A/N: i know y'all are probably wondering, "author 🙄 where 🤔 is😔the😱smut😏?" well...
(lines indicate where the smut starts and finishes, remember this for future chapters:)
"I fucking love you!" Xavier yelled over the rain, the droplets dripped from his lips as he spoke.
I love him.
He loves me.
No words left my mouth since I was still in a state of shock not believing that this man loves me back.
"Say something please." He pleaded as the rain became heavier and heavier.
"Fuck it." Then I gripped onto his collar, smashing my lips against his. He immediately responded by wrapping his arms around my waist, deepening the kiss. My hands made their way to his wet hair, lightly tugging on it as his tongue slipped into my mouth. One of his hands made their way to the back of my neck so he could push me further into the kiss.
"I love you. You drive me insane but I love you." I breathed out as soon as we pulled away. "I'll never leave you idiot."
"Promise?" He whispered loud enough for me to hear. "Promise." I held out my pinkie as he wrapped his around it before bringing it up to his lips to kiss it. I did the same which made him smile widely at me.
He leaned his forehead against mine, smiling down at me as he held me close to his wet body, "I love you. So much." He whispered, repeatedly kissing my lips which made me laugh slightly.
"I'm sorry I didn't tell you the truth before. I was just scared that you didn't feel the same way and you would've left me instead. You're worth more than a fucking deal Amara." Xavier mumbled against my lips as a smile spread across them. His words reassured me. I meant more than a deal to him.
"You were scared?" I furrowed my eyebrows. He nodded his head in response before burying his face into my neck, tightening his grip around my waist. "I love you." He mumbled into my neck as he placed small kisses onto it.
I'll never get tired of hearing him say that. Just knowing he feels the same way makes me feel happy. He makes me happy.
"I love you." I whisper softly into his ear, feeling him smile against my neck. He unexpectedly lifted me into his arms so I wrapped my legs around his waist as he carried me back inside the house thankfully because I'm freezing my tits off out here.
Then my mind drifted off to my father. Wondering how he could such a thing. Wondering why he would sell me for money. He fucking sold me. Bastard. My father was never the type of man do something like this but money changes people. It fucks with your head, drowning you in a pit of selfishness.
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As soon as we got back inside, Xavier carried me to his room. A surprise yelp left my lips when he threw me onto the bed. His lustful eyes never left mine when he began pulling his wet shirt off his head, revealing his sculpted abs as he climbed onto the bed. Wetness drenched my panties when he harshly connected our lips together.
Xavier gripped onto my shorts waistband before roughly pulling them off, leaving me in my lacy underwear. I reached down to palm his dick through his sweatpants, eliciting a low groan to my ear from him. He let out a deep breath when I looked up at him as his darkened eyes met mine whilst I licked my lips. He bit on my bottom lip before releasing it as he slipped out of his grey sweatpants, leaving him in his black briefs and revealing his toned thighs.
"I want you so fucking bad." He breathed out, leaning his forehead against mine. I want him. All of him. "Now I can have you."
He then reached over to the nightstand, grabbing a condom packet. "Is this okay?"
"Yes." I breathed out so he smiled before he placed a gentle kiss on my lips. I love him.
He ripped the condom open with his teeth before throwing the empty wrapper away. Xavier took his boxers off, slipping the condom onto his dick. My eyes travelled down to his hardened dick knowing damn well this shits gonna hurt like a motherfucker. He tilted my chin up with his finger as a sexy smirk made it's way onto his lips which only made me clench my thighs more, needing some way to ease the tension between my legs.
After taking my underwear off, Xavier held onto my hips so he could align his dick to my entrance. I looked up at him, feeling my nerves creep up inside of me. When he sensed my gaze, he leaned his forehead against mine as he placed soft kisses onto my lips. Kisses that eased the nervous tension I was feeling.
"I love you." With one last kiss to my lips, he moved his hips forward and I was met with a fucking chainsaw to my pussy.
"I love you." I panted out as a gasp left my lips from the size of him. I held onto his shoulders tightly with my eyes screwed shut. Tears fell from the corner off my eyes as Xavier waited for me to adjust to him.
"I'm sorry," His voice came out strained as he breathed out against my lips kissing the tears that fell onto my cheeks,"fuck. I'm sorry."
Slowly, I opened my eyes to see his arms caged beside me with his jaw clenched as his eyes were closed. His cold chain brushed against my nose, causing goosebumps to crawl up my skin. My hands reached up to trail my fingers through his messy curls. Hooded eyes met my tear filled ones as I wrapped my legs around his waist.
"You can move." I breathed out after adjusting to his size. The pain was replaced with pleasure when he began thrusting his dick inside my pussy slowly. He buried his face into my neck letting out a small moan as the sounds of our skin slapping against each
other echoed through the room.
"Shit, you feel so fucking good baby." He panted out, placing small kisses on the side of my neck. All I could do was moan in response as his thrusts deepened slightly.
More moans left my mouth when he gripped onto the back of my thighs as his slow thrusts quickly turned into rough and fast ones. My whimpers filled the room as Xavier took me the way he wanted too. "Look at you, taking my dick like the good slut you are." He groaned as he repeatedly hit a spot in me that caused me to scream in pleasure. His words made my pussy tighten around his dick. My hands went to his stomach, in attempt to slow down him down which only made him go harder. "Move your hands away. Don't make me punish you." His hands made their way to my waist to lift me a little so now his dick hit my G spot perfectly with each hard thrust.
"You're so fucking tight." He moaned as his hands moved down from waist and towards my swollen clit to rub it whilst he continued fucking me hard. The feeling of his dick pounding into me along with his fingers rubbing my clit only sent me closer to the edge. Xavier could feel my pussy tighten around him, begging to cum as he grunted, "Cum on my dick slut." He commanded as his thrusts got faster and harder. One of his tatted hands went to my neck, chocking me and that was all I needed as I came with a loud scream. My moans of pleasure and his grunts filled the room as I came on his dick, shaking slightly.
He slowly pulled out causing me to wince slightly as he got off the bed. After cleaning himself up, Xavier picked me up from the bed so he could carry me to the bathroom.
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"Some of my men are coming over for drinks." Xavier grumbled from beneath me. He has his head rested on my stomach,watching a basketball game on the TV as I mindlessly run my fingers through his hair.
I'm currently reading on our bed after waking up despite Xavier's complaints of me not giving him enough attention. I literally spend hours with this man a day so I don't know what the fuck he's talking about.
"Zay." I groaned when he put his head under my hoodie so he could lay on my chest. A girl can't read her book in peace. He's lucky I love him. "Kiss." He grumbles, pointing to his lips as he leaned his head up to my lips. His head was poking out my hoodies neck hole so he looks funny from this angle.
Sighing, I placed my book to the side before giving him what he wants as a smile grazed our lips. "I love you pretty boy." I repeatedly kissed his lips as a slow dimpled smile spread across them. I'm gonna make sure he knows just how much I love him because he deserves that and more.
He took his head out of my shirt before attacking my face with soft kisses making me let out a small giggle, "I," Kiss. "love," Kiss. "you," Kiss. "more." Kiss.
My heart fills with genuine happiness. Happiness I've never felt before. I didn't even realise how unhappy I really was. Not until him.
"No." I shook my head, glaring at him.
"Yes ma'am."
"No sir."
"Yes ma'am."
Before I got the chance to respond to him, there was a knock at the door which made Xavier groan loudly. Drama queen. My laughter echoed through the room when he pulled the bed covers over his head, pulling me towards his chest.
"Come in." I called out to whoever was on the other side of the door as I tried to free myself from Xavier's fucking death grip but eventually I gave up. Such a clingy little shit. I love him though.
A maid timidly stepped into the room, slightly trembling for God knows what reason, "Ma'am there are some gentlemen downstairs." She spoke quietly, avoiding eye contact with me.
"Oh thanks," I squinted my eyes slightly so I could read her name tag, "Mary, tell them we're on our way." Note to self, remember her name for future purposes. I smiled at her so with a nod and a small smile of her own, she left the room.
Well we would be down sooner if somebody-
cough- Xavier wasn't such a big baby. Seriously, I question how this fucker runs a whole ass mafia when he's a fucking man child.
My phone pinged with a message so I unlocked it as Xavier pulls the covers off his head.
🥧tro: Hurry tf up wanker
me: shut up we're coming
🥧 tro: Can u make cookies or some shit? I'm starving
me: if u buy me the ingredients
🥧tro: Deal
"Let's go fucker." I got off the bed, shaking slightly for some reason and began walking to the bedroom door. Chucking lightly, Xavier put on his shirt and followed me out the door.
"You did this." I pointed to my shaking thighs, glaring at him.
"And I'll do it again." He threw an arm around my shoulder, setting my cheeks on fire as we walked into the living room to find everyone playing cards.
Nicks gaze stayed on me longer as I sat down on a bean bag but I chose to ignore him. Fucking weirdo. Xavier began shuffling the cards apparently because Rowan can't do it correctly. I watched him with a smile on my face as he expertly shuffled the cards in his tatted hands. His rings glistened under the living room light as his veins bulged with each movement he did.
Once he was done shuffling the cards, he split them between everyone. He took a seat next to me as everyone began to play so I put my feet on his lap. Xavier placed a hand on knee as he lit a cigarette with the other. I know I told him to stop because I'm genuinely concerned for his health but if it helps him then who am I to stop him?
I sat there in silence letting them play their game as I scrolled through my phone mindlessly.
A/N: i'm sorry that was so fucking bad 🏃🏻♀️💀