talk to you. Do you have time?" You asked cautiously. "Yes sure love. I am free. What is it?"
"Um, you said you feel unloved because of me, isn't it?" "Wha- how did you know?" He said perplexed.
"I went to the playground to meet up with you. I… wanted to surprise you. Instead, I myself got a surprise." A mirthless chuckle left your mouth.
"No no no babe, I didn't mean it that way. Even though you really have been busy with work and couldn't spend even ten minutes with me. It's not like I feel unloved, but just that… it's sad. Whenever we make plans, they generally get cancelled. It… hurts me."
His saddened expression broke your heart. Oh how bad you wanted to pull him closer to your chest and stroke his head, saying that you loved him a lot and didn't ever want him to leave. But then, you were unsure. Unsure of whether he will like that move of yours. Sighing, you decided to tell him your point of view.
"I am really sorry. But, are you willing to listen to my part of the story? My point of view?" He nodded, looking at you with expectant eyes.
"First of all… I want to sincerely apologise. Because of me, you have to feel such things. You get hurt, because of me. But you know? I was not like this in my childhood. I too had a bubbly, a clingy side in me, which liked to stay close to my m-mum, dad. But, they didn't require that self in me. I was seen as a mistake. They therefore forced me into thinking that I am not needed. Because of that, I always had to stay aware of fake people. That made me like this, emotionless, heartless. The bubbly girl in me never really got a chance to show up, so it got buried… deep down in me. Maybe it will never come out, or will take some more time to come out." You took a deep breath and continued.
"But remember this Jungkook. You were the first, and maybe the last person who ever could do anything to this heartless person. You gave me tingles in my heart, butterflies in my stomach. I never felt so euphoric with anyone but you. You are my life. I may not say 'I love you' to you frequently. But the few times I say it, I mean it. I mean it with everything I have. I c-can't afford to lose you. You actually are the only thing I have after Max. But still, if you really feel unloved because of me, then you can go. You can find someone who will cherish you the way you deserve. Who will express their feelings. Who will… take the first step in your relationship and not wait for you to do everything. It will hurt me of course, but I will manage. Your smile is what is the most precious thing for me. So if you tend to smile more with someone else, who will take proper care of you, you are free to go. I w-won't stop you. I will just consider that… I failed as a girlfriend."
By now, tears were already flowing down your eyes but you didn't care. You finally told him your feelings. You set him free. You won't hold him back anymore. If he feels that he doesn't want you, he can go.
Jungkook on the other hand was a crying mess. He felt your pain. Never did he intend on making you feel failed as a girlfriend. He loved you, he would never leave you. He couldn't stand the distance between your bodies anymore and quickly got on top of you. Taking your face in his hands, he made you aware of his presence on top of you. You looked at him with swollen eyes and a red nose. He buried his face in the crook of your neck and cried. Cried like never before.
"B-Baby, never say such things. I won't ever leave you. You are my everything as well. I love you too much to leave you. Don't ever say such things like you failed as a girlfriend. It's not you. It's me. I couldn't understand you. And it's alright if you don't take the first step in our relationship. I love you the way you are. You don't need to change." He could feel your hands going around his waist, and stroking his back gently.
"Ok. I understand you won't. Now stop crying. I can't stand you crying. It b-breaks my heart." He nodded before pulling you closer to him intaking your scent. He missed this. He missed you close to him. Your hands played with his hair as he snuggled up into your chest when you suddenly whined.
"Jungkook-ah it hurts. Get down me you muscle pig!" You exclaimed, making him chuckle. He got down off you and took your figure in his arms. Kissing the crown of your head, he sighed.
"I missed you."
"I missed you too. I am sorry that I couldn't spend time with you. I got a promotion today. That's why I was this busy the past month. But now, I am finally the head of my department. I get a week's rest." You said, making him surprised.
"You didn't tell me? Why? You could have told me!" He whined. "I wanted it to be a surprise for you…" you said, a bit unsure of his reaction. He smiled. "Oh really? It was the best surprise baby!" He exclaimed.
"I-I planned a v-vacation for us. Is it… ok for you?" You asked. "Of course! No problem at all! Baby you are the best! I love you!" You smiled at that. "I love you too." You said lightly. "Did you like the food I made?" You asked expecting a positive answer.
"That… oh well it ok? I didn't like it much though." He said acting like he actually didn't like it by making gagging faces. "Yah! It was good! I know it. I tasted!" You exclaimed. "I know I know baby. It was delicious. I was just teasing!" He said.
"I love you." His eyes widened. This was the first time you said it first.
"I love you too my little baby bun!"
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