Ugly that's what you make me feel
with every look and glare
and yell as you stare at me with disgust
it hurts me so much
I wish I was enough
I wish I was someone you were proud to call your daughter
but no
instead, you'd rather I starve myself than eat so I don't look that way
and god does it hurt
when you call me names
and hurt me with your words and hands
instead of using them to hold and love me
but it's the way that you are
yet despite all the ways, you've hurt me
I still yearn for you to love me
I wish I was enough
but I guess I'm not,
I hate you
I hate you for the pain
I hate you for making me feel unimportant or loved
I want someone to love me
and I have people who love me
but none of them are you
or my family
and it hurts
but that's the way that it is
and that's the way it'll always be
because I can't change the way you perceive me
even if you think I'm ugly
even if you make me feel ugly
you aren't supposed to judge me
I am a part of you
and yet you still do this to me
fuck you
fuck you for making me hate who i am
fuck you for making me have to protect who i am
fuck you for not letting me love who i am
fuck you for making me think the worst of who i am
fuck you for making me ugly :)