Zara's pov
I wake up the next morning with me clinging onto Enzo
Shit...last night
Suddenly everything comes back to me.
The panic attack, Enzo helping me with it, be not wanting to leave him, then him letting me stay with him
God, I'm falling for him. And I can confidently say that
I am still too scared to tell him about my parents and everything, but I don't wanna lie to him
But I'm also not ready, I just hope he understands that
He stirs in his sleep and starts waking up
"Good morning," he says in a very sexy morning voice
Shit I need to be quiet, my brain doesn't know how to chill
"Morning" I whisper
"Are you okay?" He asks
"Yeah, thank you for everything you don't know how much it means to me," I say trying not to cry thinking about how amazing he is
"Do you wanna talk about it?" He asks
"I'm sorry I'm just not ready," I say voice a little shaken
"Hey," he says grabbing my chin gently so I can look at him in the eye "don't be sorry okay,When you are ready we can talk about it"
"Thank you" I whisper
"It's not anything I did or any of us right?" He asks
Wait? He thinks he did something wrong, great now I'm gonna cry
"No definitely not anything any of you did," I say shaking my head
"Okay, let go eat some breakfast," he says
We now just finished eating breakfast, at breakfast I had to make sure to tell him that it's not because of them once again and that it's complicated and more something with my past and that I promise I'll tell him when I'm ready
And then I realized that it's December and there are no decorations or a tree in this house.
"Hey why don't you have anything Christmasy in your house," I say laughing
"Well I haven't had any time to get a tree or anything, I'll probably have people go out and buy everything in a couple of days or something " he shrugs
WHAT...Does this man not understand half of the experience is walking around picking it yourself.
"WHAT, But it's so much fun picking it out and stuff, wait don't you have work off today?" I ask smiling
"Yeah...I don't have work today" he says rolling his eyes
He looks me in the eye and sees by the expression on my face what I am thinking of
"Get Mia ready and we will pick the tree and everything together" he rolls his eyes slightly smiling
"THANK YOU" I jump from my seat, quickly kiss him on the cheek and go to get Mia ready
And only when I get to Mia's room do I realize I kissed Enzo's cheek...without even thinking about it, it just felt so natural to do
Meh oh well...I don't regret it I would've don't more than a kiss on the cheek to thank him for last night
We're now walking around trying to pick a tree
"OOOOOO that one!" Mia points to a cute little tree
"Sweetie that one's too small," Enzo says
"But it's so cute" Mia huffs
"Why don't you put that one in her room" I whisper in his ear
"I guess"
At some point, while looking for trees Enzo and I ended up holding hands
I don't know how it happened but I don't mind
Whatever happens with me and Enzo feels so natural
He makes me feel happy, safe, special and so much more And I haven't even kissed the man yet
After about 3 hours of walking around, we got our trees and we're heading to go buy decorations and whatnot
"We should get gifts for all the bodyguards and maids and whatnot" I smile up at Enzo
He chuckles "alright but you're picking out what to get them," he says
"Deal"
After hours and hours of shopping for decorations and gifts for people who work at our house we finally drive back home
I also bought a gift for Ava and Matteo as well.
We're setting up the trees, we got 3
One will be the main one in the living room, another one is gonna be in mias room, then one's going in the library
Enzo's having people hang up lights outside the house while we decorate the inside and it's looking absolutely beautiful, Christmas is the best holiday
It's so cozy and happy
Mia and I are decorating the tree while Enzo's hanging up lights and things high we can't reach
Mia wanted us to make cinnamon rolls so Enzo told us to go do that while he finishes up
Enzo's pov
I've never had that much fun shopping for damn Christmas stuff, Zara makes anything a good time
I'm falling for that girl and falling hard
I'm even hanging up shit for her
But somehow enjoying it all...
What is she doing to me
I just finished the last decorations I needed and it officially looks like Christmas threw up in here and as Zara said 'if it doesn't look like Christmas threw up all over your house then you're doing it wrong'
So damn right we made it look like Christmas threw up all over our house
I'm going to the kitchen to see Zara and Mia making cinnamon rolls while singing Christmas songs
My 2 girls
They're both the best things to happen in my life
Just seeing them both laughing and singing to Christmas songs while making cinnamon rolls is the best sight to see
I've never been this happy before
"Daddy are you gonna stand there or are you gonna help" Mia says giggling
"I think I'll stand here and look at you too a little longer, " I say laughing
"Le mei due ragazze," I say under my breath chuckling lightly ( my two girls)
"Come and help us, daddy," Mia says
I chuckle "I'm coming sweetheart"
I put my hands on Zara's waist while I move in between her and Mia, and I notice Zara takes a quiet intake of breath and it makes my heart squeeze at the thought she feels the same way about me
And the we make cinnamon rolls while I listen to my 2 girls singing their hearts out to Christmas music and realize for once in life, I genuinely am enjoying a holiday
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