Jennie's POV
My tears keep on flowing while I'm watching Bam bam playing his toys.
The scene earlier at dawn flashes back at my memory.
How she enter to Irene's car.
Are they living together now?
Or did something happen between them?
Did she fuck Irene again?
I closed my eyes.
Fuck.
Why do I need to see it?
Irene just reminded me that I'm really the other woman.
I averted my eyes when my phone beeps.
From: Doctor X,
Just in case you're still not awake from your dream with her. Come on Jennie, give me a chance again, and I'll never make you feel what she made you feel. Trust me this time.
Kai sent me a photo.
Damn.
It was Irene and Lisa while they're enjoying somewhere, I don't know where.
They look good together.
They're both smiling.
She looks delighted with her.
Maybe she wants to talk to me last night about choosing her wife.
Perhaps…
When I look at the window earlier, I noticed that her car was already gone.
I was still hoping she will come back to get it.
Making it her reason, but the reality is she just want to see me and talk to me again.
I was actually thinking about that.
But now reality slap my face.
I notice in the picture that the words were written in Thai, and so I already knew.
She's in Thailand now.
Together with her wife.
And with that thought, tears keeps flowing again.
When will it stop?
Or will it ever stop?
Irene's POV
I'm covering her eyes while we're going to our favorite place.
“Yah, you're so tall!” I protest.
“We're almost on the same height, right?” She's laughing at me.
“Whatever.” I answered.
“Okay, close your eyes, okay? Don't cheat Lalisa!”
“Yes, Ma'am!” She answered, still her beautiful smiles all over her face.
And so, I went back to the car and get the guitar at the back seat.
I went to her front and strum it.
She then opened her eyes.
Now playing: Before I let you go
“I can still remember yesterday
We were so in love in a special way.” And so I start singing.
She's just listening to me.
Like how I listened to her before.
“And knowing that you love me make me feel oh so right, but now I feel lost, don't know what to do.”
I will surely feel lost after this night…
I only have one hour with her.
“Each and every day I think of you
Holdin' back the tears, I'm trying with all my might.”
I feel like any moment now I'm going to cry.
Her eyes are sparkling while she's listening to me.
“Because you've gone and left me standing all alone, and I know I've got to face tomorrow on my own.”
I closed my eyes.
The lyrics itself said it.
After this night, I will face tomorrow without her, without my Lili.
“But baby, before I let you go
I you.”
When I sang the word 'I love you' I open my eyes.
She's staring at me with her sad eyes now.
“I hope that you're listenin' 'because it's true, baby you'll be forever in my heart, and I know that no one else will do, yeah.”
Yes, baby, I really know.
I'm really certain that I will never love again after you.
Just like what I promise to you when we're still okay.
That I will only love Lalisa Manoban for a lifetime.
“So before I let you go, I want to say …
I love you.”
Tears are now flowing in her beautiful face.
And I can't hold back mine too.
“I wish that it could be just like before
I know I could've given you so much more.”
If only you will choose me and give me a chance again, there's still a lot of love I can give you baby.
“Even though you know I'd given you all my love.”
She chuckled a bit, understanding the lyrics.
“I miss your smile, I miss your kiss,
each and every day I reminisce
'Coz baby it's you that I'm always dreaming of.”
It was you I dream to spend my lifetime with Baby, it's you from the very beginning.
If only, if only you waited for me…
“Because you've gone and left me standing all alone, and I know I've got to face tomorrow on my own.”
She's trying to wipe her tears.
But just like mine, it keeps on flowing.
“But baby before I let you go
I want to say I love you
I hope that you're listenin' 'coz it's true, baby.”
But still, I will choose you to be happy, even that happiness doesn't include me any more Baby.
“You'll be forever in my heart
And I know that no one else will do, yeah
So before I let you go
I want to say…”
I paused for a while.
“I love you.” I whispered.
We're just staring with each other after I sang.
I wipe my tears then walk towards her.
I then wipe her tears while she keeps staring at me.
“You know what's the saddest part in our life, Baby?" I asked her.
But she just bowed her head to avoid having eye contact with me.
“I-It's when…” I paused for a while.
“Y-You say goodbye to s-someone you wish to spend your lifetime with because baby, I really want to. I want to spend my whole life with you, I still wish to end up having children with you… If only you want me too.” I whispered.
She's sobbing hard now, and so I am.
“I-I still want to fight for you, I still wish to hold on to us, to you, but then when I saw you standing at Jennie's house for 7 hours, I realized, that there wasn't reason for me to hold on to. Because a long time ago, you already did let me go.”
My heart breaks to pieces as I was saying these words to her.
“And even though I still want to, letting you go is much easier than to keep myself from holding on.”
We're both crying like hell now.
And now the rain starts pouring again.
Like it was crying for us.
Like it knows that we're bidding our goodbyes.
“Two more minutes.” I whispered.
“D-Don't move okay? Just wait until I walk away, until my car's out of your sight. Don't look at me driving miles away from you, if you do…”
“I might see myself coming back to you.” I added while hugging her.
“And by the way, I left our divorce papers to your home in South Korea. Thank you for everything, Lisa, I love you.”
She's not talking and just keep on crying.
But I know she's listening to me.
“I-I'm…” I paused for a while.
It's actually hard to say this words…
The hardest because you don't actually want this.
I don't want her gone. I don't want us done.
However if this is the only way for her happiness, if happy is her, then I'm happy for you, My monkey.
My Lili.
“I-I'm finally letting you go.” I whispered between sobs.
I then kissed her forehead before I run.
I run away from her, not minding the heavy rain that's kissing my body.
I just run and run.
Without looking back…