unknown feelings
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The childhood part of my life wasn't very pretty
See, I was born and raised In the slums of the city
It was a one-room shack that slept ten other children beside me
We hardly had enough food or room to sleep
choso bears strong attachments to his brothers and is very overprotective of them. at first, he sided with Pseudo Geto's group because he wanted to avenge the death of his younger brothers, kechizu and eso.
"I can see me through you because you are like a lense for me."
It was hard times, needed somethin' to ease my troubled mind
Ooh, listen
My father didn't know the meaning of work
He disrespected mama and treated us like dirt
all choso wanted was to take care of his brothers , and he was bound to his responsibilities being the elder one.
he never thought there would be a day where he get to see his brothers dead.
I left home seeking a job that I never did find
Depressed and down-hearted, I took to cloud nine
I'm doing fine up here, on cloud nine
Listen, one more time
I'm doing fine up here, on cloud nine
Folks down there tell me
They say give yourself a chance, son
Don't let life pass you by (woo, woo, woo, woo)
But the world, around you, is a rat race
Where only the strongest survive
there was always discrimination in this world. there were good and bad like black and white. curses and jujutsu sorcerers.
cursed energy comes from negative emotion, curses have always existed alongside humanity.
curses are created when cursed energy leaks from humans as a result of their human emotion. cursed energy builds up like sediment until a cursed spirit takes form.
Populated locations such as schools and hospitals are hot spots for bearing curses because many negative emotions are associated with memories of those places.
This same concept applies humanity's collective fear and hatred.
an image of fear shared by the masses can create a powerful curse even if the subject is not real, such as famous monsters or ghosts.
it is the negative emotions that humanity directed at this image that causes it to manifest as a curse.
It's a dog-eat-dog world, and that ain't no lie (ain't no lie)
Listen, it ain't even safe no more to walk the streets at night
I'm doing fine on cloud nine
Let me tell you 'bout cloud nine (cloud nine)
You can be what you wanna be (cloud nine)
on the other hand, jujutsu sorcerers are individuals trained and employed by the two jujutsu educational in Japan to defend humanity from cursed spirits.
being a jujutsu sorcerer is a demanding occupation that requires one to constantly face fear-inducing curses and risk their life.
naturally, there are several drawbacks to working as a professional exorcist.
people who can't handle grotesque monsters and gruesome scenes quickly giving up on working as one.
as a result of their difficult life path, jujutsu sorcerers detach themselves from normal society and genuine compassion. this makes it difficult for some jujutsu sorcerers to feel compassion in any curse related situation.
curses = bad people
sorcerers = good people
why?
what did we do to deserve it?
You ain't got no responsibility (cloud nine)
And every man, every man, is free (cloud nine)
You're a million miles from reality, reality
I wanna' stay up higher, higher
Up, up, up, up and away, cloud nine.
until you came into his life.
you showed him how to face situations.
you showed him emotions.
you showed him how to understand humans.
you stood up for him.
you spent your time teaching him new and good things.
I wanna' say I love the life I live
And I'm gonna live, the life I love
Or be on cloud nine
I, I, I, I, I, I'm ridin' high on cloud nine
is it selfish for him to just keep you for himself?
he want's to hug you and tell you how grateful he is to you.
You're as free as a bird in flight (cloud nine)
There's no difference between day and night (cloud nine)
It's a world of love and harmony (cloud nine)
You're a million miles from reality, reality
I wanna' stay up higher, higher
Up, up, up, up and away (cloud nine)
he gets butterflies when you are around.
even after spending all day with you, he still feel lonesome when you leave.
whenever you spoke to him, he used to listen to you, forgetting everything else in the world.
he wants to sit together in lawn during rains, under a shed, amidst the scent of mud and the unusual dark sky, having a cup of hot tea together, sharing memories.
You can be what you wanna be (cloud nine)
You ain't got no responsibility (cloud nine)
Every man in his mind is free (cloud nine)
You're a million miles from reality (cloud nine)
You can be what you wanna be
he pledged to wipe your every tear, lend you his shoulders, he wants to protect you like a mother, support them in tough times.
he constantly is in the fear of losing you . he fears what might happen if he leave. that big 'What if' is looming overhead 24/7.
but in the end he only get this feeling when he's . . . .
"heh? choso-kun what happened why are you smiling watching a murder scene?"
"huh sorry──
── i spaced out."