[Chapter 𝟧]
Some months passed after we came from the business trip. Sheila and I had more frequent communications, and she liked talking to Allen and Eulia.
I had already explained to her about Rafael, and she said the same thing grandma said.
''Why don't you guys get married?'',
''What an idiot you are Sheila sometimes.'',
''I know- Wait what? I am not an idiot.''
Allen came in and took the phone going back to his room to speak with his aunt.
It was night and my mind couldn't stop thinking about him.
How I missed his touch, his arrogance, his cold aura. I hated myself for it. I was torn by the two sides that fought endlessly in my mind.
I knew Allen will ask about him one day, but I wasn't prepared for what I would say. I had an idea and was sure that Sheila had already told him who his father was, without the details between us.
Allen didn't seem interested in him, but I knew he wanted to know who his father was. Such a filial child.
He put me above everything else. He had already mastered the languages he was studying and for a five-year-old, he was already in his third grade.
The doctor said that he'd end school at his thirteen or fourteen. I was always happy with him, I loved him, and he made me want to live. I wasn't going to lose him.
I had to become stronger. I thought about the first night Damian and I had sex. I could still feel the hatred, loathing, and pure lust.
Just like the other times, his eyes were fiery and cold at the same time. How he lost control when he was with me. His commands and every punishment I got for not obeying him. I think I missed him, that thought was really scary, I shut everything down. It was my 20th birthday.
I was feeling lonely. I just wanted a blasphemy. Someone to get me out of my mind. It was time to go find another man for this night.
The past years were so moody, I had everyday sex, but still, nothing was like what Damian was doing. I was getting myself ready to go to a club. I put on a glamorous top with black leather pants and black high stilettos. I just wanted out of my bullshit.
I wanted out of my mind, only by having sex with another would that be possible, even if it was for a little time. I reached the club, I was popular, and couldn't go to just any club anymore.
All businessmen and businesswomen that wanted their privacy went to 'The Chase', it was the most popular club or the highest status. I showed them my member car, but it wasn't needed I went there two to three times every week.
I sat down at my exclusive booth and ordered my whiskey double.
''Keep it coming''
I added.
Time passed, and I just watched other people dancing, kissing, and making out. Yes, there were lots of people looking at me but I wasn't in any mood after the third drink.
I just sat there staring at them blankly. In the background the DJ put on -No guidance- by Ayzha Nyree, it was slowed and revered.
''Miss Kappa, this is only for you to dance,''
she said on the mic.
She and I were friends, you can say, we had fucked too many times. I liked her, it would be the both of us, or other people too. She smirked at me, and everyone else stepped down.
~BEFORE I DIE, I'M TRYNA FUCK YOU, BABY~
I started before the song itself did.
''AYYY''
the DJ yelled on the mic.
~HOPPEFULLY WE DON'T HAVE NO BABIES~
I sang aloud again and then the song was playing. The stage was all mine, men and women were looking at me with lust, I was used to it by now. I felt sad, that I ended up this fucked up. I just wanted to forget and dance.
~I don't even wanna go back home~
I twirled and glance at one of the men. He whistled at me. The song continued, as I did with my dance.
~Hopefully you don't leave on your own.~
the song repeated itself more than once, I was happy about that. The noise people were doing was too loud, the guy from the V.I.P lounge came down to see what was going on. I didn't know who it was, I could only see a shadow coming down the stairs.
I didn't care I just dance to the rhythm. Half of the people here were wearing masks so did I. The man watched me for a while, I just ignored him, but knew who I'd spent the night with by then. I danced sensually for him to see, never catching his eyes.
After some time, he appeared behind. He put his hands at my waist and slowly guided me to a slow dance-Gangsta- by Kehlani was on now.
I traced my hand over his face. I used him as my tool of dance.
Twirl, push slow rub. I knew what I was doing. I turned at some moment, lifting his chin, and after that, I put my hands on his neck.
He grabbed my waist pulling my body closer to his.
''Easy there, gangsta. Don't bite off more than you can chew.''
I whispered in his ears. He turned a little stiff after hearing my voice, I didn't understand why, but he quickly changed to a sensual dance again.
~I'm fucked up. I'm black and blueee~
I sang the song.
~I'm good on that pussy shitt~
we were dancing for almost two hours. I didn't know why this had me this messed up.
But I had a purpose here, hit and run.
''I am not playing here. But don't take it too seriously either. It seems we have more business after don't we?''
I asked in his ear making him shiver, he closed his eyes.
This whole time, he didn't utter a single word, which was fine with me. I turned around leaving him on the dancefloor and went back to my booth.
I signaled for another bottle of whiskey. I checked my phone, I had a missed call from Rafael.
He knew where I was so he didn't insist. After some time that guy came and sat beside me. The whole club was filled up by 3:00 in the morning.
''I don't have much time here mister.''
he raised his brows.
''Let's make it quick shall we?''
he gave me a smirk and I continued.
I got up on his legs and gave him a knowing glance, he nodded amusedly. No words came from his mouth.
''I have my room here, but the thing is I am too bored to go upstairs. There are two options, we do it right here, or you carry me upstairs.''
he picked me up and I wrapped my legs around his legs.
''Fiery, I like it,''
I whispered in his ears once more.
''If you get addicted, I'd have to kill you,''
I said after he put me down in front of my room, and I opened the door.
''Clothes off,''
I ordered looking inside the room for my drink, as I know the service was put here before I came here.
''You're a usual here? Haven't seen you before.'',
''Well this place isn't really for someone who wants to be seen, is it baby boy?''
I had already put off my pants skillfully, I turned to him as I talked.
I pulled my top off.
''You just play along with me, is that okay?'',
''What if I say no?'',
I raised an eyebrow and giggled.
''Well, not many men have the guts to say no to me. But I guess you don't know me. Okay then sit on the couch.''
his clothes were off and he sat where he was.
I knew he wanted me to ride him there. I would gladly, I opened a drawer in front of him, it was filled with condoms, I took one and tore it with my teeth, smirking at him, while approaching him.
Low music in the background, drinks, a man, and the situation were what I wanted. I put the condom on his already hard dick from the dance.
''That is cute,''
I said shocked at how hard he could get so fast.
He raised his eyes at the word cute. I sat on his dick.
My pussy on his body my hands on his shoulders, he was big, too big, but my sense of pain was gone, my mind was still off. I looked straight into his eyes.
Our expressions were hard to read because of the masks, but I could still understand he liked the sudden move.
My pussy wrapped around his hardness.
He grabbed my waist and rolled his eyes. He guided me on how he liked it. I admit it felt good, unlike the others time that was just a routine.
It was probably because I was lost again and didn't think too much about it. We were there for almost half an hour, we did many positions, lying down, he on top, then I.
Standing, pinned me on the wall. It seemed he knew what he was doing. It was a good night, compared to how I had killed too many men in my bed.
Yes, I spent a lot of time thinking about having sex with them, I rarely did, I usually made it as a mission on killing our spies, so you can't say I have been active. I didn't want to admit it to myself though.
This would be the first in some time now After changing almost ten condoms we had enough. I was going to the bathroom.
''There is another bathroom there''
I pointed,
''Go take a shower and leave,''
I commanded.
I went inside and opened the hot water, it burned my skin, but I got used to it. It had been 5:30 when I finished and got dressed up.
The man was still there, sitting o the couch wordlessly. He stared at me, I wore my business suit for work, and a knock was heard on the door, I was sure it was Rafael.
''Come in, I'm dressed don't worry,''
I said mockingly,
he had seen me naked too many times, he got bored of it.
''You're done with your little event? Shall we go to the company?''
he asked, I gave him a look.
''I have a problem here again.''
I pointed with my eyes in the direction of the man who watched all the interaction.
''Hey man, I know she's hard to quit. I am her husband, I should know, if I don't let her out she'd probably kill me. I have no other choice man. Please understand and leave after.''
Rafael said, as always. I got my bag and went to the door,
''Oh come on Raf, Allen will kill me if I stayed here for another second.'',
''Yes, your son is a nightmare if get angry.''
We left after that. We noticed someone following with his car, but Rafael was too well trained for this. We reached the company and started working.
The day passed naturally.
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