Today is the big day.
I'm getting fucking married.
I haven't seen Amara all day and I miss her like crazy. I can't wait to see her in her wedding dress though. I can already picture how beautiful she'll look walking down the isle.
"Extra security is put around the place. Still no sign of him." Pietro sighed from beside me in the car. I told him to put extra guards around the venue because we still don't know where the fuck Alessiandro is.
Yesterdays 6 hour meeting was making sure my men were prepared for anything he could do.
It's a real fucking shame my girls father won't be there to walk her down the isle all because of his own stupidity.
"Thanks." I mumbled, fiddling with the Amara's ring on my chain. I want to see her so fucking bad.
"No problem man. I'm really happy for you." Pietro smiled at me as the driver parked the car.
I looked over at him, "Thanks for everything. I appreciate it more then you know."
Although this fucker pisses me off at times, he's still my best friend. He's been here with me since the beginning and I'm grateful I have him.
His smiled widened, "Alright don't go all sappy on me." He chuckles as he gets out of the car.
My lips tugged at the corners slightly as I got out of the car. We finally made it to the wedding venue. The ceremony starts in a couple of hours but I wanted to make sure everything was perfect before Amara got here.
I got my suit out of the car and walked into the building. Amara picked out the venue since I didn't know what the fuck I was doing.
It was the ball we first met in. Expect this time tables had starbursts in mini bowls.Fairy lights hung around the place creating a warm glow to the room. We went with a gold and white theme so there are gold flowers on the tables along with a band at the side. A bar was at the back near the corner.
We're going to the altar after this so I decided to get change here since my men are still setting up at their stations.
I walked through some doors then down to the room at the end. Soon as I locked the door, I quickly got changed into my black tux. After changing I put on my gold watch and fixed up my hair a bit. Inhaling a deep breath, I looked at my reflection in the mirror as I adjusted my black bow tie.
Once I was done, I walked back out to find Pietro tying his shoe laces on one of the chairs. He was wearing a black tux with a gold tie along with Rowan and Raf.
"Looking good." Pietro looked me up and down as a smirk grew on his fugly face. Why is he like this?
"Do you want me to kick you in the arse?" I narrowed my eyes at him.
"I'm telling Amara." He sighed and wiped the fake tear from his eye.
"Tell her and I'll break your jaw." I glared at him.
Not that I'm scared of a 5'6 girl or anything.
"So kind." He gave me a smile and sat down in the chair after tying his shoe.
I rolled my eyes at his stupid comment and sat down in the other seat, pulling out my phone.
Me: I miss you.
Amore🤍: good ❤️
Me: Fuck off ❤️
Amore🤍: no ❤️
Amore🤍: I want to see ur fugly face 🥺
Me: I want to see yours 🥺
Amore🤍: rude 🖕
Amore🤍: I love you, I have to go <3
Me: I love you. Text me if you need anything.
Amore🤍: will do
I sighed putting my phone away as I run a hand through my hair.
A few more hours.
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"Everything clear?" I asked Pietro as we walked to the entrance doors of the altar.
"We're clear." He nodded his head in confirmation as we stood in front of the entrance doors.
Everyone was already waiting on the other side of the doors and to say I'm shitting myself is an understatement. It's my wedding day and I'm fucking nervous. Fuck.
"Dude relax, alright?" Pietro chuckled from beside me, "I'll see you on the other side."
I nodded my head in response and checked to see if my gun was in my waistband. Which it was thankfully.
I inhaled a deep breath as soon as Pietro left. I shoved my hands in my pocket at the entrance doors opened. Everyone turned in their seats to look at me as I walked into the altar. Mafias I have alliances with sat in the rows along with Damon and Luca. Pietro, Rowan and Raf were standing next to the priest as well as Valentina and Fatijma.
I unbuttoned my suit jacket and walked to where the priest was. As soon as I stood in my place Pietro leaned in to whisper into my ear. "Breathe man."
Stupid ass. I am fucking breathing.
"I am you moron." I whispered yelled and shot him a glare.
"You're literally sweating my guy, take deep breaths." He handed me a tissue so I took it.
Since when?
I calmed my racing heart down a bit by taking deep breaths.
Soft melodies began to fill the air as everyone stood up from their seats. I lifted my head up just as the entrance doors opened, revealing the most beautiful sight I've ever seen.
My Amara.
Her white dress flowed down to the ground as she walked into the room with that gorgeous smile on her face. My breath was caught in my throat at the sight of her as my mouth parted slightly. A smile grazed my lips when our eyes connected. It felt the whole world stopped around me and the only thing I could focus on was her.
Here she is in all her fucking yellow, lightening up my world effortlessly.
Her mother was walking her down the isle and as soon as she reached us, Elena leaned into my ear so I bent down a little.
"You have my daughters heart. Don't break it please." She leaned back and looked at me with pleading eyes yet her smile was still evident.
I nodded my head in response as she gave me Amara's hand. I helped her up the step and immediately wrapped my arms around her waist as soon as she was in front of me.
"You look breathtaking, amore mio." I quietly whispered into her ear.
"Me? Look at you." She whispered back as her eyes trailed down my attire.
I smiled shaking my head as the priest began to speak.
"You may say your vows."
"Xavier," Amara sighed with a smile on her face, "I know we haven't met each other under the right circumstances but my God am I grateful that we did. You deserve so much more than the life you was given and I promise to give you the one that you deserve. Sei il mio inizio, la mia fine. Il mio cuore la mia anima. Il mio amore il mio tutto." She said so only I could hear her. She reached up and cupped my cheeks, using the pad of her thumbs to wipe away the tears from my eyes.
(You are my beginning my end. My heart my soul. My love my everything)
No one has ever looked at me the way she is now. With so much fucking love and happiness.
I stared into her hazel eyes with a smile on my face as I cupped her cheeks. I leaned my forehead against hers before speaking so only she could hear. "I'm sorry I'm not good with words," Her smile widened which relaxed my racing heart, "It's always been you Amara. I was just too stupid to realise it at the start. You are the light in my fucked up world. You are the reason I smile. You were there when I needed you the most and I'm forever grateful to have someone like you. I love you with every bone in my goddamn body because you're my everything."
I wiped the tears that slipped from her eyes with the pad of my thumbs as she wrapped her arms around my neck.
"Rings please." The priest spoke.
Pietro handed me the ring and Valentina handed Amara hers.
"Do you, Xavier Hernandez, take Amara Sànchez as your lawful wedded wife,to have and to hold, from this day forward, for better or for worse, for richer or for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and cherish until death do you part?"
"I do." I smiled down at her as I slipped the ring on her finger.
"Do you Amara Sànchez take Xavier Hernandez as your lawful wedded husband, to have and to hold, from this day forward, for better or for worse, for richer or for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and cherish until death do you part?"
"I d-"
A gun shot rang through the hall.
Loud screams echoed into the hall as people ran in terror.
I turned around to see her father with a gun in his hand staring at us with a sinister smirk on his face, "This is my fucking revenge."
Guards tackled him to the ground as my anger fuelled at the sight of him being here. I should've fucking known. God I'm so stupid. Of course he's here.
A weak voice called out from behind me making my heart drop.
"Xavier?" Amara's hoarse voice called out from behind me.
Quickly, I turned around just as she looked down towards her chest with wide eyes. I followed her gaze to find blood seeping through her white wedding dress.
My face went as pale as hers at the sight.
Please no. Not again.
Everything seemed to go by in slow motion, the ringing in my ears never ending as I watched her body fall slowly.
"No," I muttered in disbelief, staring at her in shock, "no no no."
Without wasting any time, I rushed over to her side just as she was about to hit the fall. Her body fell limp in my arms as she desperately tried to get air into her lungs. I applied pressure to her wound as tears fell from my eyes at the sight of the love of my life.
"Fuck Amara! Stay with me baby," I sobbed, my voice pleaded for her to stay as I kept her head up with one of my hands. Blood stained my other hand as it seeped through her white wedding dress.
Her eyes became hazy as her face became paler, "Keep those fucking eyes open," My teary eyes met her almost lifeless ones, "Please I've got you," I rested my forehead against hers, my tears falling down onto her pale cheeks. She has to be okay. I love her. I can't lose her. This isn't how it ends. I need her. "You'll be okay-"
"Zay," Her weak voiced called out to me as she shakily reached up to cup one of my cheeks. Her hands were cold to the touch as they met my skin, "It's okay," She smiled weakly at me, wiping away the tears from my eyes only for more to come out, "It's okay." She weakly reassured me. She was the one reassuring me because she knew everything was coming to an end.
It's not okay. It'll never be okay without her.
I shook my head frantically, "I can't do this without you, please," I sobbed helplessly, holding her fragile body close to mine, "I love you, Amara," Tears blocked my vision but I didn't care. All I wanted was her.
She is the one who loved me unconditionally when I thought no one else could. She is the one who put me back together when my world came apart 5 years ago but now it's happening again. She is the love of my life. I can't lose her again. I love her too fucking much to let her go.
It's her. Always has been always will be.
We stared at each other, tears filling both of our eyes because we knew this is the end. No matter how much we didn't want it to be, fate had other plans. This isn't fair.
She coughed up some blood before her weak voice spoke, "I love you but y-you have to l-let me go." She breathed out as blood dripped down the corners of her mouth, "I'll c-come back to you this time mi amore." She shakily held up her pinkie so I quickly intertwined mine with hers as we kissed the top of it with tears falling down our cheeks. Our unspoken promise.
"This was suppose to be forever Amara please don't leave." I croaked out weakly , watching her slip away from me. "Y-you promised."
"I k-know... I wish I could stay but it's getting hard to b-breathe. Keep holding me in.. in your arms." She breathed out.
I want to take her pain away. I want to keep her here with me forever. I can't though. She knows. I know.
"Always baby. I wish we had more time." I choked out as I held her closer to me like she wanted.
"In.. In another lifetime." She breathed out as her trembling lips kissed my forehead three times. I kissed hers three times as my eyes burned with heartbroken tears.
My heart shattered with each word that came out of her mouth. It shattered when I no longer felt her hands against my cheek. It shattered as I watched the love of my life slip away from me. It shattered when I could no longer hear her breathing.
She once told me that she loves stories.
So she became a permanent part of mine.
But this is the last chapter.
The ink is drying up and the paper is running out.
Then her hazel eyes fell shut for the last time. Hazel eyes that I'll never get the chance to see again. Hazel eyes that I fell in love with the moment they met mine.
She gave me one last beautiful dimpled smile as her cold hands fell limp from my cheek making me cry out in pain, "Amara! no no no no please!" I desperately tried to shake her awake but deep down I knew she was never coming back. Deep down I knew she was gone.
Forever.
The love of my life is gone.
Our promise is broken but then again promises are meant to be broken.
God, I was so stupid to think I could have a happy ending. Such a fucking fool.
"No, please!" I held her close to me as I screamed out in pain.
She's gone.
Pietro came up from beside me and placed a hand on my shoulder as he sniffled. "Let her go. It's what she wanted." He choked out weakly.
I buried my face into her cold neck and cried into it. Her giggles would normally fill my ears whenever I did but now I can't hear anything.
Her voice.
Her laugh.
Her giggles.
Her heartbeat.
I can't hear anything.
So I let her go...I let Amara go.
I stared down at her dead body with tears silently falling down my face as my jaw clenched knowing that she wasn't coming back to me this time. I kissed her pale forehead with my trembling lips before gently laying her down on the floor.
Valentina came over and placed her hand over my shoulder as soon as I stood up. My teary eyes met hers before I wrapped my arms around her gently, letting her sob into my chest, "I'm sorry," I whispered weakly to her.
She looked up at me furrowing her eyebrows as she sniffled, "What?"
I unwrapped my arms from her, leaving a small kiss on top of her head before walking towards the devil himself. My wife's murderer. He will fucking pay for stepping foot into this hall. He will pay for the pain he has caused us. I will make him suffer for what he did to my wife.
I can't do this without her.
I turned back towards her father who was standing there with a smirk on his face as he stared down at my wife's dead body.
Not giving him the chance to speak, I shot his head multiple times just as a sharp pain erupted in my body.
I looked down at his dead body, noticing he was holding a gun in his hands.
Then I looked down towards my chest seeing a pool of crimson blood seeping through my white shirt.
Weakly, I dropped down to my knees and fell onto my back, wincing slightly as I held my chest. Valentina and Pietro rushed over to me yelling my name but their voices were muffled. I breathed heavily, watching their blurry faces come closer to me. "Listen.. take care of my sister." I whispered out to Pietro as my eyes became heavier and heavier.
"Fuck man, I promise. I'll protect her with my life." Tears fell from his cheeks as he kneeled down beside me.
"No no no Xav! I can't lose you too!" Valentina sobbed into my chest as she tried to stop the bleeding.
But it was too late.
I gave them one last weak smile before my eyes became heavy as they fell shut.
The hand on my chest fell limp as my head dropped, letting the darkness consume me one last time.
I knew loving you would be the death of me.
You made me feel as if my heart was finally complete, but you left taking every piece.
Once again I was left broken.