depression stories

this is why I like the song because of you!

Has anyone ever heard because of you? I love that song so much. I know it's a love song, but I actually related to that song. That's why I like the song so much. I sing to it sometimes. I love some songs that I can relate to. It could mean something completely different. I still manage to find a way to relate to it. I have depression and I don't say anything. I don't tell many people because I'm afraid people will look at me and judge me. Sometimes I say stupid things that could get me into trouble. I have also made others around me happy even when I'm not. I have shown more of an attitude because I get irritated easily. I also hate when people say "you think you have problems others have it worse than you do". That's like telling someone you shouldn't be happy because others have it better. You know how unfair that is? To some people. What I hate is when some people compare me to other people and they judge me. That's why I don't say anything. I try to give less reasons for others to judge me. Lately I've been in that I don't give two fucks kind of mood. I hide myself more than anyone could ever know. I don't trust many people so when or if I confine in you or say I trust you. You should take honor in that because I don't confine or trust many people. You shouldn't leave once you know I trust/confine in you because that would break me down even more it would hurt me. I'm sorry if I made you feel like you had to leave I miss you. With huge deal and I wish how close we were and I wish we could be close or even closer than before again. If I talked depressing and I made you feel you had to leave I'm sorry. If you start talking to me more I promise I'll try not to I'm going to get help I'm sure you'd be proud of me. I'm planning on getting help after prom. Anyways I cry alone because I don't want people knowing. I show more attitude because then my problems are kept hidden. I'm not friends with someone because of that of what they did. They don't deserve me than can tell me a million times I'm so sorry I'll never do it again. But I wouldn't care I wouldn't trust them after that. I would say what's your point on apologizing what's done is done the damage you have caused is done and over with. Somethings can be fixable and I'll give you effort depending on how bad you hurt me. Somethings though I chose to realize that I was better off without you in my life. There's more to the original, but I'm just going to stop. Some of these from the original I changed and If you go to school with me or something hmu. If you want the original I wouldn't type it tho, but I'd give it to those who go to my school. Some of these I had more but I got upset and I through them out.