Two weeks went by.
It was already February.
And Spencer couldn't bring herself to go to class.
She didn't know what was wrong, but she couldn't leave her bed.
Well, she could.
She went to the bathroom and her kitchen.
Visited the twins and harry, avoiding everyone else who'd want answers.
She called her grandfather and all.
Except go to class.
"Take all the time you need" Dumbledore said.
"I don't want time, I want to go to class!" she groaned, pacing around his office.
"You are completing your work, do not worry" he nodded.
Spencer worried. It was the only thing her body could do.
That and sleep.
Gods she was sleeping so much.
And she wasn't even sleeping good.
And when she wasn't sleeping Remus would avoid her.
"Need to shower"
No you don't.
"Early meeting, sorry"
What's with all the meetings?
"I fell asleep in my office"
When has that ever happened.
"Sorry I'm behind on work"
Since when? It's my job to help, let me.
"Can't stay"
Why?
"See you later"
When?
"Sorry I can't read with you tonight I'm so tired"
Why?
She'd smile and nod at him but all she wanted to do was hug him.
Kiss him.
"God dammit I need sex!" she groaned alone in her kitchen.
"Woah, TMI girl" Joshua said from the table.
"She's thinking to herself" Emily spoke.
"Why?"
"She's going to the ministry today" Emily explained.
"Oh" Joshua nodded.
Spencer took a bite off her toast before spitting it out.
"She can't keep anything down lately" Emily whispered.
"Just because you whisper doesn't mean I can't hear you" Spencer groaned.
There was a knock on her door.
Spencer opened it.
"You're here"
"Yes. Today is February 13... is it not?"
"No! It is it's just-"
"You don't want to go?" he asked, still outside her door.
"I do" she nodded.
"You are nervous."
"Yeah" she admitted.
He sighed before nodding.
"We can always go another day."
"Nope" she shook her head and grabbed her coat. "Today is the day" she nodded.
"Let's go then" he stepped out of the way.
The two walked in silence to Dumbledore's office, using his floo to go to the Ministry.
Once they arrived Spencer followed Snape. They got on the lift and waited for it to move.
Spencer almost fell forward but Snape grabbed her shoulder.
She smiled shyly before she faced forward.
"Level 2, Department of Magical Law Enforcement" the lift announced.
"This is us" Snape spoke.
"Yeah... this is us" Spencer whispered as she stared out of the lift.
A few seconds later Spencer stepped out and walked to a secretary.
"Hello" she spoke.
"How may I help you?" the secretary replied uninterested.
"I'd... I'd like to report a crime" she nodded.
"It being?" she asked.
"Um- well-"
"Spencer!" someone said from beside her. "What are you doing here?"
"Kings," she let out a deep breath, "hey" she hugged him.
"Hi" he chuckled, rubbing her back. "C'mon let's go to my office" he stepped back.
"You're Severus Snape right?" he lent out a hand.
"Indeed" he shook his hand, weirdly looking at him.
"Well I'll lead the way" he smiled.
"Oh we were just-" Spencer followed him.
"Karen isn't the nicest one around here," he whispered, "I'll sort you out" he opened his door.
"O-kay" Spencer walked in and sat down in front of his desk.
"So, what's up? I supposed you didn't come here for lunch" he chuckled.
"No," she laughed, "no."
"How can I help you Spence?"
"I think we should get another Auror" Snape spoke from the corner. "I feel that your relationship may cause some-"
"Relationship?" Spencer asked.
"Are you two not-"
"Jesus you got that from a hug?" Spencer asked.
Kingsley laughed.
"Fine. He knows you Spencer, wouldn't you prefer someone you don't know?" Snape asked.
"Actually Dumbledore told me you'd come... didn't tell me why but he did tell me to help" Kingsley answered. "If you'd prefer someone else I can lead you their way" he looked at Spencer.
"No it's- if I tell you less people will know" she shrugged. "Dumbledore always has a plan doesn't he" she smiled.
"So what's up" he smiled.
"Right... what is up" she chuckled.
Spencer looked up at Kingsley who was already staring at her.
"Okay yeah so uhm," she cleared her throat, "fifth year my defense Professor raped me from Christmas till the end of the year" she said.
"Oh" he sat back.
"Well I don't know if it constitutes as rape since- I mean she didn't exactly threaten-"
"Spencer" Snape said from the corner.
"Right sorry... I'd- Professor Snape and Dumbledore knew and- I mean they didn't know! I- ok basically when they found out I asked them not to tell anyone and they didn't but now I'm realizing that I should tell someone so- I just- something should happen right?" she asked him.
"Yeah something should happen" he replied as he looked at her then to Snape.
"Oh uhm- he's here to give you my memory I- he's seen mine... I didn't want to- if you could take it from him it would be better but if you need it from me then I can give it to you" she nodded. "Also moral support I guess" she shrugged.
"Right okay uhm," he looked around his desk, "well first I'm sorry" he looked up at her.
"Oh it's okay- well not okay but you know" she chuckled.
"S-sure" he nodded. "Let me get some files and I'll be back."
"Yep" she replied as he left his office.
"I believe you've freaked him out" Snape said once Kingsley closed his door.
"What was it" she sighed.
"You laughed" he answered.
"I did?"
"Yeah, try not to. People don't get why you laugh" he sat next to her. "You also stuttered... a lot, and when you do so you smile"
"I didn't mean to"
"I know" he nodded. "He's going to call Dumbledore, wanting to corroborate your story. This doesn't mean he doesn't believe you. He is just doing his job."
"Okay" she nodded.
"Are you okay?"
"Yeah" she nodded. "Are you?"
"Why are you asking if I'm okay?"
"I don't know, it's rude not to ask?"
"You don't need to worry about me" he pet her hand.
"Well then who's going to?" she looked at him.
Kingsley walked in, looking at their hands before closing the door and walking to his desk.
Snape let go of her hand and walked back to his corner.
"You can sit down you know" Spencer spoke.
"I'm okay" he said from his corner.
"Okay" she chuckled. She cleared her throat as she looked at Kingsley. "Sorry" she said.
"Why?"
"Oh because- never mind" she smiled and then stopped smiling.
"Okay well- I had to call Dumbledore and ask- not because I don't believe you but because-"
"I know" she nodded. "So?"
"Yes, he's willing to go on record"
"Record?" Spencer asked.
"Spencer you're telling me that a Professor at Hogwarts... a prestigious school groomed you for a year-"
"More like half" she murmured.
"One way or another this is going to slip through the cracks. I can get it out of the press, for now and that's a maybe, but some lowlife will see the file and talk. Which leads to it eventually being over the papers, Why didn't Dumbledore report it? Why didn't Snape? Why didn't you?"
"What are you saying?" Snape said through his teeth.
"I am not. saying. anything." Kingsley looked at Snape. "I am giving you all of the information; I don't want you to be blindsided if this goes south. They'll want a trial if she pleads not guilty" he looked back at Spencer. "What do you want to do?" he asked.
"Not Severus, not Albus... you."
"Can you give us the room please?" Spencer asked.
"I'll bring coffee" he nodded.
"I don't drink coffee" she shook her head.
"Tea?"
"Thanks" she smiled.
Kingsley left, making Snape sit next to her.
"So?"
"I can't eat," she looked up at him, "I'm still dehydrated. All I do is sleep. And I sleep next to someone and cast silencing charms so my nightmares don't wake them up."
"Spencer-"
"If this gets out everyone will know" she cut him off. "Not just you or Dumbledore or Fred or George or Professor Lupin... everyone"
"Yes" he nodded.
"I mean everyone," she stood up, "Harry. Hermione. Ron. Ginny. Bill. Charlie. Even fucking Percy... God, Molly and Arthur" she ran her hand through her hair.
"Spencer," he stood up, "breathe" he said.
"Everyone" she looked at him.
"I know" he agreed. "But right now you need to think about you" he spoke, placing a hand on her shoulder.
"I can't promise people won't find out. I can't promise that this will make you eat or sleep better. But I promise I'll be with you, every step of the way" he nodded.
"I want to throw up" she looked down.
"Literally?"
"No" she chuckled. "I can't throw up- I can't eat."
"Right"
"I'm just nauseous"
"Maybe you're just pregnant" he tried to joke.
"I wish" she rolled her eyes. "I mean- I didn't- I don't actually- Let's ignore I said that" she widened her eyes.
"Let's" he nodded.
"Tell me what to do... please" she whispered.
"You know I can't" he shook his head.
She sighed and nodded. "I know... I'm sorry" she frowned.
"Don't be" he shook his head.
"Can you hug me?" she asked.
"Yeah" he nodded before he brought her in for a hug. "Do what's best for you" he said. "Not what other people want."
"Whatever happens I'll take care of you... " he nodded.
"Thanks dad" she said into his chest.
Kingsley knocked on the door before entering. Giving Snape enough time to step away from Spencer and back into the corner.
"Here you go" he handed her the tea. "Didn't know what you wanted so I just brought tea" he shrugged, handing a cup to Snape.
"Right, do you need more time?" Kingsley asked Spencer.
"No I know what I want to do" she shook her head.
"And that is?"
She took in a deep breath.
"I want to press charges" she nodded.
Kingsley nodded in response, then he got to work.
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"Well thanks for coming with me" Spencer said as they stood in Dumbledore's office.
Snape nodded.
Spencer nodded back before heading to the door.
"Wait" he spoke. "Here" he handed her a small box.
"What is that?" she asked as she looked from the box to him.
"It's a box."
"I didn't get you anything" she shook her head.
"It would be weird if you did."
"Why?"
"Because I'm your professor."
"But you got me something"
"You're not special" he replied.
"Are you telling me there are other students who you have given presents to? What a scandal! I think I might go tell Dumbledore myself."
"Will you stop being so difficult and take the box?"
"It's February" she replied.
"Venus."
"Is this filled with glitter?" Spencer eyed it as she grabbed it.
"I'm not a child."
"I'm not either" she shrugged.
"I believe it's child-like behavior to turn everything I own to pink."
"Merlin who did that to you" she acted shocked.
"You're not funny."
"I'd like to think so" she said as she began to slowly open the box.
"Don't" Snape put his hand on it, closing it.
"So, it does have glitter?" she smiled.
"Open it when you're alone" he said before turning back and leaving.
Spencer smiled at his departure before heading back to her home.
Her smile was gone as she thought about what happened today.
She hated how it affected her mood.
Addison shouldn't be able to do that.
She shouldn't be able to still hurt her.
As she opened the door to her home she heard Remus from the bathroom.
"Hey" Remus said with his toothbrush in his mouth, looking at her from outside of the bathroom.
"Hi" Spencer said as she took off her coat.
"Where have you been?" he asked.
"Where have I been" she chuckled. "That's the question isn't it" she took her hat off.
"Yeah" he spit the toothpaste into the sink. "I came home and you weren't here."
"You came home" she repeated as she walked into the kitchen.
"Yeah I- what's wrong?" he asked.
"I need a shower" she drank her water.
"O-kay" he said as Spencer left the kitchen as soon as he went in.
Remus went to bed, confused at the interaction. He laid down and tried to read his book.
Spencer sat down on the floor, opening the box Snape gave her.
She stared at it for a few moments.
It was an old but beautiful watch, she smiled softly before putting it on.
She ran her index finger around the clock before getting in the shower.
Soon Spencer came into her room and changed.
He just stared at her, not saying a word.
"I'm going to Harry's" she spoke, not really wanting to talk.
"Okay" he nodded.
"Okay" she said before leaving.
Remus stared at the space she left, confused.
Spencer walked to the Gryffindor common room, feeling her wet hair lightly drip on her back.
She walked to Harry's bed, opening the curtain.
"Harry" she whispered.
"Spencer?" he murmured.
"Yeah."
"Are you okay? What's going on?" he grabbed his glasses that were placed next to his pillow and put them on.
"Nothing I just want to sleep with you tonight" she shrugged. "Make space."
"But your bed is bigger" he moved.
"So?"
"So why can't we sleep in your room" he yawned.
"Smaller bed means I get to hug you tighter" she replied.
"Mmh" he nodded tiredly. "Here put them on the table please" he said with eyes closed.
"You got it" she grabbed them.
"You sure you're okay?" he asked as he hugged her.
"Yeah, just wanted to sleep with you tonight" he answered.
"Okay" he yawned.
"Goodnight" she smiled.
"Night" he murmured before quickly falling back asleep.
Spencer heard Harry snore lightly as she closed her eyes.
She wasn't uncomfortable per se but something was bothering her.
She tried to ignore it for a couple of hours but it wasn't going away.
She knew what the issue was.
Harry wasn't Remus.
"Fuck me" she groaned in a whisper.
She slowly moved Harry off her body and walked back home.
She walked in and went to her kitchen, making herself some tea.
Soon Remus walked in.
"Hey" he spoke.
"Hi" she replied, her back to him.
"You're back."
"Mhm" she nodded.
"What's going on" he sighed.
"It's late Remus" she looked down.
"Not late enough" he rested his back against the wall.
"Fine. Then I don't want to do this now."
"Do what?"
"Argue Remus, Argue. I am mad, furious even!"
"Then talk to me Spencer! When have we ever not talked."
Spencer chuckled.
She spoke after a minute. "The full moon is tomorrow, Remus, go back to bed."
"Don't do that" he shook his head.
"I am not doing anything-"
"Just tell me what's going on"
"You tell me Remus!" she exclaimed. "You tell me" she repeated softer.
Remus' eyes widened, "What?"
"What's going on with you Remus?"
"This isn't about me" he shook his head.
"Right. It's about me" she laughed, turning back. "It's always about me."
"What the fuck is going on" he said confused.
"You Remus. You are what's going on" she shook her head.
"Spencer what-"
"Go to bed. We'll talk in a couple of days" she cut him off.
"Spence-"
"Please Remus" she whispered.
After a few seconds he nodded to her back, retreating to her room.
It took everything in him to leave.
But she'd do anything for her.
She stayed in her kitchen and stared out of her window for thirty minutes.
Remus had enough of guessing in his head as he stared at the wall.
He stood up and walked to her.
"Remus-"
"I can't sleep Spencer. I'm sick and tired of hearing you sighing so just fucking tell me-"
"Tough luck" she said through her teeth.
"Spencer what is going on for the love of-"
"Fine!" she sat up. "You! You are what's going on! It's been two weeks Remus. You're avoiding me. You won't fucking spend time with me, fuck- you barely even want to sleep next to me-"
"That's not true-"
"It is! Either you get home when I'm already asleep or you're in the shower. Shit sometimes you even have "too much work to do" which you don't even let me help you with."
"You leave before I wake up or right when I do" she continued.
"Where is this coming from? Why are we talking about me?"
"Because you're like this because of me and I fucking hate it."
"I'm not-"
"You are, Remus!" she shook her head.
"Will you let me fucking speak!"
"No because you'll lie!" she said exasperated. "Ever since you found out it hasn't been the same. You don't kiss me anymore, you won't touch me anymore-"
"Spencer-"
"It's fine Remus. It's fine. Just... I am tired of having to guess if you even want to be with me anymore" she sighed.
Remus took a step back. "Is that what this is about? You think that-"
"It's hot and cold with you," she played with her thumb, "I can't read your mind" she shook her head.
"I do-"
"Don't" she shook her head. "You're tired. I know you are just... let's not, okay? I'm sorry for yelling. I know with your-"
"Spencer-"
"Remus" she whispered, shaking her head.
He sighed.
"I went to the ministry today. Pressed charges with Kingsley" she nodded. "So, you can imagine the day I've had" she put her cup in the sink.
Remus finally understood why she was holding herself like that.
"Go to bed Remus" she shook her head before she went to the bathroom.
Leaving Remus in the kitchen.
He rubbed his eyes before heading back to their room, continuing to stare at the wall.
He heard as Spencer left the bathroom and go in the bedroom.
He quickly faced his back to the door. He could hear her sigh as she got in bed next to him, her back facing his.
Once Remus could tell she was asleep he faced her, wrapping his arm around her.
Spencer unconsciously placed her hand on top of his.
He kissed her shoulder and rested his head against the pillow, falling asleep to the beat of her heart.