You went to see Loki in his room , you stood outside watching him , he was looking at his arms confused ...
When you walked inside he adjusted himself , set straight and smiled ...
" how are you feeling today ? " you ask him as you slowly approach him ...
" I'm better now " he says smiling ...
you sit on the chair next to his bed ...
" Stephen told me it's nothing serious , you'll be out of here by the end of the day "
" so he's a doctor in this hospital ? " Loki asks faking a laugh ...
" yes , he's the one who stitched your cuts "
" thank God we have him , right?! " he said before he took off the serum of his hand aggressively it made him bleed a little ...
You rushed to him , holding his hand ...
" be careful , please " you said as he stood watching you quietly ...
" is this love ?! " he said with a wide smile , you pulled your hands away from his and took few steps back ...
" absolutely not ... you're my client , it is my job to worry about your health " you say as he rolled his eyes ...
" why didn't you tell me ? "
" tell you what exactly ? " Loki asked you back ...
" they found an abnormal activity in your brain , which means ..."
" I know what it means ! " Loki yelled interrupting you ...
" why didn't you tell me then ? "
" it's not actually the kind of thing you be proud to tell people , Aphrodite , is it ? "
" they also found a fair amount of drugs and alcohol in your system "
" I was partying " Loki says
" oh ! I've seen the pictures , yeah " you say , Loki knew what kind of pictures you were talking about , he liked the idea that you were jealous ...
" I suppose you're going to a Psychologist , aren't you ? "
" of course , I'm ... I missed some sessions tho , but it's cool ... isn't that what you guys say it here ? - it's cool ?- " he says laughing ...
" this is not the right time to act funny , you're going to the doctor once a week , if you didn't go by yourself I'll drag you there myself " tears started to gather in your eyes , Loki's smile was gone once a tear fell rolling down your cheek ...
He walked up to you when Stephen walked inside , so he just stood in the middle of the room looking at you , apologizing with his eyes ...
" good morning " he said walking up to Loki , shook his hand then stood next to you , while Loki was standing in front of you both ...
" I'm Dr.Stephen Strange but you can call me Stephen , or Strange " he said as Loki stood watching his arms slides behind your back before he pulls you closer to him ...
You looked up to Stephen smiling then looked at Loki , you could see he seemed bothered ...
" I'm Loki but I already know you know my name , so tell me something I don't know " Loki said in a challenging tone ...
Stephen calmly smiled at Loki before he turned to you , he pulled you up to him making you stand on your tip toe
" I missed you " he said before he kissed you ...
Loki was pissed off , he looked the other way ...
" baby , do you mind leaving us alone for a moment ? " Stephen asks you still holding your face between his hands ...
" of course " you say smiling at him ...
Stephen sits on the chair across Loki's bed , he pointed at Loki to sit too ...
" she's great in bed , isn't she ? " Loki says trying to get under Stephen's nerve ...
Stephen smiles and said nothing , which made Loki angrier ...
he talked to Loki about his condition , which wasn't something new to Loki , he gave him few tips and advice , which wasn't anything he didn't hear before ...
" are we done here , I would like to go home " Loki says getting up ...
Stephen got up too , got closer to Loki who stood looking at Stephen right in into his eyes ...
" you're right , she's really great in bed , you know how I know ? " Stephen said ...
" please , tell me " Loki said tightening his eyes and crossing his arms ...
" because she rode my dick this morning " he says smiling watching Loki's smile fade away ...
" I might go visit her this evening , can't get enough of her " Stephen says winking at Loki before he walked away ...
" hey ! " Loki called for Stephen who turned to him saying nothing ...
" enjoy it while it lasts " said Loki smirking ...
" oh ! I will " Stephen said smiling before walking out of the door
Loki thought about telling him you cheated on him , but he knew if he did that he was going to lose you forever , that you will never forgive him , and for the first time , Loki actually put someone else's wishes before his own ...
Loki signed the papers Stephen left for him on the bed , changed his clothes and got out ...
The moment you saw him , you ran towards him ...
" are you leaving without me ? " you said walking beside him , he turned to you ...
" oh ! so you're done fucking him ? " Loki said before walking away leaving you standing there in the hallway ...
You didn't follow him after that , he seemed like he needed some time to calm down ...
The press was already waiting for him in front of the hospital , the moment they saw him they ran towards him blinding him with their flashes , and surrounding him ...
He seemed tired , couldn't even get through them , he did not even has his car , you were the one who brought him yo the hospital with your car ...
You walked out , stood beside him , grabbed his arm ...
He looked at you ...
" what are you doing here ? " he asked holding your hand tighter ...
" I'm taking you home " you said smiling ...
" are you guys back together ? " a journalist asked ...
" no , but we're still good friends , and we care for each other " you said pulling yourself and Loki away from the crowed , heading to your car ...
They kept asking , filming , but you kept walking before you got inside the car and drove away ...
" thank you " Loki says looking at you , you smile and say nothing , you turned on the radio to make the situation less awkward , you know he knew about you and Stephen , and it just made you feel uncomfortable ...
Loki tuned off the radio , turned to you and focused his sight on you driving ...
" I'm going to ask you this , and I'm only going to ask it once ... do you really love him ? "
You yourself don't know if you do love him , you turn looking at Loki for a moment before you run from his eyes ...
" to be honest , I don't know , Loki ... I think I do , he makes me feel good about myself and I think he's the kind of man I always wanted to be with "
" I can't say I'm happy for you " Loki says looking down ...
" I'm not expecting you to be "
" he's a good guy , I can see why you're falling for him "
Loki rests his head on the chair , opens the car's window and gets his arms out of it , touching the raindrops ...
" is that why you have so many pills ? for your ..."
" mental illness ? craziness ? sickness ? It's okay , you can say it " he says interrupting you ...
" that's not what I was going to say , Loki , I don't believe you are crazy "
You park the car in front of his yard , you found his friend Mobius waiting for him at the door ...
Loki got out of the car , walked towards Mobius who opened his arms taking Loki between them , tightly holding him and patting on his head ...
You stayed inside the car , watched them ...
" I came as soon as I heard ... I tried to call you but your phone was off "
" how did you know !? " Loki asked Mobius ...
" it's all over the news "answered him
" fuck ! "
Mobius waved at you , so you waved back ...
" come over " Mobius said inviting you with his hand ...
You got out of the car , walked towards them before you followed them inside the house ...
Loki went upstairs , said he's going to have a quick shower to get rid of the smell the hospital's bed left in him ...
It was awkward at first , you set there with Mobius alone , you both did not know what to say , not after the last time you saw each other ...
He slides a cup of coffee to you on the table as you set across him ...
" oh ! God , this is awkward " Mobius said before you look at each other for few seconds then bursts laughing ...
" Loki told me so much about you " he says , you stopped laughing and asked him what kind of things he told him ...
" well , first , he told me that you're the most beautiful girl he ever met , which is true ... you are "
You blushed , smiled and thanked him ...
" he also told me that he has feelings for you , but I suppose you already know that "
" yes , I do " you say take a sip of your coffee ...
" I suppose he told you about me too "
" kind of ... he told me that you're his best friend , his only friend and that you share a special bond "
Mobius laughed ...
" is that what he told you ? "
" yes " you said looking at around looking for Loki ...
" I love Loki , I genuinely care for him , he's my friend "
" so you guys are not a couple ? " you ask Mobius looking into his eyes , he laughs again ...
" I don't know , it depends on how you would define the word "
" are you guys in a relationship ? "
" no " Mobius answers your question .
" then you guys just occasionally ... mmm , you know , you have ... "
" sex ? " Mobius says ...
" yes "
" I'm a married man , I have three children with my wife , I love my wife , Loki is just my friend and I'm attracted to him , but not only in a sexual way , he's smart , funny , he's complicated , deep , dark and caring , just because we had sex few times doesn't mean you can define us a couple "
" what you guys are talking about ? " Loki says walking into the kitchen ...
" nothing much , we were bonding " Mobius says holding Loki's hand on his shoulder .
" oh yeah ?! " Loki says sitting next to you ...
You felt weird , sitting with them in the same room as they both were looking at you ...
" thank you for driving me home " Loki says with a weak voice ...
He seemed sleepy , tired , the bugs under eyes were almost swallowing them up , it was like he's not sleeping at all ...
" you should get some rest " you say getting up of your chair when he held your hand , you looked down at him ...
" can you stay for a little while longer ? Mobius is leaving soon to work and I do not want to be alone "
You look at Mobius for a second before you look at Loki again ...
" please " he says ...
God ! his eyes , you can never say no to him once he gives you those sad eyes look ...
" okay " you say sitting back at your chair , you knew it was a bad idea leaving Loki alone after what happened to him , but you're not so sure if staying alone with him is going to be a good one .
" well , now that you're in good hands I'm off to work " Mobius said before he grabbed his jacket and headed out ...
Loki got up too , walked him to the door and gave him another hug before he got out ...
You set alone in the kitchen for a minute , thought about the last time you were with Loki alone ...
You heard his footsteps getting closer , you felt your heart beating fast ...
Loki set facing you across the table , you tried to think about something else
" do not think about his touch , not his taste and not his co.. "
" so what are you thinking about ? " he asks interrupting your thoughts , he looks you , you almost swear he already knows what you're thinking about , he smiles , showing those perfect dimples ...
" for how long you had this condition ? " you ask him trying to get rid of those thoughts in your head ...
" I don't really remember , I was really young , they started as whispers and voices and now I'm seeing things that aren't there "
" what do you normally see ? " you ask Loki .
" they're mostly monsters , demons and shadows , I don't get why I can't have these pretty hallucinations , why they have to be dark and ugly ?! "
" are you seeing something now ? " you ask him looking around you , he smiles and looks up at the ceiling , right above your head ...
" there's something hanging from the ceiling , just above your head "
You look up frightened , there was nothing there , to you at least ...
You heard him laughing , looked at him to find him pointing at you and laughing hard ...
" look at your face , you actually fell for this real easy "
" you're such a jerk ! " you said rolling your eyes ...
" don't worry , there's nothing there , not yet " he says before he started laughing again ...
" oh ! stop it "
Your phone rang ...
" it's Stephen " you said before you looked at Loki , his smile was gone , he tried to act like he's doesn't care ...
" I'll give you some privacy " he said before he went out of the kitchen ...
" hello " you said picking up
" I'm calling to ask how are you ? I saw you on the news with Loki ... are you both okay ? " Stephen asked ...
You knew why he called , he was concerned that you might be with Loki at that moment , he doesn't trust you as it seemed ...
" we're fine , I drove him home "
" are you still there , with him ? " he asked again , you remained silent for a moment , thought about lying to him but it did not feel right , so you told him the truth instead , you told him that you were worried about him , that he might have an other hallucination , that he might hurt himself again ...
Stephen didn't say anything , you could sense he wasn't okay with that , he was a man after all and he was jealous , specially that you and Loki been together before ...
" alright then , take care of yourself and I will see you later " Stephen says before he hangs up ...
You sighed , trying to get yourself to calm down , you closed your eyes , took a deep breath before you let it out ...
You turned around to find Loki standing by the kitchen's door looking at you ...
" is everything okay ? " you ask looking at him when he kept staring at you giving you this weird look ...
" I was thinking ... "
" about what ? " you ask him looking at him from across the room .
" of a way to make you remember ? " Loki says putting his both hands behind his back ...
" remember what ? what are you talking about ? "
" did I tell that I was able to make you remember me before this ? every time he hid you , I've found you and made you remember me , remember us , remember who you were , before ... before all this illusion "
Loki slowly walks towards you ...
" Loki , are you okay ? " you ask checking him , his clothes were different , his haircut , even his voice seemed a little different ...
" every time you remembered , he would find a way to wipe everything and put you into sleep again , different dream , same people ... this is the fourth time I've had to find you , and every time it gets harder , trickier and almost impossible to find you "
" Loki , I think you need to take your medicines " you say walking away from him as he continues to walk towards you ...
" do you know how long it took me to find you this time ? two years , two long years , I can't lose you again , I'm not sure I'll be able to find you again if I did , so please remember me , remember your people , they need you , remember me ... I need you "
" is this another one of your funny pranks ? You ask him , Loki stands right in front of you , looks into your eyes and smiles ...
" I almost forgot how beautiful you are , so beautiful , so pure , so lovely ... I've missed you , I'm missing you , every day without you feels like hell , I want you back , I want to fulfill my promise to you , remember ? the one I made you before I leave to Asgard ? do you remember that ? "
He gently places his hand on your cheek ...
" Loki ! " you say looking at his eyes ...
" shush ! it's going to be okay , just look at me , look at my eyes , I'm going to take you home , soon ... trust me and close your eyes close for a moment "
You look at his eyes , the tears gathering inside them , he's sad , his eyes are sad , a tear fell rolling down his cheek ...
" why are you crying ? " you ask him wiping his tear with your hand ...
" I'm just happy I found you again " he says hugging you tightly , you hold him between your arms , warp your them around his neck as he leans to warp his around your waist ...
" it's going to be okay " you whisper into his ear as you slowly run your fingers through his hair ...
Suddenly you felt a sudden pain in your right side , you pulled away from Loki when you saw him holding a dagger in his hand ...
The blood was dripping from it , drop by drop ...
" I'm sorry , I'm really sorry , but it's the only way " Loki said crying , watching the shock in your face ...
" Loki ! Loki ... what's going on ? " you ask him ...
" you're fine , you're going to be fine , it will all be over soon " he says hiding his dagger ...
You felt your side , brought back your hands covered in blood ...
You walked backwards when you saw him walking towards you again ...
" stay away from me " you spoke with a short breath ...
" it's going to be okay " Loki said looking at you , you leaned on the chair but ended up falling on the kitchen's floor ...
You lied down on your back , looking at the ceiling , Loki set on his knees next to you , took you in his arms , looked at your eyes as you looked into his ...
You felt yourself getting weaker , you could barely breath , your eyes got heavier , you were struggling to keep them opened ...
" wh. w.. why ?! " you asked Loki as a tear fell from your eye ...
" it's okay , just let go , baby ... let go " Loki said wiping that tear away ...
" just close your eyes and go to sleep " he said kissing your forehead ...
You felt your heart slowly stops beating , Loki's face was the last thing you saw before you gave up and closed your eyes ...
Loki set in a pool of blood holding your body ...
His hot tears fell on your bloody face , he held you close to his heart , buried his face in your neck ...
" I will see you soon " he said before he gently put your body on the ground , took another look at you before he walked out of the kitchen .